like an anchor you kept me safe between the ocean waves
like and anchor you held me steady so I wouldn't drift away
like an anchor you chained me down
like an anchor you let me drown

              l.t.

His voice said
Nice to meet you.
His eyes said
You look good.
His hand said
I want you to notice me.
My head said
Stay away from him.
My heart said
Kiss him.
My voice said
Nice to meet you too.
l.t.

You look lovely he said
I smiled
Thanks I giggled
Little did he know
That I was crippling inside
l.t

Today I decided to be happy
So I woke up immediatly after my alarm clock went of,
wore my yellow polka dot dress,
made funny faces in the mirror while brushing my teeth,
ate breakfast untill my bely was full,
tried to smile at every stranger
and hummed along to my favourite song.

But it didn't work
for I was not happy in my soul.
It was still there, in the back of my mind,
how you kissed her
as if you were drowning and she was the oxygen.

I will never get to lose that sight.

l.h.

I lie awake.
The half moon,
whose soft white shine
invades my room
and makes the tears that rest on my cheeks sparkle;
illuminates half of my face
so that the moon and I
can become a whole.

Only me
and the silence of 2 A.M.

Outside goes the party-goer
-knackered and filled with a portion of fresh memories
that won't be found in the morning-
to his rest.

Only he
and the silence of 2 A.M.

Outside stumbles the drunkard
-with repressed thoughts and events
that he couldn't erase out of his memory by a bottle-
to his end.

Only he
and the silence of 2 A.M.

Outside staggers the broken one
-with blood that’s drowning in wine and as red as the lips of the woman he tries to forget-
to his death.

Only he
and the silence of 2 AM.
L.T.

I kissed his broken heart
and let our colours blend


l.t.

I want to feel you
to touch your skin
to kiss your lips, neck, collarbone
to caress your moving chest
to cry on your shoulder
to make your face light up with your beautiful smile
to feel free in each others arms
I crave 
to your love

l.t.

When the ocean waves are flooding the shore

When the stars and the moon collide

My love, you still would be adored

I'll always be by your side

when the sky is falling down

When it haunts you at night

I'll be there till dawn

Together we can win the fight

I'll wipe your tears

swipe away your fears

And

Smile

'cause you and me

are made from irony.

l.t.

You watch as I smile
at things that make only me  happy.
You watch as I dance
to the beat of my heart.
You watch as I fall
deeper and deeper in love with you.
You watch as I give
my youth to you.
You watch as I realise
I deserve better.
I deserve someone who loves back
instead of you, who's only watching from a distance.

l.t.

I can fly.

I do it every night.

First, I close my eyes.

Then I spread my arms, hold my breath

and I try not to think about the thousand butterflies

that start to flutter in my belly.

And slowly

I levitate.

My feet leave the ground.

And

I break free.

I slowly open my eyes

and see

everything.

The patchworks in al shades of green,

the streets that run through the roaring fields like veins,

it's like a painting only I can ever see.

And as I soar above this little town,

I realise that

for the first time

I'm free.

And there's nothing

you can do

to take me down.

I flit to infinity.

So catch me if you can.

l.t.

I'm losing them.

The endless walks

where we made up songs to entertain ourselves.

The boring car rides

where we annoyed each other to **** the time.

The late evenings

where we whispered our darkest and deepest secrets

-that now don't matter anymore- to each other.

The big promises and the silly bets

we made with our pinks.

The little contests in the park, at school, at home, in the streets, everywhere.

I didn't see how much those moments meant to me.

Until I realised that I'm slowly

losing them.

l.t.

Down by the river,

my love isn't pure.

It's foul and mean

aggressive and unclean

It hurts.

It burns.

As deep as the dark waters

of the black river.

l.t.