the hardest truth
is that nothing lasts forever
everything is temporary
i see now
that our reality was simple
i was just another way
for you to get through
the lonely nights
i knew the hurt was inevitable
that foolish dreams
had clouded my vision
i guess i just thought
we might have made it.

i still remember
your sleepy steel eyes
staring back at me
bed hair and soft sheets
your tender fingertips
always lost
in my crimson hair
that just couldn't stop itself
from gently spilling
onto your face
in those moments i knew
you would always give me
a thousand new reasons
to unravel for you
before the amber sun
filled the sky
with her nectarine kisses.

endless times
you have called me
in and out of your orbit
sharing moments
of melancholy and madness
i'm drawn once more
to the violet light you emit
you stand beside me
and i feel it
f a m i l i a r i t y
you are the constellation
in my darkened sky
your hand in mine
a hushed whisper
during a forced goodbye
a forbidden confession
of an eternal craving

i wish i could hold our memories
tightly inside rose petals
despite the aching
despite the uncertainty
i know only this
if i am to live wholly
i can't do so without you
my fallen valentine
my immortal shadow
and so i'll wait for you
over the hills past saturn
underneath the burning sky
like a wilting flower
summoning the rains.

what if we weren't
so bound by time
what if, like the universe
our thoughts,
our memories were linear
burning, alive and electric.
what if we could swim
between what has been
and what is yet to come,
would our moments
underneath a summer moon
where our souls bled
and our demons danced
be the ones you go back to?

as darkness falls
i feel you
calling to me.
the starlight
screams your name
pulling me back
to silver nights
dressed in midnight,
with your kisses tasting
like strawberries
and fated promises.

your lips meet mine
and i reach such a high
life is sweeter
than summer lemonade
voilets in full bloom,
now that my hands
have held you.

we came crashing down
before we even begun
yet i can still remember
satin nights underneath
that hot july moon
and how your smile tasted
between each sacred kiss,
leaving the taste
of honey and oranges
lingering on my lips.

now there's an ocean
lying between us
the nights grow dark,
the waters cold.
these velvet tears
and this rabbit heart
can't help but wonder
if i meant anything to you,
or nothing at all.

alone in the darkness
i stare blankly
at the night sky
the memory of you
outshining every star
and although i am alone
your ghost
is there to hold me
and i know my bones
will miss you
until they are but ashes
blowing in the wind.

my sweetest apollo
you are the only one
i will hopelessly
freefall into
time and time again
and even as i'm falling,
i will only
thank the stars
that i got so close.

this pain in my chest
pulls me under
and all at once
i am a paper boat
lost in a starless sea,
drowning in the memory
of what we had.
i may not know
what lies ahead
the course uncertain,
the waters black
but as i lay here alone
i realise,
perhaps i am not
so difficult to love
perhaps others
are simply afraid

and that's okay too.

now all that's left
is burning valentines
and forgotten promises
my heart beating
outside of my chest,
destined for a life
of solitude
searching for a love
so beautiful
that even fate herself
weeps amongst the stars.

love me in the darkness
i want to feel
your breath on mine,
our demons dancing
under the sweet moonlight.
only you have the power
to peform an exorcism
so beautiful,
even fate herself
can't help but watch.

i once was told
that i loved too much
my lotus heart
opening too quickly,
yearning for a love
deeper than i could handle.
i may be soft,
but i am also a fire
and you are the only one
who sets my heart to bloom.

i have spent
many nights
gazing in wonder
at the night sky,
just as i have spent
many nights
loving you;
the universe dulls
in comparison.

if there is one thing
that meeting you
has taught me,
it's that love doesn't wait
for you to catch up.

in the darkness i dance
crimson hair
like flames on the wind,
the moonlight
kissing my skin
wearing nothing
but midnight
i lie in wait,
surrendering myself
to the flames
for from the dark
my love has returned.

my only wish
is that you would
see yourself
through my eyes,
a warrior heart
with magic swimming
in your veins.
maybe then
you would understand.

sometimes
there are no other words
that will do
no embellishment worthy,
no outpouring of devotion.
sometimes
all i can say is,
i miss you
more than i ever knew
my bones could take.

the only thing
i will never understand
is why you opened me up
molded me to fit you
so perfectly,
only to then
walk away silently
like a spectre in the night
leaving me with nothing
but bruises
and my own sanity to doubt.

i wonder if your ghosts
whisper a thousand kisses
while you sleep
if their vermilion hair
brushes your skin
leaving you burning
dreaming of stolen glances
and blood stained lips
just as mine
wrap their hands
tightly around my throat
before gently pulling me under
with the sweetest lullaby.

you consume me
so entirely
filling up my lungs
with each breath
dancing around my veins
with each beat of my heart.

you've been on my mind
for so long now
that i've forgotten completely
what it was like
to not have you entangled
in every corner.
every dust filled crevice
has been infused
with thoughts of you,
that i have enough
to fill the night sky
a million times over.
i only hope
these finespun webs
and their protective embrace
are strong enough
to keep you safe.

i spend most nights at home
falling in love all over again
with my memories of you
and your silken fingertips
slowly dancing their way
along my spine,
leaving a trail of stardust
in their wake.

we were creatures of the night
worshipping each other,
bathing in the starlight.
now we are strangers,
and i long to run free
around the corners
of your mind once more.

our love was endowed
with countless stolen moments
and endless uncertainty,
yet you were the only thing
that i was sure of.
i wonder if the taste
of apples and cinnamon
takes you back to tender nights
underneath bedsheets,
in the same painful way
that strawberry soaked kisses
and honey covered fingertips
will always bring me
back to y o u.

i once read
that in ancient times
once lovers
had shared each other
underneath the light
of a full moon,
they were bonded
in every lifetime.
perhaps that is why
i can't seem to escape you.

today i felt the sun
gently kiss
the back of my neck
and it reminded me
of y o u.

i always thought
it was the purest form
of romance
the way the stars
fell to the earth
to listen to our wishes
just as i fell so easily
at your feet.

but now, stood underneath
the same moon as you
i realise;
you are all i'll ever need.

red wine
stained our lips,
with clumsy hands
tracing moonlight
on your skin.
our love got sweeter
with each stolen kiss
and in those moments
i knew,
i would follow you
to any ruin.

perhaps it is true
that i deserve someone else,
but it was always you
that i wanted.

maybe you liked the thrill
of chasing
what wasn't yours.
maybe the forbidden fruit
forever tasted
the sweetest to you.
these are all sugar coatings,
lies i tell myself
to get some sleep at night.
but when my hands
find the pages of spilled ink,
hushed notes in
chicken scratch writing
hopelessly trying
to make sense of us.
of you.
sentences upon sentences
forming the carcas of our love,
picking the bones apart
until there is nothing left

i realise;
we were magic
in a world of ordinary.

do not look for me here
i am running
barefoot through the trees
with the scent of soft pine needles
and moonlight on skin
my heart in my hands
wide eyed and free.

you've pulled away
taking all my sanity
and all i can do is wait.
i can still taste
your saliva on my tongue,
the memory burning
through the velvet night.
darkness falls,
my thoughts turn to you
grasping for even
the smallest morsel,
looking for sustenance.

just because he l e f t
      doesn't mean
             you have to stay
           b
        r  
          o
       k
          e
       n.

your sea storm eyes
set my bones alight
and now i'm left aching
each time the rain
shouts about you.

my love for you
is like craving more oxygen
- essential for life.

in the gentle tangerine light of dawn
we entombed each other
in a mess of unmade bedsheets
and sweat soaked kisses,
foolishly sending
our wishes up to the stars.

let me drink you in
i will gasp for air
just to consume you.

you set me on fire
you touch me
and i know,
that there is no heaven
better than this.