Don't you know how some of us feel sometimes? Don't you know what some of us do to ourselves sometimes? No, you don't know, nor would you care Some of cut, cry, try to **** or all three and more to ourselves But even if you knew you would just say aloud or flaws, Criticize our looks, Or beat us to the ground... Because that's what the world thinks of people like me They scoff in disgust of our loves and sexualities They beat us till we suffer from LIVING The one thing they WON'T do is,
E N D O U R S U F F E R I N G
"Just leave the goth chic in the back alone." "I'm. Not. Goth." "Whatever you re your a FREAK! A ******!" Then kicks me till I'm on the ground.
All because I just think dying is better, I like black, and I sing MCR and Panic!
not just any music but The music i would call my life when i was younger. there i sat, singing along to songs that made me feel like i'm not underwater again, sitting here almost 17, looking out the window thinking "man they were right when they said your worries now won't matter as much in a few years".
today i listened to music and realized i will never be that young, fresh kid who knew about life at a way too young age.
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in the title i'm not really trying to be religious lol ,,, , by "god's eyes" i mean like the eyes of the people i look up to. the eyes that got me through the hard times. idk interpret it your own way if you want
The boy bellows his sound...screams loud “come one come all the affair is now” The words the nurse said ring hollow so dead “Cancerous sores” “Carry on carry on” For he swears he’ll sleep no more Night terrors are real and if he survives the fabulous killjoys will suffer greatly...to no ones surprise
To the end with him...dead Dead he is...have you heard the news So dead...dead This is how I disappear he says The sharpest lives and the sharpest wit He welcomes you in, to a parade he claims will save us from our sins I don’t know you from Adam I don’t love you like a house of wolves In the distance I hear him He bellows his joy He tells the injured to carry on carry on I hate his voice His blackened eyes his cancerous sores Mama says sleep teenage boy Disenchanted from his famous last words To carry on carry on Blood on all the walls **** all your friends Heaven help us My way home is through you You fabulous killjoys
Every heartache breathes the pain that keeps you awake. There’s nothing left to say when every word wastes away. This tidal wave of broken dreams crumbles away like waking from a slumber, incinerating all the lives you touch like an open flame paying in tears for the anguish you sold. I hope you remember my heartbreak And carry the burden of all the broken hearts you made.
To celebrate the release of my book. I'd like to share my favorite poem from the book. For those interested it can be purchased here: https://www.createspace.com/6452927
"...And if your heart stops beating I'll be here wondering, did you get what you deserved? The ending of your life? And if you get to heaven I'll be here waiting baby, you get what you deserve. So when your heart won't take then this heart you break. Your dead..."
I can't help wondering if I will be going to ****. There's really no way to tell. Sure you can spend your life begging for forgiveness. But what makes you think it covers your sins. Almost every day I get the feeling I'm going to ****. I know why it's the reason I fell. Ascended from the good girl I was.
each night i spread my fingers longingly across the sheets, waiting for you to reach them.
i sometimes think of them as vines searching for water across the river rocks, only to fall short of the stream by a few, heartbreaking inches.
i haven't stopped hoping that you will wrap your arms around my waist in the dead of night, or your lips softly kissing my neck or cheek while i am asleep.
even though you are a hundred miles away and the closest i can get to feeling you are near is when you appear in my dreams and in my thoughts, i know that our love is like a compass, and we're getting closer every day.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SU0AH4O1HhI i love you