cringe.
*******
     *******
*******
     *******
*******


you're immature
emotionally unstable
you're ******* rude
*******
*******

I love you
but you're an *******
I love you
but this will not work this way

I'm the biggest joke of all
because I believed you were different
I believed you were smarter
I believed you were wiser

go *******
go and forget about me
go and pretend to care about another one
go and pretend to love another one
go
just ******* go

la fricción entre las uñas y la pared
el frío al sentarme en la silla
las noches cortas de verano
sonidos agudos
pérdida de conciencia
estornudos frustrados
ausencia

desvanecerse sería más sencillo si cada esfuerzo no fuese frustrado
permanecer sería una opción si no fuese tan dispensable

new ways to feel sad
new ways to be disposable
new ways to be auto destructive
new ways to be the same riff
just playing on repeat
new ways to stop myself from going

odio tener que admitir que mis recuerdos siguen tomando vida cada vez que se cruzan con tu mirada

odio tener que sentirme indefensa, inútil e impotente a la vez cada vez que pienso en que tú ya no quieres

cientos de pétalos buscan un escape del cerezo
terminando muertos en el concreto

la última vez que me quedé callada por tanto tiempo no recuerdo haber explotado en llanto

la última vez que me sentí tan estúpida preferí callarme
¿por qué ahora no?

ah, cierto
antes tu sonrisa no me debilitaba
antes fingía tolerar y ser fuerte
antes tu mirada no me afectaba
antes era más

currently waiting for you to come
waiting for your voice to speak to me
I'll breathe you in

currently waiting for the night to fall
so we can speak about your fears
I'll let you in

what am I to you?
a leaf falling to the ground
or a flower blossoming in your heart?

I feel wrapped-up in this nonsense you call love and I don't get how can you tell me you love me with those eyes and then hurt me with your smile I feel wrapped-up in this nonsense you call love and I don't see how you can love anyone and how you can kiss me and slice my heart like a piece of cake I can't see I can't understand I can't do anything other than think of how can you live with yourself after everything you've done after everything we've been through after everything after everything after every little thing I'm drinking and drinking and dancing and singing just to stop thinking of the things you're doing and I kiss you and it hurts me and I can't take it anymore the pain is just too much I feel wrapped-up in this nonsense you call love and I don't understand the way you are and I'm not available to try

embriagada por lazos de espera
la leche dulce roza mis mejillas
el olor de tu llegada contempla
contempla nuestra huida
                   [ven a buscarme
tengo tres cosas que buscar en ti
tengo tres razones para huir
la noción del tiempo se pierde
entre lámparas y té caliente
                     en la cafetería del sur]
embriagada por no querer
formulando respuestas de preguntas
que decidí olvidar
soñando entre hortensias para no dejar
de cortar

like getting through the end of song you really enjoyed
like accidentally listening to someone's voice and thinking it's him
like a whistler on the subway
that takes you back to the moment
we first fell in love

you don't even try to see the light
you don't even try to look out
you don't want to

how does it feel
to burn your skin like this
to put your heart out
so easily
that anybody could just grab it
and take it away

maybe it doesn't feel like this
maybe I'll be there
as long as you keep your promises
and love me as my heart beats

the guitar is shaking
while it delivers a mellow sound
her voice is sweeter than the night before
"how'd ya make it so vulnerable?"
he asks timidly
"it's just the feeling"
maybe it's the guitar, I thought to myself

after she stopped singing
I bought her a drink
gave her a kiss
and call it a day for her
we went to sleep like the first time
we just stared at each other's eyes
listening to the night
sometimes I wish we could go back

bañar al perro

                       colar el café
          
                                            lavar la ropa
                                                          
                                                                  cocinar en la madrugada
                  
                                                                                                              *ser tuya

where to begin?
                       where does it lead to?
                                                         will I ever be found?


                              the gates are closing in front of me
I got so close
              but then again,
                                                          ­                    I'm certainly lost
              but then again,
                                                          ­                    I've never found myself

maybe after all,
                               it leads me to you
                   it leads to nowhere
                                                  *(nowh­ere with you)

and I'm not even mad
        I'm not even sad
                                              but the fact that you're so tender to me
          breaks my heart into a million
                                                         ­      *tiny
                                                          ­           pieces

I'm so fortunate
            I've never found myself
                                                    as devoted as I feel
                                                            ­                         to you,
                                                            ­                                    *my sweetest

y seguíamos con los ojos cerrados
sintiendo la fría brisa de diciembre
las luces a medianoche
recordándome que no estás aquí
que no estás acariciando mi cabello
y seguíamos faltándonos el respeto
por no estar juntos
por ser como somos y no permitirnos estar juntos

“es cuestión de ocasión”
dondequiera y como sea
no te dejaré ni por un segundo
pensar que la noche muere
que la luna brilla
y nosotros no estamos juntos
mirando las mismas estrellas
preguntándonos de dónde vino esto

estarás siempre
serás parte de mi
incluso estando lejos
estarás cerca de mí

suddenly we were tripping
suddenly we were feeling
and everything went behind
everything was falling
like a w
              a
                  t
                     e
                        r
                           f
                             a
                                l
                                  l

Cuando no quiero
no comprendo
Cuando no entiendo
no espero
Cuando empiezo a entender
empiezo a querer

Solamente es temporal
solamente es una hoja
cayendo en el estado floral
rozando tus labios
y estoy celosa
porque yo quiero ser parte de esos labios
quiero tenerte cerca y hablarte
quiero estar cerca y besarte
quiero perdonar y entregar
cualquier sentimiento de vuelta
a su futuro dueño que convenga
y que no me maltrate, por favor

want me
as much as want you
care for me
as much as I care for you
hug me
as much as I want to hug you
kiss me
as much as I want to kiss you
talk to me
as much as I want to talk to you
just ask me how I am
cause I always do it for **you

I can barely sleep
I can barely eat
I can barely stand
in front of you
I can barely say or express
my feelings about this mess
I can barely tell
how much I will be dead
I don't feel it
I don't need it
I don't want go easy on it
I can barely see
how much would you mind
to be my valentine