Passing of time
Another year
Older this day
The signs are here
Im happy yet sad
Because of my growing age
This is bad
Like I'm on a stage
Everyone expects a show
Expecting magical tricks for me to grow
But I feel the same no older then yesterday
It's driving me insane
This constant responsibility
I'm a teenager for Godsake
Don't spoil it now!
I'm not an adult
Just leave me be
Before I'm cast into the retched society
Reality *****

Beware the steps you take
Are hazardous,
I am dangerous
Your fragile hands can break so easily
Think of your heart my dear
That would be tragic
If I tore from you
Your beating heart
My love is undying in your eyes
But I am not one to be loved
I do not deserve your faithful gaze
I hand you back your heart
But keep mine
I will always remember you love
For all time

Angels are crying
as i stand on the edge of this bridge
i pray that i have the guts
maybe i shouldnt
but what am i living for?
nobodys there
nobody will stop me
but still my heart sputters
a beat that doesnt sound right
but i hurt so much
everydays a struggle
i fight back the suffering
choke back my cries
i look in the mirror
a face undeserving of
happiness
trying to hold myself together
trying to hold them together to
wish i could cut these suffocating strings
wrapped around me
binding me
chaining me
here
wish i could spill everything im feeling
but the words dont exist
i wish i could take this all away
but theres no way
i can only silence them for a minute
as i stand looking down at the swishing swirling
water below me
maybe it would be fast
maybe it would last

Missing you when I am the one
Who banished you
From my life
In your looks
There isn't anything to special
But it is not your face or body
That draws me to you
It's the tug of your heart to mine
For some unfounded reason
It's you I always glance back at
And I know you have the worst habits
But we are young
There's room for mistakes to be made
So we can grow
But I feel as though if I confess
I might just make a mess
Of these stitches we finally managed to sew
If I tell you my secrets
Will you take me in your arms?
Or will you cast me away?
This deliema has me restless
When I see you
I avert my eyes
Because you can always read what lies behind
The green walls to my soul
Maybe I was to scared and to young
Before
But now ... I just want to know
That I didn't leave your mind so soon
Possibly .... That when you claimed
You .... Loved me
You ment it
I was scared back beneath my covers
By that four letter word
I've seen , I've felt it used to betray
Used to hurt
My bruised heart
Beats with a ragged thump
Do dare I risk the last pulse on you?

Predators eyes
Wings out spread
Softly brush
The air
Waring screech
Colder air
Two distinctive
Strips of white
Nighthawk

I see but I don't observe,  I see these trees' but do I actually see them? the billowing leaves in their natural luster, I see them as not individuals but a thick cluster, I observe and I see that each is different, some yellowing, some turning a vibrant red, and some as green as when they first sprouted, this same principle goes for how I see but do not observe people, I see hair color, skin color, eyes, and shapes, but I have not observed
Had I, I could've seen personality, my foolish eyes lead me to see apprence, so I will not judge by what I see, but of what I observe

Behind a curtain
Blind to the eye
To this I am certain
The Dead Land resides

Watch with my soul
I seek thee
I stare into the scrying bowl
I see thee

Crying these diamond tears
Screaming your name
It falls to deaf ears
Darkness you remain

Knocking on the livings door
You want to be known
Your heart beat, no more
Like a bad call through a phone

You're fading in and out of life
The light no where to be seen
Shadows impale your being like a knife
And you're silent as you scream

Sharp golden eyes
Peer from the trees
Soft rhythmic purr
Summons me
Interest peeked
A calling
Of hope
Hello?
Don't leave
I will walk among you
Sisters
I will travel the soil path
Up the hills
Past the clearing
To the cave
That seems to ward away
All the evil
Her long body
Slouches into the mouth
Golden eyes
Lighting the way
My bare feet
Against the cold stone
I grip my arms
Where do you take me
Madre De Los Gatos?
Where do you lead
Beautiful Pantera
I see
You show me my path
I will walk straight
Among you my sister
Thank you

I have been left here waiting
For you to stop breaking me
And the thoughts I'm debating
Are starting to frighten me
You said that I was nothing
A meaningless pice of dirt
But I thought I was something
And that's why it really hurt
To think I was in your heart
Was so foolish I could die
And tragically fell apart
From all your deceitful lies
I am broken pieces lying about
Be careful you might slip and cut yourself on the glass

I lay here picturing how this school year will be,
Even though I know it will never be what I imagine,
There will be drama, and hurt feelings,
Tears, and laughter, love, and love loss,
Laying here I'm anxious to find out, but also scared,
I'm not a really shy person, but my insecurities always seem to drag me away from my true potential,
Maybe this year will be full of good memories,
Maybe it will be my worst year,
But it does no good to lay here,
Torturing myself with the "maybes"  Or "what ifs' "
I have to live and endure it to truly find out

These chains across a battered soul
The fear that never becomes whole
The page I seem to always skip
The path I seem to always slip
The cry that always seems to bare
The pain that always resides there
The broken that no one understands
The survivors that dropped each others hands
The song that never meets its end
The perfect life that's always pretend
The love that doesn't exist
The ones you always seem to miss
The memories that seem so faded
The wounded hearts so filthy and jaded
The need to just be numb
The constant reminder that you're dumb
The words that cut deeper than knives
I bless your heart if you survive

My heart trembles
As I stand above the air
Floating
Soaring
No words to describe the impossible
The sun in my reach
The moon lays hidden
But I can feel it
A wingless bird
Flying higher than the rest
My dreams in pursuit
So close to my fingertips
So tangible
I'm breathing in the possible
That line that had been drawn
Was being crossed
All my hope regained
That had been lost
Encircled in the clouds
Smelled of opportunity

I have doubt,
But you always believe in me,
You have doubt,
But I push you forward,
I begin to fall,
But you hold me up,
You begin to lose faith,
But I give you hope,
Together we can become great,
Seperate we might just throw it away,
We can explore the depths of our art,
We can push each other to extend our minds ,
So lets become greatness,
And leave our doubt behind

My blood runs across my flesh
He's here again
here to take me away.

The halls are dark,
and the moon washes in pale light across the floor
My tears don't fall this time,
I am not afraid.

His black wings caress the plush white carpet
stained by my life essence,
and his eyes are filled with such hate
and the blood of his innocent victims
the candles on the window pane burst to life
and the wind whispers across my damp skin.

I raise my shaking hand towards him
begging for him to end the pain,
as crimson liquid spills from my severed veins
they hit the ground and turn to black.

His eyes watch me in curiosity
but his lips curl in a knowing grin
he lifts one hand and shakes one long bony finger,

"You have one chance little one," he whispers

But I've gone too far to look back
I turn to the window,
and watch the white curtains billowing in the icy wind.

"I'm ready," I whisper.

The white curtains touch the tips of the flame
and roar into a hungry sea of fire

"There is no forgiveness once you cross the line,"

I stare at the flames as they bend and flicker
as if they're dancing
taunting me.

My mind was already made.

"There has never been forgiveness for me, my soul belongs to you,"

And as soon as the last word drops from the tip of my tongue
I'm engulfed in the flames.

Alone the room spun
The days war had been won
And though I wished to shed my tears
A princess may never show proof of her fears

Many times I've blundered
Beneath storms thunder
But I'd give my life to the kingdom
To regain their freedom

My arms tied, I'd given up love
My eyes closed, I gave my heart a shove
But a trickster popped in
And gave my world a spin

It was a triangle of death, the valley of hell
Because to which one I loved I couldn't tell
My heart belonged in the hands of a friend
We'd soon be wed, though our love was pretend

The queen would soon lose her throne
And I'd remain , all alone
With a crown to rule upon my head
My mother... Would be dead

Her powers killed her slowly she was thirty nine
Lucky that wouldn't happen with mine
Scolded by the glares of my kin
I wondered when the peace would begin

The owl perched high
Traumatizing skies
Little feet tap the ground

Spotted by sharp eyes
Little mouse cries
Owl dips low with no sound

All goes back to normal
Silent killer
Perched again

A choir sings behind me
Collapsed on the floor
My heart beat once more
My hand outstretched
For a prince that never came
For a hero that never saved the day
Crashing at a million miles per hour
Towards a bottomless pit
****** away, chewed up then spit,
Nothing more than a residue
Left over
A mere mark
Of what might've existed
A wasted prayer
Among the mass
One teacher
Of an uncaring class
Fog on glass
Wiped away
Night to the sun
A passed day
Nothing more
Everything less
Left as an empty shell
I'm alone again
Without your touch
I'm not much
My heart ....
There is no beat
My finger tips to the stars....
They do not meet
My time is up
I'll say goodbye
With tears in my eyes
And pain wedging my throat
I leave tonight ..... On the lowest note

The leaves fall,
drifting to the ground
The shadows impend,
embrace and surround

Empty eyes,
staring back at me
I see my reflection,
it's mocking me

It's cold in here,
let me out
I won't run,
erase your doubt

Please,
these chians do weigh
They tether my heart,
so I must stay

I just want to see the light,
glowing orbs in the sky
I just want to feel the stars,
inside my skin tonight

This starlight serenade,
wraps me in its trance
I feel it taking over me,
It forces me to dance

Oh moonlight lover,
so high within the sea of blue
Take these chains from me,
so I may dance with you

My heart bleeds the lyrics 
You once sang in my ear 
And my eyes are dry 
Except for one last tear 
That seems to move slow 
And I can't speak these words 
But I know that you know 
That, that last silent kiss 
Was goodbye 
Even though I feel as if i've died 
I'm letting go of the fights 
I'm going home tonight 
Heartbeats will go on 
Even though mine used to skip one 
For you 
Because you used to hold me 
In your warm embrace 
My heart would then race 
Rest assured 
My broken heart wont be cured 
I was lured into your trap 
And you weren't afraid to snap 
Down on me 
And now I must leave 
From this pain 
That has since strained 
My life

Even though I'm hopeless
I try to keep on
But then everywhere I look
Tragedy strikes
Kills me a little more
I'm fighting not to cry
I'm fighting to look strong
But truth is I've died
I'm numb
Cold
Struggle to breath
I just need to cry
I need to let out this knocking pain
It's like an ocean
Drownding me
In my sorrows
Im alone with my misery
Take my hand
Bring me to the afterlife
It might be nice
I can breath in fresh air
Without their cryptic stare
I will be at rest
At peace

Snow flakes falling in the abyss
Cold antic whispers of sin
The frozen trail deaths finger tips leave across your soul
Mendacious eyes in the dark
A crook of a finger
Leads you farther into the dark
Hand in hand with the beast with wings of the angles
Satans halo warped and bloodied
Stains of the sinners sins on his robe
Evil lays in wake, but slumbers deeply
Hope is running out
Tick of the cracked face clock
The night of an eclipse
Alls dark for a few seconds
****** a few innocents
Corrupt them
Then consume

They say we have freedom,
But why do I feel so trapped?
I feel like a prisoner in a mild prison,
I can't understand why people degrade each other for who they are, what they like, who they love,
It's not the world I want to be apart of,
If the things we want the most are war, hate, and rudeness,

Cold beauty
Sing to me
Frosted breath
My lungs carry notes above the mountains
Hold me while we lay  in this bed of snow
Keep me warm so I know
That you will never let me go
In this ice castle we sit
Upon our throne
You the king
And I your queen
We have no gold
No maids to cater to us
No authority over a court
We simply build up riches of love
Your and mine
And combined
We could own the world
Bring forth the wine
Sliding on ice floors
Open doors
Windows high
Believe to touch the sky
Sing a lullaby
Don't let me go
I've suffered enough
My life has been tough
Just keep me warm
And show me love
That would be enough
And my heart would be yours
This is forsure
My king
My king
In this ice castle
My dreams will come true
Without a wish upon a star
Without a wish tossed down a well
You are mine
And I am yours
Because in love
I fell

Chocking on my tears 
Wish I could die 
I hate my life 
Blood on my arm 
Pain tingles down 
I can't keep back these tears 
I wish I could leave 
She hates me 
She's so mean 
No matter what I do 
She shoves me away 
I wish this was my last day 
Can't stand this anymore 
I've shut the final door 
Im taking this leap
No one will miss me 
No one will look 
They won't read my book 
My stories to long 
They wont sing my song 
The world doesn't need me 
I should just leave 
Maybe god will accept me 
I doubt it 
No one loves me 
I'm a pity 
Stupid 
Ugly 
Worthless 
All her words 
She doesn't care

Troublesome headache wont go away
Pain in my heart, and my left leg
Tears in my eyes, coffee in my hand
I walk on
Like I am invincible
As if Im not afraid
As if I dont fall down
As if I dont get hurt
Angry, throwing things around the room
It's to empty
No echoes of our screams
I want to breath with out the sob stuck in my throat
I want to close my eyes
And not see you
I want to lay in my bed
Without the company of the hot liquid down
My broken face
I want to be me without you
But I'm torn
I need one more hug to assure me
That you dont really hate me
I want to feel strong again
Instead of ill