She's been keeping everything in,
soul now filled with pain
till all of it has been
spilling around her skin
society's noise
supplies her anxious mind,
left with no choice
but let silence be her only voice

even when happiness
speaks her lips

still,
she is keeping everything in
and,
pain is seen
around her skin.

-kem ann

You are the moon and to everyone that matters, the constellation. They may seem absent but keep this in mind that they are always there -surrounding, evolving, moving around you. Yet just like you, they too feel sometimes, you are nowhere near from them.

Know that we are all the same, there are times when we shine and there are times when we don't. And when we don't it makes seeking present. We look around. Some even look back. And seeking is normal. Never put it in shame or fear for this is what makes us similar.

Like anyone else, we look up to the one shining for us at our darkest.

-kem ann

One day our stars will collide
Hearts will combine
Souls will soon intertwine

I'll be the reason why you no longer hold back
and you'll be to mine

You'll have me as your match,
will give you eyes that shine

I'd be the moon,
illuminates you every single night

You'd be the home,
considers to have in every sight

I'd be the only voice you want to hear
the only soul you don't want to share

You'll be the why behind these happy eyes
I'll be the answer why you no longer hear the word goodbye

Our hearts will soon meet
Destiny will give us time to greet

Your passion will hug mine
the way our heart beats in rhyme

Someday these two different worlds
will soon be one
So please be patient if both souls have not yet
been seen together around

Like how fate tells us to believe in impossibles
do allow yourself for I'll allow mine, too

but as for now, let's continue giving every piece of our hearts
and let time crossed each of our paths

-kem ann

Some time in life you'll meet someone that
feels like Christmas morning
Or scares you like Halloween nights

excites you like New Year's Eve
Or makes you happy like Valentine's Day

Some, maybe one or two at the same time

But the right soul for you is four holidays at once.

-kem ann

No, I don't  remember everything about you.

The way your eyes form lines whenever you smile.
The way your face paints red if you're mad.
The way you murmur when there's something you hate but still continue for being kind.

I don't remember all of these,

Of how passionate you are in doing your job even if you hate some aspects and how selfless you are.
Of how you giggle at almost everything.
Of how cute you're when you rant about the book you read or movies you watch.

I don't  remember everything that involves you,

Like how a plain coffee reflects your passion.
Like how a characteristic directly connects you.
Like how one specific place speaks about you.

I don't remember ,

When I slowly am feeling butterflies in me
When I could not control my emotions towards you
When I started to love you and everything you do

No, I don't remember everything about you.
I won't remember everything about you.

This I keep on repeat for at least the more I convince,
the more I'd get used to this
and the more I'd get used to this,
the more I won't hurt myself over again.

You see, I am trying not to remember everything about you. ☺️

-kem ann

Continue Living!
A philosophy you keep on telling

was too young to care
on what you really want to share

halfway miles to growing
life' still is uncertain

breakdowns turn to routine
and genuine happiness- hard to redeem

in your case, traveling places
is your ace

you deserve my envy
after seeing your exploration stories

despite the stress
smiles, seen on your face

the creativity and positivity in you
is what i look up to

know that for years
you've taught me to live and write with no fear

beyond doubts and struggle
beyond noise in my ears

you've influenced me
in ways, you might not see

with you and your philosophy
i'm where i thought i could never be

this you should know
always here for your highs and low

also to remind how you're a blessing
worthy of having

and how an art with a colorful heart
not worthy to break in parts

babe, please continue living
with you, life's worth fighting

My eyes saw
How everybody
Talk about your flaws

Of how uncontrollably you fall
Beyond face, background, beyond it all

Of how open you truly are
And how others don't get you from afar

Of how hearts take you for granted
Yet act like you're all they've ever wanted

Of how you silently shutdown
And drown yourself with frown

I've Seen your battles
Within yourself and other troubles

Felt your struggle
Reason why I always try to be able

Thought you should know
That above it all,

Still have no answer
On why I should not fall.

I had this dream the other night  
in a dark blue gradient  surrounding,
you and me statued In center
Staring deeply into each soul,
no sound no voice
but a warm light glaring on us

Stares got deeper
it somehow felt real
Two palpitating hearts could be heard
Sweats could not be stopped
Blood rushing from both cheeks are seen
This intimacy is what I'm feeling
This fleeting moment is what I've been wishing

Yet something odd
made me woke
from this sad nap

As you bow down,
You powerfully tore one of my knee
As though you're the karate kid that Jackie chan trained
and I was the wood which he asked you to break
I cried the hell out loudly
Literally screamed
And knocked out

Right then I knew
how this is really just a heartbreaking,
nerve wracking,
and depressing dream.

For reality speaking,
all you ever broke is not my knee
but the whole part
of being me.

With you is golden days of summer
Freeing, fun, yet slowly fading

I've felt the warmth
seen the ending
Glad to have kissed a heart
no pretending

I fear not,
forgetting such beauty
Know that in me,
you're kept much dearly

How blissful can life be,
If to spend the summer in lifetime called - we.

Little by little...
maturity happens
innocence left
walls stood still
emotions not real

little by little
we grew

and

little by little
love flew

you are there
always there
through all this time
you've got endless of shine
above all these - living mess
you are at your brightest
beyond fields of darkness

and tonight my dearest moonlight,
eyes are up on you
hearts caught up by you
so, let your light glow
and let this love flow.

kem ann

I can hear you
yes i can feel you
as much as i don't want to
here you're, stuck in my rear view

go away go away
chaos in me
please don't stay with me
go away go away
chaos in me
would you stop messing me

fighting my own battle
of much pain, this i can't handle
the blue in me has taken by your darkness
the paradise in me is now covered with a dark mess

slowly eaten by your cruelty
i'm caught up by your own pity party
save me, oh save me, i want to be free
happiness in eyes been yearning to see

go away go away
chaos inside my head
stop playing dead
go away go away
chaos inside my head
may you suffer in your own deathbed

again,
i can hear you
i can see you
but i'm stronger than ever
to not let you take over

now,
you're away gone far away
colors in me are starting to stay
finally aware completely aware
there's toughness in me
which you cannot bare.

i am jealous
of how the wave
misses the shore

of how the sky
blush over the ocean

of how your eyes
twinkle for the setting sun

if you'd be them,
would you the same for me?

-kem ann

I look up to you
like how I see
sunset,

constantly changing
but still
mesmerizing

-kem ann

she
wears
heartbreak
like
ink
on
skin,
beautifully
printed
after
the
bleed.

{k.l}

she is chaos
she is calm
beyond those
angelic eyes
there is wildness
there is warmth

{k.l}

and
when
she
smiled
right
then
I
knew
this
could
something
be
beautifully
written.

{k.l}

words are made with
flowery lies
and kisses for
bittersweet goodbyes

{k.l}

as i grow older
   i see things way deeper
   than its meaning
   you see...
  
   home isn't just a home
   some are made
   with body,mind,
   and soul

   happiness isn't just a feeling
   some are choices
   and some are simply made with tiny voices
  
   gifts aren't just things
   some are spent with time
   and some are made with words that rhymes

   that's how we conclude on life
   as we age, we get its value
   may it be
   literal or poetical.

{k.l}

I have loved you since
for I know you too well

You never felt the same
for you know me too well, as well.

-k.l

Said you
Don't burn bridges
Guess it's true
Cause the only thing
That's in ashes
Is my heart and soul

-k.l

said
i should
stop
smoking
for it
slowly
kills

but
nobody
see

how

loving you
in secrecy
puts me
to death
instantly

{kem-ann}

in each brewed drink,
your eyes are synced

in every page i scribble,
your words, i remember

as per song i hear,
your voice won't disappear

now tell me boy,
how will i forget

when everywhere i go,
i see you and
your silhouette.

{Kem-ann}

At least for once
I felt your warmth
At least for once
We became one
At least...
At least...
For once,
I passed across through this
Pseudo bliss
Called temporary happiness.

{Kem-ann}

a string, i call him
not strong
not thick
not even sturdy

with every strum,
i stumble upon
with every shake,
i start to flake

as i walk through
between yes and no,
as i pass through
over stop and go,

determined
to slit,
to cut,
or even to chop

whichever you choose
i'm gonna let you loose

no more twines,
of yours and mine
no more strands,
of ifs and buts

finally,
firm and settled
to be free
and untangled.

Roads are damp
weather's cold
You and I in a silent mode

day's fading
air's blowing
a liner convos
with phrases so upsetting

said could not pursuit,
for I'm just a friend
guess, this special treatment
is about to end

Rain's pouring
Sun's rising
A coffee he's brewing,
greets like a kiss and soft good morning

John Mayer's playing
Dancing, twirling with his shirt I'm wearing
Now the pancake I'm smelling,
Is the fragrance I've been craving

Side by side as we sit,
Sudden laughs, that night was lit
Not to forget how we kissed an armpit
and those naughty dares, so hard to omit

Memories from last night...
Endless shots, little fights
Photo snaps and blurred out sights
Surely one for the book worthy to write.