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"discomforting" poems
Strange malaise, One I can't place. Struggling of late. Discomforting state. Persistent lethargy. Sloth-like and heavy. Burning internals. Frequent intervals. No temperature. No warning lever. Don't know what's wrong. Been rather long. Medicine trough Can't rid me this cough. Expulsion so violent, Incessantly recurrent. Over a fortnight This ailment I fight. Still hasn't eased. Can't be appeased. Development is seen. Now spitting green. Not just all That joined this brawl. It's just the coughing. No injury I'm suffering, I haven't bled... But I see red...
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Oct 9, 2014
Oct 9, 2014 at 12:46 PM UTC
Red
a draper is someone who creates garments or patterns by draping fabric directly onto a dress form (Wikipedia) ~~~~ I am a draper, by trade, by nature, by instinct; a fling of one arm across her body, while she dreams and sleeps, rambles, mumbles, and even convulses, to hold her tight with two, with both, soon grows discomforting as the blood ceases to flow, the heat breeds unsweetened sweat, and the snuggling impact, is too fast subsumed by the pins and needles numbing, deadening, and ironical attenuation this is my pattern, how I address her, how I dress her, draping my contiguous, drawing five fingers upon her form, reshaping her in her sleep, the arm flung, there, and then there, to be hung, at varied places across her body, higher lower, above below, but her face, free and clear, so not to interfere with her sensory preceptors and as I draw my pattern upon her skin, her body whole, listening her to indeterminate utterances, to determine which pitter patter pattern to which. she feels best suited, then, I prepare my invoice for her, for services rendered, to present upon awakening, demanding in voice, by her voice, payment in words, of her own chosen amuse-bouche, mmmm, will it be? good morning my love? hello you! or just an indiscriminate but yet, a discriminating sound of having been pleasured by unknown forces in her deeper sleep, using her lips to say, to hum, to sing, a genteel unspecific but, and yet, a terrific, deep from within guttural remittance, the sound of a delicious, mmmmmming greeting a new equinoxal gale of a refreshing fresh birthing, fulsome already satisfying draping of the day
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Aug 13, 2025
Aug 13, 2025 at 5:01 PM UTC
The Draper (draw my pattern upon her skin)
a draper is someone who creates garments or patterns by draping fabric directly onto a dress form (Wikipedia) ~~~~ I am a draper, by trade, by nature, by instinct; a fling of one arm across her body, while she dreams and sleeps, rambles, mumbles, and even convulses, to hold her tight with two, with both, soon grows discomforting as the blood ceases to flow, the heat breeds unsweetened sweat, and the snuggling impact, is too fast subsumed by the pins and needles numbing, deadening, and ironical attenuation this is my pattern, how I address her, how I dress her, draping my contiguous, drawing five fingers upon her form, reshaping her in her sleep, the arm flung, there, and then there, to be hung, at varied places across her body, higher lower, above below, but her face, free and clear, so not to interfere with her sensory preceptors and as I draw my pattern upon her skin, her body whole, listening her to indeterminate utterances, to determine which pitter patter pattern to which. she feels best suited, then, I prepare my invoice for her, for services rendered, to present upon awakening, demanding in voice, by her voice, payment in words, of her own chosen amuse-bouche, mmmm, will it be? good morning my love? hello you! or just an indiscriminate but yet, a discriminating sound of having been pleasured by unknown forces in her deeper sleep, using her lips to say, to hum, to sing, a genteel unspecific but, and yet, a terrific, deep from within guttural remittance, the sound of a delicious, mmmmmming greeting a new equinoxal gale of a refreshing fresh birthing, fulsome already satisfying draping of the day
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caught off guard by yet another downpour unprepared again he could shelter from the torrent tormenting and tempestuous beneath the hung branches of this laden tree overreaching beyond its means but he knows it cannot keep him dry for as long as he might need from bough to branch to leaf and bud down the back of his neck through layer upon layer soon sodden and soiled those discomforting drips will expose that which he didn't want to feel
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Jul 27, 2023
Jul 27, 2023 at 9:30 AM UTC
petricor
Inspired by The Mars Volta Encased in, tubular, too much too fast, written again with music in the background! Screams now or be they babies?  Here it's more with talking, psychedelic naturally! Complete the creativity contract stingy stars stealin' popcorn RIPS, and I can feel it coming to me.  Groaning, rhyming with the rather outer despite the order AND GO! Build up, build up who wants a build up? Pause. Groove to me my Ukraine tartar! Make no sense, make it so hard you can't understand where it or was she GOING, go, go, go! Membrane skin saturate thy kin with separating spin so I can't fuckin' breathe! Correct my sins or be you scared to talk to pins though they your friends. The tack is in to lift paper from she and she can't see.  Are you a man or a mouse or anthropomorphic spouse of any of these fleeing an-i-mals?!  I find in the mirror myself and beer to drown the pain or discomforting disdain I can't quite get it right anymore therefore goodbye all truly universally bleeding.  I say goodbye to my past and won't come to grip with it!  GRIP your children's ears but it is you who doesn't want to hear.  You cover their eyes because of the size of daybreak rise!  Rise to the occasional borderline street sign between Inspired by Tool I will explode into the stars, become all of them, but all in sparkle of another's eye I can't rip this mind any further, or else it'll break and snap and slow-mo crack May, may, may, may you starve, breathe, sink, rise, steep, leap, creep into my parallel like a feeling Demented in this way due to you, the closest I'll ever get Five years, apparently not enough to forget Five years, without you Five years, and you still break into my dreams Five years
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Nov 25, 2013
Nov 25, 2013 at 4:13 PM UTC
Brunette Corridor
Inspired by The Mars Volta Encased in, tubular, too much too fast, written again with music in the background! Screams now or be they babies?  Here it's more with talking, psychedelic naturally! Complete the creativity contract stingy stars stealin' popcorn RIPS, and I can feel it coming to me.  Groaning, rhyming with the rather outer despite the order AND GO! Build up, build up who wants a build up? Pause. Groove to me my Ukraine tartar! Make no sense, make it so hard you can't understand where it or was she GOING, go, go, go! Membrane skin saturate thy kin with separating spin so I can't fuckin' breathe! Correct my sins or be you scared to talk to pins though they your friends. The tack is in to lift paper from she and she can't see.  Are you a man or a mouse or anthropomorphic spouse of any of these fleeing an-i-mals?!  I find in the mirror myself and beer to drown the pain or discomforting disdain I can't quite get it right anymore therefore goodbye all truly universally bleeding.  I say goodbye to my past and won't come to grip with it!  GRIP your children's ears but it is you who doesn't want to hear.  You cover their eyes because of the size of daybreak rise!  Rise to the occasional borderline street sign between Inspired by Tool I will explode into the stars, become all of them, but all in sparkle of another's eye I can't rip this mind any further, or else it'll break and snap and slow-mo crack May, may, may, may you starve, breathe, sink, rise, steep, leap, creep into my parallel like a feeling Demented in this way due to you, the closest I'll ever get Five years, apparently not enough to forget Five years, without you Five years, and you still break into my dreams Five years
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Parting my subtle fingers, touching the silky,mellifluous hair Slowly moving beneath, Placing my hand beside , Drawn to your marvelous, profiled, sculpted, jawline Teasing fore play and kisses, Without wasting hesitation, Removing fabrics swinging in rage across the room, Bare back and body, Temperature rising, Top to bottom, As you harden and drenched, Your rugged , tempestuous hands, Throwing a weak influenced temptation, Into a lustful haze, spinning   An imitation on repeat, The heat intoxicating , inflaming the bonds between our desires, Penetrating  our virginity, Throbbing in and outwards, Notion the anguish and agony , Discomforting in moving surfaces, I plead within your name , Carelessly tugging and hanging onto your body, Arms flung around your waist, As you angrily demanded more from me, Ordering  to continue on wards, The obsession grew expectantly, A new form of  infatuation, Thrusting relentlessly, Earsplitting moaning, Sensual whispers, Piercing marks ****** , Licked, A Sign of ownership, Smacking grip below, Letting go uncontrollably, Reaching  into the endearing ****** Seizure, Absolute Bliss.
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Sep 3, 2012
Sep 3, 2012 at 2:29 AM UTC
Relapsing 12:00 am.
the sol and solitude scalpel~dissect layers of tissue, marrows of nuclei separate, the warming is discomforting dismayed and dissuaded, cannot be in two places, either/or/or simultaneous, my centerpiece is a-kilter wavering and waving, my balance is mis-weighted, teetering and tottering, in a land lightly and thickly discriminating between bodies and disembodiment I am neither I am both, therefore, I am invisible to eyes that are shut by obstructions of willful blindness
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Nov 26, 2023
Nov 26, 2023 at 8:39 AM UTC
Sol and Solitude, Bodies and Disembodiment
Black eyes, blue heart, green hands, yellow soul Girls in white dresses, who dip their face in blood Bear themselves with a hellish grace. Forked roads never lead to the correct destination Following the angels of hell leads to nothing but the abyss Gorging myself on beauty, I see the white sky Flogging myself with duty, I see my heart go by Burning myself with nothing, I stare into her eyes And I feel like I'm dying, like I am death, Like it's in me, like it is soaking through me And I can't breath, or look away. This is my life, and I have to live it. Even though everyday I'm handed a black rose. I feel like I've been shot through the heart to many times to name. They are times I feel like my life is repeating itself, Things that make me sad, Disgusted, Keep happening, In various ways, Over again. What am I to do? It hurts my heart to think of you, yet you're always right at the front of my mind, right along with the discomforting thoughts. What am I to do?
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Sep 5, 2011
Sep 5, 2011 at 10:59 PM UTC
Black Rose Heart
Poetic justice, I suppose. She imposed a thought within me, a repetition, A groove upon which this melody plays, A soft saxophone timbre eskimo kissing with the cochlea lashes. Every face passing in alleys and sidewalks is a puzzle box shifting, Incoherent until its cubes turn into her face again. The city within me says she is anew, and this cube does not shift to the same old solution, But the earth in my soul sprouts vines beneath its bustling feet, and the vines twist into her visage. My words are phantoms, and I speak them to the newest beautiful stranger, Each stranger more beautiful than the last, more comforting and satisfying, But the nucleus of those scattered electrons, those uncertain ghosts finished by a period, Is the tattoo upon my recollection, my favorite neon puzzle box. I wait in the ambiguous, discomforting silence for a day she will be solved.
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Nov 14, 2012
Nov 14, 2012 at 4:16 PM UTC
The Neon Puzzle Box
In her shadow you hid and bade your time, all the while looking like something she could love. Yet she only saw you in the dark, playing the part of something she could love. The day she found a flashlight and struck your moths askew was the day she sent you spiraling to the ground. Do you know, oh do you know, what you did to her? Now you jump from window to window, seeking the shelter of the darkness when she blinks. You’re scared of imperfection in her thoughts, yet tomorrow you’ll see you’re as imperfect as it gets. You tricked her into thinking you could help her with it all and she saw. She sent you scurrying back to the shadows to dissolve calm widows there. But she’s scared you’ll worm your way back to her brain-- you’re already planting seeds of relapse there. So she swore to someone more faithful than you that what you are will not infect her brain anymore. She was tolerant, let you bend her backbone, now she’s rigid, standing straight as stone. She isn’t breaking and won’t bend for you anymore. This someone she swore on everything to will do what it takes to make sure you’re gone. So stay away, we don’t need your discomforting stare ruining our dreams anymore.
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Aug 27, 2012
Aug 27, 2012 at 10:26 PM UTC
Warning, to the maggots in her head.
Oh! A spark! Better let the wind blow Better not let this THING glow For once it glows It glows for a while Slowly, It gets difficult to survive Who's choking who? Nobody knows! Killing it equally, Faster then we built It's like the cold steel now Discomforting to touch, Unbearable to handle. Now, in the dark, How do we light the candle? Oh! A spark! Better not let the wind blow Better let this THING glow
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Feb 8, 2016
Feb 8, 2016 at 4:59 PM UTC
Spark
The darker your eyes glow, The more of the second you; you show. A mask to hide the beast, Ugly and mean. Defined by those slaughtered, By its talons. A fierce darkness, Blinded by only rage. Discomforting agony, To one so caged. Those who look upon thy beast, Exeunt! External bleeding can occur. If you anger the darkness. A fierce creature, Blinded by rage. Become one with the fallen, The fallen inside its cage.
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Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 1:07 PM UTC
A Fierce Darkness
~a unconscious commissioned poem~ <> La Lumière est une Dame d'honneur advantage Frenchies, everything sounds better in their language, we readily concede we make do with those tongues whose fluidity clothes & coats, those,  we are best at confessing in first light this morning was emasculated, in thickened first fog, eerie, discomforting, but yet, mine alone to utilize, and make discomfiture into a poem of coffee and cream, stirring within, colored dreams Lady Light finally arrives, descending on a staircase from heaven, radiating all with patience, the animals all, proclaiming in a thousand tongues, their thanks, their love, for everything breathing understand best she is the source of creation, reanimation, and a sharing, unsparing, birth mother to animate and inanimate, and the death father to all we & us, guide to our ultimate end the waiting is most interesting, for indeed, there is honor within, as I compose, the sunrises to the precise angle to bar my vision, power to blind and enlighten, how can this be, but it is so, my bones warmed, suggest I do not complain, accepting with no exception for this is the power source to us all, and humility is the key to acceptance & understanding is this poem, is this the missive, me~my, intended, to write, know not, for the words leech from my skin, in format uncolored, uncontrolled by mine minuscule impoverished compost of senses, morals and my compote of cells that are products of a thousand prior generations morphed into a mess of me, as of yet, purpose hidden, undisclosed, perhaps my reasoning is unseasoned, my presumption of purpose, is just a fool’s ridiculousness Lady Light smiles kindly on my rambunctious ilreasoning, for I just one of billions come, gone, and rebirthed in chains of endless possibilities, two words permanently paired, conjoined, and though the light has now risen to heights to totally absolve my sight, can no longer track what is being written, accepting my temporally blindness with grace, even with solace, and-bid you adieu, adieu, (bye~bye) so musically, until relief will honor me with its presents… and I can contemplate my foolishness once more… and the letting… of the *Lady’s light of honor illuminating (even me)* <> commissioned by Pradip 7:35 am in the sunroom where the intersection of all light illuminates all kinds <> music: To Try for the Sun, Song by Donovan Aquarius/Let the Sunshine In by Fifth Dimesion
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Aug 5, 2024
Aug 5, 2024 at 7:52 AM UTC
The Light is a Lady-in-Waiting (La Lumière est une Dame d'honneur)
~a unconscious commissioned poem~ <> La Lumière est une Dame d'honneur advantage Frenchies, everything sounds better in their language, we readily concede we make do with those tongues whose fluidity clothes & coats, those,  we are best at confessing in first light this morning was emasculated, in thickened first fog, eerie, discomforting, but yet, mine alone to utilize, and make discomfiture into a poem of coffee and cream, stirring within, colored dreams Lady Light finally arrives, descending on a staircase from heaven, radiating all with patience, the animals all, proclaiming in a thousand tongues, their thanks, their love, for everything breathing understand best she is the source of creation, reanimation, and a sharing, unsparing, birth mother to animate and inanimate, and the death father to all we & us, guide to our ultimate end the waiting is most interesting, for indeed, there is honor within, as I compose, the sunrises to the precise angle to bar my vision, power to blind and enlighten, how can this be, but it is so, my bones warmed, suggest I do not complain, accepting with no exception for this is the power source to us all, and humility is the key to acceptance & understanding is this poem, is this the missive, me~my, intended, to write, know not, for the words leech from my skin, in format uncolored, uncontrolled by mine minuscule impoverished compost of senses, morals and my compote of cells that are products of a thousand prior generations morphed into a mess of me, as of yet, purpose hidden, undisclosed, perhaps my reasoning is unseasoned, my presumption of purpose, is just a fool’s ridiculousness Lady Light smiles kindly on my rambunctious ilreasoning, for I just one of billions come, gone, and rebirthed in chains of endless possibilities, two words permanently paired, conjoined, and though the light has now risen to heights to totally absolve my sight, can no longer track what is being written, accepting my temporally blindness with grace, even with solace, and-bid you adieu, adieu, (bye~bye) so musically, until relief will honor me with its presents… and I can contemplate my foolishness once more… and the letting… of the *Lady’s light of honor illuminating (even me)* <> commissioned by Pradip 7:35 am in the sunroom where the intersection of all light illuminates all kinds <> music: To Try for the Sun, Song by Donovan Aquarius/Let the Sunshine In by Fifth Dimesion
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12 6+6 7+5 8+4 9+3 10+2 11+1 12 Seems simple enough. Reality was like a ***** film. Beaten and touched by the sins of a woman corrupt. Too poor to play. Mom was getting high, so I joined a play to stay away from the fists and verbal abuse of the day. No lunch money. Mom was getting high, So I left for school at 6 A M. Yes Ma'am, I was dropped off I would lie everyday. No, Sir, It's ok I already ate" I would lie everyday Tim, wanna come over and play? *No I have to go home and get slapped and and screamed at when my mom isn't screaming some strange man's name...I mean...I have homework to do." Straight F's. Never attempted a page. Too busy learning what goes well with sage And how to calm my rage The singe of my skin let my emotions disengage. Every time the levees were going to break Just crawl into my hiding place Heat up a paper clip and all that was inside would slake. 10 years later I am covered in scars Hundreds, head to toe, all over my fleshy bars. They are much more difficult to see. However they are still embarrassing Thus the long sleeves and I always wear jeans irregardless of how hot or discomforting. One day I want new scars, head to toe tattoos to tell a new story. of how I escaped the blues I never really did but it sounds nice.
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Apr 29, 2013
Apr 29, 2013 at 1:51 AM UTC
Burn Me(Free/spoken verse)
Broken relationships unlike broken bones don't make noise when they crack, neither do they shriek out of an unbearable pain. Their sequence of suffering is different, beginning at heart with a discomforting pain at the edges, moving towards its center and strangle, spilling the torment from eyes Broken relationships unlike broken bones cannot be healed with a plaster cast or feel better if put to rest. Though, they unknowingly do repose- anticipate healing, which is only a woeful void, filling back with stronger protests and irrevocable agony . But once broken,they all are same splintered and dejected, desperate to gather but feeble seeking refuge in the days of healing. And once repaired, they are no different, cracks heal but scars remain, like trophies screaming the struggle. Forgotten pain stays nestled in disguised hidings, longing to come back with a slightest wrench. Be careful! -Pallavi
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Jul 14, 2016
Jul 14, 2016 at 8:08 AM UTC
Breaking is Bad
This poem is not a poem This poem may be meaningless, Weightless yet worth reading This poem lacks vocabulary It holds nothing unique of poetic essence. But carries simple words of a message A message that seeks a place to land Traveling within the walls of a heart. Imprisoned, Ignored, Tortured. Violently cracking the bricks of its cage A message fighting for its own freedom Seeking a break through. A message desirous of overcoming solitary confinement The message wants to meet others. But others seem to have no message for this message. This message refuses to quit fighting to escape the ******* of a home in one heart. It hopes to locate its friend in another heart. Futile journeys this message have walked.This night the message is discomforting. It fights with vigour for escape. I was up late on my bed The same bed that puts me to sleep The bed that invites me to rest The bed that convinces me to forget unfinished task and rest The bed with the magic to infect with the virus of forgetfulness for a moment Is the same bed making me remember the message’s violence Dreaming wild dreams and thinking wild thoughts Opened-eye dreams Plenty dreams All about one figure. When will be sleep time? Having communion in my mind with you I see you close though you are afar off. In my heart I hear a voice singing your name. The song wasn’t harmoniously great but lyrically strong. The lyrics of the song preach truth. It says I love you. I fight against the thoughts with all strength I knew I would lose the fight. Nothing in my hands I bring. Simply to your heart I come Holding love in my heart. Love looking for a place in your love It’s homeless love Homeless yet not hopeless Hopeful for a place in your heart. At your heart’s door I keep sounding the same words of old I love you. http://selormcharles.blogspot.com/ Dedicated to the lady I admire secretly SPECIAL THANKS TO: 1. RICHARD RYE YAO BAKU 2. ABIGAIL FORSON ALISON
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Feb 2, 2015
Feb 2, 2015 at 10:39 AM UTC
THE IMPRISONED MESSAGE
This poem is not a poem This poem may be meaningless, Weightless yet worth reading This poem lacks vocabulary It holds nothing unique of poetic essence. But carries simple words of a message A message that seeks a place to land Traveling within the walls of a heart. Imprisoned, Ignored, Tortured. Violently cracking the bricks of its cage A message fighting for its own freedom Seeking a break through. A message desirous of overcoming solitary confinement The message wants to meet others. But others seem to have no message for this message. This message refuses to quit fighting to escape the ******* of a home in one heart. It hopes to locate its friend in another heart. Futile journeys this message have walked.This night the message is discomforting. It fights with vigour for escape. I was up late on my bed The same bed that puts me to sleep The bed that invites me to rest The bed that convinces me to forget unfinished task and rest The bed with the magic to infect with the virus of forgetfulness for a moment Is the same bed making me remember the message’s violence Dreaming wild dreams and thinking wild thoughts Opened-eye dreams Plenty dreams All about one figure. When will be sleep time? Having communion in my mind with you I see you close though you are afar off. In my heart I hear a voice singing your name. The song wasn’t harmoniously great but lyrically strong. The lyrics of the song preach truth. It says I love you. I fight against the thoughts with all strength I knew I would lose the fight. Nothing in my hands I bring. Simply to your heart I come Holding love in my heart. Love looking for a place in your love It’s homeless love Homeless yet not hopeless Hopeful for a place in your heart. At your heart’s door I keep sounding the same words of old I love you. http://selormcharles.blogspot.com/ Dedicated to the lady I admire secretly SPECIAL THANKS TO: 1. RICHARD RYE YAO BAKU 2. ABIGAIL FORSON ALISON
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I speak my mind, And I'm rewarded with blank stares. "You're too young to not feel fine!" Yet I wake up every day to despair. I feel my hands trembling. I see their confusion. They aren't understanding. They yell at me to come back in unison. I'm only Thirteen, And I feel as if I have the weight of the world, Weighing down on me. Suffocating me, blocking out all my words. I write with my blood, I've watched my arms be drained, They see my cuts, And ask me how it happened. They think I'm too young to feel pain, But I have it in Spades. I can't tell them how it happened, so I run into the rain, Panting, exhausted, and lost, just looking for somewhere to stay. They don't understand, Your just a kid, Are you mad? Just because I'm young doesn't stop pain from digging a pit for me. I crawl into the pit every time, Knowing it's the only peace I'll ever have, Even if it is discomforting. They see me suffer in silence, with a confused look, they'll never understand such a young soul to be tormented like this.
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May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 12:14 PM UTC
Young.
The horizon deemed to turn black from blue pleaded with its faith by disposing all its secret in orange hue and cry. Aghast by the spectacle, I felt very discomforting breeze trying to peek inside me. Should I let it? No! i felt involuntary resistance build inside me.The stare of the imploring horizon filled my sentiments with gush of paranoia. I closed my eyes, right then and there. As I opened my eyes slowly after saturation of my daunting breath, I was surrounded by black despair. And the moon still shined with its borrowed light just to display its caged dark hare. There were no stars that day, I pulled them down to makes uncountable amount of wishes. What faith decreed for horizon have been my own reflection.
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Jan 10, 2014
Jan 10, 2014 at 2:06 AM UTC
Paranoid Horizon
a lumpy bumpy proletariat hardness has harnessed, hitched and stitched itself into my abdomen. with the precision measuring instrument, Eye calculate with my fingers its latitude and longitude, using my belly button (half insy, half outsy) as a reference point. a few days after Eye quite accidentally encountered said lump (for Eye am not in the habit generally of belly rubbing), a slight discomforting sensation joined in to make sure I was never not going to forget it's invasive presence. soon Eye shall do a doctor's visitation, who will ummm and hmmm, before sending me downward and inward to a "S p e c i a l i s t." I am sorta quite pleased with new adventure,for it encourages fantasy in the most heart wrenching, delicioso tragic manner. Then along comes the Sunday NY Times, in a piece entitled "Imagining the Lives of Others" just how difficult it is for someone to truly put themselves in the shoes of someone else. "There are certain limits, however, to how far we can go. The philosopher Laurie Paul, in her book “Transformative Experience,” argues that it’s impossible to actually imagine what it would be like to have certain deeply significant experiences, such as becoming a parent, changing your religion or fighting a war. The same lack of access applies to our understanding of others. If I can’t know what it would be like for me to fight in a war, how can I expect to understand what it was like for someone else to have fought in a war? If I can’t understand what it would be like to become poor, how can I know what it’s like for someone else to be poor?" The solution? "One approach is to go ahead and actually have the experience." ahh. So I shall, until the certainty of unobtainable uncertainty is formally declared, the mind is free to roam about the cabin of life, imagining various and vainglorious dramatic outcomes. More strange, if it is the worst, I shall be happily relieved by the knowledge that I can plan around a certain mental scheme...what a gift that is, knowing how to allocate a scarce resource well. Eye will stop here, until mine eyes can see this clearer; here, until the *bus stops for the poet... or the poet's bus stops...*
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Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 9:54 AM UTC
There is something wrong with me...
a lumpy bumpy proletariat hardness has harnessed, hitched and stitched itself into my abdomen. with the precision measuring instrument, Eye calculate with my fingers its latitude and longitude, using my belly button (half insy, half outsy) as a reference point. a few days after Eye quite accidentally encountered said lump (for Eye am not in the habit generally of belly rubbing), a slight discomforting sensation joined in to make sure I was never not going to forget it's invasive presence. soon Eye shall do a doctor's visitation, who will ummm and hmmm, before sending me downward and inward to a "S p e c i a l i s t." I am sorta quite pleased with new adventure,for it encourages fantasy in the most heart wrenching, delicioso tragic manner. Then along comes the Sunday NY Times, in a piece entitled "Imagining the Lives of Others" just how difficult it is for someone to truly put themselves in the shoes of someone else. "There are certain limits, however, to how far we can go. The philosopher Laurie Paul, in her book “Transformative Experience,” argues that it’s impossible to actually imagine what it would be like to have certain deeply significant experiences, such as becoming a parent, changing your religion or fighting a war. The same lack of access applies to our understanding of others. If I can’t know what it would be like for me to fight in a war, how can I expect to understand what it was like for someone else to have fought in a war? If I can’t understand what it would be like to become poor, how can I know what it’s like for someone else to be poor?" The solution? "One approach is to go ahead and actually have the experience." ahh. So I shall, until the certainty of unobtainable uncertainty is formally declared, the mind is free to roam about the cabin of life, imagining various and vainglorious dramatic outcomes. More strange, if it is the worst, I shall be happily relieved by the knowledge that I can plan around a certain mental scheme...what a gift that is, knowing how to allocate a scarce resource well. Eye will stop here, until mine eyes can see this clearer; here, until the *bus stops for the poet... or the poet's bus stops...*
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When I envision pain, I do not see myself nor my past. I see white walls, Strange people, And odd, complicated machines. I see a flash of red, A pool of purple, And a poisonous green. My pain is not mine. Your pain is mine. It kills me to see, That you and I are the same, Yet you went through so much more, And I, nothing. Yet, there you are. "Fixed," And I still malfunctioning from time to time, With no socket wrench or duct tape in sight. I still see the flashes from time to time. Not the red or purple or green. But the flashes of my old self. The me that comes out when I'm not with you. And it's weird that today, Was the first time I've ever seen these, When I was with you. It was discomforting. To know that you're not completely steel. That I can still be reached. To know I'm still broken, Even with my force field to protect me, And my super glue to keep me together. I pray that I never again, Have to endure your pain. To see those white walls, To hear your muffled voice on the phone. To know that you are a stranger, Yet less strange than your surroundings. To know that I will not see you, For at least a week, And be completely helpless about it. I changed my mind. And my prayers. I pray that I can endure, Every bit of your pain, So that you don't have to. I pray that I remind myself everyday, Of that flash of red, That pool of purple, And that poisonous green. So that I can learn to forget to feel the pain, And simply endure.
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Dec 31, 2012
Dec 31, 2012 at 2:21 AM UTC
Where My Pain Is
Melting in time,     Frozen in an image.       Devastated by my own disposition,                Dying. I have seen my soul melt in my own,              in my own.     with Concrete bones, It Suffers.         I comfort myself,                 discomforting others.     Parasites exist.      They have never existed.        I put them In me,       They have Never existed.
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Feb 15, 2014
Feb 15, 2014 at 4:53 PM UTC
Concrete bones
Daddy held me in his arms Once, when I was five; He wasn't one to embrace, To clap and say well-done. To hear him speak two words Was volumes from someone Who tsked and rolled, But never scolded His daughters and his sons. In his hold, so foreign, He made his assumption, That I was content to be held, Though squirming for the ground. For me it wasn't soothing, He never was inviting, His demeanor so discomforting, He never did it again; Not that I could tell; And yet the security Never diminished From arms that once held me.
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Jan 13, 2017
Jan 13, 2017 at 10:33 AM UTC
Arms That Once Held Me
It was a beautiful and warm Monday afternoon. Everything felt in place—except her mind. That day, she laid her body carelessly in a bed of a thousand lilacs, Engulfed by her thoughts She was unready for the day to consume her Unfortunately for her, the world craved her undying attention. The lilacs, nipped at her noise with pungent notes of jasmine and rose The sun kissed her cheek, While the breeze tousled through her hair Rather than humming in curiosity, her mind danced along the brass of the wind She could feel everything, but simultaneously, nothing at all. Too much or too little, it never seemed to be enough. Carefully, she listened to the breeze She didn’t miss a beat The rhythm felt smooth—natural Trying to comfort her discomforting thoughts Finally It was quite and her mind now felt at ease A sudden shadow casted above her undisturbed body The lilacs comforted her in a way that her bed could not The breeze silenced itself Her thoughts picked up Quietly, she listened to the raspy and familiar voice that would not stop humming In a chuckle he asked, “why are you laying in a bed of flowers?” He didn’t even notice that they were lilacs Flustered by his sudden appearance, she opened her eyes and realized that it was time to leave the garden She stared at him for a moment before she actually responded With a slight nervous laugh, she responded honestly “I don’t really know.” Dazed and confused, she gathered her strength to stand up “It’s been a while...” But before she could even finish her sentence, The brassy breeze started to chime “Want to go grab some coffee?” he nervously said.
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Jun 27, 2016
Jun 27, 2016 at 8:33 PM UTC
June 27, 2016
It was a beautiful and warm Monday afternoon. Everything felt in place—except her mind. That day, she laid her body carelessly in a bed of a thousand lilacs, Engulfed by her thoughts She was unready for the day to consume her Unfortunately for her, the world craved her undying attention. The lilacs, nipped at her noise with pungent notes of jasmine and rose The sun kissed her cheek, While the breeze tousled through her hair Rather than humming in curiosity, her mind danced along the brass of the wind She could feel everything, but simultaneously, nothing at all. Too much or too little, it never seemed to be enough. Carefully, she listened to the breeze She didn’t miss a beat The rhythm felt smooth—natural Trying to comfort her discomforting thoughts Finally It was quite and her mind now felt at ease A sudden shadow casted above her undisturbed body The lilacs comforted her in a way that her bed could not The breeze silenced itself Her thoughts picked up Quietly, she listened to the raspy and familiar voice that would not stop humming In a chuckle he asked, “why are you laying in a bed of flowers?” He didn’t even notice that they were lilacs Flustered by his sudden appearance, she opened her eyes and realized that it was time to leave the garden She stared at him for a moment before she actually responded With a slight nervous laugh, she responded honestly “I don’t really know.” Dazed and confused, she gathered her strength to stand up “It’s been a while...” But before she could even finish her sentence, The brassy breeze started to chime “Want to go grab some coffee?” he nervously said.
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