with a tight smile and bleeding palms
a broken heart and shattered mind
she tells you she loves you as if its the last time
knowing her efforts were in vain
and you couldn't care to explain

Part 1
"Why do you care about him so much?"

Because he never broke his promise, he never left.

"Not yet"

Part 2
"he'll break your heart you'll see"

and that's why I can't fall in love.

Part 3

"Do you still care? Even now after he broke his promise ?"

You were right, he broke his promise and I fell in love.

didn't mama ever tell you don't play with fire
because wherever there's a flame someones
bound to get hurt
i guess the rules didn't apply to you
you did it anyway and you caused a whole blaze
thinking it was some bonfire
but  you didn't get hurt at all
instead i took your fall
you burned my soul to ash and dust
i can no longer feel lust
i can't trust to feel love again

our friendship was spectacular,
we told each other everything,
not talking to you for a day felt like forever
but what happened
we stopped talking
when we pass each other in the halls
its like nothing
we are now strangers
and when i tried to rekindle our fire
you never cooperated
but now your trying
and im refusing
because i know letting you in
will **** me up again
what happened to our friendship you ask me
ask yourself
sincerely, an old friend

so there once was this boy and someone on ask. fm asked him the following
"I'm gonna steal your ex girlfriend bud"  

here was his reply


"well then there's a few things you need to know. her favorite songs are I saw god today, if heaven wasn't so far away, you are my sunshine, butterfly kisses, and she wants to dance to I loved her first at her wedding with her dad. her favorite colors are Blue, Green, and Purple. Her favorite candy is Mini eggs, jelly beans, chocolate almonds. She likes her bed more then anyone else's, she likes affection in public, she likes hand holding, biting her lower lip and putting your hand on her cheek while kissing, she doesn't want a **** she wants someone sweet, she likes roots pants more then anything, she'll always loves you in her best and worst times, she's unique in every way possible. She's perfect, her hair smells like flowers in the morning, her hands are always warm and soft, Starbucks is her favorite vanilla bean frapachino is what she wants, she likes surprise visits, make sure you compliment her, tell her how pretty she is, tell her how nice she looked that day, tell her how perfect of a person she is, make her smile that beautiful smile. Do not tickle her when she's upset because you'll just make her more mad and it hurts her, give her a big hug and rub her back and she'll be okay. Do not call her boo or bae, call her bec or becca, and if your being serious with her call her rebecca. She'll know your serious then. She likes it when you do the little things like rubbing your thumb over her thumb while holding hands or paying attention to her and showing her that you want to listen to her and be there with her. Watch the movies she likes, even if there sappy and girly she likes them and it makes her happy laying with you and watching them. she likes pogos and grilled cheese. Make sure you take pictures with her because that's what gets her through tough times is the pictures of you and her. Take her for walks on the water, there's no other place more she likes then to be on the water. stay up late with her at night when shes upset and talk to her on the phone. And I want you to treat her right. Treat her like a princess because she deserves to be treated like it. Don't ***** up with her and break her heart because she's the best girl you'll ever meet."

and that my friend is how to win a girls heart all over again. the fact that this guy payed attention to all this melts my heart

take notes boys

they always told me,
your family will be all you have left,
when your trust is in theft,
when you've fallen and waiting for the best
when your fading in the darkness
and everyone is up in the falseness
but I've come to a rare conclusion
in the end, we live alone,
and we'll die alone,
everything else is merely an illusion
lost in confusion
false fairy tales made up in your mind,
your pulse is racing, time is wasting
were being tested in a world that's infested
the contestants are waiting in line,
so divine, this life of mine
so prepare for the end of time.

look up to the night
follow the stars
in a few hours
all will be devoured
its written across the night sky
an illusion
more so a delusion
thinking eternity  
truly is serenity
but nothings forever
because we are just star dust

I used to love this chapter
A part of my favorite book
I showed you it
And you began to love it too
We kept re-reading this chapter
At first it was so amazing
But as the pages turned
The story took a turn
To a different path
And you got tired,
And left me.
You stopped coming
Back each time
But I was still stuck in the chapter
Wondering why
Why it changed
Why you suddenly got bored
But now I understand
It gets tedious same thing each time
So burn the pages
And tear us apart
Our chapter had ended
With no intention of a happy ending.

They claim its impossible to love so young,
but I did
i fell in love with a boy
he opened me up
from my fears
he opened my eyes
the thought of him
had me daydreaming 24/7
his perfect mysterious eyes
the smile that drew so perfectly across his face
the way he looked at me
i dont usually fall in love,
but i did,
this one had me drowning in my thoughts

She fell in love with her best friend
Crazy i know,
But she couldn't help it
He fell for her too
She literally fell for him,
She dropped the wall she built around herself
And he watched her open up
Then left her with her walls down
And her heart on her sleeve.
While building her walls back up
He had the audacity to come back
He begged for her
She being the stubborn in love girl she was.
Believed him
Her walls came tumbling down.
He left again
She fell again
He came back again
She opened up again
He left again
Soon enough she shut herself down
She never caved in
She WAS in love with her "best friend"
Claims she moved on, she did for a little
While he tells her all about his new crush
She remembers everything
She watches his eyes sparkle
And soon enough she built a whole
Barricade around herself.

"Lets be friends" he said
"Its too painful" she said

Even tho i " moved on",
I still get excited,
When i see you.
My heart jumps
When i hear your name.
And when you tell me you might like someone.
I still hope you'll say me.
When i get a message i still hope its you.
I'll always check my phone about 6 times, for you.
And i dont know why.
Apparently i dont like you,
But apparently i still love you.
Its like this feeling,
Its overwhelming,
It takes over my head and heart .
I want you,
But i dont,
I hate you,
But i dont,
I dont wanna like you,
But i love you,
But i dont.

Once upon a time,
In a almost perfect world.
There was a girl.
She was happy.
She laughed and played
And smiled all day, with a lovable smile
And her sparkling eyes.
One day, i checked behind that cheerful smile,
That sat so sweetly, among her rosy cheeks.
It was real.
She was happy.
Then she entered reality.
         PLOT TWIST
Alice was no longer in wonderland.
Wonderland to reality.
Crazy insanity.
She kept her head down.
And forced her smile.
Soft, frightened whispers escaped her
Blood red lips as she spoke.
Dark, Dull Madness
Her genuine laugh lightened,
The sparkle in her eyes
Washed out
And was replaced
With pain and darkness.
She WAS happy.
Once upon a time.