"poision" poems
My ankle is chained.
I gripped on the railing of my sinking ship, hoping i could pull myself out of the water.
As i waited for rescue, rain poured down and waves grew bigger.
The chain attached to my ankle was too heavy that my hand was already slipping. I had to let go since it felt like i was being torn in two as i was being anchored down the depths of the ocean. I was sure my ankle bled from the chain's tightness and the weight that was pulling me down but i couldn't feel the pain. All i felt was the freezing cold water and my heavy chest.
It was as if my heart carried my whole weight.
I never wanted to drown but i felt like i no longer had enough strength to resist. I gasped for air one last time and yet even the air felt like poision.
Now i felt the physical pain. It stung.
My throat was on fire as i allowed myself to be dragged further down. I closed my eyes as tight as i could and clenched my teeth while my body trembled in pain and my chest felt tighter.
This. This was the only time i hoped my heart would stop beating. but no matter how i hard i wished or prayed, it wouldn't stop. It felt like an hour of drowning and yet i was still conscious. It's my fault. I built it like this. I built it with hope and faith for years. Now i couldn't understand whether it was for good or bad. To hold on to life or hold on to the pain?
Slowly, i was being pulled deeper down the ocean. I tried to open my eyes but i couldn't see anything anymore. There was nothing but the color red.
I never knew i had this amount of blood. Enough to build an ocean which only God can make.
I'm still alive. I can move.
But i am stuck underneath this ocean of blood with my chest still tightening, unsure of when the pain would stop or if anyone could find me at this depth.
You said you'd come visit. So I left a note on my desk hoping you'd find it. I went cruising even if i hated the waters. I brought an anchor and a chain with me but i left its key on the desk too. I had no idea what it was for or why i brought it. All i knew was i was watching the sunset and it was suddenly chained to me when darkness came. I didn't know how my ship sank or how i got in the water. Maybe it was not in good condition. But then again, i knew you would check it everyday because you told me so.
Where are you? Have't you read my note yet? Did you come visit? Are you on your way?
I'll be here waiting, holding on, and hoping that your hand would be the first one to pull me out of my misery. Even if i know you'd never read the note in the first place.
Mar 2, 2018
Mar 2, 2018 at 7:08 AM UTC
This scent of you, it clings to my skin,
it clings like a rash that's boiled over from within.
I scratch at this poison that has marked my flesh,
the scent of you, at your very ****** best.
I throw off the covers and hit the wall with my fist;
should lust be a sin, if lust is like this?
And no matter what with who, how, what or where,
everytime i sleep i can feel your ****** stare.
And the weight of your fingers on the back of my neck
drives me to nightmares, and meaningless ***
Tinged by the moment and forgotten by the hue,
my arms are brusied easily by the scent of you.
I'm running wildly through bracken and fire,
i'm running as a beast would run from apathy and desire.
I, the lone wolf, i'm moonlit, i scratch and i howl,
at the memory of your face, and your sneering sharp scowl.
I, the lone rider, in flight fearless, reckless and abused,
I jump fields, catch branches, torn, bleeding and bruised.
I hide in the woods, and float in the sea
I'm hiding myself from the deepest memory of me.
You're the poision ivy to my deepest forest of bark,
You're the drifting snow to my deepest vision of dark.
This scent of you, it clings to my lips
and i bite my tongue as i stretch my fingertips.
There is no sense in this dirt that flies through my hands
my thoughts are lost as stone is lost in beached sands.
I rip at my skin and i tear at my voice
I made this my dealing, at my beck, at my choice.
I draw upon my body like a breeze skims the ground,
there is no more wanton whimper, than there is my sound.
And at night when the nightmares come and i scream in my sleep,
the scent of you overwhelms my body, and i sow what i reap.
I lightly collect my feelings and throw them in a box,
I wrap in chains and cover it in locks.
I have been fooled, i have been fooled and blinded by you
and this scent lingers, in a memory of a distant bluish hue.
I watch as you walk away, your hips sway, tail high
And i howl and i scream and i sit and i cry.
And whilst i linger alongside this sharp vivid movie scene,
i count my bruises and feel quietly serene.
Jan 27, 2013
Jan 27, 2013 at 5:59 PM UTC
Normalicy is living up to a bigger name
Unattainable in all the right ways
A bitter sweet dream that you can't help but
Reach for.
It is a false sense of security on a "normal" day
And the crushing weight when something goes wrong
Knowing you'll never be normal
As long as you worry
Anxiety is your least favorite friend
But somehow your closest
It’s a title you try to wear proudly
Claiming “titles don’t define me”
But somehow the symptom list consumes you
With every “please don’t do that”
And you’re sinking deeper with “it’s not that big of a deal”
You’re drowning when they do it anyway
Anxiety is a trigger list longer than a prescription name
And missed phone calls everyone’s used to
Knowing you’re the disappointment as plans fall apart
A broken heart when they just quit calling
It’s your ticking time bomb on when you’ll be fired
When people will leave and you don’t try to convince yourself that they wont anymore
Because everyone does
It’s easier to leave than to help and to understand
It’s the toxic part of you that you try to hide
Cover it with bandaids
And hope they ignore the radioactive poison through your veins
And you’re just trying to feel like you’re not poision
It’s an IM box that understands and a parent that doesn’t
Knowing you’re not alone but feeling it anyway
Because when you’re choking for air and getting weird stares
You’re alone
Apr 3, 2013
Apr 3, 2013 at 4:40 AM UTC
Slumped in the backseat
Feel the light shine and pass across closed eyelids
Electricity sizzlez and pops against brain tissue
I want to end so I can be everything
Help reaches out in the form of tiny eyes and a few off-handed comments
Lets go play outside with masks on
Be careful, after years of work these walls are still fragile
Poision seeps, I left a stain on your bed
We brought reminders of home
Coffee smudged against the tile floor
Renovations needed made
Asleep against the wheel going seventy
Aug 28, 2012
Aug 28, 2012 at 7:16 PM UTC
there, in those strawberry fields of dreaming-
those blooms of a season long since dead and torched-
i swore i found you
and you were speaking sweetly in a smokey room
with a crescent smile
and a cheap long-neck bottle
and a blue ball-point pen
that you'd only pry from it's waltzing
to chuckle with (and charm) the bartender
an older lady
with muddy-water curls
and poision ivy eyes
and...there's something about her that reminds me of my mom...
then the moment's gone
and now, all i can wonder
is how it is that she's counting change when she hasn't got any fingers
the captain must be on the mic again
with ******** banter about the weather
or our eventual destination
or something about the turbulence to calm the unfortunate un-drugged
his monotone monotony
sneaking through my sleep to me
and coming through like the voice of the radio host
as my head's beneath tepid bathwater
your ellegance uneffected by his audible intrusion
into my sub-concious dellusion
you pull at the tides of your brew
and wink
then back to a busy pen
i have to get to you
you've got to remember
come back
but dreams don't work like that
it's as if my feet don't match my body
or my legs are facing backward
or i'm in that godforsaken hallway scene of "The Shining"
and i'm finding this to be far more frustrating
than remaining concious through the flight could have ever been
and again
somewhere over nebraska
the ride gets increasingly shaky
not obnoxious enough to wake me
just enough to take me to the part of the nightmare
where my teeth start falling out
like precious little gems of vicodin and nicorrette
t a p p i n g out my fragile skull
and now i'm wearing some bloody-gummed grin
and that charming lounge is feeling like "From Dusk Till Dawn"
and all of the friendly faces are gone
except for yours
and you look horrified
how come now i've got your attention?
touchdown at o'hare
and i wake in the window seat next to a vacant chair
alive and well
except that you're not there
and to think
when i was a kid
my nightmares all had fearsome beasts
then i grew up
and found the monster to be me
Nov 10, 2013
Nov 10, 2013 at 9:11 PM UTC
Love & cigarettes
One is a drug, an addiction
The other a dangerous feeling, emotion
Both will **** you slowly but surely
Yet we are only warned about cigarettes
And here I am having never touched a cigarette to my lips
But I feel another poision
As I inhale the smell of your clothes
As I pull your lips to mine
No one ever warned me that another living soul could be my downfall
So it won't be cancer,tar, or nicotine when I go only
Your smile, your kiss, and a goodbye
Dec 26, 2014
Dec 26, 2014 at 11:12 PM UTC
Run away from all of your fears to me where I can protect you and whipe away your tears.
To me where I can say that I'll be here every single day. Run away with me to a place where we can love one another. Your face the epitome of all that is good. It seems that heaven has sent you but I thought you would only be in my dreams.
I should be thinking about now rather then later but I'm to caught up in your eyes, oh those deep brown eyes how they run away with my heart like a poision dart sinking deep into the depths of my soul, paralizing my ability to see how in the world you belive in me.
She's lost in his warmth that tries to protect her from the strange world around them and he's lost to the world trying to find the answers. Run away with me to where we can grow old eachother and gain everything we sought
I'm cought up in my dreams or so it seems maybe I'm just going along the mainstream but it feels like so much more going up hill I'm not just doing it for a thrill rather just to test my will I just don't know how to show that I'll betheir through the rain and snow and the pain eased by that rain with nothing done in vain
I said I'm caught up in my dreams torn apart at the seams and time comes to a stand still
When time comes to a stand still no one really knows what to do they want to rush toward unaware of what's really going on wanting there normality to continue but the truth is that it's all stops what you think to be normal has become the irrelevant and what you think to be irrelevant becomes the most important thing in your time free standstill of a world. You blink and you think time has started again but you realize that you still don't have your answers
When time comes to a stand still she's lost in the abyss and he's caught up in her eyes trying to figure out the truth and to gain a ever important trust.
When times in a standstill their is only him and her...you and me ignoring
reality and becoming lost in our own world not knowing what's going to come next but knowing that when time jump starts again that well be together for what seems like forever
oh the things that happen when time stands still
Oct 25, 2010
Oct 25, 2010 at 4:05 PM UTC
It hurt.
Incredibly bad.
A stab to my heart, that I didn't think was there
You wanted me to feel something
After being numb for so long
I don't think this is what you had in mind
I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment
I don't know why you stay-
I'm not good enough.
I'm not passionate enough.
I'm not enough.
I'm me.
I have such a heart for love
I always has- I've always loved everyone
But I don't show it.
I never have.
I'm not good at expressing feelings
Even today- when you poured your heart out
All I could do was stand there..
I can't speak.
I'm mute.
No opinion in this
No opinions
Not when it comes to "us"
No, no not this time
I've always bent at the will of others
Said what they wanted to hear
Said what I thought I felt
And I just got lashed for it
Bubbling red skin
I will stay me this time
You
Can
Not
Change
ME
Nov 18, 2013
Nov 18, 2013 at 11:52 PM UTC
And we sighed as one
As the mighty forests
Mountains
Oceans
One by one they fell
One by one we sighed
And all drift on the breeze
Of man's success
Of oil and poision
Of undeserved power
And maybe
One day
The Earth will rule
Alone
Free
And cold
As we sigh,
And the world is lost
And hope slips away
Until love is all that
Remains
Forevermore
Aug 4, 2015
Aug 4, 2015 at 8:36 PM UTC
You don't seem to understand
You can't just down the whole bottle and ask for my hand
You don't seem to get the picture
You can't just swallow this poision and add me into the mixture
You don't seem to comprehend
That you're just buying these lies
Even though my faith is on the other end
You don't seem to really care
That you're underaged for such things
As long as they bid you (and only you) fair
Mar 26, 2016
Mar 26, 2016 at 5:34 PM UTC
Take my hand but
Don't hold on
Let me hug you
But push me away
As
Dangerous as
an Intoxicating Drug
Smoldering in your soul
As your emotions
burn into stone
Etching a permanant
scar into your sleeve
As you wear your
heartache on your sleeve
With a burn hole and a scar
that empty spot that once was full
Will be replaced with nothing
Because I'm saving you from myself
I cannot comfort your pain
Because I am what the hurt consists of
I am the root of your heart's torture
You may not see it
But it is as clear as day
that I must save you from myself
so that you might heal
So that you might live
to find yourself anew,
Create a better life
loving someone else
For I am a poision that will
Rot you with sweetness
**** you with care
Martyring myself for
your relief
And the only way to detach your
dependence on me
is for me
to
disappear
Apr 4, 2010
Apr 4, 2010 at 12:02 PM UTC
Guy-I'm no good for you please stay away!
Did u hear me i said stay away!
I've already did some damage to you
Heart broken people can only break more hearts so please stay away
Girl-Maybe i like the feeling of pain because all i want is you the way u laugh like there's no tommorow the way u hold me as if your holding a new born baby
When I’m with you all my worries go away
Boy-your not listening to me my love is toxic I have issues the way I treated you is wrong...go and find someone better than me
Girl-I only want you! Just because you have been heart broken before doesn’t mean your going to break my heart
Oct 7, 2018
Oct 7, 2018 at 10:03 PM UTC
i am a drug, abused drug abuser,
you like to pick me up, take a drag
rip a piece
and throw me away in your disgust,
wear me thin...
and while you work on breaking my spirit
i inhale of my own poision..
pulling clouds of happiness into my lungs
for the low low price of my sanity
you picked me up one night and screamed
threw me to the corner and as usual
but this time you cried
you said"im sorry"
i don't know what that means
my soul is gone, i sold it to the devil for a fiver,
grinned as i counted the cents and he laughed away
my anonymity is stripped even the walls know my name
i dip my head as i walk down the street i don't want to meet their eyes
it hurts ,
to see that emotion,
happiness? content? i don't know
since you picked me up like a piece,
and started burning away my sanity
i became a drug
but im in limited supply
L.G
Mar 5, 2015
Mar 5, 2015 at 6:16 PM UTC
you poisoned me
no, you didn't slip arsenic in my food
or spike my Shierly temple
but you left your memories
decaying memories, poisoning me
the toxins of tourniquet leaking
their erosive toxins into my mind
you may not be here
but your memories are
and so the scars
white scars on my wrists
gashes in my heart
i don't know where to start
because your torment has no end
i hope that it might somewhere around the river bend
but the only river i see is from my eyes
part of the watershed of regret
to the ocean of mistakes
i seem to be drowning in
your memory is suffocating
filling my lungs with dispair
Im gasping for air,
but my willingness to swim in fading
so i'm sinking and letting the memories flood my brain
wondering if im going insane
or if its just a side effect
of the poison you called affection
a medication that apparently turned "no" into "yes"
and hiking up my dress...
and the poision, you,
your memories eve the happy ones hurt
the happy disguise of a smile
that would ultimately lead to teary eyes
and trouble with other guys
all because you poisoned me
and its effects are lingering
its not just a one and done
its an std of the mind
it stays around even after your gone
so check yourself and your actions
dont dare poison someone else
do not add to the watershed of regrets
i want clean water
to wash away my infected mind
but no amount of soap
or blades or nails
could possibly wash away your posion
because now its part of me
congratulations,
you dont no longer have to posion me'
you've turned me on myslef
like some auto immune disease
of the heart and the mind
because i will never forget when i called you mine
and i wish i could,but its branded
so i'm left stranded
in my ocean of regrets and poisoned water shed
Nov 19, 2016
Nov 19, 2016 at 12:22 AM UTC
its always
strange
when new places
start to feel like home
and you've got holes in your
stalkings
holes in my lungs
where your words
filtered through me like
black smoke
with an intent to burn
and the ash is still on my tongue.
oh mother can you take away the poision
that consumes the waking hours
and the subconscious ones
cause he hurt me bad
and im a cracked teacup
leaking all over the window sill
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 1:07 AM UTC
My first sip of water
Turnt to poision.
Lungs collapsed
I am mute
Vessels popped red splotches
reality's double
Sick I hang
Without a noose
Waiting for cardiac-arrest
Nov 1, 2014
Nov 1, 2014 at 9:06 PM UTC
come with me in the driving rain
Take a chance,make a dance, a thunder dance
Impending lightning sky, potential suicide
You're crazy you cried, Yet you need me inside
so we ride on the lightning together
And knowing one strike puts us together forever
blood red, cut with me, make your pact, can't you see
You could just call me crazy and run away far from me
Yet you know I would die, the most torturous cry and pleads
just so you could live and breath, with my guts on the sword as I bleed
Mother maybe said I was poision for you
Yet mother never knew how much I'd die for you
Yet mother never knew how much my love is real for you
And how much I pray that we may become a solid crew
Like bonnie, Like clyde, without the bullet ride!!
Impending doom, Lightning Sky.Im consumed with you til I die!!
Mother still says Im poision and you are permananently glued
Stuck to me, cant get away, wont fade away, cant come loose
But then again I like your obsession and I surely adore mine
I swallow you up like a possession, Im a vampire I **** you to make you my bride
We cut, we wear goth, everybody says we went off the deepest end
We said thats enough, painted our lips black, Our hair looks like sin
We are one in our dress, we are one in our flesh, we are everything
Im thankful we possess each others brains and nothing about us is lame
The Day I met you in the palace of my heart is the day you came
And the song we sing is the most heavenly in the lightning and the rain
Mother maybe said I was poision for you
Yet mother never knew how much I'd die for you
Yet mother never knew how much my love is real for you
And how much I pray that we may become a solid crew
Like bonnie, Like clyde, without the bullet ride!!
Impending doom, Lightning Sky.Im consumed with you til I die!!
Feb 3, 2017
Feb 3, 2017 at 7:50 PM UTC
He is not a lover
but a brother
the one i found in Christ
he is a friend
so inspiring
only i can understand
you claim his mine
but no he is not
its just too much of what we have in common
he is "Cool"
and i am cold
but he know how to keep me warm
a big heart
so strong and powerful
he knows how to protect that fregile me
team spirit is what he carries
while you are the human crisis
he know how to make me let go of that anger you cause.
He is not a lover
his a friend
the one i found in Christ
much of a lady's man
a caring heart so pure
he is just one unique soul i know
comforting in distress
never lets me drawn in doldrums
he always seem to keep me smiling
his not a lover
but a brother
the one i found in Christ
so much of your suspicions
better should they be locked away
before your thoughts poision my mind
Jul 8, 2015
Jul 8, 2015 at 10:17 AM UTC
We will sit
We will talk
We will laugh
We will cry
We will cut
We will burn
We will drink
We will starve
We will think
We will share
We will feel
We will trust
We will compare
We will harm
We will swap
We will injure
Let your blood poision mine
And mine to the same to yours
Let me dilute the effects of the alcohol with my own poinsion
Let you share the effects of the drink and get me drunk on your love
Let us rant
Let us feel
Let us rage
Let us vent
Let us breathe
Let us survive
Let us dig
Let us live
Let us bound
Let us leap
Let us soar
Let us fly
Jul 4, 2014
Jul 4, 2014 at 3:58 PM UTC
We have two capacitive things,
1st is our physical power and is our mental abilities,
but it all depends upon our thinking,
and all thought in out mind we can bring,
all of us go as far we know,
because life can be limitless with,
someone who love us and go with us in the same flow,
no one can know what you are thinking,
beacuse it's your own limitless world that you can imagine,
all seems to be happy but i am not because i want to live in my own world in which it surrounded me all around so that no one can find me,
so that i become i want to be,
in all trurh and lies we say
can make someone happy for whole life, a month, a week or for a single day,
who will become your bestie,
it will decided by your nature
and lot of smiles which are free,
love ones are not easily found,
they can give power us to live even they are not around,
touching is the physical touch but our mentality defines how much feeling everything very important,
so that we can react on it,
and giv output at any instant,
wash the poision from my skin,
show me how to be loved again,
cause i lonely cried in the castle of glass
and the wany thing i want to see,
you to see..
Sep 14, 2014
Sep 14, 2014 at 6:56 AM UTC
back and forth, back and forth
it drove him insane
but the back and forth, back and forth
was still better than the pain
he'd rather be in uncertainty
than lose her all at once
the fear of never speaking to her again
was better than enduring silence for a few months
but it got to him, still
her lack of commitment and the way her mind changed
he wondered if it was so easy, to let him go
if loving him was as easy as being from him estranged
she was so hard to predict and it wasn't easy
she went from 'i love you' to 'i'm leaving'
one day she'll want to choose you, the other, lose you
she went from all night conversations to not even speaking
i guess for him, the pros outweighed the cons
the hope outweighed the fear
he'd rather live in anxiety
than the lose the possibility of keeping her near
it hurt him inside, every now and often
but he embraced the uncertainty, the shaky life
he kept his mouth shut and took what he could get
praying every night that one day, she might choose him for good, and become his wife.
Oct 26, 2015
Oct 26, 2015 at 12:24 PM UTC
Dark night, filling earth and sky, in silence; minty, silky soft,
like the music flowing from the lyre of a jilted lover, vengeful,
let me drink your sweet poison, that would curtain me off for now,
from the torture of light, the love in which I once lost myself, cherished
now I want to forget those days fully,and fly out of this house of pain
Jul 3, 2015
Jul 3, 2015 at 8:16 AM UTC
Do you know what is the biggest poision?
It’s “regret”
Thuhadi yaad khai ja rahi menu andro di
Me wife naal
Hoke bi usde naal nai
Me u bare sochi janda
Ap dowa de moments yaad ande
doaba de moments yaad a jande
Pata nai kiwe sakoon milu menu
U da address pata krna koi waddi gal nai
Bus me pata nai krna chanda
Me nai chanda tuci hor dukh jhalo mere krke
Pehla hi bade made time wicho nikle ** mere krke
Te *** mera time he us time wicho niklan da
Waheguru kre me nikal
Jawa is time wicho
Mar 23, 2018
Mar 23, 2018 at 11:12 PM UTC
Come with me in the driving rain
Take a chance,make a dance, a thunder dance
Impending lightning sky, potential suicide
You're crazy you cried, Yet you need me inside
so we ride on the lightning together
And knowing one strike puts us together forever
blood red, cut with me, make your pact, can't you see
You could just call me crazy and run away far from me
Yet you know I would die, the most torturous cry and pleads
just so you could live and breath, with my guts on the sword as I bleed
Mother maybe said I was poision for you
Yet mother never knew how much I'd die for you
Yet mother never knew how much my love is real for you
And how much I pray that we may become a solid crew
Like bonnie, Like clyde, without the bullet ride!!
Impending doom, Lightning Sky.Im consumed with you til I die!!
Mother still says Im poision and you are permananently glued
Stuck to me, cant get away, wont fade away, cant come loose
But then again I like your obsession and I surely adore mine
I swallow you up like a possession, Im a vampire I **** you to make you my bride
We cut, we wear goth, everybody says we went off the deepest end
We said thats enough, painted our lips black, Our hair looks like sin
We are one in our dress, we are one in our flesh, we are everything
Im thankful we possess each others brains and nothing about us is lame
The Day I met you in the palace of my heart is the day you came
And the song we sing is the most heavenly in the lightning and the rain
Mother maybe said I was poision for you
Yet mother never knew how much I'd die for you
Yet mother never knew how much my love is real for you
And how much I pray that we may become a solid crew
Like bonnie, Like clyde, without the bullet ride!!
Impending doom, Lightning Sky.Im consumed with you til I die!!
Jun 20, 2016
Jun 20, 2016 at 3:43 PM UTC