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May 2022 sage silcross

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May 2022 sage silcross

A M Ryder

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But what
Happens when
I just don't want
To get help?
Like I don't want
To convince myself
To live longer

I'm so through with
The population,
Being human,
And being myself

It's like I don't
Want to stick
Around and see
If it gets better
I don't want
To get better

I want to be dead
I want to be nothingness

#suicide #mental #health #hopeless #nothingness #dead

Dec 2020 sage silcross

Wealth

Dec 2020 sage silcross

A M Ryder

Wealth

Seems unreal
And abstract
A string of zeros
That exists in some
Strange place
Of its own

#wealth #money #eat #rich #unreal #abstract #zeros #string #space #own

Nov 2020 sage silcross

Almost

Nov 2020 sage silcross

A M Ryder

Almost

It's a big word for me
I feel it everywhere
Almost home
Almost happy
Almost changed
Almost, but not quite
Not yet
Soon, maybe

#almost #happy #home #change #maybe #everywhere #me

Dec 2019 sage silcross

Necks

Dec 2019 sage silcross

A M Ryder

Necks

There are two kinds of people
Sharks and
sheep

Sharks are winners
They never look back
Because they have no necks

Necks are for sheep

#shark #sheep #necks #winners #people

Oct 2019 sage silcross

Stairway

Oct 2019 sage silcross

Jack Jenkins

Stairway

I would describe depression as purple
and show you the frailty of my sanity
a long hallway with a long staircase
that goes up as it goes downwards
parts of you will fall off as you climb
rattling and echoing like a ghost
passing yourself seven times over
dusty lungs barely keeping you up
do you ever wonder if it ever ends?

//on depression//

#depression #life #jack #jenkins #poem #poetry

Oct 2019 sage silcross

Ataraxia

Oct 2019 sage silcross

A M Ryder

Ataraxia

Just as perfect
As the music is painful
They took their time
Piece by piece
Placing every star
Casting out the constellations bright
And you alike
To the furthest reaches
But never too far
These perfect points set
So you never forget who you are

#star #music #constellations #casting #bright #furthest #perfect #points #forget #time

Oct 2019 sage silcross

Evergreen

Oct 2019 sage silcross

A M Ryder

Evergreen

Evergreen, or nearly so
The last rays of light broke
Through little branches and
Whether we admit it or not
We put forth great effort
Just to conceal what's inside
Our own minds

#evergreen #nature #light #inside #minds #conceal #hide #admit #rays #effort

Oct 2019 sage silcross

Colors to Me

Oct 2019 sage silcross

A M Ryder

Colors to Me

I'll write this in blue
Because it's how I feel
And I can't help it

I'll write this in green
But I don't know what it means
I don't go outside

I'll write this in red
For everything I hadn't said
They've never really left my head

I'll write this in black
To forget all that I lack
And who I could of been

#blue #green #red #black #colors #outside #feel #help #never #head

Oct 2019 sage silcross

The Arrow

Oct 2019 sage silcross

A M Ryder

The Arrow

The arrow endures
The bow string's tension
So that in the release
It can become
More than itself

#arrow #bow #string #endure #itself #tension

Sep 2019 sage silcross

It's Hard to Say

Sep 2019 sage silcross

A M Ryder

It's Hard to Say

We are all alone
In ways no one understands
We drown under
The waves of words
We aren't saying
Sometimes I can feel my bones
Straining under the weight
Of all the lives
Im not living

All we've got is
This precious knowledge
Of our own
Self destruction

#self #destruction #alone #understands #drown #weight #living #waves #words #knowledge