So much of me is hidden under socks and sleeves

Rejected

I put myself out there

Hopeful
Earnest
Smiling

Can I go? Include me, please!

Unnoticed
Unincluded
Unloved

Hello, I am right here!

Not seen
Not wanted
Not loved

Giving up
Hurts to be left out
Tired of feeling defeated

REJECTION

Why oh why?

Nothing seems to make much sense to me anymore.

My mood and emotions are going absolutely haywire!
I feel happy, sad, angry, depressed, loved, unloved, and anxious.
I feel all of these at the same time.

How?
How does that even happen?
How can I be both happy and sad, loved and unloved,
and angry yet depressed?

I am confused.

Yesterday went downhill and I need something to help it stop from getting any worse. Obviously, what I am doing isn't helping.

Any suggestions would be awesome!

It just doesn't seem normal to me. I am all of these.

Happy: I feel like everything is going to be okay.
Maybe happy isn't quite the right word for it.
It is probably better to just say that I am optimistic.

Why do we have to keep living the same life?

I am struggling.

I feel like I am floundering.

I feel so very much alone.

I just feel so lonely.

I feel like I just need a good cry. I am scared to cry though. When I cry alone, I sometimes have trouble stopping. I sink further and further down into that dark hole of depression.

It is so hard to get out of that hole. It is a never ending battle trying to come back up out of it.

I am afraid.

I am afraid that I am going to end up stuck in this pit of depression forever. I don't really think that that will happen, but that fear is in the back of my mind.

I am afraid of showing my emotions sometimes. I sometimes am frightened by what comes out of me and how I will react to what I am feeling.

I haven't completely lost hope.

I pray. I believe in God and know that He will help me heal and get through the rough times.

I have to have faith and try to get through this the best that I can with what I have and who I have to help me. I just don't want to feel like a burden, which I always seem to feel like.

Pray for me please.