"refundable" poems
where to begin?
let us acknowledge
the responsibility of our actions,
and the titles and duties,
and the unexpected,
thereof.
I was a son, till this year,
still, of sorts, but no longer,
traded it in for
orphan.
are you still a child,
when you have no parents?
are you still a parent,
when a child lost?
I am a father, and grandfather.
this definition of me,
extant, future seeded,
perhaps permanent,
perhaps not.
the product of
actions more than
thirty years ago,
and events yet-to-be thirty years
hence.
titles claimed and granted,
partial, not finite,
not definitive, nor infinite.
partial, but part and parcel,
these titles, of you,
yet
they are not the totality, of you,
but very much part of you,
for you possess precious,
The Imprint - The Gift.
the child lost,
the parent found,
the newest coming,
the oldest gone,
all imprinted on your hands,
just look at them!
there are lines on your palms
you do not know the meaning of,
you do not yet know the ending,
they are in your cells,
as you are and were in theirs.
The Imprint
is The Gift
that is
non returnable,
non refundable,
nor is it
diminished by
any stone marker, measurement
of a day, an uncertain,
certain moment.
Look in the mirror.
see them in you,
as they saw themselves in your
reflection.
ah, reflect.
acknowledge that the
absence is pain,
but look at those hands,
that face, your face,
see the
The Imprint - The Gift
permit yourself an easement,
for it the season of
recollection.
ah, re-collect, recollect.
let the story.
continue, by the retelling.
find that palm line,
find that psalm song,
where the babe lost,
the mother lost
is the babe reborn,
in new faces, forever contained in
The Imprint.
we all ken loss,
we all keen know anguish,
different kinds for different folks.
do we not all have blood?
but are there different types,
and yet,
all still blood related.
prepare yourself
for more sad to come,
and some to never,
woebegone.
but do not forget,
nay, you cannot,
for seared it is,
this imprint,
a two sided copy
of a single document,
you on them,
them on you.
~
an eyelash falls
upon the poem.
a decorative reminder,
a stop sign,
a decorative remainder,
that it is time,
to recall,
to be unafraid.
now, now, right now,
is the time to remember,
that very eyelash,
the cells that are
therein,
the eyes that it has protected,
saw, know, well recall, gave,
gave part of you
and smile,
yes, smile,
for in them,
in the lines around your eyes,
the crisscrossed cell map upon thy hands
is the
The Imprint,
The Gift.
where to end?
This imprint upon your body exterior,
part mark, part stain,
part badge, part medal,
part cain,
part ribbon black pinned.
it is twinned,
for the match, the mate,
of this gift I printed,
is still in your living cells,
and thus knowing
the imprint is yours forever,
they are not lost,
you are not lost,
for Their Imprint
is a gift that
is
never ending
shall eternal be a salve this
happy, sad, melancholy,
holy
morn, day, season.
Dec 24, 2013
Dec 24, 2013 at 8:21 PM UTC
The summation of incredible moments of unsubstantiated ecstasy we both once shared
Are only to be realized on the aftermath
Of cold, solid reality that it is ceased on the resounding note of tragedy
Wells of tears unseen, piles of letters unsent, composition of melodies unfinished,
Unspoken desires to be fathomed silently on the backs of a lonely romantic, idealistic mind
Who dances solemnly on these fragile footsteps of a love,
That is forever lost, non-refundable, and unattainable.
Jul 3, 2015
Jul 3, 2015 at 11:13 AM UTC
All those years worn,
you never did make it outta The Valley,
all those feature film premieres, never did land a starring roll,
or get any recognition, let alone an Oscar from The Academy,
all those foggy eyed groggy times, you were probably high,
all those checks you cashed, for your non refundable time,
waking up one day, wondering where it all went,
driving a car with a lease more expensive your apartment’s,
still stuck in that same apartment, off Ventura Blvd.,
still a B-List actor ******* that A-List ****
still getting haircuts from stylist, still racking up milage,
got more clothes in your closet than dollars in the bank,
& in the end after it’s all said & done & all the time is spent,
& you’re finally spent, what’ll you have left to show for it all?
All those years worn,
spent suspended in mid air, baking in The Valley,
all those times you attended, those feature film premieres,
still no recognition, let alone an Oscar from The Academy..
∆ LaLux ∆
from The Hollywood Hearts Trilogy Vol. 3:
Dark Lights | Bright Shadows
9/9/19
I'm letting it all go, telling it like it is in Hollywood. This book is the one. Get it, or if you can't afford the $3, let me know and I'll buy it for you.
Sep 2, 2019
Sep 2, 2019 at 10:33 PM UTC
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I predicted the end of the world
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and on various other occasions:
I have a genius for things that don't happen
I foresaw and declared
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Sep 29, 2014
Sep 29, 2014 at 6:09 AM UTC
You kissed me in my kitchen and I laughed.
I looked into your eyes with that devilish grin you loved and ran away. I forgot to call for a week or two. You were so nervous then.
Eight months later and I'm shaking you over and over again to simply wake up each morning. And you fight it like you're thirteen years old on a Sunday morning begging your mom not to make you go to church just this one time.
And my love for you is non refundable and I can't put my finger on why. The math doesn't always seem to add up as I silently weep in bed for the thousandth time, but you're too high to notice. I've never liked crying in front of other people anyways.
May 12, 2015
May 12, 2015 at 11:19 PM UTC
Non-refundable
Once in a lifetime offer
Please accept my love
May 31, 2015
May 31, 2015 at 7:14 AM UTC
I sold this moment
for the price of
momentary happiness.
Memories are not refundable.
Mar 31, 2018
Mar 31, 2018 at 4:16 AM UTC
Do not call me pretty.
Flowers are pretty.
And if pretty is what you're buying,
my heart is not refundable, when you find thorns.
I would think that because you said you loved me,
that maybe would would have realized that I am more the five letters.
Do not call me pretty.
Aug 17, 2015
Aug 17, 2015 at 10:59 PM UTC
Remember all the days you never lived. ...Ahh But what you wouldn't give...
Tip the scales to disrepair and know what it is to be the
living dead.
Who else amongst us hath seen them walk again?
Lifeless, infected. Soulless. Only bones within.
Sustenance injected. Eyes dark as pitchblende.
Heart Neglected. Loosing rhythm as it distends.
Feel protected? On your doorstep it doth impend.
And furthermore my friends, more than just a few of us,
are as ****** as them. You see, life seeks out solutions
to conundrums of survival, problems, strife.
Watch it steal away the will to stay and any real meaning to life.
Death, the payment for travel inside this nexus of senses and sexes
seems painful and excessive or made brief by all the excesses,
is non-refundable no matter how you choose to live
for even the ungrateful agree it was a small price to give
Let the dead share with you your secrets."There is but plenty to fear" And "The store is always open, so ya'll come back now you hear?"
Dec 4, 2011
Dec 4, 2011 at 2:12 AM UTC
maybe-
if you write
your feelings down
and threw them away,
they would...
go away too ?
don't allow-
lingering,
longing,
consume you anymore.
because
time-
is not
refundable but,
hearts apparently are
when you return
your heart,
time ignores the loss
time will always win
and...
never look back
you shouldn't either
Aug 25, 2019
Aug 25, 2019 at 8:29 AM UTC
Non refundable
Non transferable
SOMETIMES returnable
Always exchangeable
at times revocable.
Given to freely
and held by the greedy
Bursting with happiness
while drowning in stress.
Avoided from fear of it
Pursued with a frenzy
Blinding the novice
But gives clear sight to many
Fighting to gain it
Dying to lose it
Fighting to keep it
Striving to stop it
Killing to halt it
Living to give it
Killing to honor it
Dying to take it
Just can't get off of it.
What silly creatures us humans are
Doing silly silly things
for the feel good chemicals it brings
We do and feel all these things
Going beyond and above
Just for LOVE..
Nov 15, 2024
Nov 15, 2024 at 12:23 PM UTC
*See "Laws of Physics"
1. You will have a body.
2. You will have a mind.
3. You can do whatever you want with either.
4. You will hurt.
5. You will feel joy.
6. Love is not guaranteed, though it is a possibility.
7. You do not owe anyone anything. Although, (see rule 8), people may decide you do.
8. Some people will be more powerful than you. This can mean influence, size, weapons, or intelligence.
9. There are no laws (excepting the Laws of Physics*). Although, (see rule 8), people may decide there are.
10. You will not have time to see it all.
11. You cannot choose to whom, or where, you are born.
12. You will die.
13. Any prospective afterlife will not be revealed until after the time of death.
These are the rules. They are entirely non-negotiable. Should you find them agreeable, you are welcome to experience life and all it has to offer. Life is non-refundable. Life cannot be re-sold. Life is without material value.
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Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 4:41 PM UTC
The rabbit hole, I have jumped into is a long and dark one.. There is no light at the end, just an unknowing of who will catch me and when..
Love is treacherous, as is my heart. A never ending maze of locks and keys, one size fits all doesn't apply. I tore down your face as if it were nothing but a wall of vines, nothing more but a trail to climb. I saw the real you, your mask was gone.
I will never be happy in love, it isn't for me.. Nothing is, but it's a choice I have made. A choice which isn't refundable.. The ride has ran out of turns, my coins have disappeared.. No more turns on this carousel. Forever spinning wasn't forever like we'd planned.. Forever doesn't really last forever, nor does love. It will end, in it's own time.
Now what? What is there for me? There are no answers, no more questions, just a never ending epilogue to this unopened book.. The dust has been brushed away, the seems repaired but where are the words? Washed away by your white wash paint, a metaphor of your love. Our love, it's no longer printable. The ink isn't invisible, it just no longer stains the page. Scotch safe a book? Never. We just lost that special ink.
Rotting, decaying. Not really no, wandering down a path of blooming trees. Sure, life goes on. So does love, but not for me. I can't believe in something I can't feel...
Oct 17, 2011
Oct 17, 2011 at 7:15 PM UTC
I spent all my feelings, bought your every lie
Sadly its not refundable, i'm stuck with it till i die
Became so repetitive like my friends every time they sigh
Because the good samaritan in me no longer apply
Aug 18, 2015
Aug 18, 2015 at 9:12 AM UTC
Time is not refundable,
Use it with intention
@marknyangacha
Jul 18, 2023
Jul 18, 2023 at 1:49 PM UTC
Maybe If I write my feelings down and threw them away
they will go away too ? Or maybe be recycled ?
Maybe if I scream how I’m feeling into the atmosphere it will somehow get carried to you
Or evaporate and dance with the water particles
Or maybe I shouldn’t let lingering longing consume me anymore
Maybe I shouldn’t let you play on my mind like a broken record because
time isn't refundable but I guess my heart was
Aug 24, 2018
Aug 24, 2018 at 11:11 AM UTC
It’s easy to discern the who what where and when
Compared to the divination of why.
Why are we here? Why are we alone?
Why are we tortured with foreknowledge of death?
Stop.
That’s the most important why, perhaps.
For it plucked us from the trees
And set us on course
To make some sense of our shortage of days,
To ****** the brass ring of eternity
If only in the collective memory.
(Let us here pause
And give a moment’s thought
To the countless anonymous
Who sacrificed all their
Fleet-footed hours
And all human joy
For attainment of eternity
In the memory collective
Only to have been
Promptly forgotten
In the first moment of
Posthumous silence.)
But this quest is amoral,
It does not specify
Whether fame or notoriety’s the prize.
This is the apple of Eden
The tree of knowledge.
It is the crux of sentience
(Poor sentience,
robbed by redefinition
of all salience and pride,
Left lying shop-worn and ill-used.)
It’s the fear of time, the root of crime
And our demand for assistance devine.
Are our whole lives a scream of protest
Against the known inevitable?
Can inevitability even be known
Without the benefit of hind legs?
(Why the quadruped bias?
(and what does this have to do with inevitability?)
Any more than four legs would render
‘Hindmost’ as opposed to ‘hind.’
Let us be specific,
Whether or not it’s
Neither here nor there.)
Why can’t we make peace with our fate,
And accede to the eventual silencing of that
Hated, feared, beloved voice within?
What does nothing feel like?
What does nothing sound like?
Who would be there to tell?
Imagine our lives
If foreknowledge of death,
Did not exist.
What would be sustained?
What would be lost?
What would have never become?
(I know that my ask is unreasonable at best,
The bell has already been rung.
But this is my poem and I’ll ask what I will.)
Could you live in such a state
Of innocence edenic?
Of course not; not as you are.
But then, who, what would you need to be?
If innocence were refundable,
What would that voice,
That lives in a certain place
Between your ears
(Would that voice still
be hated, feared, beloved
under the prospective circumstances,
or would it be otherwise?)
Have to say
(Does a voice ‘say,’
Or does it speak
For it’s master?)
When in quietest solitude?
Are you uncomfortable?
Will you turn the page?
Would you prefer to debate
Than to imagine?
Do we know which way the wind blows?
Are there any more weathermen?
Or are we all meteorologists?
Does it matter?
Did it ever?
For those who remain,
Let me welcome you
To the Realm of Poets and Madmen.
A distinction without a difference.
Nov 5, 2018
Nov 5, 2018 at 7:16 AM UTC
and when you say my name
you'd think I had
one million Delta miles
from the trips my heart goes on
- except it doesn’t
because
my flight was cancelled
I’ve had this ticket for
nine months and twenty-three days
it was non-refundable
but I'm already on the plane
Dunkin’ coffee cup
perched precariously on the armrest
they almost spelled my name right
my phone only has 11%
I knew it could charge
right when we boarded
I thought you were waiting for me
you made paper “welcome” signs
and set up the pullout couch
I’ve been waiting
two hundred and ninety-eight days
and now you're telling me
this plane isn’t going anywhere.
my hopes for us have jammed the engines.
Apr 6, 2020
Apr 6, 2020 at 2:59 PM UTC
Time to go
Around the sun again.
Can I get off this ride ?
What's that you say,
A non-refundable ticket?
In that case might as well make
The best of it.
Jan 1, 2014
Jan 1, 2014 at 3:21 AM UTC
It broke into my fantasies, crushing my daydreams. Making my longing break into an ever higher pace whilst the rug was pulled from under my feet. Facedown, sweat and tears, blood and pieces. Tasting the rock bottom, falling from the clouds. Breaking my bones, my connection to you, making me blind.
It really did break my heart, seeing you two.
Broke it in a non-refundable kind of way, a permanent way. Broke the pieces I'd left of you, for you, saved, so that we could one day return.
Sep 12, 2020
Sep 12, 2020 at 12:06 PM UTC
You should have never left tho
You should have never let go
You left me standing in the dark
Eyes full of tears and broken heart
You really had me fooled girl
You were everything, my whole world
I still got your ticket for our vacation
Hope that **** is refundable
I can tell you won't be able to make it
I was caught in your moments
You spoke your soul like a poet
I gave you my heart to hold it
You knew your intentions
And just so you know it
I blame myself
You held the gun
And I'm the one who loaded it
I'll still pray for you
I pity my next love if they can make it through
Because damaged people..damage others
So I hope when you walk out
You know you'll never find another
I regret introducing you to my mother and my brother
Jun 6, 2018
Jun 6, 2018 at 4:06 AM UTC