I had you once but you chose to walk away.
My poems brought you back to me for a night, and you begged me to stay.
I did till I knew that I would only be a secret for the night.
I wish you could see I was mr. Right.

The roads I must take to get you a seem endless to you, but I will walk however long it takes to spend one more night under the stars with my precious delight.

Lies *** drugs life woman ***** respect dying love lost trouble *** smoking drunk bang theories hate cant wont music cold sweat wilpower slower apologize blonde.

Words are optional.

Love ***** with the wrong person who cant use words, But you cant blame them.

Words are optional.

Good luck and take what you will.

To be loved by you
Was greater than time
Reminiscing old photographs
And watching home movies
I am reminded of the love you gave
Hearing your voice
Seeing your smile
Makes time irrelevant
You gave me a home to hold on to
When I have nothing left

After the last one we just kinda gave up, as a whole generation of people finding their one and only.
Both sides spilling poison into the water making each person hurt like we do inside.
Cheating on eachother because if it happened to us, why cant it happen to them.
Flirting with new people online because its harmless fun, I didnt make my significant other go to sleep this early and NOT give me any attention.
Sleeping with every person out there because self empowerment and being a ***** (both sides) merged into being the same thing instead of having decency and self respect.

I dont wanna be 30 and still be tryin to "hang" at the bar. I wanna be at home with my family.

I want to come home from a rough day at work and see my beautiful wife look at me with a sigh of relief because she generally missed me not using me as a relief from the kids.

I want the best part of my day, to be waking up to her smile and wish me a good morning, and seeing her at the end of a hard work day assuring me everything will be ok.

I want a romance with love and passion not a one night fling

To the people that hurt us,
To the people that we love and trusted...
This goes out to you.

That feeling you get when you put all your eggs in one basket... fuckem.

How dare you be with me and think of another, how dare you through all of the pain and suffering I put up with, mostly your ****, dream of someone else.

We are all human and we make mistakes, so I forgive you to some point because iv been there. But to like it? To love a dream with you in there arms while with me...

You had your chance with them and you didnt last. Im with you and we barely last... you forever want to be alone?

Im done playing the victim of your games, you are so easy to point a finger, who hurt who first... are you that naive?

Please read this and tell me im wrong, a hypocrite, or have no clue as to what im talking about... the same **** you tell me and yourself just to get you through the day. This pain that I feel..

One day ill make you feel much worst, problem is, why should I hurt for loving someone like you when you cant have what you want and settle for someone like me?

Aint life a painful *****.

Pain is a beautiful thing, isnt it?
In pain we achieve a higher mind set of life, such as "I will never do that again". False, you will till you stop feeling pain.
Remember that time you confused love, with a life lesson?

Pain is power, it can create body builders and models. Pain *****, to feel for someone who doesnt feel the same way.
Pain is loves opposite, not hate.  Pain is that same deep hurt of emotional stress that interferes in everyday life, such as love.  

The after math of love, or even liking someone causes a pain that flows through you like boiling blood, nothing can take your mind off it.

In my eyes the one thing thats most pure and true other then death, is looking up to a clear sky and seeing the vibrant and bright moon.
So rare in its beauty, yet to be seen by anyone who takes the time to look and enjoy it.
I wonder if it could think or comprehend beauty of it knew how majestic it is.
Same could be told about my woman, used to be my woman.
Now my moon hurts me when I look at it, floods my mind with things that once was and never could be.

I find it impossible
To describe her
flawless beauty.

Her Radiant eyes
Even through
The lines
Her black frames
Drive me Insane

The way her hair
Falls along her face
Hides the fear
Without a trace.

Flawless
Radiant
Stunning

The clock ticks hard,
Tick
TOCK
Tick
TOCK
as it chimes and rings, I wonder how many more rings it has left? As many times as it will before someone stops taking care of it.
This is one old piece of history, this clock has seen people come and go at all different times. If this face could speak or its hands point to a destination, the wonders.
Sad that one day this clock will stop making sure people go when they need too, that its chime will go unappreciated, ringing for no one to hear.
Like the clock I too, chime deeply. Travel throughout time, meeting the people I need to meet in my youth and then, ill be inadequate, go inappropriated, and be forgotten like a small clock on a ledge.
Ill be known forever in peaceful silence..

Its nights like this, where my thoughts are heavy weighing on my lonely heart.

I try not to think of the hardships of my past, but never the less... You come in.

I miss you when I cant sleep,
I miss you in my front seat,
Singing your tune
Laughing till noon
I still here missing you.

Im connected to a dead heart, pushing and pulling, restless...

I want to just give up, why do I have the will to fight? Why cant I just leave and never look back?
I just want it to be over.

As the random rain drops fall, and seep into the eroded cracks of the earth
Depression falls into my already crippled body withering away my judgement.
My compassion for love.
Yet I hold onto the rain
Unable to move.
Judgement slipping
Please send sunshine.

We all go through little lies and false ideas throughout the day. Is it wrong? I pretend like the best of them. **** I could be an actor like no other. Not only to hide feelings and emotions from anyone, but to even lie to myself that im doing a good thing by justifying my actions. I act big and tough truth is I hate fighting, only been in a handfull and lucky my anger did most of the work. Im a coward, I fear **** near every little thing including the dark...
*** is something im good at but I have to actually get into character to last longer, to fake love, or even that she is good enough to make me ***. I say im a real man, but a real man dosnt need a plethora of women to make himself a man. A man only needs one woman to take care of, sacrifice after sacrifice. Anything she needs your there at a moment notice. No texting behind her back to flirt with a girl. No saying your at the bar or a buddy house when your actually knee deep in some strange... iv been there to all those places. I even lie about being ok to be alone. Not suicidal or anything, but with boredom comes thoughts of sadness. Im a pretender through and through.

Push it down,
       Always push it down
                          Never show her
Never show her your feelings again

                                         Keep pushing
                           Deep down
Till you can't feel it  
  But you will
         Like a pebble in your shoe.
              It dosnt hurt, just an annoying pain
      Till you do something with it

Never.
Keep it pushed down, no matter what.
Never show your feelings,

Your pain
                Your stress
                                   Your tears

"Please don't go, I love you so..."

That was the tune I would sing, repeat it like it would somehow get you to stay...

You wanna go? go, im done trying to stop you.
Since you have no idea what you want, good luck going, because you honestly are perfect for me, so far.

Soon ill find a place for another, an I hope you do the same, however, if your lonely and drunk looking for a *******, I wont be answering that phone.
Best thing I can do is leave you too.

Best wishes maybe if I let you go, you might find what you were looking for, which coincidentally might be me me the whole time.

... And so, the cycle begins a new,
How shallow I feel not here with you.
Lies I tell myself to sleep at night
Toss and turn, you were my only light.
Here I sow with another.
She tries but yet I still feel smothered.
Empty inside it seems to feel
Every day is a battle that I'm trying to heal.

Sadness when there should be joy,
To the people that try and change who I am and what I believe...
Yes I'm stubborn,
Yes I believe in a god
And I believe in what I believe because I believe it in that way.
Stop pushing on what your way is that works for you and that you think is right.... god gave us free will to choose and think freely in what we think. The bible (to unpopular belief) wasnt written by god or Jesus... but by man interpreted by man from the "words of god" which how could it be that so many religious beliefs are in Christianity...? From all over the world all at once...? A higher power god yes.. but a god in form of a man such as Jesus to prove that there is in fact a god...? If thats the case then what happened to the greek mythology of gods? Wasnt disproved... just "out dated"... back to my original thought process... stop with this ******* "im better then you because iv found god he opened my eyes and what you believe is not even close to gods eye opener"... well truth be told I put my faith and my prayers into one basket... my father. I will selfishly give my self to eternal damnation to make sure my last breath and thought would be " I hope dad is alright" and if my god cant see that act of love for someone other then myself maybe I wasn't ment for eternal paradise... to the friends that will never read this, I say to you, its not a ******* to your face persae but a I respect that you believe is right for you and I understand why you believe it that way... but if you cant respect me or how I think or what I believe... then you have no right to sit and argue the right and wrong with me and  not give me the same respect I gave you for you beliefs when I tell you mine.

That one thing you want,
You can't have.
years go by
nothing's changed,
you Breeze through life
on Talent and luck.
your Luck's run out
and karma is cashing in

Im a ****** with an addiction and its you.
I was sober 2 months 13 days and 11 hours, till you texted. I thought I could take one little night off and be with you for an hour.  I remember why I quit you in the first place, your everything iv ever wanted.

Im selfless when im with you, there is no king and queen with a happy ever after. There is just you with me as your servant. You know my weakness is my heart, much like achilles with his heel. I must start the process all over again because I havent learned to say no to you yet... If only rehab was made for all drugs and vices because I can't quit you babe.

More and more with age
My place where hope thrives
Is a blank book with a stained page
Leaving me helpless, I began to sigh
like a light left on, i start to dim
his feeling has made my outlook grim

Nothing like being ignored
When your bored
And they are out there being adored
Like some social media *****
Take a step out of the light and explore
It's always a battle waging war
Mind racing till it's sore
Screaming aloud to shore
No vocal cords
You won't hear from me no more

Please rest these demons I have swirling in my head, I feel so lost but still connected somehow.

Please tame these beasts, these thoughts, I dont want them any more.

I want to be alone now, I don't want to be with anyone if its gonna feel like im miles away when im holding you tight.

These moments id rather feel nothing at all then this lost emotion, agony, and constant annoyance. I just wanna leave, before I have a chance to begin.

So I hide in this persona, this confident, not caring, dont give a **** party animal. When I walk in, they will all know me by my name, scream it as I walk in the door...

                        **Rosencrantz

We both were hurting.
We both made mistakes out of anger to get the others attention.
We both fell apart.

Im happy most days now, although you still are in my head every waking minute and every unconscious second.

You were confident and I had to have it.
You are enjoyable just to be around.
Im starting to want you in my life just a little bit then not at all.

I miss you and me, us.

The light beams down from the heavens, but they do not shine there grace on me.
Shackled by the mistakes iv made, careless in the dark, so I can be punished with never seeing the light again.
I miss her
I miss what I once was.
I was unfaithful
A lier
A cheater.
Who would dare want a broken man knowing the truth like that.
Im  foolish to think I had any chance, or hope..
Shes too perfect for me, not her beauty, no. Her soul when it touchs mine.
We danced, and sang in the car.
We played in a shopping market.
Kids finally living a happy life smiling and joyfully loving.
Then...
I bow my head, darkness gathers, a grave mistake takes place again and a again.
Now iv told her, I accept my paradise lost.

Insomnia what a cruel mistress you are.
You take me away from my safe haven, sleep, the place I go to get away from it all.
You make me keep living the day as long as you can.

You leave me awake and wanting, hunting my thoughts, running scared to sleep.

Eyes weak and heavy, yet my blood pumps hard, heart beat is quickens, and my legs restless.

Freedom of the pain, a ease into less chaos, and a sweet passing into the night is all I ask.

Thinking about writing a book, anybody want to see me do this? Repost or  share.. The more likes and views the more ill believe its a good idea.

This power she has over me, iv never felt anything like it. Its the best feeling iv ever had, shes magic.
I see her, I light up.
I touch her, I feel like every thing else can compare.
The kiss, kissing her is something no words can describe, incredible.
Her personality and laughter puts me through my day. How have I met someone that makes me feel so much joy in so little time..?  I scare myself due to the feelings she may not share for me. If I fall deep and shes not there with me, what shall I do? Just time to wait it out I guess because shes worth it. The beauty, life, and joy from her when I see her. Iv looked at her eyea when she sees me, I see her light up in the face with pure happiness. She says we should slow down, take things slow and make this last. I just don't know how I can, how to go slow for someone. All iv ever known is lust, the drive for ***. No feelings or caring for someone like I do for her. She makes me, make myself be better, feel better. The happiness I have now with her in my life should bring hope to all others. I just hope I dont get burned and fall too quickly and she leaves...

I picked her out of a crowd full of beautiful flowers, but I picked her.

She was perfect for me, till the day I thought I needed more, wanted more.

Id look at other pretty flowers, even picked a few, but none still matched the beauty, and playful pedal dance as my wildflower.

Now that iv set her down she has found another's eyes to take in all her beauty...

This is what you get when you think the flowers are better on the other side of the fence.

Im sorry it's too late to apologize my wildflower, lilly.

My temple for where I warship her.
Her beauty.
My goddess.
Years I have slaved away to build her up to what she is.
Only to stand there as a memory in stone.
Her hips to her lips perfection in the finest term.
Oh how I'm lost without your grace.
Goddess come back to me so I can worship once more.

I layed next to her, looking in her eyes, I knew I loved her with a love that was more then love.  
A bond, something even a blind man could see. The fire and passion we have for one another.
Too bad life is hard and being scared of what you feel, scared to dangle on that tight rope of love, thinking more about falling than getting to the other side...

I cant sleep, I see her in my dreams, and its hard to wake up from perfection.
All her insecurities and flaws make me love her that much more.

I dont go out, to see her happy with another would rip a hole in my soul, far worse then any hole in the heart.
But if she was with another, he must make her smile, it will bring joy to the world, he must make her laugh for it will surely cure sadness, and he must make her happy, for its the least he can do for me.

She was the light in my future.
She was the wall that held the tsunami that crashes in my mind at bay.
She was a dance at 9 in the afternoon.
She was the song at the end of a hard day.
She was a beginning to me.

She is now gone....

Now I have hope.
Now I dont need a wall.
Now there is no storm in my mind.
Now I dance and sing all day.
Now we have a life, not just a beginning.

But she was my everything, and I had to have you, to show me what everything could be.

I cant stop loving you,
Loving you is the closest thing I come to,  seeing happiness.
The way you smile at me then play it coy like I don't notice your joy.

I pray to love you longer,
even if you dont feel the same,
at least I can say I love something more then myself and mean it.

Someday im gonna change,
Someday will be the day im free
Someday will be when im needed
Someday im gonna die your gonna die
Someday ill feel alive be today it isnt me
Someday you will want me for me
Someday just isnt here fast enough
                  Someday....

I use the rage to fuel my fire
I think about my past desire

Despite my love gone lost
It pains me with such cost

I fuel my fire with images of us
I remember all the pain and mistrust

Despite my pretentious past
The dumb bells in my hands, I grasp.

I workout to my own tune.
I'll leave you behind, like apple left zune.

Iv been there for you
Iv been tough for you
Iv been happiness for you
Iv been caring for you
Iv been you for you, when you couldn't be you.

Iv been everything for you..

But iv also been

Alone
Sad
Depressed
Hurtful
Angry
Watching you hurt yourself, ruin your self crying out for help from everyone but me like I was never there, taken for granted and you couldnt care less.

I just want to love you, but if it isnt right, what can I do?

Do not fall in love with a woman who loves the same music you do, because when she leaves, music is all you have left, then even your passion for music, begins to betray you.

She is but a lonely spellCaster
love sewn in her Linens
to touch is to fall in love.
With luscious silk
draped down her smooth curved body,
her hair fell like gentle rain on her robe.
I can feel the poison
coursing through my body
love has its grip on me.
A knight, turned a feeble old man
Wise to loves touch,
Yet never learns his lession,
for the Sorceress gets what she wants.
As my persistence dies trying to fight
so does her enjoyment
Making me jump through hoops
to get her to notice me..
and I'm released from her vicious spell.
I'm  left with nothing but emptiness and shame
for my love still lingers
for the treacherous spellcaster...