In the beginning
I had my doubts
About you
About me
About life
You dragged me threw the mud
You diddent mean to...
You hurt me
I hurt myself...
We where a mess I diddent want to clean up
I diddent want to clean up myself



But things changed



And now
We have grown
I love you
I love myself
I love life
I got some help
You helped me
Its been years
And I'm finally at peace

I need water,
I need shelter,
I need warmth,
And I need food.
But all these things
Don't mean a thing
If I can not have you.

Alone, a word that echoes
in the empty abyss of my heart.
Reverberating in my soul
And bouncing in the emptyness of my skull
Where my mind should be
But I lost it
When I lost you
And a abyss formed in your absence.
A abyss that gets bigger with each day.
Makeing the echoing more prominent
Louder each time I think it.
alone
          Alone
ALone
            ALONe
ALONE

Alone fills the abyss
And the abyss will consume me
So by the end of the day
Alone is all I'll be.

I can feel your eyes peirceing mine.
Reading my face like a book,
leaned in so close,
I try to study yours as well.

But I can not read you!
With us sitting here alone,
your face so close to mine.
Fighting the urge to kiss you
overwhelms my mind.

You get painfully close...
Inches away from me.
Speaking softly of things
to make my heart melt.
My stomach is in knots
as you look away.
Leaveing me brethless
without a signal touch.

The future lay next to me
Softly drifting to sleep
My future
Your future
Our future to keep

You should never abstain from love for the fear of getting hurt. You should seek out the one who takes evrey part of you into their heart. One whom you can gaze upon and know in the deepest parts of your soul that  If your time together where to end, They are worth the risk.
There will be pain, but there will be no regrets. There will be sadness, but you will have the joy of a thousand memories. there might be tears, but they will dry knowing the privilege of experiencing and sharing love with that person was worth it.

All that matters is that im trying?
As long as im giving effort?
As long as it's on my mind?!
Trying is pointless!
If you never achieve anything
You will allways be stuck trying.

I tried to speak up
I tried to tell you
I tried to hold your hand
I tried to hug you
I tried to make you happy
I tried to say i love you
I tried to write a poem
I tried to kiss you
I tried to try harder.....
I tried....
And the worst is that you will never know how much iv tried
Because trying is all iv ever done.

If i could write a song
I would create melodies
and rhythms that would take your breath away.

If i could write a song
I would take words unspoken
and place them with a tune to try and tell you how i feel

If i could write a song
I would take your breath away
the way that you take mine and tell you how i feel the way i wish i could.

If i could write a song
You would never hear it, the fear of disappointing you would make me shake to much to preform it....

If i could....

If i could write a short story it would be about the wonders of you and me.

If i could write a novel it would be about all the moments we have shared.

If i could write a poem i would tell you all the things i feel.

But i find that all of these things
Are two beautiful to describe.

So i will keep them in my heart
For the days when i could use a smile.

Stay true to you and thats all i ask.
Let your hart and ambitions gide your way and never look back. Do not let the way i feel get in the way of bigger more important things. Tho i trust you would tell me if i where a burden.
I want nothing more than for your soul and your life to feel compleat. You can change anything whichever way you choose. Go where want, speak your mind, love your self and others.
I may not allways be exspexting change but it will never change the way i feel. Tho i may love you, my love will not bind you.You are free to go if you pleas tho i wish for you to stay.
I want you to be all you wish to be, I want you to be happy and I want you to be you...... because that all my heart desires.

Music is a complex language communicated bye the heart an soul of its performers.
Beats and rhythms communicating emotions that we have lack of words to describe.
someone who can understand music
In all its forms and beauty  
Is someone who can understand me.
And the deepest parts of my soul.

When the moon is bright
And I'm all alone
In the still quiet of the night.
A million things
Run threw my mind
Repeated again and again.
I think of a past
Thats not so grand
And a future that lookes so grim.
Then i think of your smiling face
And suddenly im happy agian.

Love is a complicated game
Made more difficult bye the people playing it

Too complicated too complex
Always changing and evolving
i never wished to understand it

Iv seen the damage dealt
When love fails
I never wanted to feel that pain

I had seen it and i feared it
I couldn't let myself take that risk
Even if it meant being lonely

But then i found you
And i find that it is a risk
Im willing to take

A broken heart changes a person
Someone once happy and bright
Turns into a disease
Spreading their hatred and jealousy Into the lives of others
Making Petty drama
That rips love apart
Leaving two broken hearts in its wake
Don't let the end
Of someones happiness
Be the end of yours.

A beautiful mind

Hidden away

Behind walls

You built

And quiet hellos

I'd like to say that dreams come true

And some believe they really do

But dreams can end quickly and horribly to

I hope thats not the cace with you...

I thought writing would be easier.
But i find myself back spacing my words like i do my thoughts.
Putting them away for fear of others judgment.

I picture it in my mind like a play.

I try and imagian the things i will say.

Ill tell you i love you and need you to stay.

I do want to tell you but try as i may.

I can only hope that you feel the same way.