"tunnelling" poems
.ah here comes england with its eccentricities, ah hier kommt polen mit seine christentum: where anyone can be a messiah, as stressed by the byzantines.
my first love was the love of the english grey,
(in honesty mentioned it was
the double-decker first, since
i fancied myself the great bus-driver of
the no. 5 bus back home)
earl grey came and said: ‘i can’t look
at these skies without sunglasses!’
and so it was, mid-autumn with sunglasses
at loss the sun-worshiper
enter the moon idiot,
looking for accents, looking for anything.
in england they called him das deutsche -
for reasons believable enough;
the luftwaffe eagerly anticipating the tunnelling
centipede that is the euro-star train-tunnel:
the panzers are rolling in!
the panzers are rolling in!
strange he never minded the coal-miners as useful
as minded by edvard gierek von silesia -
to the dispute of silesians not ex-patriated to saxony
(oh wait... texan boy doesn't sound as
nationalistic as minnesota boy?).
ooh pokey poo... writing about germany
became so **** so recently, i forget that i started it:
here’s to the english language’s chirality of s and z,
actually being superimposable:
from words in the socratic sense as encoded by plato
i don't get a bunch of ideas... virtue
does not make me ponder it with meaning or definition,
i only see the kabbalistic sensibility
of anti-alphabetical sequencing as v
i r t u e...
otherwise e i u r t v;
almost sounds like s.t.d.
Nov 7, 2015
Nov 7, 2015 at 6:33 AM UTC
Goblins live in tunnels-
at the end of the garden
They wreak havoc-
when everyone is sleeping
Tunnelling into dreams-
spreading their poison
Powerful potions-
to confuse waking from sleeping
Nov 4, 2014
Nov 4, 2014 at 9:46 AM UTC
It's here! It's here! One of the Best
And Brightest Days
Now's the Time to rev-up our Ways.
That Glazing Star, which spits the
Rays
Shone brightly through Helios, the
Highest Display.
Beaches un-roll their sleek-forming sands
As Pools de-frost their blue-tanned waves.
Swimmers do dive, and enjoy the Save
In Iberia's Coast rescue in Grand.
There are many Events in
This Hot-Baste Holiday
Worry not; For it will slowly
Pass Away
About a month-two - quill, quite awhilst
Just enough for me to produce
More Words in-rhyme.
Writing on Holidays must always be fun
For Experiences like these, pressed
Under the Sun
Tram-Tracked Thoughts, which does
Hurt to remember
Will be preserved - thanks to November.
Family, Friends, Extensions and Strangers
There the Bunch starts to get all blokey
Boring Concepts, birth these Megaphone Chaps
You world prefer to dance on their laps.
Maybe what I said meant something else
Those Words of mine touched Heart and felt
Such gradual boredom - in time I agree
For tunnelling Facts, with Evidence plead.
Nevertheless, let the Holidays sing
And let our Lives live that Full Extract.
Be Happy, Gay and Humble in Kind
For once the Headmaster whistles, you'll
Have a Sortie ahead.
Mar 21, 2013
Mar 21, 2013 at 12:56 PM UTC
You said save the Damsel,
but she's in no distress
I'm selfishly half dressed and less
awake than my clothes expect me to be
You said woo her with poetry,
but I'm out of back-of-receipts and torn off edges
I'm tired, and the shiraz has got to me
it started tunnelling through hollowed veins hours back
You said she'll be gone with the dew
leaving nothing but drops on your lips
Sep 7, 2013
Sep 7, 2013 at 2:03 PM UTC
The summer roars in, but why do the leaves fall?
This is the season of the spring,
and the flowers revel in their grandiloquence of colour
but right outside the window where you and I lay
studying for hours on end,
there is a tree that sheds its yellow leaves
speaking of an epoch of time where once it was young and all green
and then I think of you and me;
how the summer is tunnelling through the happiness
that beset our lives right now and we are sedated.
I walk with you for miles and talk with you along the way
and we skip over one topic to another,
as if we were making our own house of cards.
I eat with you everyday, and you let me be with you;
Just like that yellow-leaves-shedding tree,
I wonder if what we have will one day tumble into oblivion
and I will only have memories of you on my phone
and in my heart that then might ache.
Apr 19, 2014
Apr 19, 2014 at 2:46 PM UTC
In animal death, a breath of relief
Tunnelling through the airways for one last
Sigh of non-defeat, of exaltation and release
Not to be, or better, to be free of mortality
Made immortal with passing life
Taking strife by the neck and repeating
I am no longer your victim
In animal death, a universal strength
Where no obstacles lay before happiness
And instincts are not policed
Your fanciful dreams of green treats, fulfilled
And failing kidneys can rot as they please
Please, shed only a handful of tears
On the graves of decomposing beasts
Released from the shackle of domestication,
For the ones that suffer are surely the living.
Feb 11, 2017
Feb 11, 2017 at 12:33 AM UTC
Caught in the maze
Of amazing veins
****** cells excel
Tunnelling thru’
Vessels and vestibules
Mind oscillates vacillates
In chaotic amplitude
Like a pendant in pendulum
Of wishes and vices
Divine and devilish
Wise and unwise
Pride and prejudice
Dual mind is in duel
Behind the temple
Brain at home in skull
Will and wit seated well in skill
Rein, rule or roam and ruin
Embroidered and embroiled
Embodied and emboldened
Meditate, mediate,
Cogitate, agitate
Churn and spurn
Nurture the soul within
Explore the radiant light
At the end of the tunnel
Mind, the deity on duty
As mysterious as its Maker,
The Brain behind the brain
Feb 14, 2015
Feb 14, 2015 at 8:08 PM UTC
I spotted a fortune teller at an old county fair
while knowing the answers I still looked for some there.
There was no love line or fate line she could’ve read,
I told her I bet there’s no sun line, life line or trace of a head.
She met my eyes with sadness written all over her face,
and told me out of all people that I was her worst case.
She traced the inside of my hand intently trying to see
then she asked me had I recently been burned severely.
In my death bed I’ve been waiting patiently for sleep
sadly I’m not the one it wishes to greet.
With past scars and present fresh wounds tunnelling down so deep,
loss of blood and mind so I’m left as just a sack of meat.
A loving caress to each feature
but succeed in only poking the bone,
and every single living creature
dies completely alone.
She was a rainbow and I; charcoal grey,
they all choose to go but claim they wish to stay.
The beeping bouncing off the wall
steady like sirens or alarms,
and at the end of it all
we all die in our own arms.
She was a rainbow and I; charcoal grey,
I still catch her glow but it’s fading away,
I know it could never last, but I still have to pray,
‘cause I am the past and she’s only in today.
I’ve acted strong and kept up this ruse,
atleast I can say I’ve always been brave,
but when I’m not digging up the past, ghosts or clues,
I’ve steadily been digging my own grave.
No lines, no ties, not a single strand.
I’ve got the palmist right in the palm of my hand.
Aug 22, 2019
Aug 22, 2019 at 10:00 PM UTC
Dealing with OCD
is like losing your mind,
You can be in a room
full of people, yet all alone,
Noone can ever know
when the horrible thoughts
will come and what they will be
you just feel a buzz, a hum, a drone
in your head and you try to block it out
but like Sony Xperia apps
running in the background,
they are there, infernal
consuming the bandwidth of your soul
there is a fine line between delusion and sanity
a clutching at straws, a search for help
pleas and pleas fall not on deaf ears
but endure it you must
until it runs its course
tunnelling on, pushing you to the edge
straddling the fine line buoying
bobbing, dancing, fleeting-
drowning you in its wake as you gasp and gasp
OCD is horrible and misunderstood
why it hit me, I know not-
when it came part of me, I never agreed
I just woke up arrested, paralysed
by the most unutterable thoughts...
I suspect it happened when I met
the thin woman with the one eye-
I have known no peace since then
Paranormal paranoia rules my brain
and I am mooted, glued in the vile filth
of guilt, shame, anger, helplessness-
like a generator running on fuel,
incessant the tyres do not stop burning
alone, sometimes, I ask myself
why? why me Lord?
the cup is too heavy for me to bear
and ghouls have made my mind
an open playing field and I cant break free
at times I wake up and its gone
I smile and dress up-
try to think normally, eat and sleep
but itchy insomnia rages on my skin
beads of sweat and shaking, my mouth is dry
I am afraid, frightened and I cower
OCD is crunching my life, slowly
and sadly noone knows...they just dont know
why I say 'off' things sometimes
they suppose its the preoccupation
of a busy mind, and busy I am
wallowing, silently, stewing in the prison
it seems there is no escaping this
Sep 17, 2014
Sep 17, 2014 at 1:55 AM UTC
I'm tunnelling
In a downward spiral,
Getting deeper than the
Scars you left on my heart.
Lost afloat on a raft
On an ocean of my own tears
Led by a misguided attempt.
But the blood -
It consumes me so
Yet it is so mesmerizing.
My mind,
My own personal time machine
In which I find myself trapped
In thoughts of you.
The thoughts they screech,
The noise so piercing
It's destructive.
Breakout I must.
But before I even try -
Oblivion beneath me,
As I fall.
Am I free?
These chains still hold me,
Imprison me,
My vision so fine and sharp
Yet still I am misguided.
In this raft afloat
In the ocean of my mind,
That you created.
Slowly crumbling apart
Like everything great, it falls.
But alas hope,
The light it calls!
Until I realise
My only escape
As I slowly drift away.
Aug 2, 2014
Aug 2, 2014 at 1:30 AM UTC
Artificial city-dwellers
Discard all humanity
Carbon fired tin cans
Pierce the serenity.
Anonymous collisions
Fifty floors below
Each passer by a stranger
You will never know.
Pedestrians, travellers
And their vehicles
Droplets in a river,
Altering the tidal flow.
Irrigation passages
Absorb the elements
Hedge fund panellists,
Bankers and workers flee.
Eye rolling baby boomers
Sit, tutting one by one.
Nervous millennials adorned
In clothes for moths to eat.
Breaking point carriages
Century old tunnelling
A lone foot tapping
And quiet page turning.
Brakes hit the track
Piercing the murmur
Eighty jarred necks
External motion blur.
Sliding carriage doors
A not-so-subtle beep
Dust kicked from dawn
Falls onto the city streets.
Blue tower inhabitants
Busting out of the seams
Water molecules collide
But nothing sinks the fleet.
Smartly suited eye-darters
Push and pull for space
Rolling up the banks
Humanity erased again.
I settle on the brickwork
Until the storm retreats
Circadian commuters
Run to rest their feet.
A few lonely meanders remain
Wondering down the beach
Forlorn festivies fog over
Swinging shop-signs squeak.
As the lighting rig descends
And once blue ceiling stains
The beige brickwork turns red
The high tide admits defeat.
Pink light turns to navy blue
A faint moonbeam lights the sky
Obscured by one cloud then a few
Vague incandescence frames the scene.
The streetlights flicker overhead
One worn out passenger now leaves
Shrouded, cold, hungry and fulfilled;
Abandonment for some is peace.
May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 12:34 PM UTC
They watch my lavish fall
Hungrily
Lips gnashing together
Grinding teeth in anticipation
Its the only sound I hear
As I slip through the abyss
I blame them
partly
With their eyes scanning upwards
Fixated on the throne
Waiting for the day
They’ll look down on the rest of us
Now today has arrived
And they marvel in what I’ve become
What I've lost
Who am I now
Surely not this creature
Cracked mask on a sunken ship
Blood streams from my temples
Tormenting thoughts cannot be contained
In the mere encompass of my mind
They hug the curve of my cheekbones
And slip on my lower lip
Inviting me to speak them
Inviting me to scream them
All while the parasite keeps digging
Tunnelling deeper and deeper
Up the underbelly of my wrist
Apr 27, 2020
Apr 27, 2020 at 1:11 AM UTC
This far divided land
Where the rice grows free
Has always had corrupt men
Stopping their life's dreams
It's in their veins
It's not that easy
To make it flow on out
For a thousand years
The same has been
Even when a million men
Wearing blue denim jeans
Came marching in
To change our ways
It's not what this is all about
While the people we trust
Pop out of man-made holes
And look like they've been
Tunnelling like moles
Where the enemy lines
Have stood for a thousand years
During the day
We're all so polite
But in the night
We all have to go and fight
The un-invited western men
Always seem to lose sight
Their communist fears
Were ingrained in their mothers womb
And will always end in tears
Where the streets smell of Pho
As you pass on by
And if looks could ****
If you dare to say hi
The aromatic love incense
Wafts in the fog filled air
Where the market crowds come
And traders buy and sell
The lonely planet guides
Write of this unusual smell
The local giggles should tell you
That you don't really belong there
So goodbye Hanoi
This time we can't ignore the flack
I'm going home
And I ain't ever coming back
My wife is waiting
To mend me back in one piece
We've had that awful feeling
Since it all became so fierce
I want to head home so bad
Now they've invaded our embassy
When they don't want our help for a truce
And it doesn't bring the change
That the westerners wanted to produce
So just leave it in the hands of ones own chosen destiny.
Sep 10, 2019
Sep 10, 2019 at 5:33 PM UTC
I
know
the distance between us
are
ivory
tip
into an ebony bone
still
my blood boils over
red as my heart,
tunnelling through
the
night
seeking the soul
who
ignited the light.
Nov 1, 2024
Nov 1, 2024 at 5:55 PM UTC
Just the upper torso
of dunes waving back to us
where we walk
all hymn: the sea, 7ish, and ourselves
the sun;
going slow
echoes of sea birds
tunnelling
above the sea
always
near home.
Jun 5, 2013
Jun 5, 2013 at 9:19 AM UTC
From the warren I view the world;
From the warren I venture timidly,
Ready to rush back to its relative security.
It's not my warren, but I'm comfortable -
Well, not exactly comfortable, but secure.
Made not for me, although it has a familiar scent;
A temporary sanctuary - a base from which to venture forth.
And from within its warm depths
I've furthered an internal warren,
Full of rooms connected by labyrinths
Of hallways still tunnelling unheeded
Into a myriad mysterious locations:
Twisting, turning, looping, surprising, revealing.
Both the warren I inhabit and the warren I've developed
Help to cement this reality; Help to appease;
Allow me a freedom to explore my environs;
Explore local watering holes and those further afield;
Explore inner landscapes, disconnected and relevant.
Mar 7, 2014
Mar 7, 2014 at 5:04 AM UTC
I leave the comfort of the school,
I drift down to Dun Laoghaire pier,
And pass the lovers holding hands,
Or sneaking sips of bargain beer,
And I approach my destined ship -
The station always holds the key,
To get a train so I can start
The journey home to Delgany.
It soon creeps forward from the dark -
A worm emerging from a peach,
Gliding past the moonlit sea
Stroking the shores of Killiney beach.
It misses the seals in Sandycove,
Tunnelling through the Dalkey hill,
Approaching Greystones but not before
Bray, Killiney and Shankill.
It chunders through the tunnels vast,
The sea breeze freezing up the carriage.
The light shines brightest when I leave -
The moon and grass make quite a marriage,
And the stars do wonders to the trees,
Who stand bare, posing, just for me,
While I crunch through their pile of leaves
On my way home to Delgany.
Nov 15, 2016
Nov 15, 2016 at 8:05 AM UTC
A bed of
a lad in
A lad in a bed of creased sheets catching crumpling dreams as the night falls apart,
I'd better start something or better to be snoozing?
Okay
It's
Friday
Friday it's okay and two sachets of sugar with one spoon of instant,
it smells hot and tastes sweet
My eye's full of glue and my head's a marshmallow, the day ahead looks so deep and my breathing is shallow,
Nobody says,
poor fellow.
Jan 20, 2017
Jan 20, 2017 at 12:02 AM UTC
You know what?
One of my biggest fears is…
Drowning.
Suffocating from all the
Pain and suffering.
Struggling to breathe.
Struggling to move.
Struggling to stay alive.
You know that moment
When you hold that weapon
In your hand, and you just
Think to yourself,
No one would even know
That you’re gone.
No one will ever understand
How much it hurts.
My vision is tunnelling
My mind is echoing
My body is collapsing
I isolate myself from friends
I have no motivation to go to school
I can barely get out of bed,
Let alone go to sleep.
Mar 28, 2018
Mar 28, 2018 at 6:44 PM UTC
I’ll pour this vial of pills
to fall through my neck
to push out my navel
so I can grow up and out
I’ll watch it all dissolve in my hands
watch my world dissolve in my hands
so it can finally be mine
something entirely mine
And as I’m standing on the big blue planet
eyes tunnelling into the moon
I will drape the reticulum
over some other creature
and no more burden shall I be
lying deep in the milky sea
Jan 15, 2017
Jan 15, 2017 at 3:14 AM UTC
Tunnelling through the debris, and humbled by the degree...
I stumble into the Truth and the greed crumbled to the decree.
Reach out and touch somebody’s hand for serendipity?
Teach now or get ****** into someone’s quicksand for showing
sympathy."It comes with the territory", the words of a loner…
"It comes with telling a story", the words of a Lodestar!
May 28, 2019
May 28, 2019 at 5:31 AM UTC
I am female
I keep boys under my skin
they think they think
they’re
right deep under my skin
but my skin is deeper than
the fault lines
that carry love waves
and I like it that way
-
You know me, you love me
you care for me
sometimes
-
I do too, humouring
those that are lost in my flesh now
swimming in my blood stream
tunnelling through my veins
when really I just want to
rip apart yours
Oct 19, 2014
Oct 19, 2014 at 2:46 PM UTC
The walls are
Closing in
The silence
Is unbearable
My breaths
Come faster
Chest heaving
Wild eyes
Unfocused
Nails
Digging into my skin
Trying
To ground me
Tunnelling vision
Scattered
Afraid
Help
Losing strength
I can’t breathe
Panic
Deafening silence
Desperately grasping
For anything
To ground me
Pain
Nails digging into skin
Teeth
Biting my lip
Grounded
Focused
Breathing
Lost
-jt
Sep 16, 2019
Sep 16, 2019 at 6:05 AM UTC