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A dancing Bear grotesque and funny Earned for his master heaps of money, Gruff yet good-natured, fond of honey, And cheerful if the day was sunny. Past hedge and ditch, past pond and wood He tramped, and on some common stood; There, cottage children circling gaily, He in their midmost footed daily. Pandean pipes and drum and muzzle Were quite enough his brain to puzzle: But like a philosophic bear He let alone extraneous care And danced contented anywhere. Still, year on year, and wear and tear, Age even the gruffest, bluffest bear. A day came when he scarce could prance, And when his master looked askance On dancing Bear who would not dance. To looks succeeded blows; hard blows Battered his ears and poor old nose. From bluff and gruff he waxed curmudgeon; He danced indeed, but danced in dudgeon, Capered in fury fast and faster. Ah, could he once but hug his master And perish in one joint disaster! But deafness, blindness, weakness growing, Not fury's self could keep him going. One dark day when the snow was snowing His cup was brimmed to overflowing: He tottered, toppled on one side, Growled once, and shook his head, and died. The master kicked and struck in vain, The weary drudge had distanced pain And never now would wince again. The master growled; he might have howled Or coaxed,--that slave's last growl was growled. So gnawed by rancor and chagrin One thing remained: he sold the skin. What next the man did is not worth Your notice or my setting forth, But hearken what befell at last. His idle working days gone past, And not one friend and not one penny Stored up (if ever he had any Friends; but his coppers had been many), All doors stood shut against him but The workhouse door, which cannot shut. There he droned on,--a grim old sinner, Toothless, and grumbling for his dinner, Unpitied quite, uncared for much (The rate-payers not favoring such), Hungry and gaunt, with time to spare; Perhaps the hungry, gaunt old Bear Danced back, a haunting memory. Indeed, I hope so, for you see If once the hard old heart relented, The hard old man may have repented.
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Brother Bruin
A dancing Bear grotesque and funny Earned for his master heaps of money, Gruff yet good-natured, fond of honey, And cheerful if the day was sunny. Past hedge and ditch, past pond and wood He tramped, and on some common stood; There, cottage children circling gaily, He in their midmost footed daily. Pandean pipes and drum and muzzle Were quite enough his brain to puzzle: But like a philosophic bear He let alone extraneous care And danced contented anywhere. Still, year on year, and wear and tear, Age even the gruffest, bluffest bear. A day came when he scarce could prance, And when his master looked askance On dancing Bear who would not dance. To looks succeeded blows; hard blows Battered his ears and poor old nose. From bluff and gruff he waxed curmudgeon; He danced indeed, but danced in dudgeon, Capered in fury fast and faster. Ah, could he once but hug his master And perish in one joint disaster! But deafness, blindness, weakness growing, Not fury's self could keep him going. One dark day when the snow was snowing His cup was brimmed to overflowing: He tottered, toppled on one side, Growled once, and shook his head, and died. The master kicked and struck in vain, The weary drudge had distanced pain And never now would wince again. The master growled; he might have howled Or coaxed,--that slave's last growl was growled. So gnawed by rancor and chagrin One thing remained: he sold the skin. What next the man did is not worth Your notice or my setting forth, But hearken what befell at last. His idle working days gone past, And not one friend and not one penny Stored up (if ever he had any Friends; but his coppers had been many), All doors stood shut against him but The workhouse door, which cannot shut. There he droned on,--a grim old sinner, Toothless, and grumbling for his dinner, Unpitied quite, uncared for much (The rate-payers not favoring such), Hungry and gaunt, with time to spare; Perhaps the hungry, gaunt old Bear Danced back, a haunting memory. Indeed, I hope so, for you see If once the hard old heart relented, The hard old man may have repented.
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I miss your sitting              beside me My hand in your hand             holding tightly Sitting on one bench                        together Warming ourselves         2 cups of coffee And that cold weather ! Telling things about                    ourselves Which are unknown      To me and to her Now uncared about            coldness and Persons coming              and gone Being first meeting Seeing in her eyes Busy in get- together !!
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Feb 7, 2015
Feb 7, 2015 at 8:18 AM UTC
# Date With Mate #
I lied by the sea, far away from the ebb- uncared, untraceable, a heap among the mounds. You came to me first, And then joined in she, both squatted by me, started the play with me. Never can I forget, the first caress- I know not, yours or hers, but it was like heaven. Your juvenile dreams, naive imaginations, bestowed on my otiose self, by your seasoned skills. Grain upon grains, both made me proud.  Not conforming to a flaw, meticulous maven masons. When your hands tired, she backed you up.  While she was ******  you tended her to health. Finally, I stood tall- an Olympian castle.  Both were beguiled,  I would never be happier.   And, then came the storm, Satanic vibes infested the air. I couldn’t fathom what befell, you were furious, she was crying. Raised voices, clenched fists, intimate moments castaway, I stood a meek witness, while a relationship was severed.   Came along the lunar surge, I was wiped away without a trace. Both stood distant from the other, watching me fall, filled with remorse.
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Mar 2, 2010
Mar 2, 2010 at 9:15 AM UTC
SANDCASTLE...
For instance, recall daisies, or if you have not seen one, so much the better. Paint me a crass picture and sleep on the shallow crevasse. Stilt through the orchard and search there: nothing still. Even the nothingness is form-fitting, and thus, your vestigial image of daisies. Mold something out of the vacuity, and there a retrograde sculpture will wind back to clay. Cornerstones have your name, and your name even so, has taciturnly placed stones. Stones. These tiny bodies that lay, undemanding, scourged by the rapid passage of a carriage. I wait there, with them, still thinking of daisies. I know of a child, cylindrically obtuse, in front of the mirror. Have you seen yourself in the hazy windows of the Metro? What do you see? I still see daisies. Or people with heads of daisies. But remember your forethought of daisies? They are nothing. I am a beheaded daisy in the lackadaisical wind of Summer. There is nothing to gain here but the sadness of cold passing. And the child that I am speaking of, his name, Magno. Sturdy like the rucksack he’s carrying, lovelessly trundling altogether with the pipes and the handrails, almost signaling the alarm without warning. This uncared-for sultry evening decides to splinter itself against the masses. Again, the daisies appear to me, this time, in heady form rogue with peripatetic fragrance. Magno used to unearth daisies and give them to her mother when he was stiflingly young – he hustled through the carefully placed furniture. Whatever happened to him, I know not. And just like the daisies we have come to know now, trains that do not belong to anyone, and the daisies too, that go unheard of and unknown to the behest of the city, have gone into the subtle beginning of everything that once started in itself, the form of splendor. Nothing.
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Jan 27, 2016
Jan 27, 2016 at 3:27 AM UTC
A Poem About Daisies, Trains, and Magno
For instance, recall daisies, or if you have not seen one, so much the better. Paint me a crass picture and sleep on the shallow crevasse. Stilt through the orchard and search there: nothing still. Even the nothingness is form-fitting, and thus, your vestigial image of daisies. Mold something out of the vacuity, and there a retrograde sculpture will wind back to clay. Cornerstones have your name, and your name even so, has taciturnly placed stones. Stones. These tiny bodies that lay, undemanding, scourged by the rapid passage of a carriage. I wait there, with them, still thinking of daisies. I know of a child, cylindrically obtuse, in front of the mirror. Have you seen yourself in the hazy windows of the Metro? What do you see? I still see daisies. Or people with heads of daisies. But remember your forethought of daisies? They are nothing. I am a beheaded daisy in the lackadaisical wind of Summer. There is nothing to gain here but the sadness of cold passing. And the child that I am speaking of, his name, Magno. Sturdy like the rucksack he’s carrying, lovelessly trundling altogether with the pipes and the handrails, almost signaling the alarm without warning. This uncared-for sultry evening decides to splinter itself against the masses. Again, the daisies appear to me, this time, in heady form rogue with peripatetic fragrance. Magno used to unearth daisies and give them to her mother when he was stiflingly young – he hustled through the carefully placed furniture. Whatever happened to him, I know not. And just like the daisies we have come to know now, trains that do not belong to anyone, and the daisies too, that go unheard of and unknown to the behest of the city, have gone into the subtle beginning of everything that once started in itself, the form of splendor. Nothing.
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Unwatch'd, the garden bough shall sway, The tender blossom flutter down, Unloved, that beech will gather brown, This maple burn itself away; Unloved, the sun-flower, shining fair, Ray round with flames her disk of seed, And many a rose-carnation feed With summer spice the humming air; Unloved, by many a sandy bar, The brook shall babble down the plain, At noon or when the lesser wain Is twisting round the polar star; Uncared for, gird the windy grove, And flood the haunts of hern and crake; Or into silver arrows break The sailing moon in creek and cove; Till from the garden and the wild A fresh association blow, And year by year the landscape grow Familiar to the stranger's child; As year by year the labourer tills His wonted glebe, or lops the glades; And year by year our memory fades From all the circle of the hills.
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In Memoriam A. H. H. OBIIT MDCCCXXXIII: Part 101
Don’t plant no seeds if you anit ready to garden yet, cause too many uncared for plants leaves the farm in debt, the “rotten”seeds always seem to harm the rest, we can point out the issue why we anit fix the problem yet? Cause anything healthy in nature always get harvested.
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Jun 2, 2014
Jun 2, 2014 at 1:18 AM UTC
Cycle
People are like clay. We can mold to adapt. We can change how we look, But not what we are made of; And if we are left uncared for We become as hard as rocks, And that's the tragedy of living.
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May 25, 2018
May 25, 2018 at 1:23 PM UTC
Clay
a community of wildflowers pretending to be roses. befriending what we believe are better plants, and covering themselves in lavender. they dip their petals and spikes into ink, and they pretend that they are feathers, and with these feathers they pretend to be birds, and being birds is the only way they feel free. they are left uncared for and wilted down, they are overlooked and thrown away, they are called pests and flower killers. but they are beautiful, they are powerful and everpresent, they are proof that no matter how much pulling them out, cutting them down, and praying them away, wildflowers are here to stay.
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Nov 9, 2017
Nov 9, 2017 at 2:54 PM UTC
For the Dreamers
Poor little thing unwanted Uncared for by knowledge Wondered at how it could be Such cruelty allowed to be To be given out to victims Nothing ever improved Since time began. Only a few years of vision After the 2nd World War Claimed by a selfish Generation of smartphones. Love Mary Love Mary ***
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Nov 21, 2018
Nov 21, 2018 at 9:57 AM UTC
Smartphones
I haven’t been invited for the C holiday of life. He definitely had fun without me. I didn’t have anything from him. I didn’t even have his shadow. I wanted to close Facebook site forever in order not to see the pictures of his lovers, I wanted to through away his letters but didn’t, I wanted to erase his words from my memory, but they were still in my ears. Without all doubts, C still was disturbing to me, intriguing and enigmatic. My love was like an obsession: strong and unfair, without any hope for “love in return”, any moral support or encouragement. There was no hope for me. C had just got rid of me. Got rid off me like of the uncared, unnecessary thing. He had just left me, and that’s it.
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Jan 12, 2014
Jan 12, 2014 at 10:18 AM UTC
About my love to C.
I dwell alone,--I dwell alone, alone, Whilst full my river flows down to the sea, Gilded with flashing boats That bring no friend to me: O love-songs, gurgling from a hundred throats, O love-pangs, let me be. Fair fall the freighted boats which gold and stone And spices bear to sea: Slim, gleaming maidens swell their mellow notes, Love-promising, entreating,-- Ah! sweet, but fleeting,-- Beneath the shivering, snow-white sails. Hush! the wind flags and fails,-- Hush! they will lie becalmed in sight of strand,-- Sight of my strand, where I do dwell alone; Their songs wake singing echoes in my land,-- They cannot hear me moan. One latest, solitary swallow flies Across the sea, rough autumn-tempest tost, Poor bird, shall it be lost? Dropped down into this uncongenial sea, With no kind eyes To watch it while it dies, Unguessed, uncared for, free: Set free at last, The short pang past, In sleep, in death, in dreamless sleep locked fast. Mine avenue is all a growth of oaks, Some rent by thunder-strokes, Some rustling leaves and acorns in the breeze: Fair fall my fertile trees, That rear their goodly heads, and live at ease. A spider's web blocks all mine avenue; He catches down and foolish painted flies, That spider wary and wise. Each morn it hangs a rainbow strung with dew Betwixt boughs green with sap, So fair, few creatures guess it is a trap: I will not mar the web, Though sad I am to see the small lives ebb. It shakes,--my trees shake; for a wind is roused In cavern where it housed: Each white and quivering sail, Of boats among the water leaves Hollows and strains in the full-throated gale: Each maiden sings again,-- Each languid maiden, whom the calm Had lulled to sleep with rest and spice and balm, Miles down my river to the sea They float and wane, Long miles away from me. Perhaps they say: "She grieves, Uplifted, like a beacon, on her tower." Perhaps they say: "One hour More, and we dance among the golden sheaves." Perhaps they say: "One hour More, and we stand, Face to face, hand in hand; Make haste, O slack gale, to the looked-for land!" My trees are not in flower, I have no bower, And gusty creaks my tower, And lonesome, very lonesome, is my strand.
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Autumn
I dwell alone,--I dwell alone, alone, Whilst full my river flows down to the sea, Gilded with flashing boats That bring no friend to me: O love-songs, gurgling from a hundred throats, O love-pangs, let me be. Fair fall the freighted boats which gold and stone And spices bear to sea: Slim, gleaming maidens swell their mellow notes, Love-promising, entreating,-- Ah! sweet, but fleeting,-- Beneath the shivering, snow-white sails. Hush! the wind flags and fails,-- Hush! they will lie becalmed in sight of strand,-- Sight of my strand, where I do dwell alone; Their songs wake singing echoes in my land,-- They cannot hear me moan. One latest, solitary swallow flies Across the sea, rough autumn-tempest tost, Poor bird, shall it be lost? Dropped down into this uncongenial sea, With no kind eyes To watch it while it dies, Unguessed, uncared for, free: Set free at last, The short pang past, In sleep, in death, in dreamless sleep locked fast. Mine avenue is all a growth of oaks, Some rent by thunder-strokes, Some rustling leaves and acorns in the breeze: Fair fall my fertile trees, That rear their goodly heads, and live at ease. A spider's web blocks all mine avenue; He catches down and foolish painted flies, That spider wary and wise. Each morn it hangs a rainbow strung with dew Betwixt boughs green with sap, So fair, few creatures guess it is a trap: I will not mar the web, Though sad I am to see the small lives ebb. It shakes,--my trees shake; for a wind is roused In cavern where it housed: Each white and quivering sail, Of boats among the water leaves Hollows and strains in the full-throated gale: Each maiden sings again,-- Each languid maiden, whom the calm Had lulled to sleep with rest and spice and balm, Miles down my river to the sea They float and wane, Long miles away from me. Perhaps they say: "She grieves, Uplifted, like a beacon, on her tower." Perhaps they say: "One hour More, and we dance among the golden sheaves." Perhaps they say: "One hour More, and we stand, Face to face, hand in hand; Make haste, O slack gale, to the looked-for land!" My trees are not in flower, I have no bower, And gusty creaks my tower, And lonesome, very lonesome, is my strand.
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Uncared for Left unattended Lying on the floor Arms stretched out too far Entering the darkness Diving into my mind Farther into the abyss I created Trying to destroy the innocence that is left Trap myself in this snare Capture the remnants of a former self Love. Where did I lose track Fallen into temptation Grabbing at the edges, grasping onto sanity Debating if it is worth it To pull or let go And fall
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Jan 31, 2011
Jan 31, 2011 at 7:50 PM UTC
Into Temptation
# *As it is brought towards completion the boat, through my interaction with it,  out on the lake will then make possible  the access to fish that I,  up till now have only dreamt of The fish  are the fire..   descended down  from the heavenlies-- made available  solely through the fineries..   restored back in to  wholeness  in part through the value I first saw in it when in its primitive, used and unfairly treated and uncared for, form.. But it was the deep love for that form that helped give the vessel its access back into the restoration  of its own,  true glory.. And now,  all alone--   out on the lake with it it brings me access  in to places and magical depths  until now only thought of  and dreamt about as that which exists  only, in heaven.. It is the vessel's motor,  now fully restored that brings the boat and I  together out on to the lake but it is the boat's very  uniqueness within it's own  natural state of beauty that helps to give me access  into the magic that lay currently undisturbed deep in that glorious lake's depths The boat has always carried within it the rarest of gifts and somewhere buried in my   deep love for it..  those gifts, while out on the lake  with it, will make themselves  known to me  as we together find those fish that so beautifully represent,  this.. the Holiest of all fires. Those trophy fish are the magical moments that up until now, lay dormant, swimming far away from current distractions   of the every day, mundane accessible only  through the restorative process and one's love of it's rare and magical beauty It sometimes feels as if all of heaven is waiting. (I know I am insane to talk this way..) I truly do love that boat. When I am out on the lake with it, every difficult moment will be so very worth it all to me. That is the joy I get from the giving of myself into it's much needed and fully deserved, restoration. .  .  .  . You will not sit out there,   so all alone-- weathering, out there  somewhere in the corner of the shipyard.  If that is the case, and that is your current fear.. I know that you will find a way to make yourself find-able by me. The greatest tragedy of all would be for a vessel of your unique and rare beauty, to die off   all alone-- unloved.. scuttled, by the wind. The energy that was meant for you  is now,  going into the boat.        --tho I can certainly do both.* #
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Apr 8, 2021
Apr 8, 2021 at 3:26 PM UTC
on zen, and the fine art of outboard-motor mechanics..
# *As it is brought towards completion the boat, through my interaction with it,  out on the lake will then make possible  the access to fish that I,  up till now have only dreamt of The fish  are the fire..   descended down  from the heavenlies-- made available  solely through the fineries..   restored back in to  wholeness  in part through the value I first saw in it when in its primitive, used and unfairly treated and uncared for, form.. But it was the deep love for that form that helped give the vessel its access back into the restoration  of its own,  true glory.. And now,  all alone--   out on the lake with it it brings me access  in to places and magical depths  until now only thought of  and dreamt about as that which exists  only, in heaven.. It is the vessel's motor,  now fully restored that brings the boat and I  together out on to the lake but it is the boat's very  uniqueness within it's own  natural state of beauty that helps to give me access  into the magic that lay currently undisturbed deep in that glorious lake's depths The boat has always carried within it the rarest of gifts and somewhere buried in my   deep love for it..  those gifts, while out on the lake  with it, will make themselves  known to me  as we together find those fish that so beautifully represent,  this.. the Holiest of all fires. Those trophy fish are the magical moments that up until now, lay dormant, swimming far away from current distractions   of the every day, mundane accessible only  through the restorative process and one's love of it's rare and magical beauty It sometimes feels as if all of heaven is waiting. (I know I am insane to talk this way..) I truly do love that boat. When I am out on the lake with it, every difficult moment will be so very worth it all to me. That is the joy I get from the giving of myself into it's much needed and fully deserved, restoration. .  .  .  . You will not sit out there,   so all alone-- weathering, out there  somewhere in the corner of the shipyard.  If that is the case, and that is your current fear.. I know that you will find a way to make yourself find-able by me. The greatest tragedy of all would be for a vessel of your unique and rare beauty, to die off   all alone-- unloved.. scuttled, by the wind. The energy that was meant for you  is now,  going into the boat.        --tho I can certainly do both.* #
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it's a draining process - to constantly pour all of my love and devotion into everyone and see them turn their cheek i'm the shiny nickel you saw on the sidewalk that you didn't pick up i'm the opportunity to skydive that you declined i'm the rays of the sun that glaze your skin on the beach that you must protect yourself from i'm the one that is liked but never loved seen but never heard cares but is uncared for and is always the second choice
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Jun 18, 2013
Jun 18, 2013 at 9:57 PM UTC
Untitled
The heart where once love resided fell too cold. Now the flesh turns an uneasy grey beneath a thin layer of dusty frost. When touched, the fingertips stick and the cold bites. Few dared to warm the space with their hands and now neglect has my heart forgot. There's an uncared for path. An overrun piece of forest nearly hidden in the brush that leads to a cave. There's a cool breeze that staves away my curiosity.
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Dec 30, 2013
Dec 30, 2013 at 11:46 AM UTC
Plagued
They push They shove They throw Me away They kick They step over me They slap They stab me I feel like a trash Feeling unwanted Unneeded Unwelcome Uninvited Useless They trample over my feelings Like I don't have any feelings at all But still I tiptoeing over theirs Because I was taught to be nice Plus, I don't learn how to hurt people's feelings I don't even want to learn them! They say be nice to people They say "there's no use of taking care of other's feelings because we'll gain nothing" I agreed politely But at the same time "Courtesy costs nothing" too How can someone be so cruel to others? With just one word can **** You have no idea how they'll take your words Say what you need to Make sure you really mean it Think before you talk I feel friendless uncared-for unloved I am hopeless Powerless to overcome them Why am I still here? I am weakening I am drowning in my tears Yet, no one notices Not even bother to catch And save me from dying With these unasked feelings My feelings that nobody cares for.
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Oct 25, 2013
Oct 25, 2013 at 12:37 PM UTC
Unwanted
It took me a decade of toil years of experience and expertise to learn that men are happy scoring ecstatic when he bags and trashes that short win he has not earned Sometimes as women we steam trimmed with seams of emotion awaiting to open hearts unreserved Yet he don’t want this vulnerability he wants to be ignored and uncared for denied and kept at the deepest ledge for when you give yourself easily he will devalue your inner-self blocking and tantalising from afar Men are still immature within afraid of closeness,scared of love afraid of the emotions,scared to trust and when he chases,he is fast as a cheetah preying closer and closer to his price and when he lies, he sugar coats the facts so that he creates an illusionary promise Yet deep within he is like a baby strained with automatic reflexes unable to make an emotional dialogue on how to make the woman really happy....
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Sep 29, 2018
Sep 29, 2018 at 12:10 PM UTC
Emotive Men in Motion
How dreadful to see Those that I cannot read. All over the latest feed. Not poetry, Like puppetry. A repetition of words, numbers, and symbols that aren't clever in the least. And users with names In impossible tongues. Their gibberish reeks! Line after line, All the same, it's uncared for. They write marriage, black magic, and European countries. It's daily infinity, Thieving the spaces from more thoughtful writing. Shall I fight just to see the absense of these; And say hello only to real poetry.
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Aug 23, 2015
Aug 23, 2015 at 11:55 AM UTC
Hello Gibberish Poetry
Quivering, shivering Cold as ice. Numb, unfeeling anesthetized. Unloved, uncared solitary.
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Sep 20, 2012
Sep 20, 2012 at 12:06 PM UTC
Solitary
I am sixteen, ⁣ walking down winnie in the middle of summer⁣ heat waving thick fingers in the air, taunting ⁣ I am wearing sweatpants and a hoodie ⁣ all my layers of self and self defeating comfort eating are not enough to cover me ⁣ I have the hood pulled over my hair ⁣ ***** too short, uncared for⁣ ⁣ I am carrying a novel, something cheap and badly written ⁣ a friend from school passes by me, waves, I turn away ⁣ pretend I don't see them ⁣ I stuff my hands in the soft pockets, grab a handful of hip meat, it feels like that scene in Lord of the Rings where juice runs down the chin of a false king⁣ ⁣ ⁣ I wear anxiety heavy around my face, I don't recognize myself without it⁣ but depression is not a word I can touch⁣ it doesn't fit me ⁣ it doesn't belong in my charismatic vocabulary ⁣ I don't know that I am drowning ⁣ ⁣ wet mouth smacking and finger tapping make me feel like my mind is an experimental horror film ⁣ how are small sounds so loud? ⁣ how do they crawl into my ear canal like an animorph alien? ⁣ I was always so afraid of those books ⁣ and the sounds outside of our tent when my brother read them to me ⁣ I am so afraid of everything ⁣ ⁣ I am sixteen ⁣ It's 98 degrees outside ⁣ and I am walking down the street in three layers of winter gear ⁣ and fear ⁣ and self hatred ⁣ and I cannot identify it ⁣ I don't know that I will be beautiful ⁣ I don't know that I already am ⁣ I don't know that my hands will pick wildflowers out of words ⁣ and that my life will be a practice of arranging bouquets for kitchen tables ⁣ I don't know that my hair will be long and easy to twirl around one finger, without thinking about the action ⁣ actions won't always feel like eyes watching me in and of themselves ⁣ ⁣ I don't know that I will pull on jeans without thinking about the way they don't lay flat against me ⁣ I don't know that curves can be custard on the tip of a finger, sweet and nostalgic tapioca, ⁣ gritty and dimpled and perfect for sundays⁣ and mine and plenty ⁣ and pretty ⁣ ⁣ I don't know that I will be beautiful ⁣ I don't know that I already am ⁣ ⁣
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Oct 4, 2018
Oct 4, 2018 at 11:07 PM UTC
wildflowers
I am sixteen, ⁣ walking down winnie in the middle of summer⁣ heat waving thick fingers in the air, taunting ⁣ I am wearing sweatpants and a hoodie ⁣ all my layers of self and self defeating comfort eating are not enough to cover me ⁣ I have the hood pulled over my hair ⁣ ***** too short, uncared for⁣ ⁣ I am carrying a novel, something cheap and badly written ⁣ a friend from school passes by me, waves, I turn away ⁣ pretend I don't see them ⁣ I stuff my hands in the soft pockets, grab a handful of hip meat, it feels like that scene in Lord of the Rings where juice runs down the chin of a false king⁣ ⁣ ⁣ I wear anxiety heavy around my face, I don't recognize myself without it⁣ but depression is not a word I can touch⁣ it doesn't fit me ⁣ it doesn't belong in my charismatic vocabulary ⁣ I don't know that I am drowning ⁣ ⁣ wet mouth smacking and finger tapping make me feel like my mind is an experimental horror film ⁣ how are small sounds so loud? ⁣ how do they crawl into my ear canal like an animorph alien? ⁣ I was always so afraid of those books ⁣ and the sounds outside of our tent when my brother read them to me ⁣ I am so afraid of everything ⁣ ⁣ I am sixteen ⁣ It's 98 degrees outside ⁣ and I am walking down the street in three layers of winter gear ⁣ and fear ⁣ and self hatred ⁣ and I cannot identify it ⁣ I don't know that I will be beautiful ⁣ I don't know that I already am ⁣ I don't know that my hands will pick wildflowers out of words ⁣ and that my life will be a practice of arranging bouquets for kitchen tables ⁣ I don't know that my hair will be long and easy to twirl around one finger, without thinking about the action ⁣ actions won't always feel like eyes watching me in and of themselves ⁣ ⁣ I don't know that I will pull on jeans without thinking about the way they don't lay flat against me ⁣ I don't know that curves can be custard on the tip of a finger, sweet and nostalgic tapioca, ⁣ gritty and dimpled and perfect for sundays⁣ and mine and plenty ⁣ and pretty ⁣ ⁣ I don't know that I will be beautiful ⁣ I don't know that I already am ⁣ ⁣
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We live in a wasteland. A place for uneasy souls, Uncared-for thoughts, And loneliness. We live in a wasteland. A place for wild unrest, Frequent combat, And total war. We live in a wasteland. A place for the rejects, The wallflowers, And the jocks. We live in a wasteland. A place of constant turmoil, Between states and countries, And people. We live in a wasteland. We live in a wasteland. We live in a wasteland. We live.
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Mar 19, 2015
Mar 19, 2015 at 5:46 PM UTC
Wasteland
No one, no one here, no one there, ever. Uncared for, it felt dark and misty. All alone, aside seven billion souls. Needed only when needed, a solitude. Ring-fenced in an imaginary world of love. No escape for me to my reality, it hurts. Kept knocking on the walls, for affection. Wisely I tethered on, purposely off,  living in a solstice of dream.
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Jun 28, 2020
Jun 28, 2020 at 1:11 AM UTC
About No one
You get those long cheek Kisses from the girls. Pats on the shoulder; it's nearly Strange for them to see you Alone. Friends stating obvious things You'll live through this too. I will. Just a few stages to Go through First. *She's any other man's to Have now.* I feel the love in her gone. Her relief that she's out. She'll never love me again. ~ There. She's gone. It's in her eyes. They look at me like I'm always standing In her way. An annoying statue. Badly carved and uncared for. Art without Art.
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Jun 21, 2014
Jun 21, 2014 at 3:55 PM UTC
An Annoying Statue
The strewn stitches, still smiling, Still attempting to bring joy, but no joy comes. An unnoticed cog in the wheel. Like a drug addict craving a fix, this one craving a hug, His chest ripped open, his warm soul stolen. His eyes, unblinking, look on, Forever… Forever searching for a friend. As an apostle searches for their god. Tattered cloth flesh, smudged and blackened with dust. A saint in fur, thrown away, Still, still, still forgotten, Like a wrapper after the candy. The rips, the tears, the holes still remain. The constant reminders of being uncared for. A Burn from a week under the heater, A rip in his chest, a gift from the dog, Mold from the box in the moist basement, His prison for the last six years. .The child grew up, No need for a bear, Real friends now No need for a toy, No need for the memories, New ones to be made. No need for a forgotten, soulless smile.
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Oct 15, 2011
Oct 15, 2011 at 11:42 PM UTC
Soulless Smiling
The whole pain Precipitated from the night sky In the morning rain Chiding me for love exposed Now lying wasted in the drenched soil Uncared and little How I love? A question that needs answer Only to those who don't And it etches like A newly acquired scab I just don’t know How? What I know Is this feeling in me Growing explosively silent by each space You put in between It brought me down on my knees Feeling the greatness that was To smallness that is Now Meanwhile the Rain Continue lashing my car windows Feels like high speed punishment cell And Love lashes within Whipping up a storm And I call you up And say "how lovely is the weather Around, Wake Up"
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Sep 7, 2010
Sep 7, 2010 at 7:34 AM UTC
Wake up my love...