I don't care about you anymore

More like I shouldn't care about you anymore
Because no mater how much I try to bear
It never brings me peace anyway

But my heart keeps beating too fast
And I can't control my emotions
I'd just like you to
Think about me every once in a while
Would you?

A heartbreaker
You hate her
I'll face you
Like a wild wild beast so true

You *******
Blood plastered
No way you'll make another girl fall for you
There's no one in this world who'll do

Be gone
You're done
You're *******
Keep crawling like you should

It's not my fault
You looked at me
I never had anything to hide
And I don't have anything to share
But you seem to be tempted
And I can say
I want you too
But I think I'll tease you
And let you wait a bit longer
Rather than rushing time

A soulful voice
That yearns to be heard
My ears are filled
With golden honey
How soothing can it be
My heart is filled with healing
My cluttered mind that's been refreshed
A song that flows through me
I long to hear that voice
The voice renews me

You were one of my best friends
Someone I cared for
Seeing you die today
Was a tragedy for me
I cried for hours
I can't hide the tears now
Even if you were the annoying one
You were the cutest
And the youngest
It struck me too hard
When I heard the news
I love you
Please rest in peace

Such ideals
  and standards I can not find.
In men I try
  but end up unsatisfied.
But once, I had found
  an exact opposite in mind.
A smart man
  acting like an idiot.
A man I had fallen for.
Different from what I thought
  but feelings should come first.
In him, I had found
nothing I had wanted.
But love was there,
  And that's what he handed.

You scoop me up
And tell me I'm perfect.
But sometimes I feel like
You're too good for me.
Like maybe,
  you're just a dream.
A dream I'm stuck in.
But even so,
  even if you are,
I'll fall in love with you.

Whenever I need to clear my mind
I think of the fresh Spring
But everything just starts falling down
Like the leaves in Autumn
Everything starts withering
Then it becomes cold and dark
Like that one Winter
Where hearts turn to ice
But soon everything will come melting
The scorching hot sun will come
Like that of Summer
But everything's bright again at least

words that are hard to say,
thinking it would ruin your day.
because of all the smiles you had,
i still want to make you glad.
but i know you know,
wherever my feelings go.
but you still smile,
even for a while,
even if you're slowly breaking,
even while your heart is aching.
i want to say goodbye
but my words come out as a lie.
whether it's loving you
or saying i do,
stop smiling,
  you're a fool.
  i only do bad things to you.

Sadness is present
But tears won't come out
I stay cooped on my bed
But doing so won't fix anything
It's over

I've been warned
That love always ends painfully
Even if you grow old together
One of you leaves first
Or the loss you gained after the death of a loved one
It's all losing something

A part of your heart would tear any moment
This vacant space
It feels so weird without anyone in it
Why did you go
Why did we even make promises

Do you like books?
  Well, I do, too.
I don't really get it when people say they love the smell.
And, most of the time, I just get ones with good covers.
Like,
  Books are hella expensive.
And I got both pockets out with no cash.
But I still decide to buy it later.
Because reading is fun.
Makes me feel so comfy.
And keeps me in my calm state.

You have your way with words
That I get distracted
No matter what time it is
I come to think of you
I try to not think of you
But you just come up and show your face
How can I ignore you
When you're such a beautiful soul

The words
   " I love you"
When will I hear them again,
  when will "we" hear them again?
When both of us can't say it anymore.

School is a bore
I wish there was more
The people around me
Feels like a wide open sea
It's hard to swim out there
With so much to bear
I simply wish it was easy
Instead I feel kinda queasy
Sometimes it's fun
But I still want to run
To my sweet escape
Even with my expression of gape

you're all that i think about,
            all that i dream about.
one day,
  you'll leave,
  but it'll give you a better day,
                                a better girl.
sometimes, i think
you're too good for me.
i'm too plain to be yours.
yet you'd say otherwise
and get mad at me
because you're so kind.
but your kindness is my problem
and the reason i distance myself from you.
i'm sorry for being stupid
but stupid is what i do best.
i don't deserve you,
  don't deserve us.
so i'll be the girl,
one day you'll hate
and could finally be relieved,
                               be happy.
while i, for you, would be happy,
                                         be sad.

There are pretty people in this world
But why do we say we are ugly
We are ugly, fat losers
We're useless beings
But that's where we are wrong
Everybody's got potential at some part of this world
Maybe yourself being weird
  is a talent.
Everybody's just got pessimistic these days
That's why we can think of our dark futures
Rather than our bright ones
And everything's about being so down
Like,
  why start thinking 'bout being depressed?
You're the one who's up to making feelings like that

The sun that shines through the window
Is what I hate most during morning
Waking me up eventually
Wishing it was still night
The dream I had of you last night
Was something I was hoping for
For me to be in your arms
Kissing you goodbye
But all that was in a dream
A dream that ended
Because of daylight

I am physically fit
But not mentally stable
If something bad were to happen to me
Who would've known what would happen next
I can't handle much of strong will
'Cause I am weak
No matter what

You left me with a blank mark.
You asked of me to give you love.
I gave you my all
Yet you left me with a blank.

I smile when I'm happy.
  Most people would.
But,
I also smile when I'm sad.
"Why of all silly things did this happen?"
When I'm embarrassed.
"Oh God, everybody's laughing. Okay, just laugh with them. Haha."
When I'm angry.
"You don't know what's gonna happen to you, *****."
When I feel lonely.
"Where are people when I actually need them?"
When I just don't know what to do in life.
I smile a lot.
So I don't think people could tell.
I'm not one to express something in the right way.

Never mind the world
Never mind my life
I've lost it
I've completely lost my self now
Oh I'll live without a care
I'll live seeing the dark skies
There is no sun dawning tomorrow for me
Welcome to my own misery

I love you
I love you
We keep saying that
Without even meaning it

It's true I am your friend
And I know that is just the end
Of what we should be
Instead of what we would be
There is no "would be" in us
'Cause in the end,
   there would be broken trust.

Bonds we share
Our times were great
But days of ours
Won't be the same

We were children
Now we've grown
Our youth goes on
In bloom we grow

But time will past
Will leave us on our own
Now we've grown
To separate worlds

The time we finally got closer,
But how come our distance only came further?
The bitterness I feel about you,
  Why must you push me far?
I thought we finally had a bond that ties us by fate.
But misunderstandings and problems just get in our way.
I loved you for who you are.
But I guess knowing you wasn't enough.
Take me out of this void you created.
You're the reason for the pain I feel when I can't even explain it.

Oh, love.
You take me to extremes.
You take me to an advanced level.
You're just no hope left for me.

"I love you"
Just kidding
Neither is it "I hate you"
I don't have feelings for you
So stop holding on
And move on

When you think about it,
It's not us
Travelling on this world
on a bus.
It's the world
travelling on us.

It  revolves at us
And look for clues
For everything that involves us
And even the blues.

Though one may hate it
But it can not be changed
Because this world
is just full of strange.

I like it when
We just turn up the music
And sing along
Even if we are tone deaf

I like it when
We just say the random-est of things
And just laugh about it

I like it when
We always had each other
And try to keep everyone put a smile on their face

I like it when
We just took the crap
Everybody's been talking about us
Because we really don't care

I liked those times
But now
What happened?

Look at me now
Look at who you've stumbled upon
I was once a weakling
But now no more
For those who've trampled upon me
Shame on you
'Cause I'm no longer a joke
And now you are

It's not because of what you put me through,
it's because there's one and only you.
I don't care if you don't think of me that much.
I'll still long for your touch.
The sense of needing you is what I've got.
And my heart is what you've caught.
Seal me tighter in your embrace.
So we can close our distant space.

At one glance,
  you entered my heart.
Trapped in this wonder
I become.
No words flow out.
I look at you in admiration.
Can you draw out the rest
   of what this heart has to say?

There's a hole in my heart
Waiting to be filled
Just please don't fill it
With something like poison
Cause oh how I wish
You knew what this heart of stone really is

There are easy words.
There are difficult words.
But then again,
It's easy to spell love.

Love, L-O-V-E.
It's a simple four letter word.
But how come the definition isn't all that easy.
You know it's a feeling.
But we don't know how to explain that feeling.
Because it all depends on those who feel it.

I am lost in the dark
Nowhere to be found
My heart is beating
But my breathing shallow
When can I be taken away
When light does not exist in here
What should I do
I am through

Feelings I kept locked.
Knowing they'll only hurt others,
But being oblivious to what love really is.
I hope to find whatever it is,
And that would be true love indeed.
Like a gentle touch of hands, the warmth of embraces,
Or the feeling of soft lips brought together.
I beg to know what my heart is beating for,
And why I feel so high without even doing anything.
Teach me ways to catch your heart
So that I can finally feel that hundred percent of your love.

I know I've done bad to you.
I know you can't forgive me.
Yet I'll tell you,
  "I'm sorry", anyway.
But do know
I love you.

No matter what.

I no longer care about us
You're the one who threw me away
If you wanted it for us to last
Then make it so
So I can believe you

There are times I want to die
When I don't even know the reason why
Could be depressed
While my feelings suppressed
But that's not it
When I don't even know s*
But life is hard
So I gotta keep guard
Of the journey ahead of me
So I won't just let it be