I stared at my hands for 3 hours today
trying to remember what it was like to hold you
but all I could think about,
was that I wouldn't be able to do it again

-hh

"you didn't do anything to deserve this."
"then why are you leaving..."
"because I don't deserve to be loved by you. it's not fair to the person that's supposed to be."

-hh

I dream of stars that burn like the fire in my soul and I yearn for the cool, green grass to calm my restless mind.



... and there I stayed
Buried in the field of daisies
because freedom
isn't always worth the fight



what a sad world it can be when somebody has stolen you and run off into the night.




It pains me to see that you can stand tall, when I can't stand at all..

I feel ***** because of what you did to me
and no matter how many times I clean myself.
The image of your hands on my body
Never seems to fade away...

And you let her go,
You had too...
Because she was freedom
And you were just
another cage...

I don't fear the monsters
That lurk in the shadows
I fear the ones
That are already
in my head

-hh

Take a deep breathe
and let go of the past
You can't reach the future
If you keep opening wounds

-hh

In an ocean of words,
I drown in the ones
you never said

-hh

And without warning or reason at all,
The sun parted through the clouds in your soul.
And all at once you were warm again,
as if the bitter winter had never come.
You started to feel the light within
And I'm so happy you're back in the sun
Because nobody deserves to spend an eternity
in the dark.

I sit
Picking the petals off the flowers.
You hate me
You love me
You hate me
You love me
Now
All the petals are gone
and I'm still left with what I started with
Dead flowers
and a broken heart...

Satan himself is an angel compared to you.

No one could save her, she was already gone.

She had died inside a long time before.

She was so good at faking, she fooled herself into believing she was happy.

They tried to save the body, not the girl

All the alcohol in the world couldn't numb the pain I feel tonight.

It's not your fault for leaving, it's my fault for trusting you to stay.

Don't call me your angel when you almost made me one.

And nobody could foresee the you, you turned out to be..

You think you've seen her naked because she took her clothes off?
Tell me about her dreams.
Tell me what breaks her heart.
What is she passionate about, and what makes her cry?
Tell me about her childhood.
Better yet, tell me one story about her that you're not in.

You've seen her skin, and you've touched her body.
But you still know as much about her as a book you once found,
but never got around to opening.

The devil doesn't always appear with a red cape and horns.
Sometimes he is beautiful.
Like a fallen angel
because he is
and he was gods favorite...

And you taught me not to give my heart away.

You taught me not to trust strong arms and tall bodies.
You taught me that strong arms can wrap around my neck, just as easily as they can wrap around my waist.
You taught me that tall bodies are good to hold, but can hold you back, just as forcefully as they can hold you down.
I learned that you can't trust strong arms and tall bodies.
I learned that you shouldn't fall for sweet words and the perfect smile

And I learned not to give my heart to fallen angels because they'll put it through hell.

I'll lay my head down
and try to forget about you
and all the memories we share
because you would rather be strangers
than pretend to love me anymore.

Little girl tears
and little girl fears
coming to life
over the years

You lived in my closet
and under my bed
but now I find you
living in my head

Nightmares come
in many forms
mine appear
as crashing storms

Awaiting the day
when I'll be set free
But ******* a monster
when the monster is me