This life is lonely. This life is hard. Everything and nothing. Everyone and no one. Living and dying. Love and hate. Pain and peace. They want all of you, and none of you. No Balance. It never ends. It never ends. It never ends.
Calling all, This is our last cry before eternal silence.*
In the quiet spaces between waves the last vestiges of humanity sink, dots, bubbles bursting in sea foam fragile as mermaids' souls, dashes, innumerable shafts of sun on water Cascading to the sea floor. Cast the net of time wider The final chorus of lost comrades fervent tapping of fingertips Lingering in the swells. . . . - - - . . . . . . - - - . . .
The italicized verse is the French Navy’s last message transmitted before discontinuing Morse code in French waters. The Morse code at the end of the poem is SOS.
I dont care who you are, please speak ill of the men and women that walked through hell that carried on as their family fell that gave everything to include their lives so you might sleep in peace at night. Go ahead, speak ill, so we may serve you, so we may silence you.
If you served or are serving you know the frustration of knowing people who will never understand, who will hate you for what you do.
We spent two long years apart I’ve dreamed every night of you coming back I’ve cried myself to sleep listening to paramore’s “ all I wanted was you” for two years The night we broke up I left you a voicemail calling you a coward I said I hated you Even though I didn’t mean it You blocked my number You shattered my heart I drove to your house I screamed at you and you turned your back I pushed you too hard You pushed back I threw your call sign at you and your ship tag Told you I never wanted to think about you ever again I just wanted you to admit it I wanted you to tell me how you felt Then we didn’t speak for one year When you unblocked my number I noticed you called me I texted you You didn’t reply That broke my heart once again Another year passed You finally texted me back It was Christmas A very intoxicated me answered “You came back! I never stopped loving you” You liked what I texted you Then you noticed my intoxicative state You called me and we talked for hours It was like we never said goodbye to each other You told me for two years every time you heard “under your scars” you thought of me You missed me like I missed you every single day In just three months my dreams came true Now I get to wake up next to you I can listen to love songs once more I can retire paramore’s song I’m inspired once more You’re my muse You’re my everything I love you
How did I walk 37 miles in 19 hours? How did I bike 90 miles in 11 hours? ... Inhale in nose, exhale in nose 4x Inhale in nose, exhale in mouth 4x Inhale in mouth, exhale in nose 4x Inhale in mouth, exhale in mouth 4x And repeat.
You just need enough food and water and a pair of soft and hard soled shoes.
Hey dad Do you have a minute? I’d like to reminisce for a minute Remember that one time When we went to Disneyland I think I was 6 years old Do you remember? When life was great and perfect We were the perfect family What happened? Remember that one time When you came home early You were gone the entire school year I know the submarines kept you busy I remember a lady from the office handing out navy notebook folders You didn’t walk into the classroom But it didn’t matter I knew exactly where those folders came from I asked if you were coming and the office lady told me no That’s when I got up from my seat and ran as fast I could. My teacher and the office Lady tried to hold me back I broke from their grasp I ran out the classroom as fast as my little legs could carry me Nothing was stopping me I saw you in the parking lot dressed in your navy blues I didn’t look both ways I just ran to you Tears in my eyes screaming and pleading for you to take me with you I remember you held me tight and eventually let go Then Promised me you would be home When I turned around I saw all the office ladies crying too. Dad, I don’t remember the rest of that day Do you?