There is a chaos in my beats,
A sound of some sin keeps calling me
The elicited filth is blurring my vision
The guilt of my iniquitous deeds keeps visiting me!

A conflict is there, between my soul and body,
I am pulling away from myself to myself!
This pain in my heart keeps withering my poor soul!

In search of love, I left no stone unturned!
My toes are bruised while walking barefoot up to hills,
I've seen the thorns stuck in my skin and flesh!
O death! Come take me away from myself!!

Come, see, I have some pain in chest,
Come, let me put your arms around me!
Here, see the coldness in my soul,
Come let me hear the sound of your breath,

Come, hide yourself in my breast,
Come let's escape from this world
Let me steal from hearts of others
Come, Let me shed all the tears of grief,

I've a home, conquered by your absence,
A heart, stabbed by your desolation,
Let me be the consolation under your feet,
Come, let me hear my name from your tongue!

We had thought of escaping the nights together
We had thought of drawing figures on the dark wall,
Who has freed us from these evil cages?

Do you remember when we used to walk together
Do you remember when we used to laugh together,
Yes i do, i remember when I fell down!

Aren't you the same whose name i had written on my breast?
Aren't you the same whose name I used to chant?
Weren't you an unending poem for me?

What should I say now, where are you friend?
Or should I say, come your presence is being missed?
It is like, without you neither do i live nor do i die!

Look at these beautiful leaves,
These graceful colours,
Alas! These leaves betray the trees,
These colours fade away and
This reminds me of you!

Look at these beautiful streams
These unagitated waters,
Alas! These waters form fierce storms
Everywhere, look, there are people dancing
Look there is a charming joy spread everywhere,
Alas! These dances change into mournings
This joy too falls away,
And this reminds me of you!

These changing seasons, these uncertain rains,
These burning souls, these unhonoured promises,
These broken down people, these flowing tears
Everything that exists, reminds me of you!

I don't know why,
Why I escape the shades
and curse the sun for getting me warm!
I don't why my soul is flinching the world!

The horror of nights and that grimness
of days, don't let me sleep or remain awake
I don't know, if I am still living or
This life has deserted me before a long!

The soothing music tears me apart and
That lethal silence intimidates my fragile heart!
I don't know if I still belong to myself or
I have been snatched away before a long!

Without you, I am so restless...
Only you are visible in my eyes
I  lost you, I lost the sleep of the nights
I have said everything in silence
We moved on, without knowing anything,
I had got the world when I had got you...
I still remember  your smiles
All you say is intoxicating..
I still get lost in your thoughts
I had peace in my heart when I had you!
I am all yours,
Don't care, whether I exist or not
Only your presence remained after being separated
You were so close even after being far
I ain't satisfied even after the millions of meetings
I lost everything when I lost you...!!

And how does one ask for help? Or plead and not feel
Pity, shame? And does one ever grunt and say what one needs to say?
At some point in the yarn of the time, how does one
Look over one’s shoulder to reconcile,
How does one open a mouth to say
“I am lost. I think” But does one truly think,
Or act on the impulses.
Or calm oneself to ask. Ask!


And “When should I think?” I ask
“soon,” I say, “soon, on some wintery night,
When my windowpanes creak in the cold,
When my steel glass never gets warm,
I might think or ask, how does one not think?
and find a reason to reason with it;
The weary long journey, how it doesn’t end
And seems to start at every corner of the road”
“Perhaps, I shall shave my head
and wash my face with some fragrant soap
or trim my beard to look sharp and address it,
perhaps, soon!”

Don't you ever leave me
Coz we have been bonded
For an infinite time
Without you  i don't have
a journey, nor any destination
I see nothing except you

O God !! I can't convince and
they can't feel......
Change their hearts if
You won't change my tongue

One day, maybe one day,
We will meet,
I'll concede your face
And a spark will lighten up my eyes!

After seeking permission, I'll
Hold your hand, like the old times,
One day, maybe one day,
I'll laugh from my heart.

After asking permission,
We'll walk then, abreast,
One day, maybe one day,
We'll walk beyond their sights

Don't you mind, if I Put my
head in your lap and sleep,
‎ one day, maybe one day,
Besides you, I'll sleep forever!
‎

I've been falling from the skies
And I see no grounds, where I can just strike,
Where my blood will smear all over.
Nah! No poem or any story is it!
Just an image of my thoughts!
How beautifully am i messed!
How my flaws are haunting me!
I see nightmares, in which I've seen my death
They, taking me in a coffin, walking so fast!
I see myself crying, hailing as loud as possible
They ain't listening to me!
Then I open my eyes and see I'm still alive
But look! I am dead inside!
Now no one is carrying me!
No coffins, no crowds, but a lone me!
I cry, I hail, they hear and laugh!
I see a darkness all around,
I see some ascaping souls,
Laughter of them tears my heart!
I see moments stuck,
I see the fierce sounds arising from somewhere!
Why this restlessness my friend? Why?
Now come, emerge from this darkness  
For my quests are unfinished without you!

A blink of words
That can't be said
Or even be written
She is poem of thousand words


She is fierce and gentle
All at once
She's a song
An unending song


She is a sparkle
She is a shine
She is the only thing
That i want to call mine

She is my everyday
And an everynight
She is every morning
And an every twilight


She is all i know
She is all i see
She is a sweet melody
She is an  unmatching rhythm