Jan 9

My father never left me
I came to him every day
I knew he loved me
And he disciplined me for only good

My father never hurt me
Unless it was for fun for me
He thought precious things of me: For me
I was drowned in love

My father never knew me
i grew into my own
I neglected his love that God planted in him for me
He grew old and weary and began to drive me crazy

I never knew my father
i began searching for him
When I found him. I recieved love and pleasure
I found myself lost as i called for my daddy

My father is my daddy
He made me his plan with his lover
To nurture me, support and take care of me
The way I've always known him is as my daddy

My daddy is not my father
My daddy does not exist
The orgasms i cum while in my bed annihilate me
My inadequacies face me eye to eye

My daddy loves me so much
I keep his life going and going
He knows God and His blessings by me
His passions are the cosmos of life's reality for me

My daddy is who i realize he is
My daddy is who i realize he is
He was my daddy and always will be
He was my daddy as my heart lost my daddy

Every first verse is my biological father
Every second verse is my "gay lover"

except the last verse, it goes for each other line.

by Arcassin Burnham

Like an angel forsaken and dipped in hellfire,
she was a girl of many things and many talents when the school whores
don't really expire,
she was a good liar,
she was something more electric like a live wire,
Did so many things that she wasn't proud of that a real teen wouldn't do,
girls all over school disgracing her name , like just be glad it wasn't you,
been at it since 8th grade and still ain't change in the actual,
But a nice home , good man ,two kids and a dog would be virtual,
Almost like a simulation because she thinks it won't ever happen,
remembering her last boyfriend , her was eyes were blackened,
was never a role model , she'd tell them to join the wagon,
i'll meet you at the bus stop,

As beautiful as heaven and destructive like her dad,
lived at nana's house to go to school , she was the only one she had,
and she was always sad,
because her grand daughter that she loved dearly was simply
going mad,
Had her first child with a guy that'll never leave her side,
that'll never black her eyes , that'll never make her cry,
but instead in the midst of situations he would dry her eyes,
took her to rehab and showed how to be a strong person,
He Saved her life before her life could even worsen,
I see your happy at the bus stop.

#love   #words   #girl   #drugs   #abuse   #liar   #loved   #forsaken   #blackened  

I miss the times when you were here telling me to have no fear, to hold my head up high and strong, add happy notes to my sad song.
I miss the way you looked at me as if I were too blind to see the path I was on might hurt and scathe
But all goes well if you just have faith.

I miss the sound of your voice through bitter times , a saving noise that told me what was right and wrong but rang in my ears for far too long.

A caring person that helped and hurt me so much..
You'd guide and mislead me through the day. You left me lonely when I'd rather you stay..

Over things like that you had no control. A rock set in motion will continue to roll..

Then one day you never returned. My tears were so hot they burned.
Aware now about what I lack, crying and mourning won't bring you back

For me to let out what I need to say, I can't do much more than pray
I no longer want to feel weak, my hearts been quite strong. I'm still adding a happy chorus to a sad, sad song.

#lost   #loved   #ones  
Atul Kaushal
Atul Kaushal
Dec 29, 2016

The other time death greeted me warmly,
On the night of Christmas Eve I slept.

But I woke up to have a frozen body,
Enter I did a fearful living nightmare.

Lost was my control over myself,
On my own limbs I lost free will,
Very late I seemed to regain it,
Enter I did a frightful thought,
Dying unloved by someone truly.

I seem to have a disorder with my body temperature which may be related to my blood pressure falling too low when I am asleep.

My HP Poem #1355
©Atul Kaushal
#death   #sleep   #be   #wish   #last   #to   #freezing   #loved   #christmas   #eve  
Chris Neilson
Chris Neilson
Dec 28, 2016

A sadness in your eyes
belies your compulsive smile
retreating to the sanctuary of silence
to prevent the extra mile

A lifetime of comic timing
blunted by age and time
afflicted by a lack of alacrity
a loss of rhythm, no reason or rhyme

Cruelty undeserving of one so loved
tearing at all you hold dear
living in an empty shell of past memories
gripped by confusion and fear

This sonnet for you I penned
but this broken heart may never mend

A personal piece
#broken   #fear   #heart   #sadness   #memory   #loved   #confusion  
Atul Kaushal
Atul Kaushal
Dec 26, 2016

I wanted the girl,
As I loved her, and,
She reflected my love.
But it's a thing of the past.
She reflected my love,
As I loved her, and,
I wanted the girl.

My HP Poem #1342
©Atul Kaushal
#of   #one   #my   #loved   #interests   #veiled  
David P Carroll
David P Carroll
Dec 16, 2016

As we would cuddle hug and hold hands together and feel loved together and peace together and our hearts would truly be beating together in perfect harmony adm we kiss passionately our hearts smile together in perfect harmony and passionate love.

David P Carroll
Feeling Loved Together
Dec 15, 2016

You didn't love her.
You loved the substance of frail warm body.
Which meant not being alone.

You didn't love her.
You loved how she was swift in bed and touched ever nerve in your body.
Which meant sex every night, even if she didn't want it.

You didn't love her.
You loved the idea of her. The idea of someone to lift you up.
Which meant forgetting about all your faults by putting them on her.

You didn't love her.
God dammit you didn't

Because while you were wildly in love with your moonlit fantasy,
you made her think she actually mattered.
Because while you made her undress in shaking hands and tears welted in her eyes,
you made her think she actually mattered.
Because while you stared in her eyes whispering lies of the future when you were only thinking about what she was wearing under her dress,
you made her think she actually fucking mattered.

So no, my dear friend.
You didn't love her.
Because you do not break people that you love.

This is really just raw journaling. Maybe not my best work but I needed to put words on paper
#love   #lies   #relationships   #break   #friend   #no   #loved   #sexual   #rape   #bodyimage  
Joshua Mahoney
Joshua Mahoney
Dec 15, 2016

It's the little things that I know is true
Its the little things I saved that make me kinda blue

Told me I need to grow, my roots develop before forming my soul..
Craved who you are and who you will be

Hit me like no other drug
Too much, too soon
Too little, too late

head full of better off dead
not enough days left in this bitter memory....afraid to lose you until now

#love   #drugs   #world   #always   #you   #loved  
Robert J Howard
Robert J Howard
Dec 12, 2016

You had no choice
But to leave me
You walked away
And gone was the day.

They say you're in a better place
But I'm not so sure
Gone far too soon
I'm left like a ruin.

Thou shall be missed
Never forgotten
Alive not dead
In my heart, body and head.

#loss   #away   #gone   #loved   #rip   #ones  
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