This land that's never set her eyes on war
Never tasted the blood of soldiers
But oh how she has tasted blood
Never tasted salty tears of genocide
But oh how she's tasted tears
Never hungered with her children's famine
But oh how she's hungered
Never brought to her knees with hopeless prayers
But oh how she has prayed
Never lived in constant terror
But oh how she has feared
The innocence that once rest like a quilt on frail shoulders
Ripped away to bear the fierce cold
Comfort, so taken for granted
Will be a beacon of what we'll miss
When all is lost

Foot steps echo through the empty halls
Where have I been?
Where am I now ?
Only bravery let's my eyes open
And through the sliver of an opening
Im blinded by bright white
A room I suppose
Only then do I find that I am chained
Ever lost on this cold table
Then I hear them again
Those foot steps
Only faster
My breath quickens
My hands grip at air
They resent me
I'm a stranger here
I don't wish to see
Anymore
I can feel they're growing bored
Cold hand
Placed upon my stomach
I shrink away as best I could
Then the presence of a cold steel object
And then I knew I was done
But they're ignorance
Will let them die
For I...
Held...
The answer....

I used to believe we were miracles
A gift of the stars above
Yet now my heart grows weary
As I feel the absence of love

The beauty which used to replenish us
The passion which used to revive
Is drowning beneath the anger and lies
I wonder, will it survive?

Such horrible miracles we've become
So deranged and mangled by greed
Is love a shimmer of light in the dark
To which our souls long to lead?


Peace so shriveled and distant
A memory I look upon fondly
A smile so timid, and longing
Whishing that maybe it'd find me

There is a wistful feeling that curls like smoke from the rain clouds
As feet splash in puddles reflecting the sky

The sound of rain beating it's fists against the glass
As the rain washes away the dirt
Making everything new

There is a feeling of kindred spirits as I stare up at the sky
And see the moon ebbing alongside the stars
A feeling of homesick illness washes over me

There is a feeling of deep despair as I walk in the night
Silence is heavy, resting on my shoulders
I am always waiting

For that feeling

Take the dreams I once voiced so fondly
Take them and smash them to dust
Take those moments my heart was pounding
Take them for I know you must

Sweep them under the rug and forget them
Sweep them away without a thought
Sweep them so far I won't be tempted
Sweep them away like you were taught

Swimming through the river of forgetfulness,
But my mind clings to my memories
The water ebbs and caresses my body
Lulls me to let go
But as I try my soul struggles
A soft pulling eases me away
In the shadows I lay,
Something I was nudging at
Let lose to pillage my mind
I don't want to let go
I want to remain what I used to be
Not much, but still a person
Still me
Slowly time wins, my grip fails to hold on
My soul fades
I wander
I lose my way in the thick smoke
And I forget,
I reach land and pull my body from,
The Torrent Of forgetfulness

Where am I to go?
I wander but have no home
Where am I to stay?
With no pillow, my head to lay

Where am I to sleep?
With no bed of mine to keep
Where am I to go?
When I wander all alone

Over the hill
A bird softly sings
A sad chirp
Off dewy grass rings

Forlorn and forgetful
It pumps its wings
As a thunder storms
The lighting softly stings

There was a tapping
That made it turn its head
It creeped up louder
Filling a little heart with dread

Beating its chest
Like the doldrums do
A quiet quest
As the solemn bird flew

Sore and soaring higher
It’s wings grew tired
The whispers of a liar
The bird now expired

Plummet back to Earth
It hit with a thud
Decaying in a hearse
And buried in the mud

There was a sad chirping
It’s haunting dewy hills
In the darkness it’s lurking
Lies always ****

Remarkable love
The word in which I choose to describe love

Tangible love
The way you feel it graze your skin
And stare into the depths of eyes
That share such a vigorating feeling

Undaunting love
Love has brought me through the dirt
Yet raised me from the ground and kissed my wounds
The beauty is regal and untamed
A vicious foe yet filled with an undying loyalty
It is uncapturable, as fluctuating as the erratic beat of my heart

Formidable love
Love knows me yet I am a stranger
Staring wide eyed at the looming colossal figure
The beast that calms me
The only one that tames my fiery heart  
Until my flame is a soft flicker against the moonlight

Desirable love
Until fingers graze skin
And lips tremble in the proximity
Chests press a hard thud against familiar flesh
And pulses raise

Remarkable love

I will never tell you how I imagined my suicide in the shower
How I watched myself take the frozen metal rails
And lifted my one shaking leg over the bridge
And stared down at the ice cold, daunting gaze of the great Mississippi
How I closed my eyes and pictures your face
While the cold pierced my skin and my woes pierced my heart
I will never tell you the effort it took to slid my other leg over the railing and step into my coffin
Watching the river crash it's arms against the ice
I will never say how terror gripped my insides knowing that this beast would swallow me whole
Yet knowing I cannot swim gives me comfort
Once I fall the water will push me under, beneath its arms and into it's belly
I will never tell you how time froze as I fell  
My face casted towards the stars
The cold wind holding me suspended in air for a few granted moments as I whisper my goodbyes
Goodbye moon, my lips shake against the syllables
Goodbye love, my eyes damp with defeat
Goodbye fear, my heart thrumming in my chest
Goodb-

He was a majesty in a world unjust
A place full of death and mistrust
He breathed fire, and his heart was of magic
Gifted to a mortal, who died a death so tragic.

Silent lies the child upon the cobblestone
His beating heart no longer his own
But darkness, betrayal and evil awaited
For the boy to grow and become acquainted.

A man of honor rode up upon his black stead
Sword in one hand the other filled by a bottle of mead
Beside him rode a half-wit poet
Who was a knight himself but didn't know it.

They watched as the kingdom grew corrupt
Lead by a king who should have never grew up
For the heart that beat beneath his breast
Did not belong to his heaving chest.

And with courage from a poor man who had lost his sight
They gathered their forces with a boast of might
And charged at the castle with a horrific roar
To find that courage there, existed no more.

That night they rode away for they were beat
And many discouraged hung their heads in defeat
But just along the brim of the moon
Came a hovering shadow not a minute to soon.

The scaled majesty with the wings of the night
A beast hidden from mankinds sight
Inside his chest beat half a heart
For the other beat miles apart.

In the chest of a coward that had lived in vain
A man that had suffered many in pain
The dragon held up his wings in the cold nights air
And roared "slay me know before he gets here."

But that noble knight felt a guilt like no other
For that dragon he must slay was like a brother
Although he loathed the beast once when his head was not right
He did not loath the creature that dreadful night.

But with the seconds counting down the beast yelled it again
And this time he swung the sword into the chest of his friend
With a terrible screech it fell to the ground
And was parted by the tears of everyone around.

That dragon now belongs to the stars that watch over the dark
And if you look closely you'll see the dragons spark
It was a bravery that saved a village that was broken apart
Because there is no greater strength than a brave dragons heart.

Our love is our sin
hand in hand
It's where their hate begins
Something pure they don't want to understand

Stab me, make me bleed
but my love is my right
**** me, forget me
but my love is my fight

Beat me and bruise me
Preach me my indiscretion
Scream I'm going the wrong way
I've fallen into the wrong direction  

Tell me you need to save me
Life would be better if I saw through your eyes
But I don't want this life
If I'm living through your lies

Burn me, cage me
But this love is right
Hate me, starve me
But I will fight

It was a gloomy Saturday night
As I walked the staircase to hell
All rage and ready to fight
Too bad this angel fell

A book in the corner full of sins
A trail of people left drained
A closet full of different skins
So I could switch mine if it got stained

A path surronded by flames
A throne fit for a queen
Curtains woven by shame
I was in a mood to be mean

A smirk firmly in place
No regret left inside
Not a tear on my face
I didn't want to hide

I stood before hells jury
Fairness was not insight
No one could stand before his fury
But I was a bomb strapped by might

The gavel slams, Im guilty
Of course it's true
I was on the brink of insanity,
where I want to be

But no chains
No bars
No cage
Would hold me

This was my throne
I would make this my home
So with a grin on my face
I took my place
And I started a riot in hell

I come home to get away from the hate
Get slapped for being two minutes late
Look for the mother I used to know,
When had I become so slow?
She doesn't love me
She hates me
With the rest of the world
The people who claim
To love me the same
All lies!
Frauds!
You don't love me!
You only use me
Because I'm the only one left
Because she left
You rather it was her in the picture frame
You wish you could be saying her name
Yeah I guess I'm better off dead
No one would miss me anyway
It would just be another day

I asked myself,
why am I proud of being a Human being?
For a while I didn't know
I could only think of all the wrong I'm seeing
painted in blood on the ivory snow.

I thought to myself,
humans are weak and afraid of the truth,
we hurt others to appease ourselves.
People use lies in place of solid proof,
for golden trophy's placed on their shelves.

I watched
as people laughed and hurt one another
for something as invaluable as fame.
And as I did I felt guilty
to be apart of a race put to shame.

I watched
as bravery was described as a man behind a gun
killing in the name of "peace"
I saw people hating and judging for fun
because that was what looked good at the time.

I saw death
on the news, in the papers, on the streets
and cried as the blood was spilled
I watched people fighting one another
for a position so irrelevant being filled.

I watched gangs go to war
because he's black and he's white
I saw people excluding one another
because she prefers dark while she prefers light.

But when I flipped to the next page
I saw that they held out their hand
to people in need
They gave their knowledge to those who didn't understand
and take in those that they feed.

I saw a smile in the crowd
when hope was not in sight
and I saw a warring man
put down his gun in that fight.

I watched them build a neighbor's house
when the going got tough
I saw them lend a shoulder
when the days got to rough.

I saw another man preach
when we needed a change
and I saw another one accept
when the other was strange.

We'll never be utopia
no but we can try to be

It's here and now
Not then
I'm ready to face my fears
I've been avoiding for years
I'm ready to get up
Tower over them
Eyes shining so immensely
Armor around me
I feel strong
I feel like the warrior
Of the amazon
That I am
Sword raised
A battle Cry at my tounge
Charging into the abyss
Of this battle
I fight do fericly  
No one will knock me down
My blood will not spill
Upon the ground
I am to high
Wings spread with the grace and beauty
Of a queen
Tall with pride
Armed by confidence
Ive never felt this before
This is new
Unique
Antic
But my stride doesnt falter
I am ready to do this
Prove myself to myself
These shadows comfort
Is not needed
I am ready

Sun in the fresh skies
The air grows warmer by day
Soak in the soft breeze

Must I say it out right?
Must I yell it in your ear?
Do you not see me pushing you away?
Your not who you used to be
Your bit the same guy who made me
Happy!
I hate you now,
You ruined my memories
You scarred me once
I thought it would pass
Scarred me twice
I leaned away
But now it's three times
Just leave me alone
It isn't attractive for you
To show up uninvited
It isn't attractive for you to persist
Until I want to bang my head against a wall
I don't like the way you've become
I don't like how you push me to do the same
I am not your friend
This friendship , past relationship
Has ended
Stop calling
Stop texting
Leave me Alone
I don't want to go back to the days
When I was a ***** up
When I just didn't care
When I didn't use my brain
When I made bad decisions
I'm just done
With you
I've gave you chances
And you failed each time
I'm done giving up my energy
For someone who doesn't care
About *me

Four years old
Christmas day
Dressed up with braids
Streaming down my back
Wait in the chairs
With an eager grin
In place
Mommy says wait here
My angel she is
But mommy comes back
With tears in her eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
I want to see him
My daddy
Where is he?
Mommy only grabs me
And clutches me to her chest
Whispers 'baby I'll try my best'
I don't understand
Untill now
He never came
He probably doesn't remember my name
I'm just another girl
With a worthless father
Who doesn't care
Who will never be there
And I'm not okay with that
All those days that I sat
Waiting for a hero
Who never existed
Was it me who insisted?
That we be one big family?
My tears were wasted
On a man not brave enough
To stand
He sent my world sinking
On land....
It doesn't matter
I was never his
Only my mothers
Who was braver than any soldier
Fought wars on her own
Beat the world
At the worst odds
She was my god
I look up farther than anyone
To my mom
I will love her no matter what
Because she did
She gave me her all
Picked me up when I would fall
Walked me through this crowded hall
Cleared the broken pieces of my heart
To be sure I was never cut
I love you ...
Never leave me

The humming rush of water
Is hypnotizing me
The songs of lonely birds
All perched on separate trees

The soft rattling
The brush of vibrant leaves
All pull a string that's deeply
Planted in the roots of me

Chiming along
I am a lonely bird
Perched upon a tree
Where no one sees

Crying out
I sing with the clouds
Wings lifted
Ready to flee

Tentatively brush dark leaves
With muster I push on to see
Where this overgrown path
will lead

Lungs filled
Intoxicated
On the fresh
Breeze.

So drawn I push forward
What do I see
But a small part
Of what appears to be me

I step forward
One more time
I am longing
To see

Where this
Path
Will
Lead

Do I continue
Will I succeed
Do I push forward
Do I proceed

Am I lost inside
This lonely forest
Do I hide
Where no one sees

Do I wait alone
Where the silence lulls me
to hypnotic tones

Of lonely birds shown
perched upon a tree

Hear her wails in the dead of night
they signify someones death tonight.
Foreboding this harbinger of deaths message
does wait at the threshold.

The reaper comes and snags you,
brings you through the shadows pull.
You think of how it came to be
that your life, so wonderful,
has come to an end.
With one Banshee's call.

Winter wraps its fingers
in my frozen heart
never ceasing

Giving my burning chest
frigid air that
keeps me breathing

Sinners don't look back
Everyday we fall from grace
We are all sinners