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Espresso manic Nov 2017
Art is an extrovert.

She goes out clubbing on Saturday nights,
scotch in hand,
indecisiveness plaguing her mind,
dancing ‘til her feet are numb.

She rings the tune of a
possessed conductor.
White dress, black collar,
I know her face,
but not her name.

From the bar I watch
her obsidian silhouette expand
as her skin becomes rose petals,
and her hips conduct the music.

She looks like a drunken mess,
arms flailing, heels bending,
but to the peculiar mind
she paints
an alluring picture.
Inspired by Phosphorescence by J. *******
i was out of motivation to come up w a better title
Espresso manic Dec 2019
When I was in a broken mindstate,
the person I needed the most was absent.
Now that I am rich,
I don't need anybody.
i dont think my ego is too big,
i just learned to stand on my own.
Espresso manic Oct 2017
so i did.
i bit down the shaft,
as if it was my morning whiskey,
feeling the way the cartridge gave up under my teeth.

Every time my back ached,
i pressed down harder.
The bullet became my Achilles heel.
My life —> the arrow.

Until one day i felt the gunpowder on my tongue,
it made my mouth crackled and my tongue sour.
"Shhhhh," it said.
Calm and reassuring.

Bite the bullet they said,
I bit until i felt my molars grinding,
and my tongue blackened.
‘Til the bang marked the end.
This is most likely the ***** speaking
Espresso manic Oct 2017
When giving up sounds sweet,
remember -

the bags under your eyes
the tears within your heart
the scars beneath your skin -

the sophisticated bittersweet taste of success.
it's a work in progress
Espresso manic Apr 2020
Brown eyes aren't special, fetishized, or the happiest ones.
Brown eyes feel normal.
Turn off the lights and observe how
fast eyes change.
Vibrant blue eyes turn sad.
Amber eyes forget to look inwards.
Calm green eyes turn sour.
Gentle hazel eyes do not smile the same.
Grey eyes become hardened.
Brown eyes
are like a cup of coffee that sat for too long.
They turn bitter with rage.
My truth is not a universal one
Espresso manic May 2020
A male bee has no stinger,
his life mission is to collect pollen
and hope that the queen will notice him.

Drones doing drudgery
tasks, for another's dream.
All because we were fed a script.

Following the script
leaves us closed to other's
love language.

Miscommunication ends in betrayal.
And betrayal became normalized
all because nobody taught us
to enjoy our freedom.
Espresso manic Oct 2018
They always said the sky is the limit,
But they never said how to get there.

When the twists of life tried to keep me down,
i ran away.
When they came back for me,
i packed my bags and ran.
The bags slowed me down and yet, i couldn’t leave them behind.

During my escape i planned my journey and met more travelers.
Their bags seemed as heavy as mine, but our grips were adamant to the load.
Eventually i dared to fly.
Flying was easy. Up in the air, where gravity’s pull is weaker
made my bags lighter, and I soar higher.

Did i dare fly too high? Did i forget about the bags?
Oh mama, no one told me to be careful of flying too high.
Now i’m back to running,
running for one more breath of pure air.
Espresso manic Jul 2020
I came upon a raw stench
that got past my mask.
"Hello to you too".
I love the smell of cow **** at dawn.
This signal will propagate down
my axon and release the action potential
necessary to jumpstart today's tasks.
Espresso manic Jan 2020
I shake time's hands
for having met you.
Then, spit in their face
for taking you away.  
Sometimes a good pair
of headphones stays around
longer than a friend.
they come and go like the seasons
Espresso manic Aug 2019
Her body language
flirts, her smile reckons me.
****, she’s what I need.
quick one before my meeting
Espresso manic Sep 2019
The genie inside the bowl
told me of his lowest day eighteen fortnights ago.
The day he did not feel like a genie.
He awoke yet his eyes cried for the return of rest.
The one wish he could not concede
plagued his mind.
He did not know
how. He could not bend
the rules of time
to fulfill the most human
desire which is to wish
to never have to wish
that the present day
was not a bad day.

Like the transaction
between a poker dealer
and the man with no fear
in his eyes,
we barter with life on a cyclical game of poker.
Sometimes the house wins,
and it hurts like a thumb tacker.
A pair 2s is so inconsequential against
life happening.
No genie can stand in the way
of life happening.

The genie in the bowl
told me to make the most of this low day
happening, go on a stroll,
to take care of myself
and recognize that today is just a bad day.
Perhaps tomorrow will be better,
in the meantime get some sleep
and to try again tomorrow.
The genie in the bowl did give me a wish. Now I know how to recognize a bad day.
Not a literal genie.
Espresso manic Aug 2019
This summer, I peeked
under my bed
and dusted off the ghosts
of the past.
I took them out in the sun
and hung them out to dry.

Surprised the stench leaked
this far into my living. And instead
of looking under my skin,
I pondered on how long this blunt would last.
Burned my fingers
and scorched my shirt pocket fry.

During my coma,
I ran the halls of the sky.
Shirtless against the precipitation of life,
I came upon clouds
that were puffy and white,
black and charged,
and gray with strife.
nothing is purely white, nor purely black
but a shade a gray that you must unpack

work in progress. always open to feedback
Espresso manic Nov 2019
It's never a good time to change,
because to change I must give up the conformity.

Evolving is like riding
a horse that dips.
All regrets left at the curb,
new routines set in place.
I must choose: the American dream
or giving in to desire.
The ride will be a blurb
if I dare to look back.
I found a path down this maze.
I can feel it in my gut,
the bittersweet taste
of success.
Espresso manic Dec 2019
I think therefore I
am. I dream therefore I
believe. I fail
so I learn. Things work out
when in control of my mind.
when the morning fog leaves, the sun lights the path.
Espresso manic Nov 2019
From time to time
darkness graces
me with a visit.
A dear old friend and she
brought along wicked pain
and compartmentalized stress.
We barter our lifeline
to get the snake eyes that are crucial for success.
The poison is also the cure.
I accept stress and pain
to let out the darkness
and I manage to finesse
a new lesson.  
Every time is the last one,
it grips me
the ****** burdening load.

Then it's just darkness
and I, having a petty blast
and finishing our flasks.
Darkness's reassurance
that life evaporates
like a flame
made me accept
the darkness within.
The poison made me
crackle and under the dark sky
I glowed
in spite of the beating of time.
The leaves have left, the last crow flew away,
the flame has burned, the coffee remains.
Espresso manic Feb 2019
My heartbeat drops
-Fitbit flatlines-
Senses overheat,
I plummet and do not resist.
Espresso manic Jul 2020
My mind sits on a Ferris wheel.
When I look at the ground
fear is minute and as I spin
around the skyline becomes clouded.
This is a lonely ride,
exhale, aware others feel this too.

Caught a glimpse of old friends
on their merry roller-coaster
rides, going along with the tide.

Jumping off this wagon
would make the irrational feelings be over.
My pride secures asking for help hostage.
Asking for help is to my voice box
what immigrants are to the US.
Espresso manic May 2018
Do you ever want to go back to the days in which your biggest concern was if your shower would be the right temperature?
Espresso manic Jun 2017
Two birds took flight from the same tree,
one flew east to Eurus’ realm.
Seeking warm lands and sunrise's embrace.
The other flew west to Zephyrus' palace,
In search of the gentle winds
and harsh conditions.

Intending to get as far as possible from one another
and yet, life had other plans for them.
Escaping the past does not get you far
and what goes around comes around.

Years later, the two birds
discovered the world was round.
Espresso manic Jul 2019
rush hour for thoughts 'waits
home's warmth and intimacy
that calms ones traffic.
does anybody journal?
any tips
Espresso manic Jul 2019
Writing down on blue
sticky notes -mental for
my working memory.
Morning person
ch2.
Espresso manic Jul 2019
Homebody for
five days a week: staying up
til late killing time.
P a r t y !
on Friday and drinks
and chips on Saturday.
Shower and
mo(a/r)ning *** with kinks
on Sunday. ****, I have
to wake up early mañana.
Morning Person
ch3.
Espresso manic Jul 2019
What's your morning plan
you morning peps champions
of the day's full worth.
Morning person:
ch1.
Espresso manic Oct 2019
Cariño, dame lo que
Queda de tu cafecito
Que tus labios han endulzado.
English:
Honey, give me
That what is left of your coffee
which your lips have sweetened.
Espresso manic Aug 2019
Your morning devil
smile, painting's
bottled message, coffee
on your lips. Hormones
everywhere and I freeze.

The mental image
sends my heat index on the
rise. Locked lips
in a chant pull me to the
pier of my chasm. I fall.
Espresso manic Sep 2019
Heart races and
my chambers expand. Eternal
drumming of my life.
It slips my mind how sometimes
the beating of time gets
me
into
flow.

And I breathe, aware of my sensations,
a connoisseur of myself. Los Pensamientos
son uno, and I can become the
version of myself I aspire to be.
practicing introspection
Espresso manic Dec 2019
If ready, have nothing to lose,
and everything to gain
then let’s turn this part-time fling
in which we have invested
time, sleepless nights, bottles
after bottles of wine
into a full-time thing.
Please do not let this be in vain,
for I dove into your love
headfirst and at full throttle.
She still left
Espresso manic Dec 2019
Lay down on the floor
and wondered, is this as low as
I can go. Then, I
took a hit or two cause
it cannot get any worse.
Espresso manic May 2020
From a young age, Romeo and Juliet
told us that without our other half
we are incomplete.

That we need another's validation,
and that happy endings are the rule.

That our happiness depends on another.
And if we conform, the system
will benefit us, and you will lead
a happier life.

So many relationships are full
of contempt, while others fall out of love.
All because we tried to love,
without learning self-love.
Espresso manic Mar 2020
If unsure, begin.
If confused, ask.
If lethargic, drink coffee.
hoping everyone has a productive day
Espresso manic Oct 2019
Low-key,
everyday is a grind
and then cease fire for a day
and dine upon Friday's holy bread
just to fall in a hazy slumber.

The awakening wind
makes your chest rise
and your lungs sit back.
Rome wasn't build in a day,
it also did not fall in one.
thoughts
Espresso manic Jun 2017
i'll confess
i have thought about giving up a thousand times
i'm scared, lonely, exhausted

and every time i've been used like a punching bag
i've wanted to stay down
hoping that by ignoring the pain, that it'll go away

tired of routine, of commitment,
i wish i could stop caring,
but if i stopped, what would i live for?

so i get up everyday,
limping, hopping, crawling if i have to,
cuz one day it'll be worth it
for anyone who is struggling, keep grinding, one day it will all be worth it
Espresso manic Jul 2019
I found a map:

If you trynna bounce
and make it real high
you must cut the crap
cuz you'll encounter a wall.
It's a ******* trap
its meant to make you turn back.
You can stall, look in the mirror,
and
decide.
Dream big or settle.
Do stay within the stall
or do not. You will fail,
you will **** at what you do.
Decide:
do or do not.
Fall back
or risk your stack.

Must possess the  g u t s
to snap
at the top of the wall.
Make a plan
of action.
This is how the capitalist
rat race game plays out.
Beat fate's narration,
sacrifice your conformist
self, for the cherries of tomorrow.

Dare to dream,
while smoking a habanero
to Marley's mumbling
in a distant galaxy
out of thy life.

No one's sure where this map
leads, but prepare for the worse,
sharpen you swords,
meditate then nap.
Bring snacks,
kick some ***.
Be prepared to figure out your crap.

Wake up slap!
Not an angry poem.
Espresso manic Dec 2019
"Bad dog! Sit "
They told me to stay down
on my old ****.
To be mediocre
and take commands.
Offered me a treat
if I obeyed
and conformed.
No! I will not conform
with such a small feat.
I'll fetch me self a real bone,
and then remold
my craft until I master
my skills.
Do not come at with that tone,
you could have not survived
the hood of stone-cold
predators I put down.
Proved them all wrong
and went home with a gold
collar that said:
"CEO of my own life."
hungry for success
Espresso manic Jul 2019
I thought the storm had passed
and that wreckage had been avoided.
Against the current my whole pirate life,
uncaring of the opinions of others,
and focus on the rowing at hand.

The gray and thrilling sky
make the dark sea water seem ferocious.
The risk of lightning had never crossed my mind
before tonight when I suddenly realized I was alone
on a boat in the sea
and in the middle of a storm.

I steer with my left
and dump bucketloads of water with my other hand.
Focused on damage control
and ignorant to the the storm's prognosis
whilst my wooden mind struggles to stay afloat.

Row forth and onward.
This storm too shall pass,
and I'll come out stronger.
rough night
this is what I dreamt before I fell asleep
Espresso manic Apr 2020
In the dark days,
the roots under the
sunlight lamp grow with
consistent sustenance.
The seeds you garden
end in either weeds or orchids.
Espresso manic Jan 2020
The images of you
are sore sights to my innocent
eyes. Every adventure
with you made time
slow down and our coincident
heart beats flutter.
The shape of you was meant
to fit on my chest,
now loneliness tortures
my mind with the concept
of you.
Espresso manic Feb 2018
there are so many whats you'll encounter,
and limited whos you'll love.

the wheres are infinite,
while the hows are arbitrary.

but the whys
they are so **** hard to answer

why must i choke on the truth
why must i be like this
why why why?

why are you the way you are?
what's your hardest why?
Mine is: why do I drink?
Espresso manic Dec 2019
Turn to thy neighbor,
can you tell the crows from the birds trying to take flight apart?
The crows are ravenous
cannibals that pick at flesh.
The carcass that remains is the good
that cannot be erased by ill intentions.
observing
Espresso manic May 2020
It may seem as if a lighter is the only source of heat
when the cold has extremely frozen the capillaries.
A fragile light that can't stand on its own
cannot save a stray.

Feel how the steps beat,
the miracle machinery's hum is steady.
Deep breaths until your extremities
obey and the cold fades away.
I finally understand the saying
"when you look into the abyss,
the abyss stares back".
Espresso manic Jul 2019
Long train rides
into new experiences.
The budding mind grows
with external stimuli.
Reflection waters the mind.
gotta write 'dem' thoughts down to make them real
Espresso manic May 2020
The cold memory of the past
prickles my lips,
leaving me thirsty for more.
I cry to satisfy
my irritated lips,
but the wells in my eyes
ran dry a long time ago.
Nevertheless, I muster
one tear. As gravity
pulls its weight,
I see it enrich
the cracked soil I stand on.
Espresso manic Feb 2018
and the traffic in your life is terrible,
drive forth.

When the sleepless nights come,
and whiskey cannot inebriate the feels,
nor Tom Waits lull you home,
and your mind goes dark and deep.

When you find yourself feeling sad
and can't locate the epicenter of life,
when all is gone,
take a minute,
2 minutes,
6+(n-1) when n > 9,
and vent your feelings.

Let the real you out to play
and find meaning in the insomnia.
I too got lost in a maze -
retrace, map, and conquer - not sure where I'm headed
but I can see the sunrise.


                 .
For a friend. Or anyone in need of self reflective time.
Espresso manic Jul 2019
I am the fly
stuck between the window glass and the panel.
today i grew tired of it:
**** THE SYSTEM!
Why must you pick on the chained souls that reside
in the lowest of pits,
and surround them in swamps of mercury.

Your tongue as sharp as your bodyguard's knife,
will the slaved souls of hell with your divine sovereignty.
The survival of the fittest became a capitalist race,
and w/out a second thought sold out your cousin's wife.
Your fraternity party
serves cheap beer and has buffets
of brutality on display.

Today I awoke, drank my daily of dose liquor,
and rallied behind those in chain.
#rant #capitalistRace #liquor #party #notbeer
#FuckTheSystem
sometimes you need to write down the things that make you mad

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