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"chucked" poems
*here's how it happens the morning after you reach into the drawer where the your t-shirts live to find it austere you'll shrug because you're still drunk & you can't remember when last it was that you had something wet or how long it's been since you made the floorboards blush or why the carpet is upset who wouldn't be the contents to the upended ashtray strewn around the apartment resemble the aftermath of the smallest war to ever take place in norfolk some midnight thief must've made off with the lighter because it isn't in any of your favorite spots maybe you chucked it along with a hundred other things that make noise when they land in the neighbors yard you won't remember putting the refrigerator's belongings in the bathtub or scrawling a buzzard on the bedroom door but then again who would you'll pretend it's spring again before putting on your winter coat to go out front with a cigarette in your mouth you'll hope for a passing stranger to *** a light from or drag yourself to the corner with couch cushion change to buy a new lighter and on your way you won't bother looking back this is just another day on eggshells for no reason another november choking on birthday candles on your way home you step over beer cans the kind you fell in love with and wonder who had the last laugh last night or if anyone said a word at all it might've been another moment of clarity it might have been some idiot savant any adjective that feels like home anything that keeps you thirsty*
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Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 10:30 PM UTC
plain as day
*here's how it happens the morning after you reach into the drawer where the your t-shirts live to find it austere you'll shrug because you're still drunk & you can't remember when last it was that you had something wet or how long it's been since you made the floorboards blush or why the carpet is upset who wouldn't be the contents to the upended ashtray strewn around the apartment resemble the aftermath of the smallest war to ever take place in norfolk some midnight thief must've made off with the lighter because it isn't in any of your favorite spots maybe you chucked it along with a hundred other things that make noise when they land in the neighbors yard you won't remember putting the refrigerator's belongings in the bathtub or scrawling a buzzard on the bedroom door but then again who would you'll pretend it's spring again before putting on your winter coat to go out front with a cigarette in your mouth you'll hope for a passing stranger to *** a light from or drag yourself to the corner with couch cushion change to buy a new lighter and on your way you won't bother looking back this is just another day on eggshells for no reason another november choking on birthday candles on your way home you step over beer cans the kind you fell in love with and wonder who had the last laugh last night or if anyone said a word at all it might've been another moment of clarity it might have been some idiot savant any adjective that feels like home anything that keeps you thirsty*
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I'm a Barbie Girl, in a Barbie World. Life's fantastic: I feel like plastic, aiming for an eighteen-inch waist because I can afford to throw my internal organs away. I feel like plastic, having to choose between eating and breathing with not enough space for two tubes. I feel like plastic, a thirty-nine inch bust and three times the forehead. I feel like plastic, a size nine squeezed to a three, spending three to nine avoiding mealtime because my weight loss book says 'Don't eat.' I'm a Barbie Girl, in a Barbie World. Life's fantastic, but... I'm not plastic. I've sat here listening while you complain about society but I don't think you realize that society is made by you. You complain about masks but you're masked by your poetry and trust me, it's trendy: Psychiatry. A bottle of capsules captures your soul and your dreams, fading reality. I cannot be defined because a definition leaves no room for change and I am a flame, ready to burn the cardboard box of priority you put over me. All the cool kids are lesbians and thespians on about repressions and I care, I do, I mean... I'm standing here among you. But words are just air. You can stand on this stage and tell me I'm beautiful, but I am more than my face so disregard my mild distaste for your inspirational speech. Now, this... This isn't a call for help. This is a call to arms. This is a battle cry because I am sick of waiting for a future that should've happened yesterday. So use this air to live the words you say and rally. Do not soothe, because we've already been cocooned by soothed reality in Shawnee, Johnson County. I'm a real girl, in a real world. Life's fantastic, and I refuse to be plastic, aiming for generic weight range based on content, not scale number. I refuse to be plastic, a neck moulded perfectly for both eating and breathing so I don't have to choose. I refuse to be plastic, a bust that you don't need to be sizing when I've got eyes a green not of romanticized meadows but of drunken puke. I refuse to be plastic, a size nine foot in a size nine shoe, spending three to nine enjoying my meal times, because my weight loss book is chucked down the chute. I'm a living girl in a beautiful world. Life's fantastic, because I'm not plastic.
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Feb 11, 2015
Feb 11, 2015 at 4:24 PM UTC
Barbie Girl
I'm a Barbie Girl, in a Barbie World. Life's fantastic: I feel like plastic, aiming for an eighteen-inch waist because I can afford to throw my internal organs away. I feel like plastic, having to choose between eating and breathing with not enough space for two tubes. I feel like plastic, a thirty-nine inch bust and three times the forehead. I feel like plastic, a size nine squeezed to a three, spending three to nine avoiding mealtime because my weight loss book says 'Don't eat.' I'm a Barbie Girl, in a Barbie World. Life's fantastic, but... I'm not plastic. I've sat here listening while you complain about society but I don't think you realize that society is made by you. You complain about masks but you're masked by your poetry and trust me, it's trendy: Psychiatry. A bottle of capsules captures your soul and your dreams, fading reality. I cannot be defined because a definition leaves no room for change and I am a flame, ready to burn the cardboard box of priority you put over me. All the cool kids are lesbians and thespians on about repressions and I care, I do, I mean... I'm standing here among you. But words are just air. You can stand on this stage and tell me I'm beautiful, but I am more than my face so disregard my mild distaste for your inspirational speech. Now, this... This isn't a call for help. This is a call to arms. This is a battle cry because I am sick of waiting for a future that should've happened yesterday. So use this air to live the words you say and rally. Do not soothe, because we've already been cocooned by soothed reality in Shawnee, Johnson County. I'm a real girl, in a real world. Life's fantastic, and I refuse to be plastic, aiming for generic weight range based on content, not scale number. I refuse to be plastic, a neck moulded perfectly for both eating and breathing so I don't have to choose. I refuse to be plastic, a bust that you don't need to be sizing when I've got eyes a green not of romanticized meadows but of drunken puke. I refuse to be plastic, a size nine foot in a size nine shoe, spending three to nine enjoying my meal times, because my weight loss book is chucked down the chute. I'm a living girl in a beautiful world. Life's fantastic, because I'm not plastic.
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Do you want a slice of cake, might keep you going just for now. But as you are not used to eating, you have the hooves we'll keep the cow. The modern world is dying younger, unlike those in the poorer east. Who die through lack of food and water, we're dying because we're obese. In this modern city arena, it seems our portion is the more free health and overwhelming safety but we save that small slice for the poor. The waste is massive, over burdened, tons of food are chucked away. As we stick to our sell by clearance just think for what so many pray. Do we need such a massive slice, even half would fill our needs. The west gets fat the east is wanting scrubbing around for scraps and seeds. So next time when feasting in McDonalds, and washing down with large milkshake. Try and see your own reflexion and you'll see whom eats all the cake. Before you leave that busy food-hall, just have a quick look in the bin and you will see the unholy waste, perhaps you'll also see the sin. The slicing of this planets cake   seems to be divided wrong. So cut it into a fairer slices and send it to where it belongs.
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Nov 13, 2014
Nov 13, 2014 at 2:54 PM UTC
Slice that Cake
You may think you are special Because you are rolling in money And have lots of boyfriends But the reality is as different As chalk is from cheese A person is special Due to his/her character Or what s/he does You have a personality that is so shallow That it would put even the Kardashians to shame And that is saying something You do not know the first thing about friendship And yet consider yourself an ideal friend To one and all While you proceed to ghost someone Whom you've known for years and years All because of a silly comment On a photo of yours on social media Someone may be your BFF one day And turn into a mere acquaintance the next day For you, people are like bubblegum wrappers To be used and thrown at a moment's notice Of course, as we all know There's no point in breaking your head over people Especially in a our rather fickle-minded society But when you act all high and mighty As though you're always right And everyone else is wrong It really gets my goat Again, you may think you are special Based on money, good looks or the number of boyfriends you have But all these will get you nowhere in life Because, there will be a time When you are in desperate need of help And you will find That the only people who can be of use Are the ones whom you've already chucked
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Nov 24, 2022
Nov 24, 2022 at 11:53 AM UTC
You May Think You Are Special
A thousand tumbles takes a bottle in the sea- a thousand dashes and whirls and swoops. A million grains of sand takes that bottle in the sea, to break apart, to come to me in fragments like a snowflake fractal. How many mermaid miles till she hands that glass to me? For I've taken out my very-ness, for you. - And my crossness. My judgement and wrath. I've taken out slight hot breathe                (for you to melt the ice on your whiskers.) I've taken out my toes when they are reaching for yours in the cavernous blanket world  through the forest of our lazy limbs. I've taken out my righteousness and my second guessing. I've taken out for you (a surprise, I was going to surprise you!) all the times you were going to be wrong to me-           and to wrong me... taken them out to sea, you see? In that bottle, pretty bottle. Broken now like too many vows. I've taken out my knowing best and finding better. I've taken out the half moon of your thumbnail as well ...I will miss that in my night sky- (perhaps I'll keep that after all.) I'll take out the complacency of holding your hand getting out of a chair. and the mindless strokes as you explain my commonplace crazy to simpler minds- I'll take out the very-ness of me, and the we-ness of us. and fill a bottle with a the brine of a thousand tears from hundred slights not slighted quite yet. I fill the bottle and gift the sea with the softness of you and the brashness of me. A thousand turnabouts it takes to reach you on the beach, a sea glass diamond ring, engage me you engaging man- and the tides tickles my feet in anticipation, marry me. marry me. just a sea glass promise for a mermaid bride waiting for the sailor man to sing her sweetly with salt on his lips Just a sea glass lullaby from the man who loves me so. Marry me, marry me And we drink sparkling water from a sea glass flute and we drink all the us and we drink all the we for sea glass could never hold a second in, sea glass is far too vain not to shine in the sun fanning your invite out in a spectrum of color that a small child's hand creates when he holds it up to the rays. Spills out all of my intentions Spoiled child, loved child, Spills out all of my intentions carelessly on the sandy floor for the tides to swallow whole. My sea glass prism chucked unceremoniously back to sea and me the mermaid bride left at her own alter... But a seashell to your ear and her my wailing sorrow calls, 'marry me, sailor. marry me.' sahn 8/5/14
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Aug 4, 2014
Aug 4, 2014 at 11:42 PM UTC
Sailor Groom and Mermaid Bride
A thousand tumbles takes a bottle in the sea- a thousand dashes and whirls and swoops. A million grains of sand takes that bottle in the sea, to break apart, to come to me in fragments like a snowflake fractal. How many mermaid miles till she hands that glass to me? For I've taken out my very-ness, for you. - And my crossness. My judgement and wrath. I've taken out slight hot breathe                (for you to melt the ice on your whiskers.) I've taken out my toes when they are reaching for yours in the cavernous blanket world  through the forest of our lazy limbs. I've taken out my righteousness and my second guessing. I've taken out for you (a surprise, I was going to surprise you!) all the times you were going to be wrong to me-           and to wrong me... taken them out to sea, you see? In that bottle, pretty bottle. Broken now like too many vows. I've taken out my knowing best and finding better. I've taken out the half moon of your thumbnail as well ...I will miss that in my night sky- (perhaps I'll keep that after all.) I'll take out the complacency of holding your hand getting out of a chair. and the mindless strokes as you explain my commonplace crazy to simpler minds- I'll take out the very-ness of me, and the we-ness of us. and fill a bottle with a the brine of a thousand tears from hundred slights not slighted quite yet. I fill the bottle and gift the sea with the softness of you and the brashness of me. A thousand turnabouts it takes to reach you on the beach, a sea glass diamond ring, engage me you engaging man- and the tides tickles my feet in anticipation, marry me. marry me. just a sea glass promise for a mermaid bride waiting for the sailor man to sing her sweetly with salt on his lips Just a sea glass lullaby from the man who loves me so. Marry me, marry me And we drink sparkling water from a sea glass flute and we drink all the us and we drink all the we for sea glass could never hold a second in, sea glass is far too vain not to shine in the sun fanning your invite out in a spectrum of color that a small child's hand creates when he holds it up to the rays. Spills out all of my intentions Spoiled child, loved child, Spills out all of my intentions carelessly on the sandy floor for the tides to swallow whole. My sea glass prism chucked unceremoniously back to sea and me the mermaid bride left at her own alter... But a seashell to your ear and her my wailing sorrow calls, 'marry me, sailor. marry me.' sahn 8/5/14
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The narcissistic urge flips eggs now. Our ex-veteran father-figure gets a hamster, calls it Snuffles. The thing you don’t know until the end of the script of the Tarantino-twist is that our protagonist sits rocking back and forth in a barren room inside a strait-jacket. Meanwhile, our enemy shouts something along the lines of: "grab a spoon I hope they don’t wash their hands" The stones fallen off their strings, gunshots hotwire themselves away from a dubstep kind of drilling, the pipe dream of an intimate email relationship. Shout again, "I hope you never feel those clammy hands. Blaarghh" Your diner eggs stink I chucked up In the kitchen bin.
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Mar 14, 2019
Mar 14, 2019 at 12:43 PM UTC
Snuffles
Seven in a week, Disgusting, she hears you say, The first one, well he maybe the last, This one left religion chucked upon her path. She loved very him much, just because she could. He made her feel, So relaxed, extreme tranquility. The second one, He gave her a super blast, The third. She loved him rapidly, with  blazing renewed passion, The third one was very hot, yesterday's one became forgot, Had nothing much to offer her, so she washed him out of hair, The fourth one he was wonderful, She got half way through and then they stopped, Gave up for the day. The fifth one, he was noisy, he made too much racket, ****** fellow, just wanted to be one of the boys, Got up and left without even goodbye, Just shoved his finger in her  eye. Made her tears flow, Only one more of them to go. Very nearly over, had enough of them, the days of the week so pleasantly displayed as flipping men. Last one round was Saturday, a nothing much the matter day! The end of the week brings with it relief! (c) Livvi
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May 7, 2014
May 7, 2014 at 5:27 AM UTC
Busy!
I’m a Barbie girl in a Barbie world. Life’s fantastic! I feel like plastic, aiming for an 18-inch waist because I can afford to throw my internal organs away. I feel like plastic, a neck so slender I have to choose between eating and breathing; there’s not enough space for two tubes. I feel like plastic, a 38-inch bust and 3-times the average amount of forehead. I feel like plastic, a size nine shoe squeezed to a three, spending three to nine avoiding meal time because my weight-loss book says, “Don’t eat.” I’m a Barbie girl, in a Barbie world. Life’s fantastic, but I’m not plastic. Bile tastes all too organic, its taste chasing after me if I exceed my daily nutritional limit of 2,000 calories. I’m skinny enough that people think I’m healthy. I’m not skinny enough for people to think I’m unhealthy. Anorexia is as familiar as the back of my hand, poised like a gun to the back of my throat, waiting and ready to blow. I’m a sixteen-year-old suicide case, product of the war of production, wearing battle wounds in the form of uniform lines across the tops of my thighs. I’ve been rewriting this poem since its conception. I feel like the rough draft: concision is key. (Be smaller.) I’m trying rewriting, trying to leave out things that aren’t important enough, like: four of my ribs and my esophagus and my stomach and my small intestine. I’m testing the limits of realism. But here’s the thing: I’m a real girl in a real world. Life’s not always fantastic, but I am not plastic. I am not plastic. I refuse to be plastic, aiming for generic weight range based on content, not scale number. I refuse to be plastic, eating and breathing like both are vital aspects to living. I refuse to be plastic, an actual hip-to-bust ratio for not a thirty-year-old but a teenager. I refuse to be plastic, shoe size nine in size nine shoes, trying to start enjoying mealtimes because my “weight-loss book” has been chucked down the chute. I’m a living girl in a terrifying world, trying to remind myself that “Life in Plastic!” is not fantastic.
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Sep 13, 2017
Sep 13, 2017 at 8:00 PM UTC
revisiting Barbie Girl
I’m a Barbie girl in a Barbie world. Life’s fantastic! I feel like plastic, aiming for an 18-inch waist because I can afford to throw my internal organs away. I feel like plastic, a neck so slender I have to choose between eating and breathing; there’s not enough space for two tubes. I feel like plastic, a 38-inch bust and 3-times the average amount of forehead. I feel like plastic, a size nine shoe squeezed to a three, spending three to nine avoiding meal time because my weight-loss book says, “Don’t eat.” I’m a Barbie girl, in a Barbie world. Life’s fantastic, but I’m not plastic. Bile tastes all too organic, its taste chasing after me if I exceed my daily nutritional limit of 2,000 calories. I’m skinny enough that people think I’m healthy. I’m not skinny enough for people to think I’m unhealthy. Anorexia is as familiar as the back of my hand, poised like a gun to the back of my throat, waiting and ready to blow. I’m a sixteen-year-old suicide case, product of the war of production, wearing battle wounds in the form of uniform lines across the tops of my thighs. I’ve been rewriting this poem since its conception. I feel like the rough draft: concision is key. (Be smaller.) I’m trying rewriting, trying to leave out things that aren’t important enough, like: four of my ribs and my esophagus and my stomach and my small intestine. I’m testing the limits of realism. But here’s the thing: I’m a real girl in a real world. Life’s not always fantastic, but I am not plastic. I am not plastic. I refuse to be plastic, aiming for generic weight range based on content, not scale number. I refuse to be plastic, eating and breathing like both are vital aspects to living. I refuse to be plastic, an actual hip-to-bust ratio for not a thirty-year-old but a teenager. I refuse to be plastic, shoe size nine in size nine shoes, trying to start enjoying mealtimes because my “weight-loss book” has been chucked down the chute. I’m a living girl in a terrifying world, trying to remind myself that “Life in Plastic!” is not fantastic.
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I'll ask you not to turn off the lights, I want them to blind me with their brilliant filaments until the bulbs break like a vase on a tiled floor, the walls, the door go back to being charcoal black as they have been so many times before. I have started to abhor the roads that define me, the words that describe me and my traits, the way I must walk in wintery air to a migraine inducing wilderness to be squashed into old moulds, will this be adequate for you now and when? What is this fall, does it affect you, your actions, your jumbled jigsaw piece thoughts? These bruises are purple, this brain is strained, inject me with zest until my wrist pains so much it must combust. Out of the glass is nothing, a candyfloss cloud, a tree, a lawn, it bores me, an artist is needed, paint a new canvas swathed in colour and things from my weekend dreams lucid and intense. I am a ******* up ball of paper, unfold me, still legible? Fold it again, an airplane chucked into an angry breeze or please, if the lamps are tough enough, watch my words illuminate, drool across the table.
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Oct 25, 2012
Oct 25, 2012 at 3:59 PM UTC
Terminal Velocity
For free, but hardly costless, for you big lollipop suckers, c a u s e, every time I breathe in some atmosphere, outcome these up chucked integers and alphabets to poll- -ute the remaining "good air," which isn't i know very fait fair, but would you rather this thin poesy lighter-than-whipped cream and jello shaking handshaking easy eating than all that other stuff I obsess about in no particular order, like life and death, counting my re-main- lining breaths, love 'n like, awesome vs. trite, hot love and cold po- -tatoe mustardy salad, punch and paunch, my endless declination into febrile old age and the wasting away processes most unfortunate, that fuels a trillion dollar healthcare IN-dustry (midwest pro-nun-she-ate-sean), vitamins and supplements, manufactured in contaminated factories in the farout east, that are not usda grade A, unless mixed with good **** and to hell with this graffiti wordley ***** even i'm fed up from writing all this serious stuff, and Brother Leonard, who is always very ****** says fkinA, halle-lou-y'all the end is near***
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Sep 6, 2025
Sep 6, 2025 at 10:17 PM UTC
and you give yourself away...
I don't speak spaceman she said with a grin. When into the craft she went. Was parked on the grass at the rear of her tent. There met an alien ugly as sin. Invited her in to join him for gin. Or maybe a game of rummy. Neither one could understand. Non-verbal communication ensued. They had a hug and laid on the rug. When sipping their gin. The two of them, The alien invader, ugly as sin. And maiden fair who chucked her hand in. By ladylivvi1 © 2014 ladylivvi1 (All rights reserved)
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Jan 13, 2014
Jan 13, 2014 at 4:35 PM UTC
Spaceman!
Her bed wouldn't release her, Despite the alarm clock's vicious bite, had a late one last night, hey, Jenna, Mother called, time to get up honey, get your *** moving, and I'll chuck you some money, maybe get you fast food breakfast, won't tell you again, that time was the last. Jenna fell out of bed, chucked on her clothes, looked like a clothes horse, with a pierced nose, She wiped on her daily slap, told the world that school was crap, wiped on a phoney grin, Mamma said she must go in, In a very loud voice, She spouted, only thing worth having, was not education, but  in her classes gangs of boys. Had enough of dictatorial teachers, she could still hang out in bed, learning from dreams, instead, She  so hated mother's nagging, practised in old bagging, She had no yearning for  learning, all she wants to do is sleep! (C) Livvi
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May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 5:46 AM UTC
The Naughty Schoolgirl!
I am just a city girl, I'm calling up at city lights. The daily roar of traffic, unsettling on this chilly Tuesday night. I am frightened by my shadow, as sunlight comes around. I ran along the pathway outside my darkened house. Heard a creature snuffling, perhaps it was a mouse. Then my lovely carer crept outside the bungalow. Oh no, my shuffler got trod on. She thought it was the discarded head of a tatty old brush. A broom head, chucked out in the gloom. It was a little hedgehog. Poor creature creeping around in the dark. Went indoors. Found a torch. The pig of the hedge had gone. My carer told me she felt guilty. I said she need not be. As the hedgehog, scared by heavy feet. Was up the pathway nibbling meat. The meat was meant for me. (c)LIVVI
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Oct 8, 2015
Oct 8, 2015 at 3:21 AM UTC
BROOM HEADS AND CATS EYES
cast out chucked away deep-sixed discarded discharged disposed of expelled flung aside thrown down jettisoned deserted jilted vacated left in abdication aggravated outcast rejected eliminated forgotten given up godforsaken
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Oct 4, 2011
Oct 4, 2011 at 11:02 AM UTC
Dumped
He puts it out there, the Schrödinger’s cat of invitations. Now, I’m irritated. “I TOLD you I don’t have time for.. involvement.” “But you have to eat - so eat with ME,” he shrugs. “You can build a friendship with someone and still have freedom.” His observation was casual, as though it were unrelated to anything between us. He seemed to have the intuition that I’d balk if pressed. “You’re subversive.” I said. “Why me? There are prettier girls, more agreeable, fun girls. I feel like I’m on the edge here,” I look around to indicate the room, the environment, the university. “And I can be a complete as-hole.” He looked a little offended, “You’re interesting, I like what I know about you and, yeah, we can all be as-holes - we’re in a pool of “A” types, in case you haven’t noticed.” “What do you KNOW about me?” I ask. “I’ve read some of your writings,” he looked thoughtful, “I may know a little about how you think, It’s unusual.. interesting.” I’m shocked and I squirm, “You looked me up?” “I looked you up.” he nodded, “to be sure you’re not an axe murderer.” “How much did you read?” I asked, wheedling, my inner-writer engaging. “Tell you at dinner - YOU name the date and time,” he smiled. “My idea of “dinner” is walking to a dining hall, picking up a bag of food, bringing it back here and taking ten minutes to eat it between chapters,” I warned. “I have a meal card,” he says, jiggling his student lanyard. “We’ll see.” I said. “Have you talked to anyone else about my writing?” “No,” he answered, “Why?” “Please don’t, I have to think about it.” I say. As far as I know, no one I know in RL has read me - it’s an odd feeling - like maybe he got ahold of my diary. I haven’t worried over the fact that someone I’m in physical proximity to could look me up. That all this stuff is actually out there. “Don’t think my misgivings can be cajoled away,” I say, “no more talking.” He chucked but we got back to studying.
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Nov 16, 2021
Nov 16, 2021 at 10:21 PM UTC
out there
He puts it out there, the Schrödinger’s cat of invitations. Now, I’m irritated. “I TOLD you I don’t have time for.. involvement.” “But you have to eat - so eat with ME,” he shrugs. “You can build a friendship with someone and still have freedom.” His observation was casual, as though it were unrelated to anything between us. He seemed to have the intuition that I’d balk if pressed. “You’re subversive.” I said. “Why me? There are prettier girls, more agreeable, fun girls. I feel like I’m on the edge here,” I look around to indicate the room, the environment, the university. “And I can be a complete as-hole.” He looked a little offended, “You’re interesting, I like what I know about you and, yeah, we can all be as-holes - we’re in a pool of “A” types, in case you haven’t noticed.” “What do you KNOW about me?” I ask. “I’ve read some of your writings,” he looked thoughtful, “I may know a little about how you think, It’s unusual.. interesting.” I’m shocked and I squirm, “You looked me up?” “I looked you up.” he nodded, “to be sure you’re not an axe murderer.” “How much did you read?” I asked, wheedling, my inner-writer engaging. “Tell you at dinner - YOU name the date and time,” he smiled. “My idea of “dinner” is walking to a dining hall, picking up a bag of food, bringing it back here and taking ten minutes to eat it between chapters,” I warned. “I have a meal card,” he says, jiggling his student lanyard. “We’ll see.” I said. “Have you talked to anyone else about my writing?” “No,” he answered, “Why?” “Please don’t, I have to think about it.” I say. As far as I know, no one I know in RL has read me - it’s an odd feeling - like maybe he got ahold of my diary. I haven’t worried over the fact that someone I’m in physical proximity to could look me up. That all this stuff is actually out there. “Don’t think my misgivings can be cajoled away,” I say, “no more talking.” He chucked but we got back to studying.
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Shall I open volley, spike with clenched hand? Acquiesce to athleticism, or drop return? Is there a score? numbers imply a plan, encumbered; ******** clad... jockstraps and leather, tube socks and man. ****** courts, exotic terminology, words of reduction, redacted, redacted, redacted! under spells of seduction... What more? Who the **** cares. Piles can be chucked, and strip smiles, 1 grain at a time, throw a bone, throw another, you'll build your own monster. What more? redacted, redacted, redacted! join me down below... I'll give you history, it will set everything aglow. What more? **** more. Questions? redacted; for your own security. Not Goliath, not even Iago... wait, that may be whom you cast! Laughter man, so much laughter, I grow darker; a product of your mind; that's just a reminder. Had I plotted, had I connived, had I been... trolling gutters, sexing the populace, setting parties to war? You gave me the part, and the act was in pantomime... improbable for paralysis severed spine, redacted, redacted, redacted. You set loose scenarios, and now I willingly oblige... I'll take my bow, and cunning smile.
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Sep 9, 2010
Sep 9, 2010 at 6:19 PM UTC
What more?
Journal entry#11 My mom is my best friend. She's wise beyond her years. Today I came to her with tears. I said, "mother why am I suffering." I could hear her smile through the phone as she gently replied... "Without suffering there would be no compassion." I chucked through my tears and said, "Tell that to the ones who are currently suffering mom." Her voice softened even more as she responded with so much love, "Without suffering my sweet daughter how would we ever know joy?" I love you mom
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Apr 8, 2018
Apr 8, 2018 at 12:33 AM UTC
Suffering....
Bees nest chucked into a limousine OCD's introduced to the filth and strobe lighting I used to be a good kid. But the suburbs got me. Stripped away my hope, my individuality crammed me into a high school with 45 blacks, 20 Asians and only about... 3,000 white run-of-the-mill Shaler-Bubble kids (All of whom thought, by the way, that being Catholic was exotic) , and made to eat the **** of nothing to do. It came out in nightmares their bad behavior that I stood for touched and beaten by boys I bared it ostracized and devoured last year I came into my stride but do you have PTSD? Can you look into the eyes of another man without wondering how to **** him? Do you want to hurt the people you love because you fear, no, you know, they will **** you? A whirl wind of insanity. What was precarious was pushed. No ma'am, the suburbs got me, and I'm a burn out by the road fingers dripping with paint and my own blood and smudged with ink I'll drink in your pity whiskey on my mind thank you pass another flask of it no drug makes me feel alive quite like asprin maybe love, I guess don't know how I got that, ma'am the suburbs got me maybe I can get out.
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Jun 21, 2013
Jun 21, 2013 at 9:30 PM UTC
The Suburbs Got Me
Just because I’m reclusive, doesn’t mean I don’t love you. Above you stand only second-hand crossword puzzles chucked by gods, their errors in ink. The newsprint covers your head and you fill in some blank squares to make words shorter, how you want them to be. If you had your way, you’d be a philosophy major. You’d submerge yourself in knowledge like a child who spiraled from heaven via twirly slide in a pit of plastic ***** Your way would lead to fortune cookies filled with morbid maxims and hand-picked lucky numbers because computers are so impersonal. You’d call the absence of ignorance death; but until then, bathroom wall banter must do. **** what goes on in bathroom stalls. I touch myself in a public restroom thinking of you, my eagerness a shaken bottle of ginger ale. Two hours later, they start peering in the stall, asking if I’m alright in there. I feel the way I did when Jessica Serber ripped out my braid in second grade when we were playing Marco Polo. I told Coach Fish and she asked, “What am I supposed to do? Glue it back on?” I hated her ever since. And yet it’s not just hatred, but also fear, like the fear of killing spiders in case their family chooses to avenge them. I can never get over it; I can never live it down. So forgive me for never telling you this. Forgive me for never telling you much of anything. Just because I’m reclusive, doesn’t mean I don’t love you. But if one day you decide to leave me, I’ll hire a hustler who looks just like you.
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Aug 2, 2012
Aug 2, 2012 at 9:47 AM UTC
Introspection
Just because I’m reclusive, doesn’t mean I don’t love you. Above you stand only second-hand crossword puzzles chucked by gods, their errors in ink. The newsprint covers your head and you fill in some blank squares to make words shorter, how you want them to be. If you had your way, you’d be a philosophy major. You’d submerge yourself in knowledge like a child who spiraled from heaven via twirly slide in a pit of plastic ***** Your way would lead to fortune cookies filled with morbid maxims and hand-picked lucky numbers because computers are so impersonal. You’d call the absence of ignorance death; but until then, bathroom wall banter must do. **** what goes on in bathroom stalls. I touch myself in a public restroom thinking of you, my eagerness a shaken bottle of ginger ale. Two hours later, they start peering in the stall, asking if I’m alright in there. I feel the way I did when Jessica Serber ripped out my braid in second grade when we were playing Marco Polo. I told Coach Fish and she asked, “What am I supposed to do? Glue it back on?” I hated her ever since. And yet it’s not just hatred, but also fear, like the fear of killing spiders in case their family chooses to avenge them. I can never get over it; I can never live it down. So forgive me for never telling you this. Forgive me for never telling you much of anything. Just because I’m reclusive, doesn’t mean I don’t love you. But if one day you decide to leave me, I’ll hire a hustler who looks just like you.
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In Corsets and Crinoline. Tight lady in bones of whales wrapped! Bustling out from behind. Corset gripping at wasted skin. Skirt stood as parachute. For lovelorn lady who cried. Dropped by her lover. She wanted to die. In a fashion of air filled hoops. Laced up in corsets of bone. Took sweet ladies breath away. Trendy fashion of the day. Chucked herself from bridge so high. Spurned lady the wind caught her bustle, So did she fly? The trussed Victorian lady.
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Jan 8, 2014
Jan 8, 2014 at 4:10 PM UTC
In Corsets and Crinoline!
Poignant prose chucked out and recycled by morning. Turned out trick repeated til boring. The local band just started touring. Sonnet's blasted until the ladies are 'whooring'. ... Roxy Music dropped David Byrne. For Ellie Goulding and a remix of burn. Robert Johnson's been reworked. Ratatat rap as interest is perked. Dylan picked up the silent game. Making ambient noises which all sound the same. The Rolling Stones joined the church. After buying some of Hoosier's merch. Nicki Minaj claps her **** Laying down a tribute for Terry Fox's stump. Benefit concert soon to be run. By the played out Glee Club composing Fun. Beach Boys dragged in with the tide. ...And Stars Collide. NOFX has gone clean Fat Mike's gone and become a dean. Tom Waits stomps out to Kendrick Lamar. Hacking up bits of blunt induced tar. Bumping out in Steve Ellison's car. To Captain Murphy's karaoke bootlegged from a bar. ... Less than 10 good tapes a year Even fewer if referring to those others actually hear. Jack White's gone third eye blind Getting over run by his drug free mind.
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Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 2:39 PM UTC
Grammy Season! Time To Celebrate Mediocrity!
Sweet lady in bones of whales wrapped! Bustling out from behind. Corset gripping at wasted skin. Skirt stood as parachute. For lovelorn lady who cried. Dropped by her lover. She wanted to die. In a fashion of air filled hoops. Laced up in corsets of bone. Took sweet ladies breath away. Trendy fashion of the day. Chucked herself from bridge so high. Spurned lady the wind caught her bustle, So did she fly? The trussed Victorian lady. (c) Livvi x
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Jan 8, 2014
Jan 8, 2014 at 4:10 PM UTC
In Corsets and Crinoline!
We grew up on the same street, We blew dandelions into the sky. We chucked shells into the blue sea, Wondering what it would be like. To grow older. I came back to the same street, It's not the same without you. I can still hear the sound of your feet, I can hear mine too. Wish we didn't have to grow older.
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Apr 9, 2021
Apr 9, 2021 at 6:00 AM UTC
Older
Inside cockpit command control, a proud young captain sits fiddling with his tie. Out on the runway, a parade of boisterous holiday makers stream through a wall of steamy-sticky heat. A scraping of cases amid jubilant faces, as they flock to their seats in frantic fashion. Offering warm greetings, the sun spreads its orange glow; kissing the face of many a passenger. Raucous voices become feeble mutterings, drowned by roaring engines. Knuckles white as chalk from clenched fists: an anxiety that is to be short-lived. We ascend to the clouds, above motorways and mountains; entering an endless wash of blue. Smiles chucked around like confetti bringing a sense of: new opportunity, hope and adventure. As we rise above.
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Jul 10, 2021
Jul 10, 2021 at 1:29 PM UTC
Flight ✈️