i just wrote a letter to a good-hearted man.

it is night where i am right now.
while writing, i heard my father's steps.

he slowly approached me; mistrust in
his face.

he thought i would have done something
bad. i had not done so.

five minutes i spoke to him; i needed him to
believe me since i will travel to another city
later today.

i do not want to say "farewell" in disharmony.

yet, i am not disappointed or angry.
everyone acts weakly from time to time.
i forgive my father.

before going to bed i will talk to somebody
else.

somebody who is everywhere and always with me.

affectionately
mikey

Why was I , A passing moment?
If you would've stayed a bit longer,
At least, I would be a memory.

Why were you a whirlwind of flurries?
Melting before you could settle.
I am the Arctic snow,
Buried deep, are a million memories.

I see you smile in all your entirety
I can't stand the amber haze, the fire inside of me
Kick-start my heavy heart, don't leave me on the line
I want you, you know too
Will we fall or fly

Are we in denial, hiding reality
I cant stand the tidal wave
Oh riptide oh carry me

Ohhhhh no I won't wait forever
This smokescreens killing me
I can't let you
Continue to tease, see I say
Why's the one I want the one and only I can't reach

Fear to feel alive though, your thoughts caught spiralling
Can't stand to hesitate, the shine blinds me
Kick off or cave in, ultimatum decide
I want you, you know too
Will we fall or fly

Are we in denial, hiding reality
I cant stand the tidal wave
Oh riptide oh carry me

Ohhhhh no I won't wait forever
This smokescreens killing me
I can't let you
Continue to tease, see I say
Why's the one I want the one and only I can't reach

Are we in denial, hiding reality
I cant stand the tidal wave
Oh riptide oh carry me

Ohhhhh no I won't wait forever
This smokescreens killing me
I can't let you
Continue to tease, see I say
Why's the one I want the one and only I can't reach

A severe conflict rages within me
Torn between,
Something rip, rip, condemning
And idleness
The kind of idleness where you’re alone within a storm
Perfectly aware that soon enough you’ll have to follow the currents
And flying debris
But for now,
Just for an instant,
You are still and around you is silence
Not
A calm before a storm
But a calm within a storm
The eye of the storm?
A singly moment when you’re able to stand still for just a
Just a single moment
And take a deep breath before you’re flown away

don't plunge
just wait back,
"sunrise is yet to come
and sunset is yet too far"
just come close,
lock this moment
I wanna see you smile
I have been cold for a while...
let us hitch with love as a moment of farewell.