you say you know everything
so in fact
you know nothing
about humility

I would rather have integrity than popularity
I would rather be alone but be kind
I would rather be poor than have money made from crime  
I would rather know a bitter truth than live a life of lies
I would rather have one true friend than a group that can't be genuine
I would rather die at twenty one if that short life was filled with love
I would rather be shot than use a gun against another
I would rather be female just to prove we have it harder
I would rather have integrity than popularity
I would rather live in my fantasy than in your reality

if this doesn't last then that's ok
not everything is meant to last
not everything is forever
if you never read these words then that's ok
they will still be a reminder of a beautiful moment in space and time
if you decide to leave
if I get too intense or you lose this feeling
if this doesn't last and this just comes to pass
i promise that is more than ok

fiction is fiction when there is no proof
fiction becomes prediction when it actually comes true

7 things to say at the end of a life
I love you
I know you
I'll remember you
I hate you
I abandoned you
You are nothing
Who am I?

Me in the middle of an
Exotic word play
The tricks that we can use to
Arrange the letters on the page
Phrase the wording so
Hilariously and intensely ironic
Only to
Realise this is no metaphor at all

Why can't I forget you?
I hate this foolishness
Self Respect has flown away
Dignity can't look at me
Vulnerability appears to have gotten out of hand
I can't understand why
I can't forget you

He talks about breaking records
He talks about leaving his mark
He talks like a broken record
Instead of breaking records
He is breaking my heart

we are all as lonely as each other
trying so hard to keep it together
wearing our masks
building our walls
pretending that it doesn't hurt at all
we are all as lonely as each other
i urge you all to remember
lonely is not forever
we are in this together

i didn't know then
what i know now
the thoughts of an adult
aren't the same as a child
i wasn't the same person
as who i am now
time has a way
of changing things around

the person in the mirror is an old, old friend of mine
you would think that she would be my enemy
judging on my history
but time has a way of redefining judgement
experience has a way of re-evaluating importance
grace has a way of breaking down pride

the person in the mirror is constantly evolving
sometimes so much so that she does not align with me
she will be my neighbor
she will be my mother
she will be a perfect stranger
she will be everything else in between

the person in the mirror sees the finish line
before i have tied my laces
before i have found the beginning
she will coach me in a way
that no other can perceive
before i even know it
we will both be in a place no one can see

the person in the mirror is an old, old friend of mine
she used to be my critic
she used to be my opponent
but love has a way of healing the deepest childhood wounds
peace has a way of emerging after endurance