I wish that I could see into the future
see whether I'd still be thinking about you
all day every day
see whether you'd call me, telling me that you love me
or if it would all just be gone
our love, our humour, us

and her mind, that used to be like the most blue sky
was now grey and cloudy
and her eyes, that used to shine so bright
were now dull

who are you,
a stranger that somehow managed to make me fall in love,
what have you done to me?

this is not how i usually feel
my heart is arching
and i can’t stop thinking about you

last time i saw you
i did not know
that it would be the last time

you smiled
and walked across the room to kiss us on our cheeks
you asked us how we were doing
and we did too

you said that you were finally happy
and that life was great again
then you asked us if we wanted a ride home
we should've said yes

your loud laughter and charming smile
a kiss on the cheek
this is how i will remember you

i am 18
i do not feel like an adult
i do not feel like a teenager
what am i

when food stops being delicious
and starts being frightening instead
when dinner with friends suddenly is scarier
than walking alone in the late hours
when the tears start
just by the thought of eating with people
why is there no treatment for this
unnamed eating disorder
is it even an eating disorder?
or am I just being weird

will it ever make sense?
will it ever be the same?
will we ever feel the same thing?

dearest little dog
suddenly you have grey hairs on your ears
dearest little dog
where is the endless energy?
dearest little you
you are still beautifull

a teenage girl with a body full of hormones
a little kid who just wants to play
a woman who is getting taught about adulthood
all in the same person

you laugh at me when I'm trying
but do you really see?
do you understand what I'm going through?
I guess so
you're old

I don't know how to act to certain people
how do I stop blushing?
how do I tell him that I'm actually interested in him?
and how will he ever know?
I guess that's it
I'm going back to being a kid

I am with facebook 24/7, my grandma a day or two a month.
I get likes on facebook, while she gives me love.
I get to know what my friends are doing all the time, while my grandma tells me about het 80 years on this planet.
Facebook lets me travel through the world, from Ghana to Paris. My grandmother takes me to her kitchen for a nice cup of coffee.

*I wish I could spend time with her everyday instead of facebook

when you miss someone who are gone
and realise that you never told them that you loved them
the only thing in your mind is
that you either want to go back in time
or push the "fast forward" button in life
so that you will be with them again


I miss you and I love you

I am happy
but my head is a chaos
what am I supposed to do?

and instead of loving you
   I started hating you
for everything you have done
and the way you've changed

because nothing
     makes me happier

and nothing
    makes me sadder

than you

you told me
that you would always be there
but now
you are gone

When you smile
I fall in love
All over again

- sznb

Tell me how you feel

Instead of telling lies

Instead of telling half truths 

And instead of confusing me

Tell me the truth