From white sakura in the garden way,
had gone the milky odor sprey.
and icy heart of flooding sense
that is not me ....
that pencil wispered to a paper sheet...
The sun kisses mountines , fields
Reflect on Caspian black waters ...
May be i dream of early twilight moon,
Ridding the pinky horse ....
that is not me ...
that pencil wispered to a paper sheet...
I sent the doves with posts
three or four indeed....but...
They hadnt been read .
may be they still in net...
You sang me the song on the old quatar,
fingers dance a melody ...Habibi ...
Are you alive ?
Then i greet you with hugs
Then ...i will die from hapiness
Just for you...Habibi !
Please be alive ...let me know ....
that is not me ...
that pencil wispered to a paper sheet...

From white sakura in the garden way,
had gone the milky odor sprey.
and icy heart of flooding sense
that is not me ....
that pencil wispered to a paper sheet...
The sun kisses mountines , fields
Reflect on Caspian black waters ...
May be i dream of early twilight moon,
Ridding the pinky horse ....
that is not me ...
that pencil wispered to a paper sheet...
I sent the doves with posts
three or four indeed....but...
They hadnt been read .
may be they still in net...
You sang me the song on the old quatar,
fingers dance a melody ...Habibi ...
Are you alive ?
Then i greet you with hugs
Then ...i will die from hapiness
Just for you...Habibi !
Please be alive ...let me know ....
that is not me ...
that pencil wispered to a paper sheet...

Fury,
Raging on for the forgetfulness of others, whom have ruined a deed which was to be noble, now erased and never to be fulfilled again,
Know my hatred, I wispered, alike a young child whilst getting lost in a mist, clouding my sight, my thoughts and my hopes to be ever good
For, if I can't be good because of others ruining my precious deeds,
I shall bring darkness myself, so evil, devilish shadows take over,
Unable to protect my heart, once filled with love from the heavens
Unable to open my eyes again which were trapped in misery,
I was killed, then forgotten since a long past,
Worried about what would be then, I laughed, because there was no way I could escape now, the pleasure of the unknown overcame me,
If the sins I had birthed at least could be forgiven, for all that has been done, my heart would sublimate, then finally rest for good,
But my dreams end, here where your brilliant smile begins to rot,
I am but trapped, within layers upon layers of darkness

~ Umi

The sky is so blue, yet so very sorrowful,
Here in my prison, these thoughts just won't fade,
Exiled from a holy world into a lonesome, somber lunacy,
This painful day, the dream of a better, hopeful tomorrow,
Are truly the light of my fading consciousness in this hell,
So I went to count the days till judgement deems me pure again, until I may become whole once more from these broken shards of the past,
Budding sprouts begin to bloom quietly, as the timeless seasons rush by and vanish into the bittersweet remembrance of ones memories,
"Stay, even if you're weak, dear conscious" I wispered to myself as then my tired eyes got distracted for a brief moment,
Time already had come to an inevitable halt, so at least my pocketwatch told me after letting out one last, delicate ticking sound,
With that, the phantoms of my past had laid down to rest, as the coming dawn greeted me by displaying the fading stars of the sky,
This is truly a repeated tale I endure in this pitiful isolation,
But if my painful past were to be erased, the last brilliance of my life would be deemed lost, for the darkest moments truly are a gift from above, helping us to determine moments of joy, bliss and purest love,
So I hope that one day, this body of mine will swift into prayers, hopefully in the beauty of an unclouded light, filled with moonlight,
Maybe then, I can finally move on, leave this lunacy far behind me,
Deep inside these puzzled eyes give me courage,
Despite being sealed away I shall discard everything and challenge this unmerciful fate of mine,
Then I can reach that sky, where my ideals are displayed,
Surely freedom awaits the border of consciousness, at least I hope,
Love blooms on the waters surface, filled with countless tears
And with this newfound freedom I can withdraw myself in this wonderful, pure holy world I waited for so long!
Despite it being distant a fantasy,
I dream of a hopeful tomorrow,
Here, in my exile.

~ Umi

****** comersials on your average tv

next a show about teen pregnancy

followed by todlers in tiaras dressed as prostitutes on tlc

parents blaime others for 16 year old mothers

and guys who are allready left there seed

this isnt what its supposed to be

somethings different but when have life ever been as it seems

irational thoughts leave children with adult like dreams

, such as one day ill be the one on a movie screens

makin more money then my parents have ever seen.

intangible like the concepts we hold of love

. thinkin physical prosperity is owed since birth

but the only thing that is certain we shall die and decay like all things on earth

. then to those that beleive in love it is just a dream to keep our minds from becoming caotic and obscene

formaly known as lust to me

so then theres the question is it worth it to love at all

so you must ask if the high of belonging is worth the fall?

like love is a narcotic that we are injected with at birth from the first time being held.

instantly addicted  going from good days of smiles and your feet light as air

to the moments claiming you dont care but you cant stop shaking and you pull out your once beautiful hair.

thinkin looking at the stick wondering why would you go there

why did you let him carress and touch u

why did u ever give your purity up.

he wispered sweet nothings but you could never tell,

you could of even made him wear protection but now you think of you parents n how could you live this hell

you created this child inside of you

little bump a light kick as your face turns a new

this warming glow thst would change your life

but now mommy in the tub found her knife

A
Street dog
Wispered
to my ears
"The trust in people
grow back
Even
when they stone me.."

I nearly passed out... Or did I?  Wait!  
I need to help the darkness princess..
I must swim up!
I must save them all!

I emerge from the shadow filled pond that was formely a prison cell of some sort.  It held captive the princess of darkness.  They were all waiting for me! I felt all of their touch. I felt her hold me.  I then felt her breathe. She wispered into my ear.. " Thank you... Please help me take my world back. Help me spread my benevolent darkness to this endless light.  Pleaseeeeeee.. I need your shadow, I need your shade,  I need your darkness to spread today.  You are the Shadow savior.. The twilight song,  The blessing of shades... "  As she held me I noticed that my darkness started to spread into the air itself. I felt a shift inside my heart as I gave myself all to the darkness! I could now spread darkness without physical touch.  I was now a dark star in a world of light.  I grew and I grew.. The light beings were all trying to run away from me.. I was a singularity, I was a black hole!  My sadness grew infinite! I was a sad shade and shadow! This world of light was no world at all! It was the very sun that gave life to us all.  The dark princess laughed at my mistake.. She laughed at her deceit!!
COME ON KID!!   COME ON KID!!! COME ON KID!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!­!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and how we have traveled this night
how we have lived a thousand lifetimes in these  hours
while they wispered in desperate quiet
we sang and danced and let our hair free
your coming home to me lover
my arms and my heart ache for you

never ever leave again
with you i sail over this world with such freedom
without you my love
i am mortal with feet of clay

pennys on the pound broker the deal
we shall pay the ferryman to take us
back across the river styx
and away from the dark forboding hills

with you my love
i can defeat the world.

I've been on the edge of my seat
Waiting for a chance to meet
Another bad one.

Wake me up from out of this sleep.
Give to me some secrets to keep.
Start with a bad one.

Where is love and raising hell;
Spitting fire in a cheap motel;
Angry friction in the eyes
Of desire, and fearless rides
On wheels of fury in the night
That burn the roads and holds me tight?

Cover me with intoxication
Like a sheath of skin over blade.

Where is greed and desperation,
And running from them to each other?
I remember when the living was real,
And the passion was always a thrill,
Anchored in the pounding hearts
That were bound to top the charts.

Blowing wilder than the wind,
I'm never going home again.

I've been on the edge of my seat,
Waiting for a chance to meet
Another bad one.

Wake me up from out of this sleep.
Give to me some secrets to keep.
Start with a bad one.

Is love born out of some kind of need?
Is the feeling still somewhere in me?
I need to be a bullet fired
Entangled in what has transpired,
And wispered like a scream on fire.
Climbing night time rage and wire,
Two for one and sacred pyer.
Acid venom and supplier.

Running like a theif in the night
Hiding in the briar from the light.

I've been on the edge of my seat,
Waiting for a chance to meet
Another bad one.

Wake me up from out of this sleep.
Give to me some secrets to keep.
Start with a bad one.

...And it's fast.

...And it's strong.

...And it's done.

...And it's gone.

Your wispers were made of light..
The words you wispered would let me see the light with memory..
How I remember it clearly..

We bring darkness with us everywhere. In any light we cast a shadow behind us..
Even the most pure cast such darkness..  
The closer you get to any light the bigger your shadow becomes behind you..

As I write my shadow writes with me..
My words are made of darkness, while his are made of light..

Nearly 2 am and im up taking shots of wiskey using the sweet words you wispered into my ear as a chaser

I just realized that the stars spell out your name perfectly on my left arm

Thats when I threw my half empty bottle at this desk where ive spent so many drunken nights writing about you and I used a peice of the broken glass to scratch out the beautiful consolations.

Let's write a book together
Stitch outselves up right in between a Sunday morning and a wispered connection
Bind our thoughts and words together
Keep them tough in leach blank ink
We'll put ourselves on coffee tables, for others to read
Laugh jolly fables at our friends
Because when we kissed, we wrote the sweetest poetry

in my darkness..
forever black..
falling down this abyss

she smiled light..
she wispered glow..
she sang to me a song of shine..

for the first time..
i saw heaven in hell..
i was being pulled back up..

she held my hand..
she made my heart beat..
colors returned to my eyes..

heaven has always been here with me..
it was she..
i can smile yet again...

If you're the kind of girl that boys want to shout smiles at on the street
Nod politely and return an upwards glancs
Don't release the keys because his words wraped you up in a poem
A haiku, a hymn, a wispered promise
Do not confuse a welcome back from heaven touch
For a foreign enemy of your hemline
Take his compliment and move on
You are not a treasure
Not his treasure
You're a pretty ashtray to someone who lost his sanctity 6 blocks back

you push me on to the stage
with all those bright lights
shining on me my fear of what words being wispered
i start to choke up feeling anxiety that starys making me shake
all the people just looking threw me
all i can do is  feeling my heart racing with my mind following behind
my hands start to shake when i feel like i m going to puke
i feel like i cant breath when every ones face turned blank
i feel like im going to pass out even if push me to far
the mike is listening as the day turned round
all that you havee done is turn my life upside down when
i couldnt speak
look at the entire crowed just making you fear for what they think you want to say

all i feel i can do is feel my heart and mind racing behind
you took my confidence away from me you took my breath my tears away that lead nothing

you broke me and tour me apart.

theres nothing exept my trust that u broke


all i can hear is my spoken poetry that hides deep in side me


scared my anxiety is out of control i want to to puke on the floor i feel shaky and cant talk im frozen in my spot

my trust be gain to freez  

my anxiety diggs it claws threw the back save me cause the stage fright is making me a wreak  alive


stage fright has taken my life to hollow me out

i never got to tell you how i soaked
up every word that was wispered from your lips.
I was sure you were true
so i locked your promises in my mind,
unknowing the toll they would take on me.
Now im spending my time,
squirming on my bed,
grasping my head
and trying to shake your words from my memory
considering they are of no use
except taking up space
im lucky that a few get blurred by my rare tears.
when they drip d0wn my cheeks
i can feel their suprising warmth
and it reminds me of you
how warm it was lying next to you
feeling your arms safely around me
the only thoughts running through my mind
where how i could never loose you
you told me i was the only thing you needed
i was yours forever and always
i had no clue my forever would end that friday
now im only left facing
and empty void

When you run, with feet following army like commands
Strong flight through wispered haven, you stand untouchable
Its the moments when you stop
When you breath. Exhale.
Its the moments when youre stuck between an impulse and a drag
The cracks widen and you don't even realize you're falling
The pull you in to a place beyond rescue
Face first fury
Wide eyed you can't remember what moment what decision what happened to bring you to this place
No blond girl with eyes of gloried youth tells herself this is what she's going to end up like
Nobody would wish it upon themselves or anyone else
The cracks widen and you tear the pages of a book written with ink you taste through your blood. You gasp for air and the exhale gets stolen
Taken with red finger tips, another reminder, and placed on your door
Remember the weakness
Remember how you swore this was the last time
Take your breath back
Cry inky tears as you bring it down under your skin
Its yours again but its alien and foreign and you cry until the ink bleeds wine
You had youth on your side and desperation in your veins
No rehabs cures breathlessness
That's the goal after all this time
Bring back the blond haired girl with a sharp nose and a crave for sharp love

Say again...
     so, that i can hear you.
          What were those pale eyes,
               they wispered to me
                    truth;
               wanton flirtations and sensitive appeal.
Regard...
     its handsome passion,
          the strength,
               slight movements,
     of constant arousal.
          Reassure any desire.

Everyone's writing poem on wall,
for me it ws just a free from boredom call.
I wanted 2 write about somethg new,
But all I hav is d memories of u.

listening 2 Rihana's unfaithful,
thinking of u being regretful,
half burnt cigrette in my hand,
regretful vid ur absence in dis heart.

Missing every thing about u,
missing every day without u,
Dis stupid n awful heart of mine,
doesnt even knw how 2 liv n shine.

d way u kissed my neck 2 lips,
I was quenching ma lust vid ur mesmerizing kiss,
when u wispered dose three words,
Ur lov beside me, i can fight against d world.

What was ' I ' in ur happy life,
just a letter 2 fill between L n F,
u threw me out ven I needed u d most,
in ma own world I was lonely n lost.

To hav u back, I prayed 2 gods,
I wished upon stars,
I made hundred paper cranes,
But u never return bck 2 dis lanes.

One more second and I'll be your serenade,  dont say goodbye.  I looked into your eyes and as I told you not to cry, and you kissed me, you kissed me. I will stop pretending,  and I will still be standing for this, I'll stand up for you

I'll try to make sense of this if you'll take a chance on this, and for a girl who's gotten her heart broken I'll write a song so it's spoken that her heart's whole, and those scars are gone.

And I tasted you lips, felt the sway in your hips, and I wispered a prayer, one that you answered, and I held you close, saw the crinkle on your nose, and I tasted your lips one last time

Have you seen this girl? She's been running around my head. Have you seen this girl? She's the last thing on my mind before bed.  Have you seen this girl? She no longer has teared stained eyes. Have you seen this girl? With her in my arms is where I want to lie

And I'll try to make sense of this if you'll take a chance on this, and for a girl who's gotten her heart broken I'll write a song so it's spoken that her heart's whole, and those scars are gone.

I search my reflection        
Which I suppose represents my emotion
In turn a darkness stares back at me
I see a stranger, who looks like me
Grumpy without a hint of a smile
Only anger and bitterness is willing to shine
Refusing to reconcile with my siblings
Thinking they are absurd with they own living
Yet...
While my most hurtful feelings are being expressed their determination ,shows me lam being heard.  
Now m left with these Mixed emotions which don't appear in my refection
Who am ?
Stranger wispered
I am the me you will never get to be!

Inside the broken building under the tall trees.
There was a hall.
Perfect and clean.
With lights that shine green.

Curiosity wispered to my soul.
Please keep on walking.
Lets find out whats below.

There was another hall.
Almost exactly the same.
Perfect and clean.
With lights that shined green.

The door way out of inside.
Went right back outside.
The trees I remembered here.
Had already died.

I walked across time.
In a moment in an instant.
Across the universe.
Where I only existed.
I N S I D E

Like cold morning air
you make me struggle
for breath

I could brush against you gently

the hair on your arms will rise

I could tell you you're beautiful

you will smile and tell me no

you wispered so softly
I  could hardly hear you.
did you say that you cared?
no
i guess not......

your truth
is silenced
by how you'd love to seem

And he gazed into her eyes like lenses peering into her soul; she was transparent. And invisible she wanted those rough, tough and hard parts to be unlovablly hidden. she did not understand why he looked right through those bits, they were as transparent to him as glass, he was not bothered. he  looked onward, inward, to her core and wispered close and softly to what was locked there; I am not of your past, I would be in your future, and i am of your now, as much as the air surrounds you I am here it is me, come out to meet me, come out and see

Broken hearts
Mine, in particular, was made of glass.
Yes it had cracks and scratches
From break ups, and let downs. And small little frowns
Never had I felt real heart break.
A heart made of glass.
And you dropped it.
Threw it onto the ground really.
And started to grind it under your ***** shoes.
And I looked you in the eyes, and told you that it was okay, I looked at you and smiled as tears ran down my face.
Not seeming to be able to get out quite fast enough.
You wispered lies to me.
And I almost believed them.
But you don't just leave, someone you care about.
You don't just give up and smash every bit  of them into tiny little pieces.
That is not caring about someone.
that is not love.
Worse than I'd do to any enemy.
Any foe.
Any rival.
You've broken my heart.
And I cant quite find the courage
To bleed and break my fingers
Picking up the shards

we follow all your rules. if we disobay our punishment grows stronger as we go.
every thing is slowly ****** up my the corrupt ******* at the end of the day.
we have secrets wispered threw code. every one is rebeling the system. wuith all there might and force.
the riots grow but the death toll stays lower.
i am the one who you should follow to find all the peaces that the bastareds ripped to shreds. i stand my ground with life in my mind and ****** ******* hate flowing threw my vains.

i hade enough of your foolish games i dont want this world to suffer like i want to make you cry for your own life as my small army grows and grows till you get the point. we don't kindly take over powering jack ***** who over throw society.
we don't stand for killing the week and powerless.

so ill show you a riot that will make you turn in to hell.

no more pain. we stand to gather our ground to show the point we will make all around this world that corupts

"Do you trust me?" She wispered in his ear.
While she snaked around his body and
pulled him closer.
his heart beat quickened.
Her transparent intent; to slate.
Her hands tilting his neck to the side, mouth hovererd menacingly above flesh.
Four little words and a world at stake.
And as she wrapped around him
In this visibly vunerable state;
All she wanted to know was
If he had faith.

Your wispers were made of light..
The words you wispered would let me see the light with memory..
How I remember it clearly..

We bring darkness with us everywhere. In any light we cast a shadow behind us..
Even the most pure cast such darkness..  
The closer you get to any light the bigger your shadow becomes behind you..

As I write my shadow writes with me..
My words are made of darkness, while his are made of light..

cobwebs shimirring in the tree's rivers and streams a magical dream...
and I hear the soft faint wisper and I think it might be your voice I hear the day is long another sad sad song is this where I belong? I sound of the past come rushing in so fast i'm not even sure if I'm hearing the word of what is faintly being wispered and I hear your voice today is a new tomorrow is the neverending story I'm still yet to fill that page with the word of the sound in my mind the sound i think might be you i hope to leave the un said not said and wait for you I'll spend to the end of the day begining with the cob webs shimirring in the trees and the leaves that spek a soft faint wiper of what I think just ,may be you