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523 · Mar 2015
Dead To Me--- Just Shut Up
Sydney Ann Mar 2015
"I don't know if I can trust you"
I don't think you really care
Can't believe the things you said to me
Didn't think fate would dare
Laugh like it's a joke to me                          
Smile and ask *what's wrong
                              
Just like all the others                                              
Ask me why I sing this song                                        
I don't care about you                                              
I wish that I could die                                            
I'll leave a thousand times                    
Before I let you see me **cry
An original work.
518 · Jan 2015
For BrokenInside
Sydney Ann Jan 2015
We love you more than you could know,
We see your pieces as a whole
I wish you'd really look inside
And see the beauty no one can hide
Your poems are gold
Your words are bold
Light that no one can hide

Everything that is beautiful is cracked; that's how the light gets in
New challenge idea... Poems of moral support for those you care about, USE #hanginthere AND PLZ PARTICIPATE!
508 · Dec 2014
My Existence (Part 3.9)
Sydney Ann Dec 2014
I feel
A bit
Narcissistic
Right now
But I'll go on
Anyways
I'm so over
Thinking of Polar
And playing these stupid games
It's too bad for him
But he needs to see
I'm living a life
And I need to be free
501 · Jan 2015
Get The Reference
Sydney Ann Jan 2015
Ask
A
Fish
Head
A-
ny-
thing
You want to
They
Wont
An-
swer
They
Can't
Talk!

Fish heads, fish heads
Rolley polley fish heads
Fish heads fish heads
Eat them up
Yum!
Please tell me someone gets it...
478 · Dec 2014
Not For You
Sydney Ann Dec 2014
Why should I tell you my secrets
Why should I impart you with dreams
                    You don't give a ****
                      Unless I throw a fit
And even then
You never remember.
Pardon my French
475 · Mar 2015
You Will Learn
Sydney Ann Mar 2015
Through this fire I will make you burn
On and on, you people never learn

With these hands broken scared
I will turn you into a work of art

I'll mend your bones
I'll melt your skin
I'll drag you to the dark


Don't fight
as I tear you apart
Never once always twice
don't even try to get away
you're here to stay

Holding back the fire
Slipping to desire
Waiting for the crash
Everything turns to ash**

how could we face this
How did we turn into this
Broken I am changed
I know ill never be the same
Collaboration with the beautiful Andie Ostrander
467 · Dec 2014
He Says (Emotional Lockbox)
Sydney Ann Dec 2014
"WARM FUZZY FEELINGS"
"Me too."
I say, "I like you"
"ALOT"
he Says
"You get hugs."
I Say
"Does that mean acceptance?"
He Says
"I'm not sure."
I Say
"That's okay."
"That's better than I'd hoped for."
I want Emotional Lockbox to let me in so badly
465 · Jul 2015
Stones and Roses
Sydney Ann Jul 2015
Sticks and stones
are what my soul
will run to when you're done

your words do drill
a deep cold chill
until I'm brittle to breaking


Roses are frosted
all flowers in bloom
close up with cold tears
they run from you too
464 · Aug 2015
Untitled
Sydney Ann Aug 2015
Even though he would have taken things from me
taken things and never given them back
even though he only wanted my blood
out for blood
and my body
he was someone to talk to
and it hurts so bad
almost as if... my heart only hurts at the idea of a break up
doesn't matter that I never loved him,
that he forced me,
flattery is the way to
distract
attack
and retract.
no questions asked?
I have questions
462 · Nov 2014
Turmoil
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
Seething, seething underneath
Makes it feel so hard to breathe
My eyes are hollow
Cheeks are wet
With memories of my regret
Internal storm
Rain outside
Pummeling my strung out mind
460 · Nov 2014
Hide and Seek
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
Violets are blue
Roses are red
How many tears over you can I shed

Daisies are yellow
Cherry blossoms so pink
When you walk by me
I swear that I shrink


Silverleaf shines
with a sparkling sheen
*I sit in the garden
I hold in my scream
I need to get rid
Of the pressure inside
But I bottle it up
And I sit here and hide.
When love turns into break-up turns into misery turns into fear.
459 · Feb 2015
who he is
Sydney Ann Feb 2015
he never lets
anyone in

and probably
never will

he keeps it locked
away inside

so good at secrets
no one is even

suspicious
Wrote this in creative writing class
456 · Nov 2014
I See You
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
I see you sit beneath that tree
I
t's branches swaying in the breeze
You're staring and your eyes are lit
I feel the heat that you e mi t

You make me peaceful when I'm fried
When I believe I've lo s t my mind
Maybe if you'd be  s o kind
You 'd sit with me beneath this tree
And I'll forget my worries happily
Connect the dots?
Sydney Ann Apr 2015
We sit here with our pitiful little lives
Ants. ******* ants
line our poetry on the left side
Why?
Because it makes me feel safe
when I'm never safe
can't feel safe
I speak lines in my head
waiting for the boom
the rush
the power
that never comes
because I'm an ant
I cry
but tears aren't worth anything
human bodies like gods
goddesses
we destroy them
all of them
minds
spirits
we destroy everything
not sure why
1 in 12
seems corny but these are the teens that will try to die
pick your friends
write their names
now for every 12 pick the one that will die
do you understand?
how's that for ******* real
I sit here
waiting for the bomb to drop
but it doesn't because on this world
the only reasons for me to live
are the reasons I give myself
443 · Aug 2015
Untitled
Sydney Ann Aug 2015
Love is an illusion
everything is fake
you make your own reasons
to give and to take
443 · Nov 2014
My Existence (Part 2.5)
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
I forgot to mention
(derogative laughter sounds in my head)
Up until now
How everyone would smile and ask us to kiss
Polar Opposite and I
How they looked at us as a team
We were inseparable
(I guess that wasn't true, was it?)
They called us Romeo and Juliet
behind our backs
(I just learned this, after 25 months)

Now I am seen as a broken part
By all the male eyes
And every time someone finds out
That what we had is "over"
(I don't know what over means anymore)
I can tell they mourn right along with me
441 · Nov 2016
Infinity Ends
Sydney Ann Nov 2016
Love dies
Because we realize
We had thought it to be infinite
But we appear to near the end
440 · Nov 2014
What I Miss The Most
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
As I cry these mental tears
I realize
what I miss the most
Is the warmth
And your eyes
Those beautiful eyes                                                                
And most of all
The way
I  could feel your heart
                                              your precious life so close to mine                  
I was so touched
That you would open up
And let me in
And I feel so bad
That I tore your heart up
Instead of protecting it

And  now the tears come
In my head
439 · Mar 2016
Re-start
Sydney Ann Mar 2016
He says things that sound iconic
Not that I would ever share
Some say love is so dishonest
But hearts can mend where liars tear.
438 · Dec 2014
Wishes...
Sydney Ann Dec 2014
I wish
People gave
Two *****
One ****
A ****


I know
If I was dead
You wouldn't miss me
Two bits

And if you cared,
You're out of luck

Your heart can't hold me
I'm like water
**Through sand
435 · Nov 2014
My Reflection World
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
I ascend
Towards the top
adding to this bitter drop

My skin is smudged
With dirt and dust
But this abuse is not unjust

The branches twist
Love to assist
The girl who lives inside the mist

First is gallant
Next is weak
Always knowing what she seeks

-Who am I?-
-You'll never know-
A changing pain that never shows

Skin is hot
Eyes will chill
A murderous tree not meant to ****

It's here for weeping
Broken dreams
Embracing those
Who sit unseen

Out of time
And running out of breath
435 · Nov 2014
DECISION
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
****** heart and ****** mind
Seek to leave this world behind
Spindly hands caress the knife
An easy out of pain and strife
A candle, match, and gasoline
Into the night they hear her scream
A soul has suffered for so long
This soul is ready to move on
A way to whisk the pain away
Because there's nothing left to say
And no reason left to stay
While her world begins to fray
429 · Nov 2016
Untitled
Sydney Ann Nov 2016
I'm a bleeding heart
Because someone sliced me
Sydney Ann Feb 2015
Okay so I must confess
I'm in love with you
You should know that by now
Don't ask me how it happened
Unless you want to be confused
                                                        ­My voice cannot
                                                         Communicate the beauty
                      But the thing is
                      It's trapped inside
                      Which ***** for me, but I think I can deal
I know I'm vulnerable
But I can make it through fire and ice,
You should know that by now
                                                           ­                  I know I'm secretive,
                                                                ­   No one knows anything about me
                                                              ­ You should know that by now
                                             Oh wait....
                   I'd love to talk to you
                           I know how you're struggling
                                   Seeing it is like seeing my heart die a little bit
                                            Which doesn't make sense
I don't even know you...
     But I'd like to.
                                                             ­  I'd give anything to be close to you
                                                             ­   You should know that by now
                                                     Right?
                  But just seeing you is enough
             I know you are smart
      An introvert under all that confetti
  Different from those Populars
I know when you look into my eyes you understand a little
I do too,
   But I think you should know that by now
                                                           ­   I have a plan
                                                            ­          I always do
                                                              ­You should know that by now, Love
                                  My plan is to ride fate
                                   I think.
                                          I should know this by now
                   I'm sure you're the only reason I'm here still
                         If you left this world
                            I couldn't make it
                                                 You should know that by now
If the world was a bucket of ***** marbles
          You would be one of those few interesting ones
                  With black painted over
                To conceal the little sun inside you
                         Like me
                            But you don't even try to be
                                                       So Perfect
Much too beautiful for the ***** who broke your heart
    You mourn her
   I wish you'd trust me
When I told you
It doesn't have to be like that
  I can make it stop hurting
     You should know that by now
                                                           ­   It hurts me not to
                                                              ­       Run into your arms every day
                                                             ­                 And never let you go
                                                              ­        Never let you hurt again
                                                           ­     Because I am so in love with you
                                                       You should know that by now.

~ Love,
       Triple
I wish he could read this
I guess I'm on my own
I love him so
The truth unfolds
Alas, it's much too much
415 · Nov 2014
Love Like Bones
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
I will not ever let you go
I love you, love your heart of gold
I'll follow you down every road
Through branches, bricks, and piles of snow
I'll stand for you to let you know
My love is only set to grow
I'll never ever let you go
You'll never ever be alone
Through thick and thin and tough as stone
We'll never surrender, Love like bones
The snow brings back painful memories for me.
410 · Nov 2014
My Existence (Part 1)
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
I guess it turns out
I don't miss him.
I miss being in love

He is my polar opposite.
I know love made me blind,
But I'm not saying I actually wanted to see

Before him there was one guy
(He turns out to be a player
But I ****** That Up
So soon
I never had a chance to find out )
I guess his haunted past was attractive
(I still don't understand
How you can be
A passionate player...)
To find the rest of this story, follow the tag below
408 · Jan 2015
(14w)
Sydney Ann Jan 2015
Mario is red
Sonic is blue
Please press select
And be my player two
Laugh a little for the holiday season, I think we all need to lighten up a little
402 · Nov 2014
Prisoners Dilemma
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
I am captured
So are you
If we give in our secret's through
I have to choose

Help myself and ditch the stress
Yet betraying you can't be the best

Or hold my silence
Never speak
Trust in you, for you're not weak
We'll keep our secret safe inside
We'll be alone
Hardly alive
Living in a faraway land
Knowing our unspoken plan
And if our bond is strong and true
The secret's kept with me and you
401 · Nov 2014
In The Thick Of It
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
How I love your company
Love sitting here, just you, just me
In holding me you set me free
And in your arms I'm only me
397 · Mar 2015
NEW CHALLENGE IDEA
Sydney Ann Mar 2015
Make a collaboration with everyone. everyone you can get adds a stanza to make a makeshift masterpiece!!! tag it #unitepoems
392 · Nov 2014
My Existence (Part 2)
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
Okay so Polar Opposite and I went on
(Not that I knew what I was doing)
And I learned a lot
Like who I am.

The only problem is
(And I'm not pretending)
I'm not normal.

I have an extreme case of the Not-Normals!

I love who I am but he didn't
So after 18 months
I ended it.

No one ever told me that would be traumatic
(I really should have believed the poetry, right?)

So that leaves me with
• 1 problem
• 1 more story segment

Then I need some help deciding some things
389 · Oct 2015
Untitled
Sydney Ann Oct 2015
I wish I had some meaningful words left for you all
even as I write this I know its finished product is going to be
horrible absolutely
but I love you all dearly
your write such wonderful words
I just wish I had the attention left to read them
Like when I first started to write
and I produced phrases worth hearing
as Robert Frost said and will forever say
Nature's first green is gold
Her hardest hue to hold
I suppose I couldn't stay gold forever
I'll resign to something darker
389 · May 2015
Why am I here?
Sydney Ann May 2015
You.                                 you
Even on the edge
of sleep
of death
of dawn
a knife
You are the thought that keeps me.
I stare at the ceiling
and you are the thought that makes me get up,
the thought of seeing you again

When I wish it was over because
I just can't be alone anymore
thinking of you puts the knife
rope
pills
back on the table
I can't do that without seeing your face
your smile
one
       last
                time
                                              before I sink to the soft black night for forever
You are my dreams
my heart
you
are the reason
I am here
388 · Nov 2014
All I want
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
All I want
Is love and light
  I want arms to hide in
   and lips to kiss mine
377 · Jan 2015
WHAT ARE YOUR FRIENDS LIKE?
Sydney Ann Jan 2015
NEW CHALLENGE: Post a poem starting with friends are like
use the tag: #ourfriends
also tag the friend you're talking about if it's a specific one
                                                         STAY AWESOME
364 · Nov 2014
My Worst Apology Yet
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
I'm sorry that I broke your heart
And tore it up
Said I would restart

I'm sorry that I made you cry
(you tried so hard to hide that detail)
And I probably made you want to die
I feel like we've lost our minds
And that true love had made us blind
I do not deserve forgiveness
For my secrets and my lies
I deserve the shame I carry
In my heart and on my body

I made your feelings turn to darkness
Made you want to shut your eyes

I want you to know I'm sorry
Hurting you's a ****** hobby

All I want to know today
Is if your heart will be okay
If I give up on everything else
I hope that you can be yourself
The you you were before you broke
Your personality up in smoke
I wish this wasn't like some sick joke.
If only he could read this. Sadly he  never took much of an interest in my poetry.
361 · Jan 2015
Get The Reference
Sydney Ann Jan 2015
How to fly:
Step one- get up on a cliff
Step two- jump off said cliff
Step three- forget to hit the ground
352 · Jun 2015
I
Sydney Ann Jun 2015
I
feel listless
and that's enough of a poem for me.
346 · Dec 2014
Where I live
Sydney Ann Dec 2014
I can live inside your eyes
If you'd catch me I could fly

I can breathe when you touch me
We'd be lovers... if you'd let me
I can hear when you whisper
And your words make my heart stir
All I taste is your kiss
(The definition of bliss)

**So now that you've left me
I'm dead inside
I'll never survive
So pull down the blinds
Lock up your doors
I'll probably come find you and devour your soul
324 · Apr 2015
Does it have to be music
Sydney Ann Apr 2015
to be real
for you to feel
for power
to move you
for tears
I feel weak
Vulnerable
if I could only just reach
the well of beauty the musicians do
I could believe again
321 · Nov 2014
A King in the Sky
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
Flutter Flutter Past Me
Your Color Caught my Eye
Orange and Black
on Gentle Wings
Ascend Into the Sky
So excited to be a part of this wonderful community of artists
320 · Nov 2014
Dread
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
Dread is like a worm
Eating you inside
Rages like a fighting storm
There's nowhere left to hide.*

Dread is like a poison
Running through your veins
Always inescapable
It slips inside your brain*

YOU NEVER SEE IT COMING
IT'S ALWAYS AT YOUR SIDE
WAITING FOR THE DARK TO COME
TO TEAR UP YOUR INSIDES
311 · May 2015
when words
Sydney Ann May 2015
are loathsome
drop them
notes are sour
heart is dour
leave them, leave them all
why not?
discard what doesn't serve you
just a little girl here
waiting anxiously to be discarded
please?
310 · Dec 2014
Selfish Love
Sydney Ann Dec 2014
It's funny
How much we revere
Weaknesses
--But only the right ones--

We listen so intently
When peers speak of pain,
But how is Cutting or Drugs,
Heartbreak or Anxiety

Any better than that girl who
Doesn't even have a full two ears?

Sure you say you can love
But ask yourself
Is your love selfish as your peers?

Yea I see you turn away from that boy
Did you ever think maybe
He might be worth a conversation or two?


Well I'll let you in
On a little secret

This world is ugly
Ignoring it doesn't make it go away
And choosing what to see
Just makes it worse

Sometimes I really wonder:
Would you still love me
If you knew of my Femoral Anteversion?
**Or would my crooked leg
Be all you could see?
310 · May 2015
what you don't know
Sydney Ann May 2015
you don't know how much it would mean to me if you smiled
like my opinion doesn't matter well
it has to matter to someone because
I am all alone and of my thoughts
and emotions don't matter then
what have I left?
310 · Jan 2015
Things I Have
Sydney Ann Jan 2015
I have real feelings
I have real dreams
Sometimes I cry
Silently scream

l am a real person
Please listen for once
For I have no choice
Please hear my words
Please give me a voice
I never feel like l am important enough for anyone to listen to me
294 · Nov 2014
What Follows Me
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
I grow inside you
Love the dark
My teeth are sharper
than a shark's.

I'm cold as death
I make you run
(For me that's fun)


You're waiting for me
All the time
I'm hidden in your
children's rhymes.


Ashes ashes you have the plague
Humpty dumpty Rome starts to fade

I'm always here
I'm always near


**So try as you may
To keep me at bay
But I'm here to stay
281 · Nov 2014
Agony in Memory
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
That awful moment
When you see
The one you love
Or find his picture
And you Remember
How you gave him up
And how you never wanted to
And how he's really gone this time
But worst of all
You remember how
You broke his heart
Every day
And now you too
Are broken.
272 · Nov 2014
Miss My Love
Sydney Ann Nov 2014
It's been so long
Since I've seen you
I've started feeling
Rather blue
But I saw you
Walking by
And my heart began
To race and fly
This is fear!
I thought inside
How queer for me to be afraid
To speak up after all these days
Of memories that start to fade
I wonder if you feel the same,
I guess we're going to share the pain.
252 · Dec 2014
Please...
Sydney Ann Dec 2014
If I lay here
                                   If I just Lay Here
Would you lie with me
                                                            And

**Just forget The World
Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
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