Rain drops to the sound of my tears
thoughts storm clouded,
I wish I could turn back the years
Erase every mistake, every irrational fear
Lose myself in hope
Instead of seeing the darkness transparent, so clear
It resonates, tainting my soul daily
It stains everything I hold dear
The grim reaper my shadow,
I indulge him with conversation,
Even if I'm completely lost,
He'll as promised. ..
...... always be near.

I'm mystified by your alluring mystique
Mysterious & mischievous motif
Allurance that's magnetically deep
Intrigued because you intrigue
At times time get lost in Déjà vu, it sleeps
Leaps, my heart jump every time you speak
Eloquent in elegance a elegant feat
Featured features fearless & elite
A walking dream poetry supreme
Treat with a candied heartbeat
A beat that's upbeat & sugary sweet
Leave, I will lay down in defeat
Invite the reaper, get my soul reaped
You the air I need to breathe
Undying love daily to you I bequeath
Uncaged winged words have me soaring free
You gave me the belief to believe I'm more than negativity
Negative thoughts boxed and caged within my minds disease
With you I leave the key, knowing you will never leave me to bleed
Never leave me wounded bleeding, in your eyes guaranteed

I  want you to know

They see life's hardship still in your eyes
l see your heart in its endless paradise
I see your smile still go on for miles

I'm sorry

Was your sacrifice now I feel part of a vice
We drifting unless another plan we devise
love is still there, its in the touch and the stares
Life got us stepping, hardship, invisible stairs
Faced it together kissing while making repairs
I cant believe where we are I know we still care
Invested our relationship is growing in shares

I promise

To tell you I love you daily
To love you forever sweetly
To cherish our love greatly

do  you not remember
When we were in heaven
that night we were together
after all storms weathered
to your lies I surrender
now by hate we tethered
all your tears I've savored

Why do we think its love we need
When hates all it breeds, a carried disease
Why do you think loves a dream
A cloud full of steam, tears cry it weeps
Why do you think some kids hearts bleeds
It's love they need, it's locked up and keyed
Why do think loves drenched in deceit
Our love can mislead, we believe we are free

just admit we broken
just admit we souless
just admit we love less
Just admit we are guests
our love cant stand the test
In tears we become obsessed
red thread of fate has become stretched
from this place we should digress

You know this is over, choking while we breathe
addicted to tears while groping, blinded we cannot see
lying I feel like a poser, knowing how we feel
we both know this is over, .........living in constant grieve

As the innocence untarnished youth pierces through your joy full smile
Carrying with it the tears of past sorrows lifted.
The abundance of questions you bare
shows your inquisitive mind
The love you share, perfectly points out the only beauty left in a tarnished existence.
The hope you carry with every step you take is more precious than an entire world enlightened.
The embrace of your arms gives hope wings and brings light where the world is darkened
My son……the hope and shining rays of my being

fake is the smile I walk around with all day
like I’m wearing a upside down happy face
the words that I mutter is not all I have to say
Not dealing with stupidity is the only heavens grace
So, I walk around with this mask on my damning face
Deep down all I know is a feeling of disgrace
Ripping  gnawing moving happiness out of place
I know I'm not the only one, that’s caught in this state
Now the notion that arises is the world’s completely fake
lies I just navigate and hope I don’t break
Clawing and scratching hoping I can claim a steak
Yet every step I take,
brings me closer to death
Choking to breathe with every dying breath
Hoping to catch a dream before there’s nothing left
Before I’m on my knees regretful and bereft
Before the scythe ascends and I lose my head

Slowly it draws every last breath
every step  that we take
moves us closer to death
this truth we have to face
no matter what the evidence
it's an open shut case
live with no regrets
because your life you cant retrace
in this life we have a stake
live life to the fullest
no matter the odds or mistakes.

Life equivalent to a runaway roller coaster.
It is a scary ride
At times you feel like letting go
Befriending the grim reaper
So he would call you willingly to his side.

Just like the fishmonger
These thoughts are selfish.

What about those left behind
The ones that truly love you
That has always been by your side
If you do not see them, please open your eyes
You are not alone, you have courage inside

Get your thoughts out the stormy clouds
Dry your saddened tears
Let the darkness see light, if only for a moment
let go of the numbing fears
You will soon realize, you have not yet drowned
To the darkness, you not consensually bound
Just open your blinded eyes
To see the love that is all around.

In the darkest hour, you will always find a smiling face
This is the nature of the human race
We might be killing ourselves and the world slowly
Drowning it with all the hate, we killing it unhurriedly
One day it will suffocate
We still built to adapt, so never give in
You are stronger than you know, exhale all the toxic thoughts
Let all the elegance in heart start your sing

I try to keep my flow going
Writing in all kinds of ways
To keep this poetry flowing
Not knowing
How these words bleed from my heart
Yet in life I cannot show it
Am I broken
Or is this a chance that I’m taking
Living life through a looking glass
Through these words on these pages

This war has many faces
Armed with an army
They are ruthless and tasteless
Yet we are fated
To live life in the shadows
When we were all meant for greatness
So start taking
Life by the throat
Let it know you not faking
Make it call out your name
While it’s trembling and shaking
You have the power
So let us stop flaking
Let us march on this world
Like it’s ours for the taking

Are we walking this life blindly
A plan with no direction
thoughts absent minded
Is there a purpose to all this
Questions denying answers
answered refusing questioning
At times we feel mindless

I'm losing faith
Tears prayerless
Our prayer faithless
We choking on oxygen
Our voices voiceless
Gasping to breathe
Our breath breathless

The hate in this world
It's overwhelming and tasteless
These culprits faceless
masters of masquerade
unmentionable and nameless.

Caskets of war a profit made shameless
Their blood money heartless
Rivers of saddened tears
To them wasted and fated
compared to riches, weightless

It's unfortunate
This the worlds bases
morals laces with shamelessness
2020 we still dealing with racists
Its like hate's contagious
we can combat it with love
Though even it seems hopeless

Put up our hands
we have to be courageous
inside ourselves we have greatness
together we not shapeless
If we march as one
this world can be painless

As I ink this lie
I realize the problem is imbedded in the ages
No one is rowing this boat
Navigation aimless
So we find faith somewhere
The light shines within us
Continue this unknown with grace
Movement Gracious.

Death calls silently from the distant abyss
Angelic voice of freedom sincere
This ailing body my minds prisoner
Living longer a constant fear

Songs of jolly laced the night
Thought of regret my only sight
Longing for end my companion
Longing for a loving touch my plight

They sing of joy, happiness and giving
Yet they forget their neighbors, family and living
Laughter sounds like blades singing
How loves embrace I'm wishing

With every drawn breath
I feel I'm cheating death.
I see beauty in nothingness.
Arms openly waiting to be fetched.
The world I detest, steals your youth.
Then send you lonely to rest.

This mirrored image staring back at me
I don't know who she is.
Loneliness the title of her memoirs  
I don't recognize the scars.

The world a limitless ocean of chaos
Yet, we joyful willing to drown.
Sing the halls of nights so lonely
This my only Christmas song

Love is the essence and fuel of the heart
Love conquers all if you believe in it's might
It's feeling that's joyous and always seems right....

What about the love that hurts, the toxic love
Some live for, where pain equal pleasure
In their heart they know that they still have love for one another, but they are heartbroken, the pain never heals,
It's constantly raw

What about serial killer stalking his pray, he fell in love with killing, this is type of love we love to hate.
And we should, this is a twisted kind of love
We have condemned this
It has been sealed by fate.

There's many types of love in this world ruled by greed
Let's embrace the pure love and hope it never bleeds
If it turns sour you will never be free
Let's pray that all prayers then, makes it to heaven safely.

promised you the world and i failed
bless the fact you still here, together , still saying you love me forever, makes this world better
gave me the strength to fight, pulled me from the ashes phoenix  I'm your fighter

scaled, the weight I carry lighter
touched by the dark, still carry a torch
felt your fire, sizzling cinders fired awaking my slumber, wanting forever to defend your honor
untainted my eyes, a purifier, gave my confidence wings, we will soar higher

this our love this our fire this our love triggered by desire


liar, never you will call me, I mean it
my meaning not faulty by us meeting
the feeling  pouring out deeply that's guilt free
I foresee forever us be together until our souls get reaped


with faith i leap promise i keep

calm I sleep, feel the same
feelings equally deep
not leave a promise we keep, , visit each others dreams
dying promise
world bleeds, light you shine
Devine leads,  my guideline forever entwined
beauty defined, angels shrine forever mine

nectared wine, feeling sublime love defined
faith leaped devils weep our hearts need
all I see, all I feel, oxygen needed to breathe

It was a day in November, that sad journey a walk to remember
Through tear stained eyes, worst day of my life if I measured
You were priceless, flowing river of a lost kings treasure
Immeasurable, you made me want to be better
In this world of pain , you are my only pleasure
Through storms we weathered, separable never

Your deceit, left me feverish, running a fever
Withdrawal from your love left my heart with a seizure
Broken a bleeder, bleeding for your love I crave every instant

My attempt to put up resistance futile as you I could never resist
Even though we distant I still crave your essence
I know you not here but I still feel your presence
In Perfect memories we still together under pretense

Our love that's now severed
Bleeds from the seams death where it's headed
Our red thread of fate beheaded
Our love lust dejected like it was your initial endeavor

Whatever!

The black scar on my heart, how you will always be remembered
played with my heart, I hope my saddened tears you savored
Wolf in sheep clothing, you were never my shepherd

I break free from terror
I will no longer be tethered

I will love you forever

was a dark night with a bright moon
your silhouette on the dance floor my eyes consumed
poetry in motion body waves like ocean
seems I'm doomed if i only knew was the start
of something made for fools we rushed in
emotions spinning propelling us to new heights
soaring, above the chaos in each others sights
earthly angel bringing light to my dark nights
mesmerizing my thoughts it feels right
meant to be we shine neon lights

we cant fight it was pre ordained it excite
this our passage our rights evokes delight
think we loved each other in past lives
cant overwrite, protect you be your modern night
is there a end in sight not quite, for eternity we tethered
it looks like don't mind our souls entwined even in the afterlife
in this world you'll become my wife
we journey life in each others arms
easing strife fireflies love that shines bright
even the moon envious tonight

you know when I'm with you
there's nothing i cant do
this life seems brand new
This meant for us two
our love a glowing hue
love exist who knew
so how could you

How quickly devilish
graceful angel falls from grace.
You said, I betrayed you?
Do you not see the tears streaming down my face?
still holding the "I love you" knife you stabbed me with,
bleeding, disgraced.
Was all this years
hearts beating as one a waste?
see your black wings true colors
Was I a naive scholar?
this lesson I wish not to face
You still the air I breathe, yet,
don't want to call your out name
When I do, betrayal I still taste

What happened to together forever, eternity, infinity
With your murderous words, death his only fate
No matter how hard I try
bleeding wound won't stop.
screaming rivers of tears won't dry
need your healing touch
My skin crawls, know that's a lie
broke something in me
took a important part of me
tears washes away the veil, you infected my vision.
ugly suffering I can now  see.

The moon reflect your silhouette in the night sky
Why?
Are you haunting me, I feel I could cry
Heartbroken,
You left me to die
I plead, no beg of you,
please leave my mind
You still a part of me
In my soul you reside,
I can no longer cry
Someone please save me!
Why’d you leave me behind
God you should have taken me instead
In her place I would have died
Please help me!
This misplaced rage I can’t hide….


Loneliness is killing me
I can’t go on, it’s with you I should be
We for eternity, is a promise we share
Slit wrist,
Wait for me my love
I’ll be right there.

As fireflies infinite lights a darkened sky
The memory of a perfect love freshly lingers
Her honeyed kisses I still taste with every breath I take
Her touch of healing still warm against my mournful skin
Her angelic face depicted in the stars
a wave of untainted emotion storms my soul
Our souls unbreakable promise to be entwined for all eternity
With every moment spent apart tears me to tears
A punishment unmistakably unbearable
The only solace a voice recalled…
The words drenched with hope dripping from her lips in ecstasy
         .....I love you…

Running blindly
lungs start to scream
thoughts mindless
sorrow endless
Nightmarish dream.

Living this lucid reality
memories vivid visual 3D
Visions morphs beastly
Oceans coal a black sea
Cascading dark all I see
Choking on oxygen
gasping to breathe
Screaming in silence
My voice start to leave
fall to my knees
the dark inverts
It's all my eyes sees

Shaken, A rude awakening

Awake on a Horse
Followed by the ace of hearts
Arrows swoosh my head it past
I hear a voice in the background
yelling, ' give him back the tarts
It's the queen of tarts hearts
She will take off your head
paraded headless, call it face arts
encountered a army, came to a halt

As the axe touches my skin
awake in agony my neck attached
hands cant move, I start to overreact
If I must guess, buries in a casket
I cant move or scream, getting tired
***, it feels like I'm dying
buried alive, tears started crying
I feel my last breath dissipate
soul torn from my body
I envision it flying

Am I Dead?

I hear a familiar beeping
My name its calling
to my soul it's speaking
I get pulled back to unreality
I opened while shrieking
sweating overheating
was I awake or sleeping
Am I awake now?
Answers misleading

My soul still seeking
the only answer it gets
whispers from my demons

I stand on a frozen lakes ledge, staring Into the cold eyes of darkness
It whispers it loves me, while clutching my bleeding heart
Daggers through my frailty, tearing our paradise apart
Our love use to harmonize
Promises you made, a masquerade of truths
Our fairytale, storybook lies.

Your honied kisses sweetened my dreams
In nightmares now your name I scream
In our world, you were made my queen
What stands before me in tears
A lying angel, a crying fiend.

You wont see me cry
I hide my tears in the downpour
You were suppose to be my savior
All you are is a lie

You the schism that split me
You caused this divide
Bitter tonight my lullaby
On my knees, I say good bye.

Smiling face, look how I get lost in her sparkling eyes
crystal glasses toasting, for this journey's we willingly embark on tonight

I can see her lustful thoughts
tread milling, running backwards
fighting heated feelings, she wants to rip off my clothes

Her lips the taste that gives it away, it's alone, it's lonely
Running seductively across every ounce of my quivering soul, static,slowly

I completely crash loosening my grip in this moment, I let go
Thermometer calling for a windy ice tea, intoxicating kiss that she blows

Our hungered hands searching like lost ships in the night
Body's shed of their burdens
Our ripped clothes strewn to the side

Our body's drenched with the emotions of one another
We tasted every ounce, breathed every sound, touches as soft as a feather

our groping body's heated, touching, moving intensely as one
electric, ****** surges with sensuality  
floating on each others essence, this taste, we both explode
leaving us breathless and done

we turn and get locked in each others arms
holding on for dear life, hoping this magic moments
will never lose it's charm.

Caught between a dream and nightmare
Stabbing mind pains this is not fair
Sleep awake living or dead
Stuck in a place called nowhere
Is this life even real, should I even question to care

Do I take a chance, dream beyond the skies
A world with the absence of light
dark with vision impaired
Infested with lies & legal crimes
Can we really live life to the fullest
When we already ensnared?

These are the questions, infesting my dreams at night
When voiceless earths screaming
Still putting up a fight
We destroy everything, just look at our historical might
Building towards exstiction
To destroy our nature, it cannot be helped.

I look into a starry sky, mind space is in a decline
these clawing words scratching to be released
In time
gnawing at my soul, they biting,
To them it's a feast
I can hear them crying, wailing, these amazingly horrid beasts
they in control of my being, a puppet, diseased
They need to save me, they want this feelings released
in tandem moving, to these healing pages they flee
the negativity magnetically dispersing, it's positively unlocked
i now have the key, emotions boiling
this becomes it's scroll, it's a decree
words flowing in waves of wonder,
happiness, i'm smiling
flowing with glee
this is the words that i married, a match made in heaven
i feel,
without them, i would have been curse, on my knees
praying for my life to be scythed , the grim reaper
By the one....
They call me

My heart consumed by hatred
You made this, you said you loved me
To me that words was sacred
To just take my heart and break it
It’s distasteful
It’s hateful

Hate is just the start
A promise broken
A promise we’ll never part
That night
You took a piece of my heart

My heart now broken
A token
A broken soul still hoping
I’m groping
At the last meaning full memory of love shared.

My mind at times, spins like the barrel of a powerful gun,
It's triggered

Words whisper to the walls in my mind, doors creakingly opened to it's hidden secrets
It's Unlocked

These words seeping, trickling towards my pen,
Inked to these healing pages
I wrote

I reach out to the silhouette of you, a figment of my memory
A ghost

Raging fever murky rivers clouds my inner thoughts.
Fogged by lovers lies who's kisses taste of loss
Past midnight my mind sinks to depths of remorse
Guilt ridden rippled through tortured time in discord
Wretched rain rips through hope with tears as it pours
Broken dreams with silent screams crashes as it falls
Memoire's soiled in reverie my memories curtain calls
Lost within the silent night living through every flaw

As I speed and strife, on this insanely busy highway we call life
Completely swaying wildly as I dodge their gloves
The bell rings as I swing…
He dodged it, like it was in honor of his wife
Out the corner I come, rough and ready, my legs are steady
I fell like steel, but just hot and sweaty
Swing and a miss, it looks like I just dodged his fist
Man that’s close, I feel like I should toast to this
Red wine? or White wine?
Wait! I ain’t got time for this, or I mean don’t misgis
Back to the fight….
I connect like Thors hammer and he just took flight
It’s over I think, better get a drink, to toast my might
Oh wait never mind, I think I just dropped the mike
Or the pen in this instance, trust me I just might, be high as a kite.

They say it's better to lose so you know what to do next time
Ok fine
What if you lost yourself in chaos & the exit you can't find
The person in the mirror seems to have fallen behind
I think I lost its blueprint, I lost its main design
I feel I'm constantly battling on the frontline
Life's wars, hanging on by a lifeline
life's buffet, on me it hungrily dine
I don't see the goal line, I cant see, I'm blind
Is there light in this world, does the moonshine
blinded I'm constantly stepping on land mines
With the voices in my head I'm entwined
telling me I'm not worth any shine
I have no spine, my existence asinine  
leave me alone, I don't want to die
I need to find the light, I need its guidelines
I'm being consumed, fighting, but still in decline
Will it ever change, will my mind ever revive
Until then, skating, I'll stay on the grind

Valentine's day again,
Your **** grin
It makes my head spin
Loving you this much, must truly be a sin
I dim,
The lights my hand on your thigh
Move closer, let me get lost in your eyes
You whisper… you’ll love me till the day that you die
We kiss, sweet
It tastes like honey pie
I loved you in past lives, this shouldn’t be a surprise
Who thought we’d be together again, certainly not I
Not being together I’d breakdown and cry
Stop it silly, she whispers, you know you all mine
You’ll always and forever be my only valentine
Our lips embrace, this feels sublime
I go down on one knee, I think it’s time
I produce the ring, god look how it shines
My dear will you marry me, I don’t have any rhymes
I will love you for all eternity, even though I don’t have many dimes
She shrieks! Your love is what counts!
Yes! I’ll marry you, how could there have been any doubt
I’ll count,
My blessings from this day out
You made me the happiest, I feel I can shout
We embrace hearts connected as one
Convey this message to the universe,
Today I have won.

It,s early morning, just before the sun rise,
A crisp wind gently stroked my face,
The morning looks beautiful
Even the night sky.

Art pictured in motion, walking elegance.
Words you give life, monocle syllables
Beauty captivatingly imprinted, portraits stared.

Words gliding from your Cherrie lips, mesmerizingly eloquent
Intoxicated my heart listening, convinced by its eloquence
You my wish granted, an answered prayer.

Boastful our love drenched in splendour, Our love grandiloquent
I loved you in past lives, Aphrodite seems envious.
Saving Grace, pulled my soul from despair.

Running slowly to catch my breath,
It alludes me, everytime I see your angelic face.

Your lips as sweet as nectar
Takes my soul higher every time I have but a little taste.

Drunk on your intoxicating love
For your touch, I'm scrambling to pull ahead of the race.

I'm floating among the clouds
Holding on to your smile, if not,
I'll get lost in space.

You extract the best part of me from me, for you,
I notion I will always be willing to chase

This a mere mortals words,
written in bliss, forever
sealed, with an angel's kiss.

I look for blue sky like the caged for freedom
Emotions of deep regret pours to poison my weak existence
How do I fight these poisonous demons
These demons caged singed to my broken past…
Is there truly solace for the weak
My battles scars screaming my name from my subconscious mind
Bleeding from my dreams….
Am I truly free or will the curse of friends lost befriend my shadow for eternity
Have I not given enough
These darken thoughts a constant reminder of who I truly am…
I am…
I fought with a scythed blade forged with the love of family
Like the shining light of ten thousand fire flies your smile lifted me from me
You… are my guiding hand from this bottomless existence
With every breath I take,
I pledge to you my past and present lives
You are my savior….my eternal love
My salvation