Dear self I write for you. Are you pleased?
Dear followers I write for you. Are you pleased?
Dear haters I tried so much for you. Are you pleased?
Dear critics I always think of you. Are you pleased?

Dear self you gain followers again. Are you pleased?
Dear followers can't you find a single fault? Are you pleased?
Dear haters I just check my spelling word for word.  Are you pleased?
Dear critics I read everything you said. I am careful now. Are you pleased?

PAG-IBIG, NAPA-KOMPLIKADO MO

NAGBUBUHOL-BUHOL ANG UTAK KO

MAPAGKUNWARI PA MINSA’Y SUSULPOT

WARI’Y NAGPAPANGGAP NA SUOT

MAPANGAHAS KA, AT WALANG PINIPILI

MATAPOS UMASA, PUSO’Y NASAWI

O MAPAGPANGGAP NA PAG-IBIG!

KAILAN KA MAKAKATIKIM NG GALIT?

TIWALA’Y NILAAN

PAGKATAPOS AY IIWAN

SUKDULANG HAPDI

KATUMBAS AY PIGHATI

HINDI MO BA NALALAMAN

KUNG GAANO KASAKIT MASAKTAN?

HINDI MO MANLANG BA TUTULUNGANG

MAG-HILOM ANG PUSONG NASAKTAN?

TATAWANAN MO NALANG BA

ANG PUSONG NAPILAYAN?

HABANG SA IYONG HIGAAN

IKA’Y SARAP NA SARAP SA PAG-HIMLAY?

O MAY AWA PA BANG NARARAMDAMAN?

SA PUSONG MINSA’Y MINAHAL

KAHIT HIBIK LAMANG NG BALIKAT

AY HUWAG SANANG IPAGKAIT

SA PUSONG MINSA’Y INIBIG

Hope has finally ended

And pain into it’s bed once again

It’s more beautiful when the skies finally set its dim

To be reminded that pain was once more real

If ever the valley would sing lullabys

Let it sing once again

Though pain is once and will be lost

It’ll be not as painful as it is before

Sometimes it is bright to see

That even the stars would loose its light

Even birds will loose their flight

And even oceans will never to be sight

We people
We are capable of loving because we are made by love
So we speak love, do love
And live like love completely
We never really needed a pen to write it,
We can actually speak it..

Tonight i realized that there’s beauty and power in every song because there’s an inspiration, no matter what its message is, there is a complete phenomenon on how the songs speak and communicate with our souls. Maybe it is also composed with emotions, not just that, but love and longingness..

Every song has a heart, how it is poured out in a song..it sets its emotion in every note, every heart beat, every hum . It is what we feel. The reason why we are being connected to it whenever we open ourselves. That’s why we cry hearing a song, changed lives occur, realizations taking place.

As I sang love songs, I realized that these love songs also is a way on how God communicates with us. It tells us how he feels for us, the same way the song is made for someone. God also has feelings. He also expresses his love, not only in act of kindness by providing us all we need but even in a song, he speaks real loud. If only we have ears to hear it, we could.

Maybe she’s not the ugliest but she’s known as the dorkiest girl in school. The girl that still lacks confidence. The one who wears long sleeves during summer. The one who belongs with the audiences during pageant nights. She is just silent and reserved. She’ll never be her crush’s type of girl. She never hoped or even believed that she had the chance. She knew that it was nothing to fight for, her faith has slowly fainted. She surrendered and accept the defeat. For no matter how hard she screamed and how closer she gets, she knew that she will never be noticed. She was just an ordinary girl who also had a dreams of her own and a life so much to fulfill but is shut up with opportunities because the lack of self worth.

She failed to understand herself and even try to accept it until she reached to the point in her mind that the only thing that she could be accepted is through being somebody else..sigh

Love covers all fault

It touches a wicked soul

Pure love captures the heart

Trials endure through endless love

For you are the one that leaves a mark

into my wounded pierce of heart

Letters are sweet whisper

The confessions of sincere lover

You are the tickle sensation

You leap my heart’s inspiration

When was the last time i felt emotional and teary eyed?
The last time i felt like a real human?
When was the last moment i tried to captivate my dearest thoughts?
That moment I felt irrational..
When was the last time I seek for wisdom, coffee, book and warmth?
The last time I tickle my guitar and sing with all I am.
The last time I treasured the serene sound of the air
And sat on the most tip edge of the boat..
The moment I watched the perfect blue skies..
Still myself in the middle of the sea..
The last time I burst in anger of my own faults..
And laugh at my own self’s stupidity..
The last time i fell in love with someone..
Felt compassion for the lost to the point that
I no longer seek my own good but the good of those people I love..

I guess I’ve become mechanic for some time,
And forgotten that I am still living a human life..
I walk and talk when said, i have done this and done that myself,
All is required to be done by sched..
Yhis is whats filling my head instead..

"Am I still human?" I asked myself,
As I rise and take a peek of myself in front of the mirror..
I saw my full body reflection..
Still having my heart locked up inside my body’s rib..
And my skin still stitched with me, protecting my innermost being..

I bit my lip as i ***** myself,
A big grin started overlapping my face..
With all conviction I said,
”I will be a human today! for I am a soul in this living body!!!”

i miss..
his cute sleep poses..
coming in and out of the window..
the way he meows whenever he asks for food..
sneaking and sleeping inside my brothers bedroom..
his fluffy stretched belly..
how he interlaced my feet on the way to kitchen..
welcome meows when i got home..
carrying him like a babe thou he’s too heavy..
overdosing him with cat food..
our exchange meow languages..
the way he smells like cockroach like most of the time..
but i still kissed him..
bites & scratches..
how he loves the way i scratch and massage his body..
lie down everywhere, end up cleaning the floor coz..
he’s like a thick rag and a mop at the same time..

hope he’ll be home soon..
or i’ll overdose him with cat food and he’ll die of my kisses..
hope our neighbors didn’t have the intentions ..
to cook him coz we’ll have him for dinner
as soon as he got home (joking).. ^^
i miss you cat, you made me cry ..-__-..
please come home :’


p.s. lea is waiting for you, she’s now skinny thanks to u :<

Stop pretending that anything was that easy
So easy that is not even close to easy at all..
Sometimes it keeps me wondering
How long it takes me to finish something
When other people were just saying like
"Oh, it just took me a while."
You know how bad it makes me feel?
Wondering if I'm just slow
Or those people got super powers??
And I ain't got any?! wt..
But let me say this..
People of this human world!!!
You have to be honest sometimes
That you have gone through a lot of things also
Till you end up to where you are now..
It's not gonna pull you down
Or will erase you from your hall of fame or something..
Instead it will inspire others so that they can also do the same things..
That it can be possible
And can be acquired!
Let's say, Yes, you are more talented than most of these people
But isn't it more good to help each other out?
Than just being there alone in the spotlight?

Struggling is pointless, as I am chained by myself.
With these weary scraggy arms, I threw the key as far as I can.
I didn't know what got into me but all I knew was I am "trapped".
I long hid under the shadowed wings of someone elses sweet lies,
Spoiling my innocent mind.
Torturing me gently with their alluring soft whispers.
All the while, without me in my conscience,
They're taking away everything that is mine.
Grabbing all that they can have
While I was enjoying the fact of being blind to their tricky traps.
I don't feel that I am already paralyzed
Because it felt like I am in the fullest of my beautiful sleep.
But when I woke up, I can do nothing about it at all,
Either will I get back all my belongings,
For I had been cheated.

You’re a book yet to be red
Words left unsaid
A diamond soon to be discovered
And a tale one day to be told
A right to be defended
And a promise ment to be broken

Don’t judge me with the book I’ am holding,
Don’t criticize me if I desire to gain wisdom.
When curiosity wraps my head down to my feet,
I know that I am in need to be filled
The fear of lacking ensembles me..
Growing in intelligence entices me..
To be a a woman than a lady encourages me,
To be a person than a human changes me..

Salamat kaibigan, hndi mo ‘ko iniwan

Ikaw ay aking karamay at aking sandigan

Malayo pa ang tinig ay iyo nang naririnig

Alam mo ang pintig ng aking puso at dibdib

Bigat ay iyong inako upang ako ay makatayo

Inalalayan ang aking bisig, lakas ay iyong tinig

Ikaw ay parang isang estrangherong hindi naghihintay ng kapalit

Saan ako makakahanap ng isang tulad mo sa isang saglit?

Kung sa paraang ito ay pinapakitang iniibig,

Bulag na ang hndi makakita, at manhid na ang hndi makadama

Oh kaibigan, nag-iisa ka

How it feels like to stay outside during the rainy days
While enjoying the feeling of getting wet
The feeling of standing at the tip of the boat
In the middle of the ocean
Driving out of town, in full blast stereos
Ice creams and parks
Chills of a -0 temperature, and a warm pillow
Discover different cultures
Letters <3
Sleep overs
This is getting shorter and shorter…
View deck, skies, stars, galaxies
Bonfire
Reaching the highest note, experiencing glass brakes
The feeling of being as skinny as a hanger >.< no!
Touching the ocean floor
The feeling of being the painter who painted Mona Lisa
Natural glossy hair

Oohh...A vision of selfishness….. >.<

You can either make or break me,
It’s like i am totally stuck with you..
Wherever I am there’s this string that is entangling us..
It’s like I am totally dependent to you..
No matter how I chose to stay away from this force that is keeping us,
Its just getting on stronger and stronger
And in the end I am left stuck with you..
How will I keep this up?
Will I stay or cut the strings that is keeping us together..
I’m struggling my way to confusion..
I can’t blame myself..
Its too harsh..
The feelings are all over the place and I can’t manage..
All I know is this is best feeling I’d never had..
And i can’t contain such extravaganza I feel of this emotions taking place…I am enjoying it every single time..
Kissing every minute of it..
But at the same time, fear is stealing this joy,
Its like i’m opening myself into another realm of disappointment,
I don’t want another pain..
Its traumatic!
But why am I letting this happen?
Why am i still hoping for another sunshine with you?
Why is it no matter how pain I get I’m still keeping up?
You’re making it hard for me..
So hard, that i am feeling helpless.. -_-

To you alcohol is the finest during the winter’s embrace
the warm jacket..the burning fireplay..
though the cold pierce you deeply to your core..
the tips of your toes and the fingers turning pale
you let it until it gets black and brittle..
froze to death! that’s what you’re up to..
because you could not withstand the pain of
a broken soul..
you cringed into your position..
preserve this body and take it in..
cover it with flakes
until it cannot be recovered
where no one will ever remember..

You never asked..

take that forever..

keep it and bear with it..

never regret..

never blame..

that's how well you play your game..