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Chano Williams Apr 2014
I’m ready to fall in love, but not ready to be loved
I‘m prone to giving freely, but not accepting of hugs
It’s all about confidence and accepting who I can trust
And how I lack faith in someone fighting for “us”
I've experienced and witnessed people’s abandonment
If I had to go through that again I just couldn't handle it
Seen families broken apart, dealing with broken hearts
To prevent that in my life I turn my back at the start
However, I've discovered that I’m too ready to die
Because I’m afraid to live by giving love another try
I’d do anything to float in the dreams that I had built
But once reality set in it filled my brain to the hilt
Broken promises to myself have me wrought with guilt
Making me feel like I deserve to wallow in this filth
I wish I could stop myself from wanting what they have
I have to tell myself, “You never wanted it that bad.”
Confident in my decisions, better choices made me glad
If that’s the case, though, then why do I always feel sad?
That’s only until I find something expensive to purchase
An escape from the emotions, masking that I’m uncertain
On a journey to find out what the most beautiful view is
Is it my immaturity that allows me to even do this?
Driving in circles trying not to dwell on what’s hurtful
Dawn rises to reveal an overwhelming array of purple
Golden leaves on the trees rustle softly in the breeze
Gentle sun rays glisten off the surface of the sea
This is how I know someone’s trying to talk to me
To help me come to see all of the things I could be
The last step that is left is for me to just believe
In the things I have to offer and all of my various abilities
Though I've never been one to see what other’s see in me
I’m always blocking progression due to my insecurities
Yet what a hypocrite I am for the words I often convey
If given the opportunity I would build you up all day
Ironically I would mean everything that I would say
Hoping our foundation will give me incentive to stay
But nowadays I seem focused on pushing others away
The fact is this world wasn't built for a cat to be a stray
What are my options when others are too busy to play?
I guess it means I still need to grow up in so many ways
Silver Lining Apr 2014
I always wanted
Someone to tell
My darkest secrets to.

I always wanted
Someone that I
Could trust with my thoughts

I always wanted
Someone to love
My every fault

I always wanted
Someone to tell
Me their own story

I always wanted
Someone that I
Could love uncondionally

I always wanted
Someone to love
My need to write poems

I always wanted
Someone like you
But now I am afraid

Because how would
Someone like you
Want to love a poet

A poet who
Cannot seem to
Talk about loving you?
I love him. I know I do. But every time I try to say it- the words catch in my throat. I told him that I was in love with him- but it's not the same. I wish I could tell him- why is it so hard for me to just say "I love you"
Katie Biesiada Apr 2014
I want to know your 2am heartaches.
I want to hear your demons when they keep your mind awake.
I want to know your walk.
I want to help you fight your inner battles.
I want to see the skeletons hiding in your closet.
I want to feel your heart as it skips a beat or two.
I want to be the one you call when the tears won't stop.

And I want you to want to know me as much as I want to know you....
PrttyBrd May 2010
Reflections of self in others
Painfully, reality slaps
Realization of needed change
More patience, more patience,
MORE PATIENCE
The residue of stinging words remains
Making it hard to breathe
There is no escaping self-induced consequences
copyright©PrttyBrd 12/06/2010
She waits in silence
Cant help but stare

Wonders if he ever catches her
Its only a gaze that she wished they'd share

Eyes ferry us straight to the heart they'd say
But with glasses thick as his,there was really no way

His gestures harder to read than his eyes
Almost as if trying to block away everything from her sight.

She liked him for she thought of him as an enigma
Hoping she was gonna know him for the better part of what he was worth

She stole glances for  a long time
Till she saw the truth of it ,all right

Just a formality they were
it was just hi and bye and seemed to be that way forever

She grew sick of him after a while
Only with whim would he ever smile

She hates midway stuff to date
Says,its either in or out,nothing else is worth the wait

But every time she thinks what she'd want as a boon
She wants to only know why he makes her heart swoon

He is  her heart's fallacy at its best,
Or is he just a fallacy that she wants more than the rest?
Don't Exist Apr 2014
To me patience looks like this...
It is this huge man will a long black overcoat with pockets
with shiny glasses and Grey eyes
and a face that is aged
and a smile that looks between a frown and a smirk
and a wooden smoke pipe in his mouth
with raggedy bag rip jeans
and black boots
He sits on this wooden chair
and is near a large tree
and he lights his smoke pipe
put one arm on top of one thigh
leans over and stares with you with those ancient, deep eyes
and says in a deep tone..
“go head, speak I'm waiting”
but then this will also describe what understanding looks like
So then they are both the same?....
a simple poem
Rl Apr 2014
What if
                 you spend your whole life
                                                            ­       in the dark, waiting for the traffic

lights to start

and when it finally does go green
                                                           ­ you stair at it helplessly
and whisper

''God, help me''
Wanting happiness is one thing, finally getting it is another
Don't Exist Apr 2014
Oh my, that  little white particles in the air is coming
But did you noticed that they don't feel like touching?
They never collide, I wonder why?
what is the magnitude of the hatred they have that pulls them away from each other..
But at the end of the day have enough love to gather themselves on the solid floor?
Gravity,electrical repulsion, air resistance
Do these things affects such creatures?
They fall through the window that is blocked with a screen and land on my boots
They sit there waiting to be touch, to have another connection to this world.
But it is too late for them as they die
Why do they die?
I seek the everlasting touch of frost
I longer for them to come through my window
I lick my lips because of how salty they are
And I feel rejuvenated as an incentive is coming soon
I sit and stared through that window
For eternity to come
waiting, waiting , waiting
until that "gut feeling" anticipation
Have been starved....
I'm talking about snow if you are curious
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