You deserved a long goodbye,
a long and tight hug to force out tears
and maybe un stifle our hearts.
I love you,
had me in a choke hold.
who hurt each other
I tried to be an automaton,
But i lost my grace.
I wish now that i had remembered to breath, to come up for air,
or remembered that it was our humaness that brought us where we were,
before we vanished from each others lives.
It felt like saying,
I dont want to see you see the world,
the way I do.
I dont want to be a witness to your heart as it breaks.
Maybe I did not love you at all,
because I didn't try to hold on to you.
Maybe I loved you too much,
maybe that is why i let go.