"lonelyness" poems
Lonelyness is the feeling of having a vaccum in my whole body and soul..
May 12, 2015
May 12, 2015 at 9:56 AM UTC
again
I’m crashed
against the wall of solitude
again
the flight of waiting
inexorably went down
again
I'm not even worth a no to you
only silence
absence
[ ]
I’m alone in my lonelyness
Feb 13, 2018
Feb 13, 2018 at 8:41 AM UTC
When I used to be alone...
*My heart had a different tone...
When you showed up in my life ..
You made me feel warm...
My heart beats are singing..
I love you...yes...I do.....
You cancelled my sadness...
Got ridoff my lonelyness virus....
Finally tasting the core meaning of kindness
Hearing inside my soul
The sound of Seirenes....
My prayers had been answered*
Nov 29, 2014
Nov 29, 2014 at 11:28 AM UTC
Behind the mountains the sun hides and is no more. The city glimmers of diamonds lights tonight. You are the city in my heart that shines. Without you it is not alive. Only lonelyness with blackouts in the streets tonight. Glimmering lights and joys no more. I find myself waiting for you by the door. But no one comes here anymore. I know your here somewhere in plain sight. I will not give up for our fate will restore our love again. Bring it back to life as it has before. Im restless without you here. Going to a new home now so far and so near. But not to you! You are my home and thats where i belong. Where are u my love?
May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 1:54 AM UTC
I feel trapped
Trapped in my own thoughts
The walls of lonelyness
is increasing me
I have this newborn feeling
It feels like i'm dying inside
and while the sunshine fades
Will the darkness take me away
Jan 19, 2015
Jan 19, 2015 at 3:37 PM UTC
Didn't expect that life without you was going be so hard.
Yes I am lonely.
And I did not expect that lonelyness could be so hurtful.
May 3, 2019
May 3, 2019 at 10:48 AM UTC
Ive given everything up to make everyone happy hoping i would eventually be happy but it seems as though god likes ******* with me. the woman i love moved while i was at work. i dont know if she even loves me like she says she does. i havent wanted anyone else but her. i tried to get her off my mind but i cant. i feel it in my heart that shes my soul mate, my better half, my everything but no matter what i do i just mess everything up and make her hate me more. maybe gods plan for me was eternal damnnation and eternial lonelyness. maybe his plan was for me **** my self. i dont want anyone but her i never truely clicked with anyone but her. hell if i had to sacrifice my own life for her id do it in the bling of an eye or better yet faster than sound or light. i would do anything for her no matter the cost. but god has a sick twisted mind and every time im finally happy it gets ripped away from me. i have just about had enough of this ****** torture i want to just say ***** it and end it once and for all.
Mar 7, 2014
Mar 7, 2014 at 1:12 AM UTC
There’s the man walking alone,
who’s a friend I've known for long
With things that happened around you,
the sadness won’t be blew
I see the blood in your eyes,
I see the love in disguise,
I see the pain hidden in your pride,
and you are not satisfied.
Sadness, lonelyness, sorrows,
the dreams have died, the hope has died.
Existence with no reasons.
Your life’s just passing within each season.
I see the truth in your lies,
I see the guilt beneath the shame,
I see your soul through your window pane,
and nobody’s by your side...
Everything happened just doesn't seem right,
Is it just a dream, or my own reflection on the broken mirror...?
May 14, 2013
May 14, 2013 at 9:20 PM UTC
i.
eating chocolate-chip fudge cake
heart racing pounding
surrounded with flesh
suffocated, constricted, fighting,
living
for guilty pleasures yearning
digestive juices to action
there is purpose, conviction
the food eaten, none
calories wasted heat not raised
such first world problems, is control
ii.
guilty pleasures
a woman walks up to you
her body for sale
she asks for a chance
to take your money
you quoth bill, she accepts
judgment, opinion, cravings,
the touch sweat confuses for
not loving back
you’re still lost
not having a girlfriend anyway
curb, not succumb to such drive
you’re not forgiven the lonelyness
copying the rest of us and marketing
iii.
relative definitions for everything
no one agrees disagrees
trikha tomia stalemate
money, living, dignity,
your sweatshop is not mine
the immigrants need new life
in the sweat shop they work
for pre-school
there is dignity no dignity yes
but also a body for sale
or a fat man eating his cake
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 4:19 AM UTC
my eyes are not windows to my soul
they are a mirror of yours
not because I want you to love me for someone im not
but because I dont trust you,
or anyone,
to see through.
To see through the tangled web of lies, fear, lonelyness
self hatered and pitty
I don’t want, anybody to see through that.
For somebody to love me after all of that,
well, they must be just as,
well as aweful as me.
I love you because I can see all of you.
I love you because you are scared.
I love you because you know just what to say even when I don’t want to hear it.
I haven’t let you see in yet, but im working on it.
every day I think about losing you,
because Im too afraid to let you love me
so every time we talk,
i tell you a pice of my story.
My eyes are not vindows to my soul
they are a mirror of his, of hers of thiers
Slowly, my mirror is reflecting back on me
showing me that im not as aweful as I feel.
Im also not as great as you say.
But im getting htere
Every time you call me georgous
everytime you remember my favorite song
or word
or color
you remember everything ive ever told you,
even the lies.
Now, you’ve seen it all.
You’ve seen me at my darkest moments,
youve seen me at my lowes points.
You still love me.
My eyes are not a mirror of your soul anymore.
they are windows into mine.
Jul 8, 2014
Jul 8, 2014 at 5:36 PM UTC
You were my everything.
Everything that is now nothing.
You were my every minute in every hour and I wanted to spend it all with you.
All of it just to be near you.
You were the "L" to my "ove"
The light to my sky
The diomond to my ring the voice that I sing
You
Were
Everything....
And I lost you...
All because of some stupid mistakes.
Some stupid mistakes that caused us to part are ways an now we don't even speak... Anymore.
The only word I SPEAK anymore is lonelyness and longing..
Longing for you to even care alittle bit.
Just enough to even look me in the eyes.
Just enough to remember how you and me used to be.
And I know you remember.
Because no matter how hard you try you can't erase me.
In every woman that you sleep with you'll remember me because you'll remember where I am suppost to be.
In every memory that you make I know you remember ours because you can't forget me.
I was your one and only
And you were and stil are all of mine.
Because you are my everything.
I used to say alittle time is all it takes.
Just a few nights with the girls is all I need.
But I still cry everytime I look in the mirror an only see me....
That empty space is where YOU are suppost to BE.
....but your not here and I'm here just trying to cover up all these tears from falling any closer to my chest making sure my parents don't hear because I want to look my best...
I know it's gotta be killing you because it's killing me.
If only it was. But it's not.
I hate that I love you.
I hate that every time I think, a thought always brings me back to you.
I hate that every time I dream your in it
Every time I make a memory you're not in it.
And everytime I want anything to do with you I can't be in it....
God **** Hopeless relationships.
Aug 7, 2013
Aug 7, 2013 at 11:45 PM UTC
Hey moon?
I am so sorry for you
I know you mean well
But I can't stand to look at you
You symbolize Lonelyness
You make me sad
Why do you have to be so sad?
You rise and fall
You wait for your fire love
And you can't face eachother
Why don't you give up ?
Hey moon ?
Can you teach me how to be as strong as you ?
Teach me how to be okay with being lonely
Teach me how to be Okay with never being with my fire love
Teach me how to be okay.
You make it look so easy moon.
Hey moon?
Does it get annoying when you have asteroids that keep hitting you ?
Does it get annoying when people try to understand you?
Moon, Can You Hear Me?
You are lonely but you shine bright
Are you really lonely?
I get it Moon.
Just because You can't see or be with your fire love
You know that with every orbit
You can rotate around the world
And show strength to people like me
Who try to talk to a Block of Rock from the atmosphere
You aren't lonely.
Ha ! I get it now moon
You've been fooling it
You Moon don't symbolize sadness
You show strength
So I thank you moon
For showing a person like me
With false hope
Something to look at every night
So hey moon?
Are you okay?
You may not get this question often
But I'm not of many
So I ask you this
If one day you can finally be with your fire love
Would you really be happy?
Like come on
You get the thing you want most
But does it make you happy that you don't have to fight anymore ?
Moon I just don't get it
Why do what you do
If you never get what you want?
So maybe it's more than just looking for love
Maybe it's looking for a friend
I have yet to believe that your lonely,
I still can't believe it
I refuse to
. Why you ask
Because you after all these years seem fine
I mean everyone can fake happiness
But you've done it for many years
Tell me how to do it.
Aug 9, 2017
Aug 9, 2017 at 9:23 PM UTC
At last the final visit..
For over 12,000 years I have been building a machine..
The main purpose at first was to simply have this machine get me to point A to point B..
I discovered all the secrets and codes of the planet I had forever lived on..
The ones I had truly loved were taken from me..
Death took them away..
You do not understand lonelyness until all is gone..
On a planet where I out-lived all other forms of life..
I had forgotten some emotions..
Love being almost one of them..
As there was nothing else to love..
I did however loved that I missed them ..
But hated that I will never see them ever again..
You see I am forever..
I cannot die yet I cannot live..
It was then I had to have this machine somehow get me off this old lifeless planet..
To find what my thoughts had hope to build..
After 2000 years I had finally built The star drive..
I travelled from planet to planet adding on more and more to my Star drive..
I met other races, some beautiful, some horrible, some welcomed me while others wanted nothing to do with me..
There were times where I stayed at certain planets because it reminded me so much of home..
I travelled on through what is known as the Tao Nebula..
This Nebula made all of your dreams real..
I was with my family again or should I say the memory of them..
I got to relive these memories over and over..
For 200 years I did this..
Finally I was ready to leave when both my son and daughter came to me...
They had with them a beautiful floating gear of some sort..
They called it the divine gear..
It was then I thought of building something more than a vessel able to jump me across the stars..
I needed a vessel that could take me to heaven..
So that I could meet them again..
This was just the message I had been needing for so very long..
This sun sized planet is the home of the Divine gear..
This will be my final visit in this realm..
The Universe is just as it says..
Uni for only one..
And the verse for the spoken word of the creator whom built it..
This divine gear will drive me above and beyond it all!
Jun 18, 2014
Jun 18, 2014 at 7:26 PM UTC
Pain is in my life. Its the scary monster in my closet. Its the failed and broken promises my father has made. Its the time I spend alone just wishing I wasn't an only child. Its when my family pass me off as an outsider, and I hear my parents say they wish they never had me.
My pain is knowing that I might not be loved by anyone. To know that my weakness and lonelyness is writen on my face. Knowing I can't be with the one I love.
Pain is a filthy monster that has consumed my life.
Jul 22, 2010
Jul 22, 2010 at 7:38 PM UTC
To be lonely in this world is to have someone you love, but can't be with them. Its when your family denys you making you feel like you're nothing.
To be lonely in this world is when your father is alive, but is never there when you need him. Its when the person you love with all your heart is contimplating walking away.
There are some people who wish to be alone and completely on their own. Those who wish to embrace lonelyness I would gladly give them what they want. I would let them take it, because I have been alone for much too long. If they want it they can take it and never give it back.
Jul 23, 2010
Jul 23, 2010 at 5:54 PM UTC
I've seen you once before in a dream I do believe
you're beautie kiss the scar that was my pain
and do I thought of you
each day that past from then on
wishing my slumber will bring you're return
still I awake to sheer lonelyness
& only the cold air to tuch my skin
tears mead my eyes as red as love-love that only you can previde
I fear I must edmit you are only the past
the past I never known
now with love on my mind I will see blood
for no one
writing thes words that bare my soul
for no one
Nov 25, 2010
Nov 25, 2010 at 3:51 PM UTC
Sad gray man..
Won many prizes in his time..
Award after award..
All because of his sorrow never-ending..
The sad gray man is a painting..
Forever drawn out to be..
A sad wicked eternal lonelyness..
But he still loves his creator, this artist..
It was one day, one week, one month..
He decided to draw her..
She was not gray..
And she was not sad..
Together holding hands..
The sad gray man smiled at last..
She found him..
As they set sail toward colors eternal..
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 12:47 PM UTC
My days with you are seeds
that bloom at night.
Our love is life in agreement.
I write to preserve what is
-in vain-
still the future's dear to me.
You must understand it is not only
death and lonelyness, that grow with days,
also love & life grow
the warmth of your hand
and friendship, each day.
Mar 7, 2010
Mar 7, 2010 at 8:28 AM UTC
Demon
We all have our own.
Lurking inside.
Waiting for weakness.
The demon wants weakness.
So it may creep in.
Demonizing us.
To the point, in we give.
Fight the demon inside.
Fight the urges.
The feelings of worthlessness.
Self doubt.
The fears of lonelyness.
Fight the bottle.
The needle.
Put down that knife.
Fight the demon till there is no more to fight.
Fight cause you,re more.
Oct 16, 2015
Oct 16, 2015 at 5:45 PM UTC
All I wanted was to lay awake with you
In a dark room, staring at the white celing
Not giving a **** about the world
Or talking bout' feelings
Just listening to my old records
In silence.. Without saying a single word
With our hearts wide open
And our clothes all over the floor
But I was never good to you
Thats what I get for being true
It seems like you've always prefered
All those little ****** that want you to be scared
Dear, lonelyness is nothing to be afraid of
You can always find a friend
Inside the next glass of liquor
Oh, love.
One can never bet too young to seek for truth
Don't know much about it myself
But we can find it together if you want me to
With you I'd sail the seven seas
Through tides and storms until the sky completely clears.
Jun 5, 2013
Jun 5, 2013 at 2:51 AM UTC
As the raindrops hit my skin...
The feeling of tears fall within....
As I look through the pouring rain.....
I hide the feelings of all my pain.....
The darkened clouds drift in the night.....
Reminds me of love with fear and freight....
As the rain stops and my skin dries....
Feelings of lonelyness begin to die.....
The clouds have now cleared.....
I shed those feelings of love and fear...
Now that the rain has passed....
Along with my criticism of my past...
The light now gets closer within my grasp....
I look to the future for the life I ask....
Nov 7, 2015
Nov 7, 2015 at 1:02 AM UTC
Lonelyness is a rash that itch for affection,
distance is arms greatest foe,
to hug the one you miss is the greatest gift but to get rejected is the scratches and scars that surround that rash that Still itch...and aches...
people move fast, to settle but the ones who are too busy to settle are titled not good enough.
I Tried to be there for anyone but no1 seems to care,
that ill cutt my arms off from time just to be held one lasting enough time.
I'm not the best looking I'm not the best at all close to the image people seek.
But I know I can give more than image can, I can make you feel more than your mirrored man.
I ponder offten while the river Creeks I sleep in a bed that empty so only my head and pillow is the only feelin of caressed,
lookin up I only feel no blessin even if I sneezed.
Why am I cursed to have feeling but none to give then too.
Why is time the only hand that waves by, even when I don't acknowledged it.
slowly but surely I fade into a sleep of weeps to begin another week that makes me more weak into questioning why hold on to the idea of havin one..or her or you...too keep,
if me...
if personally i am not wanted..not for a text or ring..
I'm haunted, behind me, people speak and judge me often taunted..it hurts my self esteem and fill my dreams amd conscience with ideas of doin unspeakable things,
I'm done I hunged the gauntlet, my cape is up
the sword is dull and the shield is rusted.
I'm done, ive lusted and loved it, ive drunk my heart into a bottle empty as the chest it sits in,
Im just alone and waiting for this to pass.
By -Deep Thought
Aka Linguist Musician
AKA Emmanuel Jv Hernandez
Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 11:47 PM UTC
I'm all alone .
I have no one.
My heart is breaking little by little.
I'm dieing slowly.
I have no heart anymore.
I'm all alone and no one cares.
I'm going to die alone.
No one loves me anymore.
:'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
May 2, 2013
May 2, 2013 at 10:49 PM UTC