There are two kinds of people in this world.
There are those of us, who will look at pictures of the past and feel awash with a glowing warmth, remember the perfection of those single moments.
And then there are others among us, others like you and I, who view photos much the same way, yet feel much less euphoric, because while we also take the moment to remember that perfection, we use the next millennia of moments to lament the passing of this perfection

By Arcassin Burnham

Look at those eyes in the beautiful mirror,
i was always the outcast so I find it hard to believe that i'm beautiful...
But i'm not minding you,
it was often that I've seen you walking down the hall,
and I've been wanted to approach you baby,
But i'm not minding you,

She could make my heart
skip beats more than twenty-three times,

it was more than just her looks,
she a good girl, i see it in her eyes,

and when we don't talk,
there's a feeling that i just can't deny,

and all this built up animosity to knowing her,
and her leaving me to dry,
Well go and mind your business girl, cause i'm not minding you,

for the pain that i went through and the help that i thought you'd give
but you didn't
so **** tired of all these feelings that i had towards you in love,
it just wasn't given..
aside from me having my bad days i at least thought we were friends
in the beginning..
i had my doubts that you weren't going to be loyal at all,
i should have seen it coming,

As I Write these lines,

i just wanted to spend some time, with you...

But i'm not minding you.


/

If you're reading this.
please help me fight the demons deep in my dreams,
People get through this all the time,
so this shouldn't ever really be new to me,
slowly clarifying the next victim due to harsh symptoms in a dark
room where you can't even move,
might have committed sins that you'd didn't know that you'd ever do,
is there bad juju in every direction?
afraid to step outside without getting arrested,
i'm not crossing any lines anytime soon as a part of way to be
free with no session,
learning lessons in some full disclosure like a real man that gets
the job done,
done a lot of things in my life i wasn't proud of walking in a loop
of a beautiful garden but its endless hell with a single phone booth not knowing
**** well a demon just answered,
he says come back and take me some pictures,
i said hell no,
you will let go of my soul,
its the Christ's hands i wanna hold,
shine like the nova i am , well behold..

She's lounging on the futon playing Stardew Valley. We both get a kick out of it. Mainstream gaming can **** a *****. Exceptions occur, of course. I look into the bathroom mirror through a splatter of mouthwash and toothpaste and groom my hair, my face like I think highly of myself. I don't. I shave and I pluck, admire the edges, pretend I'm of feminine energy, pretend according to the faces and voices that matter. We have to look out for ourselves somehow, but in whole what the world can see of us makes them think we're outsiders trying to climb into an exclusive box. I want to find myself beautiful, and I know you must be happy with yourself, but there's no pleasure in false positives. Where is the touch of appreciation? To struggle visually means that windows are better caked. Not cis, nor have I ever been. In the end, I'm content enough choking in the wasteland.

If you ask the question if you're special
You should know the answer
Insecurity should be quelled
By what I do
I think talk is cheap until the actions push the envelope
Your soul is too resplendent for this morbid ending to the story
I felt like you can do better
Than I realize that I am the better
Not because I'm fervently egotistical
But because I cater to your waves of emotions
I do more than I ever thought I would
There's nice things I would do for everyone
Then there's nicer things I would do for you
If you want to ensure my words congeal
Ask away beloved
I'll say Yes II to them all

As long as your ghost towns lose sense of vacancy
And your mind is filled with more red than blue on the X-rays
I have done my part
And never will I part from you
You have echoed something I've never heard before
And I want to dive deeper into it
Forget the repercussions
As long as my soul becomes more opulent
I will forget what it means to be transient
These feelings shall remain forever

You were found in my ignorances

The things I chose not to see in myself,
you found in me

This contagious, spontaneous, fun house walk-through, reflecting only the compassionate parts of us two

We wake up and plan
to smile at strangers,
and hold the door open,
and say no to anger.

But then there's traffic,
and road rage and red lights,
and cut-offs and cuss-outs,
daydreaming of fights.

Our destination is reached,
and our hands are in fists,
we stomp down the halls,
and crash by accident.

Coffee spills, papers scatter,
faces red, eye contact made,
thoughts are racing, anger raising,
a small flame ignites great hate.

We watch the scene
play in our head,
like directing a movie
and take one is red.

It's yelling and screaming,
insulting and punching,
automatic desire,
but solving nothing.

Aren't we lucky
we aren't bound by our thoughts?
We might be tempted,
but slaves we are not.

Aren't we lucky
if take one leads to
mistakes or trouble
we can choose a take two?

I know that i love u...
No matter what happens
I will always save u...
In myself i think that
I wanna live with u....
But one day ...
We fight for a silly thing...
Which separates us for once and for all....
Which separates us for once and for all
That one day ... changes ur lives
Our lives.
So i wanna say that i have some unknown in me..
Which will hate everyone......
Which will hate everyone......
So i wanna say that
I

We are contstantly affected by the opinions of others,
but let's not let that get into our head shall we?

Oh yea?
As if everything is so easy to solve like how you seem to make it be.
The truth is that it's so hard to solve.
Maybe it can't even be solved,
At all.

Have you thought about the other party?
How they think?
What do they think?
Are their thoughts really what you think they are?