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2.6k · Jan 2019
What hurts the most
Sophia Jan 2019
It hurts the most
When the person
That made you feel wanted yesterday
Made you feel so unwanted today.
2.2k · Dec 2019
Until You Die
Sophia Dec 2019
" Cut yourself"

Just a cut
Just a scratch
"What's that mark?"
"It was the cat."
Just an excuse
Just a lie
"What's with all the bracelets?"
" Just fashion, why?"
Just a tear
Just a scream
" Why were you crying?"
"Just a bad dream."
But it's not just a cut, or a tear, or a lie
It's 'just one more' until you die
this poem is about me
1.9k · Nov 2019
Suicide
Sophia Nov 2019
Fake smile
Dried eyes
Scratched wrists
Bruised thighs
White pills
Rope tied
Gun loaded
SUICIDE.
1.5k · Nov 2019
In The Morning
Sophia Nov 2019
I don't pay attention to the
World ending.
It has ended for me many times
And began again in the morning.
1.4k · Mar 2019
Which one do you follow?
Sophia Mar 2019
They say
'Follow your heart'
But if your heart is
In a million pieces,
Which piece do you follow?
898 · Mar 2019
IM FINE!
Sophia Mar 2019
It's sad
Knowing that
I love others
More than
I love myself.
I hate to see others
In pain.
But when it comes to me,
"I'M FINE!"
870 · Apr 2019
Poetry
Sophia Apr 2019
P- putting words
O- on paper to
E-  express in part,
T- thoughts from me
R- right to
Y- your heart
834 · Dec 2019
Blue Eyes
Sophia Dec 2019
She wears her pain
Like an invisible cloak
You will never see it.
Except for in her eyes.
They are blue.
this poem is about myself.
775 · Jan 2019
why me?
Sophia Jan 2019
If you have to ask, "Why me?"
When you're feeling really blue.
When the world has turned against you
And you don't know what to do.
When it pours colossal raindrops
And the road's a winding mess.
And you're feeling more confused
Than you could ever express.

When the saddened sun won't shine
When the stars never align.
When you'd rather be
Hanging by your neck on a tree.
i have nothing to say here.
691 · Dec 2018
i just can't hold on
Sophia Dec 2018
Can't run from it
Always a step behind
The worst is i'm trapped
In my own mind

The end is near
I can't keep trying
Stop asking if i'm okay
I'm tired of lying

My fake smile is getting heavy
Eyes can’t hold back
My mind has won
Done living in the black

Going through the motions
It’s almost time to quit
Most fear death
But I pray for it.
I’m suicidal
683 · Nov 2019
Someone Special
Sophia Nov 2019
A special person,
A special face,
Someone I love,
And can never be replaced.
i have a special person.
601 · Jan 2019
My confession!
Sophia Jan 2019
My love for you is uncontrollable.
My feelings for you are unstoppable.
Can’t go a day without thinking about you.
Without you, i’m not complete.
When I was with you, my heart found it’s beat.

My heart was filled with joy because of your love.
You were my strength,and since I’m without you, I’m weak.
Before you came into my life I was... hopeless,lonely,sad.
When you showed up I knew you were sent to me.
You were there to cheer me up. You still are. Even if it may not seem like it.

Your smile still makes me shy,
And sometimes I wonder where you have been all this while,
But I’m just glad I managed to get you in my life... even if you don’t want to be in it....
                                    YOU USED TO FILL MY HEART WITH JOY!
This is about my ex.... and Gaven...if you are reading this like I told you to...I wish I wasn’t so scared to express my feelings... I sure as hell wouldn’t be able to on Outlook and definitely not in person....so,here you go... and if you don’t want to talk to me anymore after this I understand...it might be too awkward anyways....the truth is right here in this poem...tbh...I kinda wrote this poem for you....
551 · Jan 2019
I think i'm letting go
Sophia Jan 2019
My breathing is shallow
The air is too thin.
The demons are screaming
I think they might win.

My vision is blurry
My heart rate is slow.
No therapy can help me,
I think i'm letting go.
HELP ME!!!!!
Sophia Feb 2019
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Your blood is red,
So mine is too.
501 · Dec 2019
The World Is Ending
Sophia Dec 2019
If someone
Does not want me,
It's not the end of the world.
But
If I do not want me,
The world is nothing but ending.
500 · Dec 2019
When He Touched Me
Sophia Dec 2019
He touched me
And it felt
As if
The stars were dancing
Across my skin
471 · May 2019
All It Takes
Sophia May 2019
A pool of blood is all it takes
For someone to realize they made a mistake
422 · Jan 2019
mirror, mirror on the wall
Sophia Jan 2019
Mirror, mirror on the wall
Was i always meant to fall?
Roses white, and dying light
Silver's sweet forgiving bite.
He'll ask, "Why?"
No answers will be found.
And i will be rotting
Beneath the ground.
nothing to say here.
415 · Sep 2019
Best Friends
Sophia Sep 2019
Best friends will stick together until the end.
They are like a straight line that will never bend.
396 · Jan 2019
What if I told you....
Sophia Jan 2019
What if I told you
I want to die?
That i’m tired of living,
Of being alive?

What if I told you
It gets worse at night?
The thoughts get louder,
And nothing is right?

What if I died?
Would you even cry?
Would you even care?
If I took my own life?
Tbh.... I kinda wrote this for my ex....he doesn’t have an account on here so don’t try to find him on here....but this is kind of what I want to ask him.
Sophia Mar 2019
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this poem is written on the third day by Natsuki if you write two poems that appeal to Natsuki.
389 · Nov 2019
Closer To Goodbye
Sophia Nov 2019
They'll check your wrists,
But not your thighs.

They'll hear your laughs,
But not your cries.

Smile much, laugh loud, make jokes and lies,
And they won't see the depression in your eyes.

Just keep calm and starve yourself,
You need to be pretty, forget about your health.

Go look in the mirror on the wall,
We need to be skinny, thin, and tall.

Another cut upon your thigh,
One step closer to goodbye.
Is it bad that i tell and i do these things to myself literally every day?........... :(
334 · Jul 2019
Dear, Victor (my brother)
Sophia Jul 2019
Even though
I couldn’t stay,
I’ll still be with you
Everyday.
Your sister, and twin
I’ll always be,
For I am you
And you are me.

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
To my dead twin brother
333 · Jul 2019
Real Boyfriend
Sophia Jul 2019
A real boyfriend will love
His girlfriend with all his heart
And won’t be afraid to go up
To his friends, point at you and say,
“That’s my girl”
This is true. Girls, if he isn’t man enough to do this, and he hides you from the world, he isn’t worth it.
323 · May 2019
13 Reasons
Sophia May 2019
13 reasons
All explaining why
Hannah Baker
Decided to die.
So many reasons,
Why would a dead girl lie?
i made this based on my love for 13 Reasons Why
319 · Jul 2019
Chances
Sophia Jul 2019
I usually give people more chances then they deserve.

But when I’m done,

IM DONE.
Who else does this
Sophia Feb 2019
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
My heart is full
Of love for you.
294 · Jan 2019
Does anyone care?
Sophia Jan 2019
I'm falling
Slowly
Falling
Into a deep black space
Nothing there
No one cares
That i'm
Falling
Dying
Inside
I smile
It pains me
I can't speak
I can't
It hurts
So silent's
My last resort.
277 · Jan 2019
It’s what I deserve
Sophia Jan 2019
Call me a name,
**** me with words

Forget about me,
It’s what I deserve.
I’m suicidal and depressed
275 · Nov 2019
I Can't Die
Sophia Nov 2019
I'm hungry, but I can't eat.
I'm tired, but I can't sleep.
I'm sad, but I can't cry.
I'm suicidal, but I can't die.
i keep trying...but i cant die. why is that?.....
269 · Jan 2019
The day my love left me
Sophia Jan 2019
The moon split in half
And the stars crumbled,
Falling like fireworks into the sea.

I watched my world
Fall apart the day
My love left me.
I thought I loved someone... turns out I didn’t know what love was until it was too late. I loved him.... or at least I thought I did....but for some reason I can’t get over him...it’s like everywhere I look I see him. Then it just makes me sad and I break down.
Sophia Jan 2019
I wish that I had never met you....
Then there would be no need to impress you.

No need to want you
No need for still loving you.

No need for crying over you
No need for heartbreak.

No need for pain or tears
No need for unkept promises.

No need for rejected hugs
No need for crying myself to sleep.

No need for acting like you care
No need for everything you did to make me feel like  absolutely nothing.
Once again...something about my ex...
Sophia Jul 2019
Violets are blue,
Your blood is red,
The window was open,
I’m under your bed.
Lol. Once again, another creepy pasta poem :)
I love creepypastas :)
250 · Feb 2019
The doctor said
Sophia Feb 2019
I'll be lost inside my head.
Bad thoughts till 4 A.M.
Then i'll try to sleep.
And I can't tell anyone
I'm so scared they'll get up and run
So I don't speak.
And oh, I miss when we were younger,
The days were so much funner.
Weren't they?
Oh, I book a new appointment...
It's another disappointment....
They're all the same same same...
When the doctor says i'm fine,
One at morning one at night,
These pills will help you remember how to smile.
But what does he know..?
Cuz I feel so alone.....
And my mom and dad both tell me "You're alright"
"Cause the doctor said you're fine."
My own mind can't lie to me.
They all say it's anxiety...
But I just think it's me.
Now iv'e lost so many years...
My pillow's a tissue for my tears....
But you never see...
And now, I can't even eat my dinner....
Mom says i'm getting thinner...
Am I?
Oh, I book a new appointment....
Yet another disappointment...
They're all the same same same.....
When the doctor says i'm fine,
One at morning, one at night,
These pills will help you remember how to smile....
But what does he know...?
Cuz I feel so alone....
And my mom and dad both tell me "You're alright...cuz the doctor said you're fine.."
But he don't care about me.....
He'll just go home to his family...
Why can no one see
I'm not the girl that I wish I could be....
Cuz the doctor said i'm fine,
One at morning, one at night,
These pills will help you remember how to smile....
But what does he know...?
Cuz I feel so alone...
And my mom and dad both tell me i'm alright....
Cuz the doctor said i'm fine.
239 · May 2019
My R
Sophia May 2019
Just as I was about to take my shoes, off of the rooftop there I see, A girl with braided hair there before me. Despite myself I go and scream, "Hey! Don't do it please!" Woah wait a minute, what did I just say? I couldn't care less either way. To be honest, I was some what ******. This was an opportunity missed. The girl with braided hair told me her woes. You've probably heard it all before. "I really thought that he might be the one, but then he told me he was done." For God's sakes please! Are you serious? I just can't believe that for some stupid reason you got here before me! Are you upset cause you can't have what you wanted? You're lucky that you've never gotten robbed of anything! "I'm feeling better, thank you for listening." The girl with braided hair then disappeared.

"Alright today's the day!" Or so I thought. Just as I took both of my shoes off, there was but a girl short as can be. Despite myself I go and scream. The petite girl told me her woes. You've probably heard it all before. "Everyone ignores me, everyone steals. I don't fit in with anyone here." For God's sakes please! Are you serious? I just can't believe that for some stupid reason you got here before me! Cause even so, you're still loved by everyone at home. There's always dinner waiting at the the table you know! "I'm hungry." Said the girl, she shed a tear. The girl short as can be then disappeared.

And like that, there was someone everyday. I listened to their tales, I made them turn away. But yet there was no one who would do this for me, no way I could let out all this pain....

For the very first time there I see, someone with the same pains as me. Having done this time and time again, she wore a yellow cardigan. "I just wanna stop the scars that grow every time that I go home. That's why I came up here instead." That's what the girl in the cardigan said. Woah wait a minute, what did I just say? I couldn't care less either way. But in the moment I just screamed something that I did not believe. "Hey! Don't do it please!" What to do?! I can't stop this girl, oh this is new! For once I think I've bitten off more than I can chew! But even so, please just go away so I can't see, your pitiful expression is just too much for me! "I guess today is just not my day." She looked away from me and then she disappeared.

There's no one here today, I guess it's time. It's just me, myself, and I. There's no one who can interfere. No one to get in my way here. Taking off my yellow cardigan, watching my braids all come undone, this petite girl short as can be, is gonna jump now and be free.
this is one of my favorite songs. if you do not understand the lyrics, message me and i will tell you.
234 · Dec 2019
Do Me
Sophia Dec 2019
Instead of doing drugs....
Do me ;)
haha lol :)
233 · Jan 2019
Scars
Sophia Jan 2019
I suppose
I love my scars
Because
They have
Been with me
Longer than
Most people
Have.
Sophia Dec 2018
Hiding the hurt, hiding the pain, hiding the tears that fall like rain. Saying i'm fine when i'm anything but. This ache in my soul rips at my gut. My skin is on fire; i burn from within. The calm on my face is an ongoing sin. The world must stay out; i've built up a wall. My fragile lie will collapse should it ever fall. Loneliness consumes me; it eats up the years. Until my life is swallowed by unending fears. Waiting for someone to see i wear a mask. And care enough to remove it; is that too much to ask?
hey... im thinking of commiting suicide... so i wrote this.
Sophia Mar 2019
Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
I just want to pull
Your skin open and crawl inside of you.
202 · Sep 2019
The Dark
Sophia Sep 2019
Sometimes in order to
See the light,
You have to risk the dark.
201 · Sep 2019
Beautiful Light
Sophia Sep 2019
As sunbeams graze my cold cheeks,
I am reminded that
We too have the power
To warm the world with
Our beautiful light.
197 · Jan 2019
Dear sunshine
Sophia Jan 2019
The way you glow through my blinds in the morning
Makes me feel like you missed me.
Kissing my forehead to help me out of bed
Making me rub the sleepy from my eyes.

Are you asking me to come out and play?
Are you trusting me to wish away a rainy day?
I look above. The sky is blue.
It's a secret, but I trust you too.

If it wasn't for you, I could sleep forever.
But i'm not mad.

I want breakfast.
this is a poem from the computer game Doki Doki Literature Club! if any of you out there has some kind of computer i recommend you play this game. If you do, plz tell me what you think of it!!! If you already did, tell me what you thought!!!
Sophia Mar 2019
A marvel millions of years in the making.
Where the womb of Earth chaotically meets the surface.
Under a clear blue sky, an expanse of bliss -
But beneath gray rolling clouds, an endless enigma.
The easiest world to get lost in
is one where everything can be found.

One can only build a sand castle where the sand is wet.
But where the sand is wet, the tide comes.
Will it gently lick at your foundations until you give in?
Or will a sudden wave send you crashing down in the blink of an eye?
Either way the outcome is the same.
Yet we still build sand castles.

I stand where the foam wraps around my ankles.
Where my toes squish into the sand.
The salty air is therapeutic.
The breeze is gentle, yet powerful.
I sink my toes into the ultimate boundary line, tempted by the foamy tendrils.
Turn back, and I abandon my peace to erode at the shore.
Drift forward, and I return to Earth forevermore.
192 · Aug 2019
Why Did They Leave Me?
Sophia Aug 2019
My grandma said that i'm wonderful,
My friends all say that i'm awesome,
My exes all called me "Beautiful",
My dad called me perfect.

But, if i'm so.....
Wonderful,
Awesome,
Beautiful,
And perfect....

Then why did they all leave me.....?
True story.
182 · Mar 2019
Keylock to my broken heart
Sophia Mar 2019
My heart is locked
With so much pain.
Clear tear drops
Fall from my face.
Every tear drop
Leaves a puddle
With a memory
That's hiding from space.
Stocked away
Behind my soul.
Shattered to pieces
With no where to go.
Locked away
To never get out.
To see the good side
Of my broken heart.
173 · Jan 2019
Sorry
Sophia Jan 2019
Sorry I am not perfect.
Sorry I cut.
Sorry I break my promises.
Sorry I want to give up.
Sorry I want to die.
Sorry I want to **** myself.
Sorry I hide my tears.
Sorry I lie and say I am fine.
Sorry I punish you with my emotions.
this is for Gaven.
Sophia Feb 2019
Sayori: Hey, hey, my heart's beating when i'm hanging out with you!
Why does my heart break when I hear you feel the same way too? (heh heh)

Natsuki: Just like a sundae, it's sweet every time I teach you something new. Is this by chance, or fate whenever it's just me and you? (Don't get the wrong idea!!!)

Yuri: when we touch, it'll never be enough...

Sayori: Is it way too much? If you had to choose just one of us?

Natsuki: Tell me, tell me please! Is this what I think or is it just me?  Don't wake me up from this sweet little dream, where we'll be together forever, we're never gonna be apart!

Sayori: Will it be okay, if I express my love for you this way? No matter what you do or what you say, we'll be together forever, we're never gonna be apart!

Monika: We're never gonna be apart....

Yuri: Hey, hey, when i'm next to you I don't know what to do.... Why does it feel so great when our eyes meet out of the blue?  (I...I'm sorry! I said too much!!)

Sayori: I really love....

Monika: The way you write even when you don't have a clue. I want to hear you say, this love that I am feeling is true!

Natsuki: Tasty love, something I want more of,

Yuri: Will it make the cut, if you had to choose just one of us?

Monika: Shall I leave you be? Is it love if I can't set you free? But even if it's not reality, let's be together forever, we're never gonna be apart!

Yuri: How can I convey, my love for you before it flies away? I think about it all day, every day!

Monika: We'll be together forever, we're never gonna be apart!

Monika: One by one they only fall apart, can it be undone? Why can't I just be the one for once?!

Sayori: We'll be together forever, we're never gonna be apart!

Monika: Maybe we'll never be together, but forever you'll be in my heart.....
169 · Dec 2019
Someone New
Sophia Dec 2019
Roses are not always red,
Violets are not always blue,
I chose to be with you,
But you left me for someone new.
Sophia Mar 2019
The tendrils of my hair illuminate beneath the amber glow.
Bathing.
In the distance, a blue-green light flickers.
A lone figure crosses its path– a silhouette obstructing the eerie glow.
My heart pounds. The silhouette grows. Closer Closer
I open my umbrella, casting a shadow to shield me from visibility.
But I am too late.
He steps into the streetlight. I gasp and drop my umbrella.
The light flickers. My heart pounds. He raises his arm.

Time stops.

The only indication of movement is the amber light flickering against his outstretched
arm.
The flickering light is in rhythm with the pounding of my heart.
Teasing me for succumbing to this forbidden emotion.
Have you ever heard of a ghost feeling warmth before?
Giving up on understanding, I laugh.
Understanding is overrated.
I touch his hand. The flickering stops.
Ghosts are blue-green. My heart is amber.
166 · Dec 2019
I Think
Sophia Dec 2019
I think I might love you.
And I think it has killed me.
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