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Mar 2016 · 249
Untitled
Alaska Mar 2016
Hi, I love you.
leave me alone.
                               I love you.
                              go away.
                                                    You are loved.
                                                   Bye.
                                                                              Love you always.
                                                                             Stop.
                                                                
                                                                                            I'm never going to stop loving you.
                                                                                            Please do.
                                                  
                                                                             I' will love you forever.
                                                                            Thank you.
                                                
                                                 I love you to the moon and back.
                                                Same for you.
                          
                               I love you more than anything.
                              The feeling is mutual.

I love you.
*I love you too, I always did.
Mar 2016 · 251
Untitled
Alaska Mar 2016
I'm in love
with you

and I don't
want to be

this has happened
before

I can't be
in love with
you because you're
not in love
with me.

And that's okay!
You are not
required to be.

But it's not
good for me,
mentally

to want something
more with someone
I can't have.

*God, please give me the strength to not hold onto these feelings.
Mar 2016 · 245
Reality
Alaska Mar 2016
once I said
it out loud

it started to
become real,
it started to
become clear

it was out
in the open

and now I
was more scared
than ever.
Mar 2016 · 305
Untitled
Alaska Mar 2016
Don't *******                                I didn't                           Not wanting
look at                                            realize it                         to let
me.                                                 was you                          you control
                                                        t­ill I                                 my emotions
It's been                                         passed your                   anymore.
five months                                   rolled down
since you've                                  window.                  ­       Only I
broken me                                                               ­               can control
once again.                                    And you                         my emtions
                                                        a­lready knew
Five months                                  it was                               incompetent *******
since I've                                        me                   ­                 like you
seen your                                                             ­                   don't,
lying face.                                     staring me                        not anymore.
                                                       directly in
I thought                                       the face.
it was
going so                                         That's when
well                                                 anxiety  crept
                                                  ­       up on
but you                                           me once
ruined my                                      again
streak
            ­                                              oh but
five months                                     don't forget
down the                                         the anger
drain.                                               and sadness
                                                         that followed.
I saw                                              
you at                                              I wanted
the place                                         to scream,
where i                                            but I
least expected.                               held it
                                                         all back.
Mar 2016 · 684
Untitled
Alaska Mar 2016
Maybe that's what
I should do.
Step back and
let distance take
its toll.

I don't have
time to have
my heart broken
again.

I'm falling in
love with you
and I don't
know how to
stop.
Mar 2016 · 291
Untitled
Alaska Mar 2016
I do the
things I do
because it's nice
to feel wanted
for once in
my life,
even if it
is just for
a short time.
Mar 2016 · 1.2k
Worth
Alaska Mar 2016
You are not
worthless.
You are worth
more than all
the stars in
the sky,
More than all
the waves that
kiss the shore,
More than all
the birds that
fly the skies,
More than all
the clouds that
float on by,
More than all
the wishes dreamers
make upon dandelions.
You are worth
something.
Mar 2016 · 5.2k
Julius James
Alaska Mar 2016
I held onto his
small fragile body,
like he was my
own.
I cried because of
how beautiful life
can be.
I cried because of
how precious he
was in my arms,
I was literally
holding someone's
life in my hands.
I cried because of
how scared I was
to have him
brought into this
world,
scared because I
wanted to always
protect him,
scared because I
wanted him to
always be safe,
to have the happy
life he deserves.
As his little hand
grasped my pinky
finger,
A tear rolled down
my cheek and I
whispered, "i love  you
and I'm never going to
leave you.
"
Mar 2016 · 774
James and Lucianna
Alaska Mar 2016
I kid you not
when I tell
you that I
used to pray
that I would
see you.
Because what
we had,
I thought was
real.
But little did
I know,
while I was
praying for you,
I was actually
praying for the
*****, that
pretended to be
you.
Mar 2016 · 398
Not Again
Alaska Mar 2016
This is not
happening
again.
No.
I will not
fall for
someone
who I
know
will
never love
me.
Not again.
Mar 2016 · 327
You
Alaska Mar 2016
You
Sadness fills my body
As I think about how
I could never have
A chance with
You.
Oh how I wish I
Could be yours one
Day.
Mar 2016 · 1.0k
Take Me...
Alaska Mar 2016
Take me away
from here, from this
place.
Take me far, far,
away.
Take me on an
adventure.
Take me somewhere
we can fall in
love.
Take me somewhere
we could be
happy.
Take me somewhere
we could make
memories.
Feb 2016 · 358
Message From Your Heart
Alaska Feb 2016
I know you're scared,
but it's okay.
I know you love
him.
It's okay to take a risk
again.
If he's not the one,
he's not the
one.
You may get hurt,
but you may
not.
You're strong and
you will
heal.
You're gonna be
okay.
But if he's the one,
well that's another
story isn't
it?
Feb 2016 · 633
Untitled
Alaska Feb 2016
Am I pushing
you away?
I can't tell if
I am.
If i was,
would you tell
me?
I don't mean to.
If I do, maybe
it's because  I
already know
you're going to
leave me like
everyone else.
So I guess I just
make it happen
sooner.
I'm sorry.
I'd rather hurt
now then later
I guess.
Feb 2016 · 401
Untitled
Alaska Feb 2016
I was no  longer
innocent.
I was no longer
considered a
*****.
You made me
feel like that
was a bad thing.
But being innocent
is one of the best
things you can be.
Don't lose it
because you're
told it's bad, lose
your innocence
when you want
to.
When you're
ready.
Feb 2016 · 368
Untitled
Alaska Feb 2016
You knew I was
innocent.
You saw it as an
opportunity to
use me.
You thought I
was easy, so
it didn't matter
if you hurt me.
You knew I had
feelings for you,
so you used that
to your
advantage.
All I wanted
was to be with you,
but all you wanted
was my body...
Feb 2016 · 425
Realizations
Alaska Feb 2016
I can't seem to
fall asleep
anymore.
I lay awake
in bed staring
at my barren
ceiling,
thinking.
Thinking about
how broken I
am...how you
broke me...
It's been 5
******* years
and I'm still
trying to put
myself back
together from
the first time.
I'm still trying
to mend all my
pieces into one
again.
I don't think I
ever really
realized how
broken you
made me till
now...
But one day I
will be whole
again.
Feb 2016 · 296
Faith
Alaska Feb 2016
All you
need is
him.
Call to
him
when
you are
lonely.
Call to
him
when
you are
weak.
But most
importantly
call to him
when you're
strong.
Call to him
when you're
found.
Call to him
always.
Trust in
him only.
Feb 2016 · 333
Liar
Alaska Feb 2016
I despise
the word.
All
memories
rush back to
me when it
is uttered.
If you are
one, stay
away.
Stay far,
far away.
I'm sick of
all the pain
people like
you, have
caused me.
I don't need
another one
in my life .
You
destroyed
me.
Feb 2016 · 373
You love me...
Alaska Feb 2016
You love me
even when I'm
not worth loving.
You love me
knowing all that
I've done.
You love me
even though I
am a daisy and
not a rose.
You love me
when I'm not as
bright as the sun,
but as dark as
thunder clouds.
You love me
for me and I've
never been so
blessed.
Feb 2016 · 682
Closure without Encounter
Alaska Feb 2016
I sat in my classes
not paying attention.
Why you ask?
Because I was so
consumed in my
thoughts of you,
that I started to
write you a letter
in which you would
never receive,
But I would
indeed receive the
closure that I deserve
except without an
encounter.
Feb 2016 · 501
A Kiss
Alaska Feb 2016
A kiss you say?
Well it means
nothing to me.
I feel nothing,
but numbness.
I won't recall
it the next day.
You kissed me
you say?
Sorry, I
must have
forgot..
Feb 2016 · 259
Lonely
Alaska Feb 2016
Being lonely isn't so bad.
I used to despise it, but
now I crave it.
Feb 2016 · 184
Too long
Alaska Feb 2016
Time to
move on
its been
too long.
Four years
is enough.
My heart
can't take
the pain
anymore.
It's over.
Feb 2016 · 3.9k
I'm in love with...
Alaska Feb 2016
I'm in love with
the most
handsomest man
with the most
breathtaking smile
and the cutest
dimples.
Not to mention the
most mysterious
brown  eyes.
But wait there's a
catch.
He's not in love
with me...
Feb 2016 · 270
She
Alaska Feb 2016
She
She hopes and prays that one day she'll leave this town and leave her past behind. She wants to forget, but she can't. She tries and tries but nothing seems to work, so she cries herself to sleep each night. All her friends think she's alright, but that's just an act she puts on. She feels all alone, depressed and doesn't know what to do with herself anymore.  She doesn't tell anyone her problems because she realized no one cares. She sometimes is suicidal and thinks the blade helps. Music is her only friend and helps her get through her constant anxiety attacks. She's insecure but can't help it. She wants to end it all, but she knows she'll go to hell.
Feb 2016 · 413
To the Future
Alaska Feb 2016
I'm extremely
happy to have
learned how to
keep my head
high and keep
looking forward
rather than
looking behind
me and seeing
your face
which is
far gone in
the past.
Feb 2016 · 467
Deadly Cravings
Alaska Feb 2016
It's
disgusting
that I crave
it.
I want it to
stop the
emotional
pain
and replace
it with
physical.
I crave
the feeling.
I'm sick.
Feb 2016 · 225
Not the same
Alaska Feb 2016
I loved you.
Keyword:
loved.
Past tense.
I used to love
you, that is the
conclusion I have
drawn.
But just like the
love I had for you
then,
you are also no
longer apart of me.
Feb 2016 · 369
Your Smile
Alaska Feb 2016
I can't help
but smile
every time
I see you
smile, but
my heart
can't help
but ache.
It is as if
it is killing
me slowly
since it's
just another
reminder that
I cannot have
you.
Feb 2016 · 383
Don't
Alaska Feb 2016
do not compare.
do not do it.
you will regret it
and it will only
make you sick.
Make yourself
good enough
for you and
no one else,
because in
the end that
is all that
matters.
Feb 2016 · 354
Did you mean it?
Alaska Feb 2016
"I love you."
"I love you too."
These were the
words we once
exchanged, but
are now just a
blur.
And oh how I
wish I could  
hear your
voice and feel
your heartbeat,
just to know if
you meant it
as much as I
did.
Feb 2016 · 430
Untitled
Alaska Feb 2016
Why had she
kept trying...?
Was the question
she was constantly
asked.
She always laughed
and shook her head.
The answer was
obvious she thought.
You don't just give
up on the one you
love that easily...
because you're
still holding
onto the hope
that one day
they will
love you
again.
Feb 2016 · 277
Trust
Alaska Feb 2016
At one point
in my life
you were
the only
one I truly
trusted but,
now you are
the last one
I would ever
trust or even
utter a single
word to.
Feb 2016 · 742
Beautiful
Alaska Feb 2016
Beautiful.
What is
beautiful*?
Clearly,
it's something
I am not
if no one
dares to
look at
me in
such a
way, or
even utter
such a
word to
me.
Feb 2016 · 1.1k
Burden
Alaska Feb 2016
She loved
him more
than he
could ever
love her.
She knew
she had
to let go,
so he
could
finally be
happy with
the one he
deeply and
truly loved.
To lift
the burden
that she
was, off
his shoulders.
Feb 2016 · 328
Broken
Alaska Feb 2016
My heart
shattered into
a billion pieces
like glass
hitting the
pavement
as I saw you
kiss her,
wishing it was
me.
Feb 2016 · 481
Wasted Years
Alaska Feb 2016
You had called me
a word
I had never heard.
You called me
a word
I did not know
I could be.
You called me
a word
that made me fall,
that made me fall so
**** hard for over
four long straight
years.
All because of that
one foreign word
you had called me...
Beautiful.
Feb 2016 · 274
Untitled
Alaska Feb 2016
I don't know...
Is it so bad to
want a friendship
you once had back?
One that you miss so much,
that your heart aches?
One that you miss so much,
you get so anxious and begin to
to cry when you're alone in
your room at night?
One that you miss so much,
that when you see them
you can't breathe and can't help
but shake?
If that's that's the case,
then call me me a
******* criminal.
Feb 2016 · 450
Recoil
Alaska Feb 2016
What would you
like to recoil?
Our friendship?
Our feelings for
one another?
Well, mostly mine.
Or just nothing?
Personally, I
would like to
forget you completely,
which i think you would
prefer as well,
or you really could
care less.
So let's be nothing,
just as if we had
never met.
Feb 2016 · 591
Nothing
Alaska Feb 2016
I'm really
nothing special.
Ask anyone
about me
and they
will say,
"who?"
I'm a nobody.
Actually,
I'm nothing.
Feb 2016 · 282
Sleepless
Alaska Feb 2016
Lately it seems
you're always
in my dreams
and that makes me
never want to sleep
because
I don'want to see you.
I don't want to see you,
even if it's only in my
dreams.
But is it really a
dream or rather
a nightmare?

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