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418 · Mar 2015
Why We Rhyme
NeroameeAlucard Mar 2015
Whether it's poetry from the streets or the stuff written in limericks on parchment sheets there's no denying that when a poetic Homosapien sets the mind to rhyming our brain patterns are odd because we use our pens to stitch up and heal our scars because we are poets. Our minds don't function like the rest of the world and in this verse it kept me from ending up in the back of a hearse whether by my own doing or because of this world's curse

But if course I care about the people that have influenced or helped me to become better, Midnight Writer I'm not just vintage I adapt to all weather, Miss Hillzy and Reamer, Queen, Aurora, Joana Ashby Drsjoke and blue star♥ Antipodean Product I love you guys and I hope page abuse carries us far

and from hello poetry Wolf Spirit, lady death and many many others I love all of you from the bottom of my twisted heart I hope that our union of words shall never break apart.
To everyone I mentioned here I love all of you and wish you nothing but amazingness!
417 · Dec 2014
Stop Asking
NeroameeAlucard Dec 2014
Because I love you I'm giving you fair warning
Stop Asking about my love life,
stop asking about my life beyond what I'm doing
what business is it of yours who or whether I'm *******
It's not like I conduct an investigation into your love life

anyway, I'm going to lay it all out.
I'm 18, a ******, I've never kissed a girl and whether that'll change I doubt
Now I've given you the facts about my life
Now stop asking. I'm being nice
I'll go no Vaseline on you quicker than the Sun melts ice.
Directed at my cousins
417 · Mar 2015
Life Lesson
NeroameeAlucard Mar 2015
I know you mean well but you can't speak for me
forgive me if you'd writing seems like it's driven by apathy
I want to grow up but I can't right now
I have enough personal issues of my own to iron out
I'm still shy as all **** and insecure as ******* and bacon
I'm constantly on edge like a diet coke with mentos that's been shaken
But then that's my own cross to bear
having to fight things in my head that no one would know they're there.
And it seems when I make an effort no one gives a ****
So really, please don't speak on something you can't understand.
Like I said, I know you mean well and I appreciate your concern
but it's my mistakes and my life, I'll always have demons to burn
A polite way to tell someone to *******
NeroameeAlucard Mar 2015
Nerozy you're at this age..
Where you just wanna be set free..
Like a little birdie..
To fly over the world..
To see the seven seas..
Instead of being stuck at home..
In the same cold world..
With no place to turn..
You got a head full of ideas..
Crazy enough to believe..
Somehow you just gotta be set free..
To preach out..
To reach out..
To be yourself..
With no ones help.

Hillzy were birds of a feather
Except in my case I'm experiencing better weather
Whatever you're right
I gotta get out and love my life
I gotta be free
And you do as well

Go and explore..
Spread those wings apart..
Just always remember..
Your big sis is always here to help...
If you wanna go big..
Go big..
To the fortune and fame..
If you wanna go small..
Stay in town..
Go and explore for yourself..
You're a pilot of your own life..
Baby bro..
Just remember you're always welcome back home..

Hillzister be free and roam the world
Be a take charge Phoenix type of girl
Answer to no one until you're ready to be cuffed
And even then make sure he's up to *****
416 · Dec 2014
Long Distance
NeroameeAlucard Dec 2014
Why is it all the people worth your effort have to be so far away
why is it by your side they can't just stay
I wanna kiss my Angel thru the phone
I wanna make love to her thru Skype
but then after we leave our little world
I'm physically alone again that night

I guess partially my fault as well
I'm better thru text than talking hell
I'm pathetically awkward in person
but behind a screen I'm myself
I guess it's my fate but I can't help but pray
that my Angel moves near me one day
so I can finally kiss her lips and touch her soft warm skin
to spend probably a week in wanton sin
****... My love life is strange
415 · Jun 2015
A Walk in the park
NeroameeAlucard Jun 2015
I need a jolt
just to break away from
the mental exhaustion
that I keep giving myself
a long walk in the park
to keep my brain from falling apart
I keep getting anxious
I keep getting scared that I'll never get my life together
that'll I'll be another statistic outside in all weather.
I'm stuck in a rut
between getting better and doing what I seem to do best, ******* up.
it's crazy because I know where I need to be but not how to get there

it took me this long to admit it but I'm scared.
terrified of what life may or may not do yo me
shivering in my boots at the fact that I have to face reality.
I'm frightened okay?! I admit it I don't know what more I can do...
because more than anything, I just want to be myself without losing you...
415 · Jun 2017
Practical jokes
NeroameeAlucard Jun 2017
Why is it that what i hate
About what i am
Is what endears me to others
Am i the opposite
Of what i was intended to be?
If so this practical joke
Has crossed the line from funny to cruelty.

I hate not knowing what to say
I hate my shy dispensation
But others love my pathetic attempts
As a presentable representation
Of a functioning human being
I'm not and that's no lie.

So where does anyone see any appeal?
Am i blind or do my very eyes lie?
415 · May 2015
Crow
NeroameeAlucard May 2015
It's like it's picking
at my bones
my organs severed
I wish I wasn't alone
I used to roam
along the plains
they shot me dead
and left my remains
now I'm stuck here
no strength to move on
dying in the desert
where I belong
a crow found me
smelling rotting flesh
My body is it's meal
I must taste the best
the finest carrion, Sun fried to perfection
I hope it stops biting in that direction
this isn't painless but necessary
I wonder what they'll say on my obituary
"He was a good man, he loved music and his pen,
Poetry and stories were his arts, where he created his closest friends."
I wonder if all the girls who turned me down
Will look upon me with a tearful frown
I wonder what everyone will say
when this crow is through eating me today
Ever think of something and not be entirely sure where it came from?
NeroameeAlucard Nov 2016
I hope my eyes arent deceiving me
Because ive never beheld such beauty
Her long silky hair, her eyes and smile though pain it mustve masked
She was like a gem from angle, perfection in all aspects
Her laughter was like a chord on a spanish guitar
Man, we couldve gone so far
Together as one, mind body and soul joined together
But i couldnt muster up the courage to tell you how i felt, and after the fact we talk and you felt the same
Man, regret is gonna drive both of us insane
413 · Oct 2015
A Cheap Laugh
NeroameeAlucard Oct 2015
All comedy can be derived from tragedy
And we can all stand to be taken down a peg
And while I have enough of a sense of humor to take a good prank
Don't **** with my head

So that means you dear sister,
If you hide my backpack again just to **** with my head all of your stuffed animals will end up dead.
You know **** well you went way too far
You don't know about my scars I kept recorded
In a sketchpad in that bag.

Mom, I love you but I hate what you did,
You let me be angry for days over something as simple as fudge we got you
So I lost respect for both of you, just do you could get a cheap laugh.
Great job, you'll get nothing in my will when my body turns to ash.
413 · Apr 2016
I rang the bell
NeroameeAlucard Apr 2016
I rang the doorbell
Seeking entrance to the home
I heard footsteps walking to
But it seemed I was outside, alone.
The cold began to nip at my skin
My internal temperature began to drop
My heart began to beat fast
Why won't she answer the door
I'm outside freezing and my heads starting to spin

I'm outside your heart. ..please let me in
412 · Dec 2014
Outside Looking In
NeroameeAlucard Dec 2014
Two young kids in love
neither are perfect, most would say they've started too early to be raising a kid
both passionate, both want nothing but the best for their kids
but both have growing up to do
but you can't say all that from the outside looking in

One little boy here another on the way
both are wondering if the other will stay
the dad's no saint but he's there for his kids
I respect that much, not what he did
but I can't get involved from the outside looking in.

The girls doing her best
her family in ink and in blood isn't trying to cause any more stress
we want our nephew here, warm healthy and alive
we miss you and we pray about you, don't take the pain in stride

but what do I know, I'm simply an observer to the chaos of love,
from the outside looking in
this is inspired by two very good friends of mine
411 · Nov 2017
Fortunate soul
NeroameeAlucard Nov 2017
I'm pretty sure people have told you
You're beautiful, bur have they showed you
Their need for you, in those sweatpants at 3 am at the store
Or when you don't have makeup on not feeling your best
Have they still seen that same beauty, as if you were at the oscars dressed to impress?
Has anyone kissed you so deeply, it melts your soul?
Has anyone held you tight, and you prayed you didnt have to let go?

They have? Well you're one fortunate soul...
410 · Aug 2015
Bloodlines
NeroameeAlucard Aug 2015
Bloodlines.

Blood runs deep but some times family can reach to far I still carry inadequacy like simba being crushed by Scar,
It hurts to know that although you mean well you keep invading my space and judging my Life making me feel out of space around those that helped give me life.

It's like although we share DNA and features in the face you can't see passed that to my hearts black space,
It's like now I'm simply an eccentric freak to stare and laugh at,
You can't see the tears falling down each night you crafted and the spirit you've cracked

So thank you for all of that, the judgement, the pain and inner separation,
Thank you for self doubting my own destination,
But thank you most for stabbing me in the side,
I guess family isn't always right
409 · Jan 2015
Laying My Cards
NeroameeAlucard Jan 2015
I'm not the richest guy on earth
I'm not as good looking as you may deserve
I'm not outgoing, or really confident
I'm not constantly up to date, on what trends are current
But if you stand by me, I'll stand by you
I'll hug you so hard
You'll not know what to do
I'll buy you food and rub your back
And hold you tight when your under attack
409 · Nov 2016
Voices
NeroameeAlucard Nov 2016
Because music geekdom was one of my life choices
I've found i can get attached to voices
Not the ones in my head, for inside i still remain dead
But the accent, the catch before you get emotional,
Sticks to my waxed ears like used lotion so
I miss voices at times, if those i care of mostly,
So i try to imagine that voice coursing through my head so softly
Wobbly is my memory, so i hold on to everything that i can
But hearing those special voices again, thats a happiness no one can plan
408 · Oct 2014
Mr. Sandman
NeroameeAlucard Oct 2014
Thank you Mr. Sandman for putting my heart to sleep
You didn't **** me but my affectionate nature you buried deep
I found myself numb,
unfeeling about anyone
I still had respect
but couldn't bring myself to drop my guard
I felt like I always had to protect my neck

I knew I couldn't live like that forever
I felt as unloved as a bad Christmas sweater
I tried my best to shake it all off
tried to become cold and hard, but I needed someone with whom I could be soft

Thank you fate for sending to me a friend
a collaboration partner who would become much more in the end
She's mine now and I couldn't be happier
now she's just amazing, even when I couldn't be crappier
408 · Dec 2014
A Confessional
NeroameeAlucard Dec 2014
Ahem. here's an attempt to finally conquer all that bothers me.

Let's see I'm a grown man who never kissed a girl
I'm obviously still a ****** in this crazy world
I'm insecure about myself and I put my heart on the shelf
I'm broke as all **** but I hope writing can create wealth
I eat French fries with no ketchup and I didn't go to my prom
I hate myself at times like a veteran from Vietnam
I don't have tattoos and I don't have a piercing
I can feel angst boiling over on fact it's **** near searing
Okay I'm almost done bit here's the last part of my list
no girl I've ever dated save one has lived near me, almost all my past relationships were long distance
The title says it all, I'm confessing all the quirks about myself
408 · Apr 2016
If we date (Part 2)
NeroameeAlucard Apr 2016
If we date
Then I'll do all I can to create
Memories both physical and mental
And I'll do my best to make sure that
The status of my feelings isn't up for debate

If we date, please expect
That I'll ***** up, I'll make mistakes so often that it may cause blood to boil in your head.
But I'll do my damndest to make sure that you know
I'll do anything to make you happy, all I ask is that same level of love, respect, and dedication you show.
407 · May 2016
Necklace
NeroameeAlucard May 2016
The chain broke and the pendant landed with a sickeningly soft creak on those hardwood floors I looked Down in shock, not knowing what else gravity had in store,
I loved that old necklace, heck I even remember when I got it, it's elder brother my old rose sword necklace had melted so I went out with some friends and bought it's replacement. A Dagger with two dragons around a red gem fit my aesthetic perfectly like a speech copied verbatim

Anyway I picked it back up and replaced the pendant back on the chain and as this weighs back on my brain I remember why I got necklaces from my travels to wear memories close to me, right above the heart
And hopefully no one will tear me and those same memories apart
406 · Dec 2015
I guess you're right
NeroameeAlucard Dec 2015
I guess you're right
And there's, nothing anyone can do about it
I can no longer doubt it
I'm a poet.
A conveyer of feelings through the written word.
Who helps others heal their pain by revisiting old hurts
It's a strange occupation
And interesting conversation to have
So when people ask me,  Nero, what are you?
I can say that I'm many things.
Insecure, unsafe, lost, fearful of my own future
Disabled, confused, alone, and wounded beyond suture.

But above all else, I AM A POET
406 · Aug 2016
Cross the line
NeroameeAlucard Aug 2016
That line in the sand
Overlooking the warm and welcoming sea
I walked up to the line and stared at it intently
And in those moments a war was waged within me, my head and heart both taking opposing sides
Here I'll relay as much of that intense conversation, from beside the battle lines

Brain: we shall not cross that line! For who knows what could be waiting on the other side!
There could be crippling danger or possible injury! Diseases and financial ruin could lie across that line!

And my heart took those sentiments in kind, and then responded with the following reply

Heart: we must cross this line! Not knowing is part of the thrill! And you're right we could be hurt crossing over to the other side! But that's part of life so just chill! There could be Love and adventure, wealth both in money and in experience and enjoyment of our surroundings! We've starved in life for too long and it's time we move forward by boldly leaping and bounding!

I guess, like two face I'm in two minds about my situation
But I'd rather consider my options and move decisively than run blindly in like LEEEEROOOYYYYYY JEEEENNNNNKINNNNS
406 · Apr 2015
Out of order
NeroameeAlucard Apr 2015
We're so so very sorry
but the poets brain you've requested is currently under maintenance.
We do apologize for this but
he really is down for the count
not the puppet but he is broken and fatigued
tired of putting words into verse, at least until his head and art get back into sync I think I need rehabilitation from my own head creating is a burden I'm certain that I'm not even that good anymore when I was just starting I was full of life and vigor...
now I just feel like a chore,
someone else's mess to clean up...
404 · Jan 2015
The Twisted Mystic
NeroameeAlucard Jan 2015
there once was a mystic
known worldwide
who delighted in the blood and pain
and suffering brought mirth to his eyes

heartbreak gave him searing excitement
stress gave him nothing but smiles
he'd rather watch an be rortured by an iron maiden
than watch someone smile for a moment

yes he was sickening, deplorable even
but yet he resides in everyone breathin
wait... what? There's a twisted mystic in all of us,
yes, he lives and breathes in all beings

he arises when the lust for revenge overcomes our common sense
NeroameeAlucard Nov 2014
No you wouldnt
I'dve been there like the police when a black kid loiters
Never would I have exploited ya
I can heal fast but this'll take time
**** it. **** it. If only you could've been mine
Idve held you like a queen, Cleopatra over Egypt
But you couldn't see what beats in my chest it's like when I try I get shot down
Every time I opened up I get shot to the ground
I guess I'm stuck alone on my own a king with no queen to share a throne

My fate is sealed I'm giving up for good
I'm gonna be the loneliest ******* in my hood
Now I'm gonna do what all plan B guys
Get back to crying in my pit, my sanctuary and my curse
That I've now described so accurately in that verse

This may be the worst I've ever jotted down
But I guess you never see the sadness behind the mask I wear, as the clown.
402 · Dec 2014
Everyday life
NeroameeAlucard Dec 2014
life's funny isn't it?
I'll compare it to a VCR
when the good times are rolling
it's stuck in fast forward
but when the pain sets it's stuck on slo-mo
It's like sometimes life can be like a yoyo
Or if you're like me, sometimes you'll be thrown out of the familiar
like Dorothy and Toto

Or when your heart breaks and your earth quakes and when you fall in love just looking at them gives you the shakes
Or when someone betrays you you respond by throwing shade
like a looming tree in the Florida everglades

basically what I've learned is take life once a day everyday
not every day will leave you in ecstasy but the good comes with the bad
just keep on living, and when I'm gone don't be sad
402 · Jan 2016
Bramble
NeroameeAlucard Jan 2016
Me and dixie
Made it into the swamp
How did we get into a patch
Of bramble pads and cannon barrels
We're so far from home
In Kremling Territory all alone
But though the challenge is increasing
We'll fight on through the day and night
K. Rool won't take donkey Kong,
Not without a fight
This poem was inspired by the song Stickerbrush Symphony from donkey Kong country 2
401 · Jun 2018
What the eyes cannot see
NeroameeAlucard Jun 2018
This honestly could be a series
About what the eyes, the windows to the soul
Simply cannot see.
They aren't able to register someone feeling like they're falling apart
Or someone like me who can't seem to bring it together
But it's whatever.
The eyes can't see years of name calling throughout school to cackling laughter
Feeling alone and wondering if you can get yourself
And some rope up to the gym rafters
I'll have you know that the eyes are pricelessly important organs needed for our everyday lives
But sometimes, sometimes i do wish we as a society could see

What our eyes simply cannot see.
400 · Apr 2015
The Brain Service Line
NeroameeAlucard Apr 2015
hello thank you for calling the brain service line
where we help you fix your mind in time for a rhyme
what can I do for you?

Yes thank you got taking my call
I'm flustered you see, I don't know what to do at all
see my brain and heart are on two different pages
I go from happy to lonely to flying onto irrelevant rages

Ohh yes we've been flooded with your problem lately
we don't have a solution that can work
Well can you give me advice?
Maybe...

I'd advise trying to focus on life itself
but my heart keeps desiring someone with which to build an empire of wealth
well I can't help you sir, but I wish you good luck
thanks ma'am, I'm gloomy as ****
400 · Oct 2015
Film Reel
NeroameeAlucard Oct 2015
Sit in your seats
You got popcorn right?
So reelman, please start the show
Or we'll be waiting all night
The reels start to spin
The images begin
To light up the giant wall
All of our eyes have focused upon
The illusory art of visual storytelling
That has gained so much admiration
From millions (and millions) across the nations
You can have your Netflix
You couldn't **** the radio station
And even though the industry's saturation
Has long since tainted the silver screens reputation
Some magic and memories from tinseltown are still created
And their impressions cannot be duplicated
399 · Mar 2017
A song of healing
NeroameeAlucard Mar 2017
If i could sing,
I'd exhaust my lungs
To sing you a song that would heal
All the wounds left by that someone
Who didn't know what they had until it was gone
I'd do all i could to repair your fragile heart, bruised and battered by the cold winds of life
I'd strum a melody that brought your mind back together into a place only consisting of peace
Where happiness and wonders never ceased.
Because a song of healing, is something that we all need to hear.
399 · Mar 2016
One Winged angel
NeroameeAlucard Mar 2016
Who am I anyway?
All I remember is jenova
And those pitiful humans
Pushing me over
The edge, but my blade shall be their salvation
I'm an angel, not one that is holy
But one that brings devastation

But the life stream will save us all
But by my blade these puny humans shall fall

Who am i?
399 · Feb 2019
No Love Songs
NeroameeAlucard Feb 2019
You can tell a lot about someone
By the music they listen to
I haven't listened to a love song in quite a bit
Of time.
Not because I don't like them, I like to think I'm not that cynical
But
I guess taking some punches to the gut from love made me rethink my playlists
Constantly hitting skip
Until just now
Cause it's when you're down that you truly understand lyrics

The song? "Try a little tenderness."
398 · Jul 2016
No In between
NeroameeAlucard Jul 2016
Why can't I ever
Corral my thoughts and keep them together
It's like my head is always under the weather
I know reader I sound like a broken record

But

If you can place yourself in the position
That fate decided to place me in
When my head moves quicker than my mouth
And sometimes slower than a dead fish in a drought

There's never an in between
Its either up or down to the Nth of extremes
I try to keep my composure but I always end up making a scene


That's what happens when there's no in-between
397 · Nov 2017
Pride
NeroameeAlucard Nov 2017
Pride, it's a troubling thing to deal with
Hell, it's enough to spilt
A family. Which is what you did,  you damaged us irreparably, i barely saw you through the last of my formative years. I was unprepared facing those ever hateful teenage fears
Had you been around you might've saved me from running myself into the ground
But I'm all grown up now, and you missed out on so much
You have nieces and nephews that haven't seen your face or even know you exist, but despite all of this i still love you and i hope one day your pride will fall.
And we can finally be a family, once and for all
I hated that i ended up writing this, but it needed to be done
396 · Nov 2016
Identity crisis
NeroameeAlucard Nov 2016
You know, there's been a lot of talk about identity
What parts you have your skin tone whether or not you're the heir to a throne what's wrong with us? Why are we so fixated on division and not inclusion? We're not all Tom Clancy but can you answer me this... why is the word division even in our language? Why can't we transition from an ice cube tray to a melting *** is why this was written?
Can we as one act as one? Love as one? Protect as one before we divide ourselves from 0 and become irrational? Or can we get on one accord and work for the betterment of us all?
395 · Oct 2016
Desire
NeroameeAlucard Oct 2016
I'm drawn to you like a moth to the brightest flame
I couldn't have da Vinci draw you into my life, but I can think wistfully just the, same
The curve of your smile, that little twist of your hair
That scrunch of your nose when you laugh, whenever I see you i can't do much but stare

But if I told you all of this I'd probably be kicked aside or stepped on like a cheap set of stairs
So I guess it's only through these words that I can show that I care...
395 · Oct 2015
Mother Rose, (a tribute)
NeroameeAlucard Oct 2015
Mother Rose,
What can i say that hasn't already been said
i guess i'll go with what just popped into my head
you had a smile that could light up the darkest of rooms
a tender sweetness that was palpable in the air, like the dust raised by a broom.
An enthusiasm for life and spirituality that most could never hope to acheive.
Even as simply the church guitarist, it was amazing to me
How people automatically felt as if they were at home around you
it was astounding what lot's of love can do within and without you.

I know you're in a much better place
the pain is permanently gone, all the better for all our sakes.
Still, It's good to know that you're up there with our Lord.
Say Hi to some family members we've all lost, we'd be happy if you could.
And some days when life turns sour,
all of us wish that heaven had visiting hours.
So we could be around that award winning smile
and warm as coffee soul
we're all going to miss you
more than anybody could know

So to close this tribute out, I'll leave here with this biblical gem
From revelation "They will rest in their labor, for their deeds will follow them."
This is a tribute to a member of my church who passed away recently.
394 · Feb 2016
The A.D.D. Mind
NeroameeAlucard Feb 2016
It's not that I don't wanna focus
It's just that it's hard to
It's not that I don't like school
Just give me something interesting to do

It's not that I can't remember
But the memories are hard to find
It's not that I want to fail test after test
It's that there's a battle going on in my mind

Between neuron and neuron, synapse and nerve.
Each trying to tell the other which way the mind should swerve.
This is from my experience
393 · Feb 2015
Sun Poetry
NeroameeAlucard Feb 2015
I'm not sure where this verse sprung from but I was letting my mind wander and it got to the rising Sun
a blaze of glory that occurs every single morning
showing almost a Phoenix up in how much fire lights up the wee hours of the day
start off staring at a new beginning, the remnants of last night burned asunder by the New rising Sun

Considering were on the third stone we should do more to clean up our act on this water covered throne or the sunrise could be our own created sentence of death
I expect to only move a few hearts with what I've said
393 · Feb 2018
Fuck you, Valentine's day
NeroameeAlucard Feb 2018
You know, I've written about love
Or the lack thereof in my life quite a lot
And I've been holding this in so long its ******* my intestines in knots
So I'm going to say this know before i blow up my spot.

******* Valentine's day, go and rot.

I hate feeling pressured to buy, buy, buy!
"If you love her you'll go into debt up to your eyes!
 If i loved her id show it, not rely on breaking my credit into pieces you greedy ****** its
A **** frustrating thing to deal with in a relationship. But being single might be just that little bit worse

Like being paddled for a college initiation, there's very few things worse.
Well, maybe joining my love life in the back of a hearse
Geez, that hurts.
But seeing all the lovely couples around town
Drinking coffee, being cute, just drives that nail further into the ground.
Reminding me that I'm about as desirable as a ****** without buck teeth, or Brad Garret refusing to frown.

******* Valentine's day, I'm sick of you bringing me down
This is the single most cynical thing ive ever written
393 · Apr 2015
Paradox
NeroameeAlucard Apr 2015
I'm stuck in a loop
an inception like paradox
I'm like a cat trapped in its box
It's weird, I'm aging but
I'm not going anywhere
locked in my straitjacket
I'm on a freeway behind the tortoise
but I can't pass it
I'm alone but with a family
I'm a walking contradiction, I'm loved
but I can't stand me
my writings touch people, I think but i don't know how they affect me
I'm sorry, lately I've been thinking weirdly
393 · Nov 2015
Sorry
NeroameeAlucard Nov 2015
I'm sorry I'm eccentric
I'm sorry for my strange aesthetic
I'm sorry that I'm a fan of Jimi Hendrix
I'm sorry that all my hobbies to you don't seem worthwhile
I'm sorry that my oddities seem to make you hostile

I'm sorry that I'm a different person than what you planned me to be
Blame fate, don't blame me
392 · Oct 2014
Loneliness
NeroameeAlucard Oct 2014
If love is an earthquake then we're the San Andreas fault line
I know you're stressed girl so we haven't had a lot of time to spend
together cuddling like a kid and a teddy bear
it ***** when I call or text you and you aren't there
I understand what you're going through
And I'll always try to be supportive no matter what boo
I still get giddy and clingy at the mere thought of you
but I feel so much pain when I can do nothing but miss you
I swear I don't know what to do I've gone crazy over you
I guess now I know what loneliness can do
NeroameeAlucard Mar 2015
Now I know what your thinking,
"Nero you hate being single! Crap you barely even know how to mingle!"
but I've really given it thought and wrote this down
single people take solace in these hard facts
number one no can criticize you for liking at internet ***
number two no Valentine's financial obligations
number 3 that's the time you get yourself together, moving your life like a train from station
number 4 I adore that you aren't obligated to answer to anyone
number 5 IT'S ALIVE you can spend more time having fun

so long story short everything has both a reason and a season
I learned the hard way that people come into your life for a little while but the truck is to make your time with them worth your while
392 · Oct 2015
Kids
NeroameeAlucard Oct 2015
Let's face it
I'm probably never, no I know I'll never
Have kids
But I know this much, I've seen a lot of things on social media that are making the ends of my hair split.
So from this spoken word I spit I'll give you a list of what I've learned in life not to do with kids.

1. Fear and respect are two different things, take time to connect And don't pry for information and they'll open up, it's a reward patience brings.

2. Someone once said your offspring are your own parents payback, learn their strengths and weaknesses and aid where they lack.

3. The greatest question among parents, does spanking really work?
It varies from child to child, so no one really knows on this earth.
However I will say that there's always such a thing as going too far.
If your child ends up in a hospital because of your tempestuous outburst, you deserve branding with a hot iron bar.

4. If your child has special needs, do your research and plant self confidence based seeds.

Well that's my list, did I miss anything out please add more,
Like I said, I'll probably never have kids, but you never know what life has in store
Disclaimer: I don't plan on having kids until the day epilepsy is permanently cured. I wrote this from an outsiders perspective
391 · May 2015
You Know What Sucks
NeroameeAlucard May 2015
You know what *****?
not having anything to write about because you're full of doubt about your life and the way it's going
when you have to consider giving it up to get those creative juices flowing

You know what *****?
when you're one of the few loyal mothafxckas out here but no one gives two fxcks
when your the type to buy your lady flowers but **** her in the car at her parents house
the type to compliment her blouse then rip it off when we get hot

you know what *****?
when one thing happens and your whole day is shot down the tubes and dead like Jimmy Hoffa got,
when you try to play to sweetness but get led on instead
when there's nothing but insecurity and loneliness residing in your head.
I wrote about things that **** because... Well they **** and I couldn't really think of anything else I liked XD
391 · Jun 2016
103
NeroameeAlucard Jun 2016
103
103

That's the tragic number it seems

103

Innocents brought down maybe in the prime  of their lives
Killed senselessly for having a good time
There should be a rainbow over Orlando
Not just for acceptance, but to commemorate the bloodshed on the land or to show the world that after the darkest nights come the brightest days

103
390 · Jun 2015
My brains a social network
NeroameeAlucard Jun 2015
okay let's get to the point
my brains become a highway for every even and odd point
from the meaning of life to my favorite cheese
it's a tornado of mozzarella and thoughts I can't hope to silence, without a psychology degree

It's weird when all thought cylinders fire up in the dead of night no matter how hard you try you can't find peace without knocking out your own lights

Why can't my neurons shut up so I can fall asleep
My brain is moving faster than doogie howser with his degree, Help me please!
388 · Nov 2014
Am I ?
NeroameeAlucard Nov 2014
Am I good enough?
I'm no longer certain
I think I'm becoming a beast of burden

Am I rough enough
Am I tough enough
I'm too blind to see
I know I have feelings but I can barely stand
The weight of them upon my shoulders
and bring broken... again and again

Am I likable... loveable even?
I keep asking myself this
All of my relationships keep turning into something onto which a camel wouldn't spit

Am I worth it?
Am I hurting?
Am I breaking?

I swear I've been asking myself this all day...
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