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Jan 2018 · 330
Accepted Confusion
Janie Elizabeth Jan 2018
I love this pain
I thrive in it
It feels so great
The sorrow sinks in

The darkness suffocates me
I engulf it
Its so hard to breathe
I smie and laugh over it

What does it mean to feel this way
What is this life
Am i going crazy?
Or am i alright
Dec 2017 · 536
Molly equals Death
Janie Elizabeth Dec 2017
They are under my skin.
They are everywhere.
How can I make this end?!
They slowly disappear.

The insects leave me be.
All light fades to black.
I wake up and a light I see.
On a gurney, memories I like.

In the ambulance I can't breathe.
I lose feeling of my body.
I feel my soul get dragged beneath.
Darkness consumes me.

I feel numb inside and feel doubt.
Hours pass until I see light.
Days, I was missing, and no way out.
Drugged but I won the fight.
I was drugged at 14, I had hallucinations and seizures from it. my heart stopped on the way to the hospital 3 different times. it was the worst experience of my life
Nov 2017 · 471
Take my everything
Janie Elizabeth Nov 2017
Take my breath
I need it not
Take my life
It serves me not
Take my soul
It is no more
Take my whole
I'm nothing in this world
Take my existence
It was a mistake
Take my heart
It broke much more
Take my smile
It is fake
Take my body
Drag it to the lake
Take my bones
Bury them under
Bring me roses
I always will suffer
Oct 2017 · 530
Carnivore
Janie Elizabeth Oct 2017
Feed from my soul
Drain me of all life
Take away my happiness
Take away my mind
Grow stronger from my pain
Grow happier from my misery
Show me your way
Show me your hate
Bring me to despair
Bring me to emptiness
Come digest me
Come destroy me
Make me hurt
Make me cry
Sink your teeth into my flesh
Sink your claws into my throat
Carnivore
Oct 2017 · 430
Let You Die
Janie Elizabeth Oct 2017
I've been searching for a way to bring you back to life
I've been needing you here with me every night
It's not the same without you by my side
But I let you die

All I need is your arms around me
All I want is your hand in mine
It's not the same without you by my side
But I let you die

I can feel your cold, bony fingers caress my face
i can feel you looking at me with so much disgrace
It's not the same without you by my side
But I let you die

I killed you
I let you die
Please come back to life
But I let you die
Oct 2017 · 425
The Invisible Stranger
Janie Elizabeth Oct 2017
He's laying there alone,
on the bathroom floor.
His whole shirt is soaked,
from where his blood poured.
A tear fell from his eye;
he let out a shaky breath.
He said, "I don't wanna die,
but I want death."
because
He's just an invisible stranger,
lost in the crowd.
His voice is getting weaker,
as he's shouting out.
"Can anybody see me?
Can anybody hear me?
The invisible Stranger!
The invisible!"
This is from a song I wrote about a year back, hope you enjoy
Oct 2017 · 664
Mr. Stalker
Janie Elizabeth Oct 2017
You're there in the shadows
I hear your whispers
I hear your footsteps behind me
I'm never alone because you never leave
You're even there when I fall asleep
You see me cry
You see me laugh
You see me smile
You see me sleep
You watch and I feel it
I feel your eyes on me
My dear Mr. Stalker
Oh how you comfort me
I have never seen your face
You hide behind that ski mask
My dear Mr. Stalker
Why not show me at last
Oct 2017 · 563
Fear
Janie Elizabeth Oct 2017
i keep my poems short as to not bore you
the fear of the judgement pouring from you
i keep my lines short so you can rush through
the fear of the judgement pouring from you
i keep my words small as my thoughts are too
the fear of the judgement pouring from you
i keep my mouth shut, these words are true
the fear of the judgement pouring from you
Oct 2017 · 1.1k
I Sing This Song
Janie Elizabeth Oct 2017
I sing this song to remind you of me
to remind you of who we used to be
I sing this song to remember your blue eyes
to remember how the same blue cascades the skies
I sing this song to remind you of fall
to remind you of us floating above all
I sing this song to remember your lips
to remember the way you would kiss
I sing this song to remind you of me
to remind you of who we used to be
Oct 2017 · 556
I Write For You
Janie Elizabeth Oct 2017
i write for who you are
i write for what you've done
i write for your beauty
i write for your perfections
i write for your mistakes
i write for who you were
i write for who you've become
i write for who you are not
i write for you
i do not writ for who i am
i do not write for what i've done
i do not write for my beauty
i do not write for my perfections
i do not write for my mistakes
i do not write for who i was
i do not write fo who i've become
i do not write for who i am not
i do not write for me
i write for you
Oct 2017 · 359
You
Janie Elizabeth Oct 2017
You
Pictures of us surround me
Memories of us haunt me
Your name stuck between my lips
I choke on it
Your scent lingers on my pillow
i bathe in it
Your blue eyes linger in my mind
I need it
I need you
I want you
I miss you
Please come back
please come home
I'm sorry
It;s all my fault
I'm so sorry
Oct 2017 · 667
Flower
Janie Elizabeth Oct 2017
i was a little girl
you where a grown man
i had no say
you acted upon your own sin
you took my flower
i was too young to know
at the time you had the power
to that i say no more
you are a filthy demon of the night
i am a ****** by heart and its my own right
you rot in your own filth
forever a beast you will be
i have many choices of who i want to be
a writer, a painter, psychologist, or musician
i have a life that is worth living
you may have taken my flower but my words still remain
you thought you had the power
but you're only insane
This poem is about ****. you should be aware of who you trust because i was a victim so many times to family members, but now i am a survivor

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