maybe it's me
maybe it lies within me
maybe
just maybe
it is really wasn't meant to be

the fragments of our soul
seems to lose their ways in finding each other
they say everything is written in the stars,
but I can't seem to find us among them
then, like what they say
we're really

never meant to be

I let go of my hand today
because no one showed me the way,
I have nothing to pay
because no one asked me to stay.

emotions and pride have clouded my judgment.

I told the stars about you,

how your fingers trace my skin
how your breath blew my eyelids
how your smile enchants my soul
how your presence erased mine

I still told the stars about you,

how your lies swept me off my feet
how your love tore me apart
how your embrace clench my lungs
how you shatter me

then,
I've stopped talking to the stars

was it your twisted time?
or was it just a figment of my mind?
I built my wall so high
it reached above the sky
you built your ego so bright
that I was even blinded in your sight

you made yourself so right,
so it seems.

i break my wall so briskly
never thought that it was all too risky.

i crashed,
I crashed,
I CRASHED.

I did not see the sign
I lost track of time
i-
I, would've thought that you were mine
but that was only a figment of my mind
a figment
of my mind

I did not pick up this pen
for you
only to repress my hand down all the way
and spill all this ink over my bleeding hands

but you,
wouldn't know it anyway
i burnt
behind you all the way.

breakfast has always been nice and pleasant
the evening has always been filled
with some strolling in the garden and delightful tea time
the night has always been filled with passion and late-night reading

all is well
all is good
all is warm.

so,
where did we go wrong?

i know
today might be rough
piles of paperworks
it's raining hard outside
low battery
missed the bus
and many more
but even in this chaotic day you're facing
don't ever forget
to give thanks,
because out there
in the other side of this town
tons of people suffered
hundred times worse than us.