Sorry I am not perfect.
Sorry I cut.
Sorry I break my promises.
Sorry I want to give up.
Sorry I want to die.
Sorry I want to **** myself.
Sorry I hide my tears.
Sorry I lie and say I am fine.
Sorry I punish you with my emotions.

You like stars?
Fool.
Those are the little holes poked in the container so we can breathe.

My loved ones went away,
Only strangers came to stay.

This is not a dream,
But a nightmare,
That became reality.
Those I held so dearly,
Were taken away from me.

Those little things, I took for granted.
Those precious moments, way back then,
Are all I have to cling to.
They never seemed important then.

The dreams, we dreamed together,
Are like footprints in the sand.
The winds of change, has swept them away.
Leaving not a trace to be found.

I'm living now in silence,
With only echos from the past.
Voices in the distance,
From a heaven thats so far.

Yes, my dreams turned into my nightmares.
The hands of time are still.
Although memories will never fade.
And I know they never will.

Fake smile
Dried eyes
Scratched wrists
Bruised thighs
White pills
Rope tied
Gun loaded
SUICIDE.

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I love that 'Take out' means food, dating, and ******.

And if you're a praying mantis it can be all three at once.

Darth Vader.
But every time he breathes,
You hear a harmonica.

They're gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you, son
So they can watch all the things you do
Because the drugs never work
They're gonna give you a smirk
'Cause they got methods of keepin' you clean
They gonna rip up your heads
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the ****** machine
They said all
Teenagers scare
The living **** out of me
They could care less
As long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone
But not me
The boys and girls in the clique
The awful names that they stick
You're never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you're troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
Will make them pay for the things that they did
They said all
Teenagers scare
The living **** out of me
They could care less
As long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone
But not me
Oh yeah
They said all
Teenagers scare
The living **** out of me
They could care less
As long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone
But not me
All together now
Teenagers scare
The living **** out of me
They could care less
As long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone
But not me
Teenagers scare
The living **** out of me
They could care less
As long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone
But not me

Who says video games won't teach you important things?

Tetris taught me that trying too hard to fit in will just make you disappear.

That feeling you get
In your stomach
When your heart's broken.....
It's like all the butterflies just.....
Died.

Sometimes in order to
See the light,
You have to risk the dark.

Thoughts and memories
Locked away
Inside that room
With no key
A dark room
Hidden from view
I cannot enter
Too much pain lies within

I live outside
The darkest room
To enter
Is suicide
Bad thoughts banished
Evil things left
Inside the dark room.

The moon split in half
And the stars crumbled,
Falling like fireworks into the sea.

I watched my world
Fall apart the day
My love left me.

I'll be lost inside my head.
Bad thoughts till 4 A.M.
Then i'll try to sleep.
And I can't tell anyone
I'm so scared they'll get up and run
So I don't speak.
And oh, I miss when we were younger,
The days were so much funner.
Weren't they?
Oh, I book a new appointment...
It's another disappointment....
They're all the same same same...
When the doctor says i'm fine,
One at morning one at night,
These pills will help you remember how to smile.
But what does he know..?
Cuz I feel so alone.....
And my mom and dad both tell me "You're alright"
"Cause the doctor said you're fine."
My own mind can't lie to me.
They all say it's anxiety...
But I just think it's me.
Now iv'e lost so many years...
My pillow's a tissue for my tears....
But you never see...
And now, I can't even eat my dinner....
Mom says i'm getting thinner...
Am I?
Oh, I book a new appointment....
Yet another disappointment...
They're all the same same same.....
When the doctor says i'm fine,
One at morning, one at night,
These pills will help you remember how to smile....
But what does he know...?
Cuz I feel so alone....
And my mom and dad both tell me "You're alright...cuz the doctor said you're fine.."
But he don't care about me.....
He'll just go home to his family...
Why can no one see
I'm not the girl that I wish I could be....
Cuz the doctor said i'm fine,
One at morning, one at night,
These pills will help you remember how to smile....
But what does he know...?
Cuz I feel so alone...
And my mom and dad both tell me i'm alright....
Cuz the doctor said i'm fine.

That girl in your class
She laughs,
Her smile lights up an entire room.

That girl in your class
She has great grades,
She doesn't even have to try.

That girl in your class
She has seemingly amazing friends who care about her.

That girl in your class
She has scars,
Lines marking her body,
And friends that don't notice.
And some that don't care.

That girl in your class
Doesn't remember what it's like to not cry.
She cries herself to sleep every night.

But hey,
She smiles.
So she's okay.
Right?

Rip.

This is for the "I'm fine" girls.
The girls whose hearts are actually breaking
The girls who smile and nod
The girls who are madly in love with a boy (Or girl)
The girls who blink back their tears
The girls who secretly cry themselves to sleep
The girls who listen to sad music alone
The girls who stare longingly at couples in malls

Because despite what we tell everyone else, we are not fine.
We are not fine at all.

An old tale tells of a lady who wanders Earth.
The Lady who Knows Everything.
A beautiful lady who has found every answer,
All meaning,
All purpose,
And all that was ever sought.

And here I am,

a feather

Lost adrift the sky, victim of the currents of the wind.

Day after day, I search.
I search with little hope, knowing legends don't exist.
But when all else has failed me,
When all others have turned away,
The legend is all that remains – the last dim star glimmering in the twilit sky.

Until one day, the wind ceases to blow.
I fall.
And I fall and fall, and fall even more.
Gentle as a feather.
A dry quill, expressionless.

But a hand catches me, between the thumb and forefinger.
The hand of a beautiful lady.
I look at her eyes and find no end to her gaze.

The Lady who Knows Everything knows what I am thinking.
Before I can speak, she responds in a hollow voice.
"I have found every answer, all of which amount to nothing.
There is no meaning.
There is no purpose.
And we seek only the impossible.
I am not your legend.
Your legend does not exist."

And with a breath, she blows me back afloat, and I pick up a gust of wind.

It happened in the dead of night while I was slicing bread for a guilty snack.
My attention was caught by the scuttering of a raccoon outside my window.
That was, I believe, the first time I noticed my strange tendencies as an unusual
human.
I gave the raccoon a piece of bread, my subconscious well aware of the consequences.
Well aware that a raccoon that is fed will always come back for more.
The enticing beauty of my cutting knife was the symptom.
The bread, my hungry curiosity.
The raccoon, an urge.

The moon increments its phase and reflects that much more light off of my cutting
knife.
The very same light that glistens in the eyes of my raccoon friend.
I slice the bread, fresh and soft. The raccoon becomes excited.
or perhaps I'm merely projecting my emotions onto the newly-satisfied animal.

The raccoon has taken to following me.
You could say that we've gotten quite used to each other.
The raccoon becomes hungry more and more frequently, so my bread is always handy.
Every time I brandish my cutting knife the raccoon shows me its excitement.
A rush of blood. Classic Pavlovian conditioning. I slice the bread.
And I feed myself again.

Welcome to society,
We hope you enjoy your stay.
And please feel free to be yourself,
As long as it's in the right way.
Make sure you love your body,
Not too much or we'll tear you down.
We'll bully you for smiling.
And then wonder why you frown.
We'll tell you that you're worthless,
That you shouldn't make a sound.
And then cry with all the others,
As you're buried in the ground.
You can fall in love with anyone,
As long as it's who we choose.
And we'll let you have your opinions,
But please shape them to our views.
Welcome to society,
We promise that we wont deceive.
And one more rule now that you're here,
There's no way you can leave.

The truth is this,
Every monster
You have met
Or will ever meet,
Was once a human being
With a soul
That was as soft
And light
As silk.

Someone stole
That silk from their soul
And turned them
Into this.

So when you see
A monster next,
Always remember this,
Do not fear
The thing before you.
Fear the thing that
Created it instead.

If someone
Does not want me,
It's not the end of the world.
But
If I do not want me,
The world is nothing but ending.

Don't wait until it's too late
To tell someone
How much you love,
How much you miss,
How much you care.
Because when they're gone,
No matter how loud you shout and cry,
They won't hear you anymore.

I love lots of things.
I love the literature club.
I love reading.
I love manga.
And i love you!
I love reading together.
I love making cupcakes with you.
The way Monika looks at you breaks my heart.
It makes me feel alone.
It makes me want you more.
It makes me miss you more.
Yuri takes you away.
But it was our time to play.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
Play with me.
PLAY WITH ME!!!
******* Monikammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

I have a deep hole
Inside of my heart
Where your love should be.
I need you to feel
So this wound can heal.
This emptiness is killing me.

This is it world,
Goodbye.
Dont look for me
you wont find me. :(

Tinkerbell has always been there for Peter.
And Peter..?
He chose Wendy.

I don't know
What to talk
About.
But I
Wanna talk
To you.

"In other words, keep your bad vibes out of my cornflakes I'm not interested."

                   -Gerard Way

Twinkle twinkle little star
Let me be hit by a car
How I really wish to die
Jump off the roof and try to fly
Twinkle twinkle little knife
Help me end this wretched life

I told the genie i wanted my family to be happy.
Then I started fading.....

I'll never know why you did what you did.

We move on from
Our unicorns,
The ones that got away,
But they are never fully gone,
They are there,
Roaming in the
Grassy fields of
Our souls.

" Cut yourself"

Just a cut
Just a scratch
"What's that mark?"
"It was the cat."
Just an excuse
Just a lie
"What's with all the bracelets?"
" Just fashion, why?"
Just a tear
Just a scream
" Why were you crying?"
"Just a bad dream."
But it's not just a cut, or a tear, or a lie
It's 'just one more' until you die

If you’ve got the time to point fingers,
Then why don’t you use your head
To figure it out?

I held my breath and choked
When you walked into my life
You seemed so out of place
With your intoxicating grace
I only knew you courtesy
The corner of my eye
Now you're right in front of me
Read my poetry

Your sending subtle signals
That i'm failing to decode
Your smile makes my stomach ache
It's more than I can take
Oh, Monika you're making
All my defences erode
You've got a face like paradise
You make my blood run cold as ice

You're like a virus
Slowly infecting me
Pretty poison rushing
Through my heart
You're just a virus
I can't delete
I was falling for you
Now i'm falling apart

Everybody that I thought
I used to know
Changed overnight
And now they're getting into fights

Reality is broken
Scattered pieces on the floor
This isn't just a game
Any more

You're just a virus
Slowly infecting me
Pretty poison rushing
Through my heart
And you're just a virus
I can't delete
I was falling for you
Now i'm falling apart
And it was all over
From the moment I pressed START

Is this really what you think
It means to be in love?
I don't understand why you're
The one i'm dreaming of
You tampered with my feelings
You hacked into my brain
You've broken every rule
And only you remain

You're like a virus
Slowly infecting me
Pretty poison rushing
Through my heart
And you're just a virus
I can't delete
I was falling for you
Now i'm falling apart

And you're like a virus
Uncontrolled
A dangerous and deadly
Work of art
And you're just a virus
In my soul
I was falling for you
Now i'm falling apart
And it was all over
From the moment I pressed START.

If you say,
"Whale oil beef hooked"
Really fast,
It sounds like you're saying,
"Well i'll be ******"
In an Irish accent.

We cut and **** flowers
Cuz we think they're pretty.
We cut and **** ourselves
Cuz we think we're not.

Am I a person...
...or am I just a bunch of MCR lyrics glued together...??

It hurts the most
When the person
That made you feel wanted yesterday
Made you feel so unwanted today.

What if I told you
I want to die?
That i’m tired of living,
Of being alive?

What if I told you
It gets worse at night?
The thoughts get louder,
And nothing is right?

What if I died?
Would you even cry?
Would you even care?
If I took my own life?

When i'm sad
I don't want someone to tell me
About how "It gets better"
And that I need to "Move on"
I need someone to tell me
That it's ok to be sad
And that my feelings are validated
I don't need someone to tell me
About how much happier I could be.
I need someone to hold me
And tell me that i've been strong.
And that it's okay,
To be not okay.

Love is when you're missing some of your teeth
But you're not afraid to smile.
Because you know your friends will still love you
Even though some of you is missing.

He touched me
And it felt
As if
The stars were dancing
Across my skin

It was thrilling to hear you say my name
Not because of the way you said it
(With that voice I love so much)
Or how you said it
(Like it might shatter on your lips)
It was thrilling, because for a second
I knew I was the only thing on your mind
For a second, I knew I took up
As much space in your thoughts
As you always do in mine.

They say
'Follow your heart'
But if your heart is
In a million pieces,
Which piece do you follow?

I walk to school with my best friend
Surprise, surprise, she's late again
She's got a club she wants me in
Don't think I've ever raised a pen
I'll consider it, sure
No fan of literature
Books with less pictures than words
Leave me a little bit bored
But hey, they promised cupcakes
So it's a chance that I'll take
Four gorgeous girls await me
Okay, I think that I'll stay
Sayori's aloof and kooky
Natsuki's sweet and cutesy
Yuri is deep and brooding
Monika's brains and beauty
There's a festival needs planning
Swear I won't leave them hanging
So many clubs to rival us
I guess it's just the five of us
Just the five of us
We can make it if we try
But each day that passes by
Is tearing pages from my mind
Just the five of us
No escaping if I tried
Though these maidens might seem kind
There's something going on behind
They looked so sad and lonely
I sold my soul for poetry
This hell is members only
Why did I say Okie-Doki?
I walk to school alone again
I'm not a guy with many friends
I've got no club, I've time to spend
So I read manga and stay in
I run into Monika
Says that I should just join hers
Sounds like a club for books with words
But they need some more members
I say okay
I'll come along for just one day
But just you try and get away
When 3 gorgeous girls beg you to stay
Sa- Y oRi'S a LoOf AnD k-Oo Ky
Natsuki's a brutish cutesy
Yuri is too in to me
Monika's brains and beauty
It's almost festival time
Could say we're cutting it fine
The task may seem laborious
I wOnDeR wHeRe SaYoRi Is?
I guess it's just the four of us
Just the four of us
We can make it if we try
But each day that passes by
Is tearing pages from my mind
Just the four of us
No escaping if I tried
Though these maidens might seem kind
There's something going on behind
They looked so sad and lonely
I sold my soul for poetry
This hell is members only
Why did I say Okie-Doki
Well I'm back at school again
Monika's my only friend
Monika's my everything
My beginning and my end
Wait a second... weren't there other girls-
NO.
MoNiKa'S aloof and kooky
MoNiKa'S sweet and cutesy
MoNiKa'S is deep and brooding
MoNiKa'S brains and beauty
MoNiKa sees right through me
MoNiKa'S all that you need
MoNiKa'S all that you need
MoNiKa'S aLl tHaT yOu NeEd
I'm not an ugly guy
But I can't understand why
She'd be so utterly in love she'd leave her club mates to die
Monika's obsession is ominous to be honest
Omnipotent Goddess concocting demonic sonnets
I could delete her but I never could harm Monika
So I'm trapped here forever.
Where's my harmonica?
Never thought I'd get a girl
Literally out of this world
Guess she controls the universe
Looks like it's just the two of us
Just the two of us
In this classroom in the sky
Crimes of passion are just fine
When enacted on AI
Just the two of us
Quite a drastic pick up line
Leaving characters to die
Just to guarantee you're mine
She seemed so sad and lonely
Don't think there's any hope for me
This hell is members only
Why did I say Okie Dokie?
Why did I say Okie Dokie?
Why did I say Okie Dokie?
Why did I say Okie Dokie?
Why did I say Okie Dokie?

My grandma said that i'm wonderful,
My friends all say that i'm awesome,
My exes all called me "Beautiful",
My dad called me perfect.

But, if i'm so.....
Wonderful,
Awesome,
Beautiful,
And perfect....

Then why did they all leave me.....?

I was born.
I haven't died yet.