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"everynight" poems
A blink of words That can't be said Or even be written She is poem of thousand words She is fierce and gentle All at once She's a song An unending song She is a sparkle She is a shine She is the only thing That i want to call mine She is my everyday And an everynight She is every morning And an every twilight She is all i know She is all i see She is a sweet melody She is an  unmatching rhythm
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Jun 30, 2018
Jun 30, 2018 at 4:02 PM UTC
She's a poem
Crows and corn chips, Squirrels and beer sips… Lazy hammock and Hemming-way, our rabbits mowing the grass today... A nap under the advancing stars, A Paradise in our Backyard! Raccoons love the chicken bones, everynight, a fox visits our home, Fish guts and crab-leg shells, opossum out there giving-‘em-Hell, Casting corn and some bird seed, for Mother Nature everything she needs, God’s aces and a Wild Card! A Paradise in our Backyard! Ohhh! In summer a Bar-be-que, and you the prettiest girl I ever Knew! Couple ‘o kids and a swimming pool, mini-van and Cadillac-cool, Love the beaches and mountains, of Carolina and my country-kin, Wouldn’t trade it for the whole of Mars, A Paradise in our Backyard! You and me under the stars, our home, children and a dream of ours, Leo, Virgo, Aries and Mars, I thank the Lord for your tender heart. Our life amazing, though a, rough start, A Paradise in our Backyard! Oo-oh -a paradise in our Backyard! You and me under the stars, Our home and children; a dream of ours, Leo, Virgo, Aries and Mars, I thank the Lord for your tender heart... ...a Paradise in our Backyard! Some people say it’s just a yard, ...this paradise under the stars, Leo, Virgo, Aries and Mars, you, me, children of ours. Our home, children, a dream of ours, I thank you Jesus for your tender heart; Paradise in our Backyard! A Paradise in our Backyard! Oooh -a paradise in our Backyard! You and me under the stars, Our home and children a dream of ours, Leo and Virgo, Aries and Mars, A Paradise in our Backyard! Praise Jesus and NAS-CAR! You and me under the stars, our home and children a dream of ours, Leo and Virgo, Aries and Mars, some people say it’s just a yard? You and me under the stars -and a Paradise in our Backyard! *A Paradise in our Backyard! A Paradise in our Backyard! A Paradise in our Backyard!* <musical break> I love you, heaven: Hea Anna
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Jul 19, 2016
Jul 19, 2016 at 11:59 PM UTC
Tribute to Jimmy; Paradise in Our Backyard
Crows and corn chips, Squirrels and beer sips… Lazy hammock and Hemming-way, our rabbits mowing the grass today... A nap under the advancing stars, A Paradise in our Backyard! Raccoons love the chicken bones, everynight, a fox visits our home, Fish guts and crab-leg shells, opossum out there giving-‘em-Hell, Casting corn and some bird seed, for Mother Nature everything she needs, God’s aces and a Wild Card! A Paradise in our Backyard! Ohhh! In summer a Bar-be-que, and you the prettiest girl I ever Knew! Couple ‘o kids and a swimming pool, mini-van and Cadillac-cool, Love the beaches and mountains, of Carolina and my country-kin, Wouldn’t trade it for the whole of Mars, A Paradise in our Backyard! You and me under the stars, our home, children and a dream of ours, Leo, Virgo, Aries and Mars, I thank the Lord for your tender heart. Our life amazing, though a, rough start, A Paradise in our Backyard! Oo-oh -a paradise in our Backyard! You and me under the stars, Our home and children; a dream of ours, Leo, Virgo, Aries and Mars, I thank the Lord for your tender heart... ...a Paradise in our Backyard! Some people say it’s just a yard, ...this paradise under the stars, Leo, Virgo, Aries and Mars, you, me, children of ours. Our home, children, a dream of ours, I thank you Jesus for your tender heart; Paradise in our Backyard! A Paradise in our Backyard! Oooh -a paradise in our Backyard! You and me under the stars, Our home and children a dream of ours, Leo and Virgo, Aries and Mars, A Paradise in our Backyard! Praise Jesus and NAS-CAR! You and me under the stars, our home and children a dream of ours, Leo and Virgo, Aries and Mars, some people say it’s just a yard? You and me under the stars -and a Paradise in our Backyard! *A Paradise in our Backyard! A Paradise in our Backyard! A Paradise in our Backyard!* <musical break> I love you, heaven: Hea Anna
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I was never a rose, But green Not a chrysanthemum, Nor an orchid Something cut, Walked upon And yet, You were the dew And kissed me, With a thousand moist kisses Everynight, Making me sparkle In the sunrise
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Jan 31, 2017
Jan 31, 2017 at 10:27 AM UTC
Of Dew Drops And Blades Of Grass
I am a fœtus Swimming in darkness Oblivious to the world around me I am a new born Opening my eyes for the first time Taking my first breathe Crying the first of many tears Confused by my sight and the light around me I am a toddler Crawling my way across a universe made of shapes sounds colors Overdose of senses Too many things happening simultaneously I Just stare around and try to make sense of this madness I am a child Taking my first step into childhood by standing upright And walking around the world on my own two feet It's the first of many steps I will move forward to take over the world With my eyes ears hands nose mouth Overdose of senses I am a teenager Feeling my heart break for the first time A broken friendship A broken love Deception in human kind For the first time I wonder why Why are we here? If we suffer so much and so intensly My heart breaks and I cry and I shake and I have no idea what is happening Overdose of senses I am a young adult Wondering about the future for the very first time Where I fit in Will I fit in How do I fit in What will I do for the rest of my life? Overdose of questions I am an adult Worrying about taxes and marriage and kids I have settled down I have a career and I look back On the days all the things that mattered were grades and friends I am happy but is this the life I dreamed of? Or did I settle for less than I wanted? What would happen if I left it all now? Overdose of questions I am an old grandma Relaxing eveyr morning with a cup of coffee Next to the man who shared my life for so long I look back on life and realize I am happy I have made choices that lead me here and now I Am happy Overdose of emotions I am a senile grandma No one claims me anymore I am in a care home where most people don't care I am one of many and I look back on my life everynight when the demons come and visit me So I yell out in hopelessness and they sedate me I am faced with loneliness and there are so many things I wish I had done Overdose of emotions Heart attack No heartbeat I am dead.
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Oct 6, 2014
Oct 6, 2014 at 8:10 AM UTC
Life in a poem
I am a fœtus Swimming in darkness Oblivious to the world around me I am a new born Opening my eyes for the first time Taking my first breathe Crying the first of many tears Confused by my sight and the light around me I am a toddler Crawling my way across a universe made of shapes sounds colors Overdose of senses Too many things happening simultaneously I Just stare around and try to make sense of this madness I am a child Taking my first step into childhood by standing upright And walking around the world on my own two feet It's the first of many steps I will move forward to take over the world With my eyes ears hands nose mouth Overdose of senses I am a teenager Feeling my heart break for the first time A broken friendship A broken love Deception in human kind For the first time I wonder why Why are we here? If we suffer so much and so intensly My heart breaks and I cry and I shake and I have no idea what is happening Overdose of senses I am a young adult Wondering about the future for the very first time Where I fit in Will I fit in How do I fit in What will I do for the rest of my life? Overdose of questions I am an adult Worrying about taxes and marriage and kids I have settled down I have a career and I look back On the days all the things that mattered were grades and friends I am happy but is this the life I dreamed of? Or did I settle for less than I wanted? What would happen if I left it all now? Overdose of questions I am an old grandma Relaxing eveyr morning with a cup of coffee Next to the man who shared my life for so long I look back on life and realize I am happy I have made choices that lead me here and now I Am happy Overdose of emotions I am a senile grandma No one claims me anymore I am in a care home where most people don't care I am one of many and I look back on my life everynight when the demons come and visit me So I yell out in hopelessness and they sedate me I am faced with loneliness and there are so many things I wish I had done Overdose of emotions Heart attack No heartbeat I am dead.
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My small hut of dreams surviving all alone atop of hill covered all around with huge deodar trees of muddy wall and slanting roof sill Ginger and cardamom tea near the orange fire place reading journals I will live , capturing the first snow in days freshly baked potato in oven clay sprinkled rock salt with melted cheese fragrant leaves of corainder lingers on and stays sweet and sour taste of wine from the close by farm of grapes friends and family gather everynight over dinner and United prays bells echoing mystery in the air far from the temples on a difficult mountain where path to heavens looks reachable trekking the rocks in sun and in rain Manisha
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Aug 24, 2015
Aug 24, 2015 at 4:24 AM UTC
Comforting Hills
I got addicted to you so easily, I got attracted to you in ways words can’t explain, Everyday you’re in my head, And everynight I lay awake thinking about you, I lay awake wanting to talk to you, To hear your beautiful voice, You’re the last whisper in my mind, Before sleep claims me, And my first thoughts when I wake, And this is how everyday goes, I care about you more than you’ll ever know, And I appreciate you more than I can show, Please tell me everytime our eyes meet, You feel the same feelings I feel, And tell me I’m not the only one wide awake , Wish you were here, Tell me I’m not the only one picking my phone, Every second of every hour each night instead of sleeping, Because I miss you, I want only your attention, And with that my life would be complete.
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May 29, 2024
May 29, 2024 at 12:11 AM UTC
I got addicted to you so easily
Why do I struggle in bed? I feel like my body wants to jump out of my skin. Why do we think about things? That makes our brain wants to jump out of our heads. Lost in my thoughts, all of my patience          and waiting and waiting for you to come in. I don’t want to be here, not even hell could create a cage that can hold all my sins. Why do I struggle in bed? By the way how my covers look, seems I was dancing instead. All of these strings, Abandoning me.         Tucked away, stored          Creating new ways they can trigger me.                 Into thinking                     I’m  breaking            And yet create tangles inside of me. Why do I struggle in bed?      Why must you make nightmares out of rawness and sweat?          Everynight I wake up, it’s like my body is soaked.                            Drenched. Why do I...why do I... keep having nightmares in bed?
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Aug 10, 2018
Aug 10, 2018 at 4:21 AM UTC
Nightmares
I used to think addiction Was something that you brought upon yourself, Something you chose. I thought a drink here and a puff there Then you were hooked I thought addiction Was something to numb the pain Not something that caused an ach in your chest That made you feel like your lungs had collapsed And broke you a little more everyday I didn’t think Addiction Would come with a heartbeat And a voice telling me they loved me Everynight before I went to sleep With soft skin and a crooked smile But it turns out Addiction Can make your heart soar But it always leaves you wanting more Obsessed with the next time You can get your fix I never thought Addiction Would crash into my life, Leave me helpless as I was swept up in its wake But surprisingly okay with letting it take Everything in my life that belonged to me I gave into Addiction With its charming words, And hot temper that could explode without warning. It's bright eyes And cruel words I’m learning to live with an Addiction That I can't help but run towards.
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Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 10:26 PM UTC
Addiction
You know whats funny ? you almost had me .. Depressed & hurt very badly you almost had me crying everynight you almost had me not trust another guy lol your hilarious & foolish you complain about hoes & how there stupid how u want a school girl who's still a ****** But in your mind im guessing loyal girls are dumb , & havin hoes is a blessing what if i would of layed down for you? Id probably regret it & be obssessed with you. Im watching you give your self to all these hoes who dont love you & just like your flow. 5 Yrs from now the hows you were ****** with are obviously worried about someone else ****
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Aug 23, 2013
Aug 23, 2013 at 4:03 PM UTC
your a player , who loves the game
Only my pillow knows of the late nights staring at the ceiling, of the silent tears rolling until tiredness knocks me out. Of the scenarios I plot that most likely will never happen. Only my pillow knows because my diary is hidden under it. Of the dreams where you realize its been long enough and come looking for me. Only my pillow knows and doesnt get tired of the same subject everynight, only she gets what I feel and stays in silence while I weep. Only my pillow knows I hit snooze cause I want to keep dreaming of you. Only she knows that every morning you are my first thought. What my pillow doesnt know but my car stereo does is that everyday I try to find music that doesn't remind me of you, that I fake a smile as long as the day lasts until I get back home to the only one that knows the truth.
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Feb 16, 2014
Feb 16, 2014 at 2:11 PM UTC
Pillow
I have so many secrets under my tongue. I want to tell you that when I say "I don't care" I really mean: I care too much. I see the way your shoulders curve downwards when you're with that someone else that isn't me and I see the way you make yourself smaller to try and fit inside some definition of love. I want you to know that I want all of you, so much of you at one time that the doctors are scared I'll overdose. What I mean is, you were it. And you are it. And you are everything. And if you don't know what I mean by this, I mean- look at the stars. Look at the ground, look at your feet. Everytime I see you I wish for roots. So I can't move. So I can dedicate my stillness to never letting you make yourself smaller for me. I want to tell you that when I'm silent I mean: I hope you're doing okay. I hope you stop losing people. I hope everyone who gets to see your smile knows how lucky they are. I hope your bed curves to your back everynight, appreciating the freckles. I know the constellations are jealous of your alignment. I want to tell you that when I look at you and look away I'm thinking about imminence again. How one day we'll see eachother and it won't be too late and I'll say oh my god, you haven't changed a bit. And we'll laugh because who the **** am I to make any sort of comparison? I want to tell you that when I say "I don't care" I really mean: I care so much it keeps me awake. I really mean "I love you even when I'm sober" It all comes down to this: Praying to Osiris to find me again. Turns out I'm pretty lost without him.
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Apr 26, 2014
Apr 26, 2014 at 8:35 PM UTC
Osiris
I have so many secrets under my tongue. I want to tell you that when I say "I don't care" I really mean: I care too much. I see the way your shoulders curve downwards when you're with that someone else that isn't me and I see the way you make yourself smaller to try and fit inside some definition of love. I want you to know that I want all of you, so much of you at one time that the doctors are scared I'll overdose. What I mean is, you were it. And you are it. And you are everything. And if you don't know what I mean by this, I mean- look at the stars. Look at the ground, look at your feet. Everytime I see you I wish for roots. So I can't move. So I can dedicate my stillness to never letting you make yourself smaller for me. I want to tell you that when I'm silent I mean: I hope you're doing okay. I hope you stop losing people. I hope everyone who gets to see your smile knows how lucky they are. I hope your bed curves to your back everynight, appreciating the freckles. I know the constellations are jealous of your alignment. I want to tell you that when I look at you and look away I'm thinking about imminence again. How one day we'll see eachother and it won't be too late and I'll say oh my god, you haven't changed a bit. And we'll laugh because who the **** am I to make any sort of comparison? I want to tell you that when I say "I don't care" I really mean: I care so much it keeps me awake. I really mean "I love you even when I'm sober" It all comes down to this: Praying to Osiris to find me again. Turns out I'm pretty lost without him.
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~~¤~~ S-weetest ever, sweetest heart W-earing a smile, I love so much E-veryday, everynight E-very moment of my life T-hankful I am for your gift H-eart of mine wants to receive E-very drop of your rain A-sk me now if there is pain R-ead my eyes, my lips, my deeds T-rue love of mine, you're all I need ~~¤~~
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Jan 2, 2016
Jan 2, 2016 at 8:45 AM UTC
Sweetheart
*The darkness that shattered her world was left behind. Ashes to forget, memory lost in the wind of no rewind She finally took the narrow path towards a new life. Today, she stands so tall and bright. No one can bring her down, solid as a rock. There's no turning back.* Selfless, relentless to fear Everything that mounts to heights of frights, she's the warrior. Inferior to nothing. Candors of cadence impossible to break. Her heart made of mettle steel, nothing can make her falter. All phobias are mundane Except for one. That's when she met him at edge of the unexpected. He sits at the rooftop alone everynight. Smiling to himself as he gazed into burst of constellations brimming with life. "Is this love at first sight?", she thought Past of men that broke her, made her who she is today. But this boy with a smile that could break her Titanic's Ice, made her vulnerable. With a smile that could break the ice in her temple. *The power he illuminates can set her eyes on fire. Her fast beating heart is jumping out Thoughts scribbling every night, 'This is going to be a mess, I can't decide' He closed his eyes, feeling the euphoria flowing inside. The chimes and the chill of wind are all he can hear. He slowly touched his chest and feel the bliss As he opened his eyes, a scintillating star in his sight.* Their eyes didn't meet, yet, He glances back without her knowing tilting his head to the left, as she watched him from her window. He was falling and sinking into her ocean eyes. Each glance makes him drowned and drawn deeper to her. Yesterday was a blur, tomorrow is a vivid life. Within her is starting to tear with fear. Prayers of hope she will win and take the climb. She wants to grab the chance and be happy for once in her life. Both having the intent to speak. Both prepared to make the first move But bartered smiles was all it took Heart's stolen, melting ice They somehow knew this love will last.. Forever.
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Mar 1, 2015
Mar 1, 2015 at 9:21 AM UTC
Beginning & Neverending (Adele ft. Erenn)
*The darkness that shattered her world was left behind. Ashes to forget, memory lost in the wind of no rewind She finally took the narrow path towards a new life. Today, she stands so tall and bright. No one can bring her down, solid as a rock. There's no turning back.* Selfless, relentless to fear Everything that mounts to heights of frights, she's the warrior. Inferior to nothing. Candors of cadence impossible to break. Her heart made of mettle steel, nothing can make her falter. All phobias are mundane Except for one. That's when she met him at edge of the unexpected. He sits at the rooftop alone everynight. Smiling to himself as he gazed into burst of constellations brimming with life. "Is this love at first sight?", she thought Past of men that broke her, made her who she is today. But this boy with a smile that could break her Titanic's Ice, made her vulnerable. With a smile that could break the ice in her temple. *The power he illuminates can set her eyes on fire. Her fast beating heart is jumping out Thoughts scribbling every night, 'This is going to be a mess, I can't decide' He closed his eyes, feeling the euphoria flowing inside. The chimes and the chill of wind are all he can hear. He slowly touched his chest and feel the bliss As he opened his eyes, a scintillating star in his sight.* Their eyes didn't meet, yet, He glances back without her knowing tilting his head to the left, as she watched him from her window. He was falling and sinking into her ocean eyes. Each glance makes him drowned and drawn deeper to her. Yesterday was a blur, tomorrow is a vivid life. Within her is starting to tear with fear. Prayers of hope she will win and take the climb. She wants to grab the chance and be happy for once in her life. Both having the intent to speak. Both prepared to make the first move But bartered smiles was all it took Heart's stolen, melting ice They somehow knew this love will last.. Forever.
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*"Pat. Alam mu ba, hindi ko talaga alam kung gusto kita, o gusto kita kasi un yung dapat. Naguguluhan ako nun, everynight iniisip ko kung makikipag hiwalay ba ko sayo para hanapin ang sarili ko. Kasi hindi ko na alam. Hindi ko talaga na alam, gusto kong lumayo. Mapag-isa. Pero alam mu, akala ko mahal kita. Akala ko gusto kita. mahal na mahal pala kita , ikaw yung gusto ko. Ngayon. Bukas. At sa mga susunod pang araw.I love you honey :') hindi ko alam kung panu titigil ung puso ko na mahalin ka. HAHAHA Mugto na mata ko HAHAHA can't wait to see you tomorrow. Promise mas mamahalin pa kita hangga't pwede. Hangga't ok. Thank you. i love you. I love you hon! Gm 'to. Hahaha drama lang #pat<3<3<3 #Iloveyousuper! #saranghe"*
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Jun 16, 2015
Jun 16, 2015 at 9:04 PM UTC
GM
u want more emotion, maybe im just tourchered to the point im just going through the motions praying out there i find a potion to let me relax, maybe stop the wise cracks about how im fat or how minimal the cash is i stack. or maybe the fact when i cut open my vain i just see black no crimson blood just black oozing from the cracks as if my tanned skin is a stone statue starting to crumble under the weight of self loathing. the fact of deep down id rather be a better person but it bugs me i cant afford the fancy clothing, even in our society how we hype up to the idea then it comes to play and no one seems to stay like whatever happened to kony we live amungst phoneys saying their better only to better their pride and maybe to impress a futer bride collecting money only green in there eyes envious of those that accumulate wealth but seem to be blind to those who have nothing pushin it off to someone who has more to give now tell me again wat gives u a greater right to live over the young women even children forced into *** but u need to spend ur check on a fancy rolex because ur life is complex now im not saying im better though i have been gifted with my life but in my heart i still cry everynight because were on borrowed time ive seen people distroy themselves in hate a freind in grade 9 became addicted to cocain now shooting ****** in his vein his leather jacked stained skin n bones calling on the phone for his next fix my mom with her slit wrists pretending i dont exist  now is that enough emotion for u after all im still just a kid.
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Jan 14, 2014
Jan 14, 2014 at 9:42 AM UTC
emotion
u want more emotion, maybe im just tourchered to the point im just going through the motions praying out there i find a potion to let me relax, maybe stop the wise cracks about how im fat or how minimal the cash is i stack. or maybe the fact when i cut open my vain i just see black no crimson blood just black oozing from the cracks as if my tanned skin is a stone statue starting to crumble under the weight of self loathing. the fact of deep down id rather be a better person but it bugs me i cant afford the fancy clothing, even in our society how we hype up to the idea then it comes to play and no one seems to stay like whatever happened to kony we live amungst phoneys saying their better only to better their pride and maybe to impress a futer bride collecting money only green in there eyes envious of those that accumulate wealth but seem to be blind to those who have nothing pushin it off to someone who has more to give now tell me again wat gives u a greater right to live over the young women even children forced into *** but u need to spend ur check on a fancy rolex because ur life is complex now im not saying im better though i have been gifted with my life but in my heart i still cry everynight because were on borrowed time ive seen people distroy themselves in hate a freind in grade 9 became addicted to cocain now shooting ****** in his vein his leather jacked stained skin n bones calling on the phone for his next fix my mom with her slit wrists pretending i dont exist  now is that enough emotion for u after all im still just a kid.
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as i'm laying down tonight i think of how exhausting it is to wash you off my fingers even if it's not like i ever get to hold your hand or touch you, for that matter. but everynight i have to wash your essence off my fingers like trying to get rid of gasoline but always ending up setting myself aflame. and that despite knowing how dangerous and hazardous that **** could be you just couldn't stop because you love the smell of gasoline that fills up your lungs like pumps of adrenaline right before the stench of your own burning flesh chokes you to death. most nights, i wash you off like paint. you can tell that i'm trying to forget what i bled after your face appeared on the plain canvass when my hand automatically reaches up and perfectly colors your lips, and i couldn't help but resemble them to pastel pink petals of the roses growing in royal gardens and i know i'm fooling everyone making them believe that such expertise is achieved because your bottom lip have felt my gentle stroke when i don't even know how your lips would feel when they quiver under a curious and longing touch. so i watch the colors spiral down the drain. i watch my hands brush against each other so intensely, trying to scrub the paint gone even if it won't go away. even if the blood is clean. even if i look clean. how can loving you secretly be ever clean? i'm scared it will never go away. i am a painter in my own sense, capturing a glimpse of something so intoxicating and aesthetically forbidden then turning it into something tangible. this is how painters show that their hearts collapse with just a name with just a glance not meant for their way. and they paint what little of the hope that shouldn't have been there in the first place and every night. every single night they would aim tirelessly to turn it into something they could allow. something that could exist not only in my head. something that i can call mine even if you don't know that i am yours and i knew this because your face have begun to fill every blank wall in my ******* house and i wonder how it is possible to fall in love with someone the whole world believes you shouldn't. they say that when we turn our hands into fists it is the size of our hearts. and sometimes after the long hours of painting i wash my paint-stained hands clean of an abstract myriad of yellow and blue and black and red. red for blood. red for love. red for fire. i wash my paint-stained hands turning them into fists so maybe, just maybe it will be the same as getting rid of the colors off my young broken heart. colors for you. yet i always end up washing them off with ******* gasoline. and you still dare to call me 'smart'
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Jul 21, 2018
Jul 21, 2018 at 8:09 AM UTC
please read my confession
as i'm laying down tonight i think of how exhausting it is to wash you off my fingers even if it's not like i ever get to hold your hand or touch you, for that matter. but everynight i have to wash your essence off my fingers like trying to get rid of gasoline but always ending up setting myself aflame. and that despite knowing how dangerous and hazardous that **** could be you just couldn't stop because you love the smell of gasoline that fills up your lungs like pumps of adrenaline right before the stench of your own burning flesh chokes you to death. most nights, i wash you off like paint. you can tell that i'm trying to forget what i bled after your face appeared on the plain canvass when my hand automatically reaches up and perfectly colors your lips, and i couldn't help but resemble them to pastel pink petals of the roses growing in royal gardens and i know i'm fooling everyone making them believe that such expertise is achieved because your bottom lip have felt my gentle stroke when i don't even know how your lips would feel when they quiver under a curious and longing touch. so i watch the colors spiral down the drain. i watch my hands brush against each other so intensely, trying to scrub the paint gone even if it won't go away. even if the blood is clean. even if i look clean. how can loving you secretly be ever clean? i'm scared it will never go away. i am a painter in my own sense, capturing a glimpse of something so intoxicating and aesthetically forbidden then turning it into something tangible. this is how painters show that their hearts collapse with just a name with just a glance not meant for their way. and they paint what little of the hope that shouldn't have been there in the first place and every night. every single night they would aim tirelessly to turn it into something they could allow. something that could exist not only in my head. something that i can call mine even if you don't know that i am yours and i knew this because your face have begun to fill every blank wall in my ******* house and i wonder how it is possible to fall in love with someone the whole world believes you shouldn't. they say that when we turn our hands into fists it is the size of our hearts. and sometimes after the long hours of painting i wash my paint-stained hands clean of an abstract myriad of yellow and blue and black and red. red for blood. red for love. red for fire. i wash my paint-stained hands turning them into fists so maybe, just maybe it will be the same as getting rid of the colors off my young broken heart. colors for you. yet i always end up washing them off with ******* gasoline. and you still dare to call me 'smart'
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Oh little girl, lost at sea Won't you please come back to me Everyday I search the shore for prints made to fit your feet Everynight my heart emits a warm, loving glow to lead you across the cold, salty deep Hopelessly I sit, letting my tears douse the fire of the sand Beautiful brown eyed girl, how long must I wait for you to come take my hand I am beginning to think you forgot about your lunar eyed mate No matter, I shall wait happily on the bay, until my funeral date
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Feb 3, 2012
Feb 3, 2012 at 12:45 AM UTC
Seaweed
She laid on stained sheets that were once pure white, desperate for love she gave her body away everynight, With mascara running down her face, on the floor she laid in the same place,  she didn't sleep in the bed unless it was for a ***** deed, Soon a gentle touch awoke her from where she fell asleep, A kinda touch that the soul feels so deep, She looked up to his face from his feet, and saw that his expression was sweet, He took her body in his arms, She couldn't walk from the ****** harm, Then she felt shame when she realized, JESUS was His name, In his arms she began to weep, But he reassured her that he was in her heart for keeps, She could not express joy and peace, after all, not after all of her sins, She couldn't figure out... how she ended up in the arm's of The Prince of Peace, She was made pure and clean, White as a mountain snow scene, God is great, Kneel before it's too late, Let Him heal you're wounds and scars, His love shines better than all the stars.
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Apr 8, 2022
Apr 8, 2022 at 2:49 AM UTC
Stained Sheets
and waiting and everything in everyway, and everyday, and everynight, waiting seems like a movie playing on an IMAX screen and I'm the character in every scene, and it all looks so plastic, oddly idyllic, a situation drastic, I live in, feeling like a dream, nothing seems solid, no gravity, just me alone but with people doing their rounds, the only thing missing are the clowns. that like to juggle in your dreams, but the scream, are not monsters or ghosts, just real live old people, dying in streams, and every minute taking me away, and leaving no trace just me erased, for all intents and purposes., lonely, awaiting and cursed. _______ can't wait for it to be over soon
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Oct 23, 2010
Oct 23, 2010 at 7:08 PM UTC
Awaiting
Sometimes I feel numb I don't know why It just washes over me One minute I'm laughing The next I'm staring blankly at the wall I've convinced my myself that I do this on purpose, chanting in my head every Night I want to be depressed and numb That I want to cry myself to sleep everynight After i've purposley forced myself to create a river of blood flowing down my Arm I do think I do this on purpose When you've been sad for as long as I have Wouldn't you?
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Dec 6, 2018
Dec 6, 2018 at 8:19 PM UTC
On Purpose
its been two long years since you were released but know in my heart i could never blaime you in the least we were a tourchured family to never find love but this is what either dreams or hate can be made of even when i saw your eyes roll back and the blood on the knife with your marijuana pipe so black from the residue packed you cut till your arms were just red then smoked enough to leave a teenage stoner in bed i dont blaime you for either, you were hurt and you needa cope but was tradeing the love of your ******* son worth that **** you were my mother, supposed to hold and love me but i found myself being yelled at thinking im just unlucky still i guess i could of looked for love from my father but he was to busy showing love to his two daughters i was to dumb, couldnt sing a song, to him i ddnt belong so you ignored my exsistance for many long years till it braught me to tears but where are we now after i lived a long 18 years dad look your oldest daughter left and your youngest you only hear hate underneath the tone of her breath so i guess im all you have left to bail you out this mess you left so now to watch over these two as if they were as delicate as children, they have only me to watch over them as my  mom bleeds and my dad cant breath the weight of debt needs to be repaid i dont know what else but you will regret how you treated me when im gone one day momma maybye i just want you to stop with the drugs looking everywhere just trying to find a buzz till you look at your son amd forgot who he was tired of goin to bed everynight to never sleep keeping one eye open in case i have to call n emt nearly watched you die remember that moment and i still ****** cry so i lay with a knife to my throat livin a lie knowing i jus wanna die so this is my last birthday song remember when i saw love in your eyes now im jus tryin to get by
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Nov 28, 2013
Nov 28, 2013 at 8:31 PM UTC
parents
its been two long years since you were released but know in my heart i could never blaime you in the least we were a tourchured family to never find love but this is what either dreams or hate can be made of even when i saw your eyes roll back and the blood on the knife with your marijuana pipe so black from the residue packed you cut till your arms were just red then smoked enough to leave a teenage stoner in bed i dont blaime you for either, you were hurt and you needa cope but was tradeing the love of your ******* son worth that **** you were my mother, supposed to hold and love me but i found myself being yelled at thinking im just unlucky still i guess i could of looked for love from my father but he was to busy showing love to his two daughters i was to dumb, couldnt sing a song, to him i ddnt belong so you ignored my exsistance for many long years till it braught me to tears but where are we now after i lived a long 18 years dad look your oldest daughter left and your youngest you only hear hate underneath the tone of her breath so i guess im all you have left to bail you out this mess you left so now to watch over these two as if they were as delicate as children, they have only me to watch over them as my  mom bleeds and my dad cant breath the weight of debt needs to be repaid i dont know what else but you will regret how you treated me when im gone one day momma maybye i just want you to stop with the drugs looking everywhere just trying to find a buzz till you look at your son amd forgot who he was tired of goin to bed everynight to never sleep keeping one eye open in case i have to call n emt nearly watched you die remember that moment and i still ****** cry so i lay with a knife to my throat livin a lie knowing i jus wanna die so this is my last birthday song remember when i saw love in your eyes now im jus tryin to get by
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Jazz history teacher scattin about swing Now, war on drugs **** wait, kansas city night clubs Territorial Deviants howl the blues dragging themselves bar to bar to jam Teach has jeans and a black long sleeve shows off his impressive gut 27th and manhattan, playin for pete everynight bald head shinin bass thumpin, saxophone whinin count bessie, chick webb, rotating stage Bothersome lesbian
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Oct 17, 2011
Oct 17, 2011 at 4:01 PM UTC
Tues. October 3
Lonely is burning a hole through my heart Lonely is burning my soul to the core Lonely hits me hard everynight When everything around me is silent When everything around me is dark and menacing I have no one to hide behind I have no choice but to confront my monsters They watch me with sympathy Turning around teasing me surrounding me everywhere they are everywhere and I can't breathe but I don't know how to talk and how my body is disconnected from my soul and I try I try to breathe but it's silent my heart my heart my heart doesn't work it doesn't ring in my hear I have no heart I am frozen and they are closing in on my they are everywhere I can see them closing on me so close so close so close so so close they are all coming so close And I can't take a breath Lonely is choking me up Lonely is making me weak Lonely is winning the war I have no one to save me Lonely cannot be defeated For as long as I am alone And lonely has written its name Along my body Along my heart With fierce, burning flames My saving grace lies within the 7 billion people on this planet But lonely is gaining ground all the way to my eyes Burning a path down my cheeks And crashing down with rage and pain My heart feels the burn and my soul My soul My soul doesn't know where to hide Or who to talk to The guilt is lapping at her WIth her burning tongue she Reminds me that it is up to me to create relationships with other people And my soul has no one to blame but herself and the shame, the pain… … is like an open wound that cannot be healed, for it is not a physical wound But a psychological pain drenched with the salt of my tears Lonely has made its home in her heart And tears are the only ones that get to escape the forteress of loneliness That her body has become Everynight she prays to a God she doesn't believe in anymore And everynight her heart is getting stronger Her mind is weaker Because lonely has a mind of its own. And its pushes me down Drowns me in Drowns me down The salt of my tears
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Sep 17, 2014
Sep 17, 2014 at 1:50 PM UTC
Lonely is a fortress
Lonely is burning a hole through my heart Lonely is burning my soul to the core Lonely hits me hard everynight When everything around me is silent When everything around me is dark and menacing I have no one to hide behind I have no choice but to confront my monsters They watch me with sympathy Turning around teasing me surrounding me everywhere they are everywhere and I can't breathe but I don't know how to talk and how my body is disconnected from my soul and I try I try to breathe but it's silent my heart my heart my heart doesn't work it doesn't ring in my hear I have no heart I am frozen and they are closing in on my they are everywhere I can see them closing on me so close so close so close so so close they are all coming so close And I can't take a breath Lonely is choking me up Lonely is making me weak Lonely is winning the war I have no one to save me Lonely cannot be defeated For as long as I am alone And lonely has written its name Along my body Along my heart With fierce, burning flames My saving grace lies within the 7 billion people on this planet But lonely is gaining ground all the way to my eyes Burning a path down my cheeks And crashing down with rage and pain My heart feels the burn and my soul My soul My soul doesn't know where to hide Or who to talk to The guilt is lapping at her WIth her burning tongue she Reminds me that it is up to me to create relationships with other people And my soul has no one to blame but herself and the shame, the pain… … is like an open wound that cannot be healed, for it is not a physical wound But a psychological pain drenched with the salt of my tears Lonely has made its home in her heart And tears are the only ones that get to escape the forteress of loneliness That her body has become Everynight she prays to a God she doesn't believe in anymore And everynight her heart is getting stronger Her mind is weaker Because lonely has a mind of its own. And its pushes me down Drowns me in Drowns me down The salt of my tears
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I look out the window Into the yard I see a fluffy Junco Sitting comfortably on the fence I see him look around Then fly over to the feeders I watch as he gets some seeds Then goes back to the fence He puffs back up And then out of nowhere A baby Junco Crookedly and excited Flies in Sits next to his dad And his dad feeds him And then his dad is off again To get more food For his baby Over the weeks I watch the Goldfinches, The Grosbeaks, the Finches, The Doves, and The Sparrows. All gathering on the fence With their families To eat And I am reminded Of my family Gathering around the dinner table Everynight Chattering, coming and going But then I think That those birds must have it far easier Than we do All they worry about is surviving While we have discussions on Politics, school, wars Gossip, rumors, things of unimportance That's when I think back To my childhood dream “I want to be a bird when I grow up” Because they are worry free Unlike me
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May 22, 2016
May 22, 2016 at 1:21 PM UTC
On the Fence
if the moon fell down tonight, i swear to you my dear, i'd spend my last few minutes dreaming you were here. we'd lie in bed together, your hand upon my cheek as the world goes cold, oxygen fades and our bodies; they grow weak. we'd hold each other tightly, drifting into space. if the moon fell down tonight, i vow to spend the last few minutes staring at your face. you're the only light, and the only warmth, i've ever needed anyway. if the moon fell down tonight, my love i pray you'd come, and that you'd stay. but if the moon stayed tonight, up there in that sky, i'd do what i do everynight; i'd lay in bed and cry.
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Oct 7, 2014
Oct 7, 2014 at 8:32 PM UTC
if the moon fell down