I am sure of it now.
That I'm the least sure of everything,
That I've ever been.

And if I close my eyes tight.
It won't change the fact that
I'll sit here until I turn green.

I've been in a depressing daze.
Rebooting a flattened soul.
Looking for comfort in all types of ways.

My mind was a maze as it were.
Now it's been blended.
And there seems to be no cure.

I am now sure!
Of a vortex inside
And nothing more.

My eyes are bloodshot.
Sleep eludes my grasp nightly.
My head is swimming.

Away and apart from routine
A departure from the past
There is something that remains in mind
To exactly figure out this something is a difficult task.

Predominantly it's a worry
At some point of time it seems to be worry
Time and again the mind is worried about something.

Apart from worry
Still there is something that goes on in the mind
Quite essentially it can be anything, if not everything
To figure out exactly what else goes on in the mind takes time and effort.

As and when,
In fact whenever,
A time comes to define what's going on in the mind
The first thing that gets all the priority is cause
What's the exact cause behind this?
In fact worry is something that can run concurrent to a cause.

Always there is a flow to the thoughts going in the mind
Prior to this there was something going on in the mind
After this, the next thing that needs to be done
Then something else
Like this and so on
Some sort of pattern gets noticed over a period of time.

What goes on in the mind can be a flight of imagination
A desire for something might occupy a space in the mind
Diversity in thought process has always remained there
Also important is to integrate all the different patterns
Bring them together, club them, combine them
Once integrated,
After an unison the mind becomes stable and thoughts clear
Always it's priority that does it's work over a period of time.

Focus and concentration as and when they go hand in hand, then the ouctome has remained much more than expected.

Important is the fact that both should have their own relevance
When the level of concentration is good enough to suffice, then it becomes important to have a focus on goal.

Time consumed, time spent and time utilized
In one way or another
In whichever way time gets used
Always it has remained a key element
An element, which will make all the difference between winning and losing.

So always make up your mind
Decide upon something
Once decided
Thoughts need to be scrutinized
Then, forget worry about future
Think about what is there in front of you
In front of your eyes
Keep an eye on your goal
Think about the same in your mind and forget worry
Once decided upon something, then take the first step in the right direction and move towards your goal.

ghosts lined up on the wall
no waiting now just be ready for the fall
for the beginning of it all
a dream colliding into a new light
the old ghosts fight the never-ending fight
the wall buckles under the pressure of it all
no more ghosts lined up on the wall
the life of the dead leave an empty rattle
the worlds most silent battle
step left march right the beat of the drum
the new sound makes the ghosts reminisce
of the worlds most silent battle
the new chime awakes the heaviest
There Is No Escape Not Even In Death

Of course I survived that Sunday afternoon.
Of course I made it to that dreaded Monday-morning.
An overcast afternoon as I set off, four-seventeen,
rain droplets thumping against my umbrella which shrieked with terror.
Pathetic fallacy, the foreshadowing of what was to come.
Your house, on the top of that hill, an uphill climb
with an even worse descent back home.
Crawling under your duvets, suffocated in love more than you can imagine yet an hour later, and the comfort of warmth and shelter is stripped away from me, like one would strip a bed of it's duvet-cover.
Five-forty-five, as the clouds thicken and rumble with excitement, shuffling sheepishly down the stairs,
I pick up my coat and various belongings.
Your dog whimpers, but he's not as sad as I am.
Maybe this time I'll leave, and won't come back.

One thing is imperative
That you understand:
I will bow to no God,
and kneel to no man.
I am sure and steady
On these feet where I stand,
And any faith I possess
Is placed in my hands.

All it takes
Is one little 'Hi'
Tapped out on the screen
Sure, it doesn't seem like much
But it means the world to me