I’m proud of myself
I was genuine and authentic
I felt myself grow
And become
The person I wish to be
In my soul.

I reach
For my dreams
I create the seams
That thread
The separate pieces
Together.

Melting into the surreal warmth,
Lulling me to sleep,
Cozy like a blanket,
Soft as a sheep,

My eyes grow heavy,
They trip and fumble,
I must collect my bearings before I take a tumble,

My body is ready,
Take me to sleep,
C’mon sandman,
Give me that dream.

Floating on air,
Without a care,
The universe engulfs me,

Feeling so light,
Ready to take flight,
Escape this plight,
Be free!,
With all my might,

To awaken my emotions,
And amuse my senses,
To get lost in time,
A private oasis,

With its sea of people,
And rainbow landscape,
Of colors, textures, smells, and sounds,

No long faces,
No races, class, or spaces,
For hate,
Just love and kindness to re hydrate,
My soul and heart,
From this massive heartache.

Bring me to new elevations,
Satiate my temptations,
Openly penetrate them,
Fulfill me until elation,

Pilot my *****,
Fill up my ******,
Let’s ride out the turbulence,
On your lap,

If I’m not quiet,
You can give me a slap,
Hush me daddy,
Feed me a snack.

Feeling the rhyme build up in my chest,
Ready to erupt and take the next step,
To blow you all away with my phaser-like cannons of joy,
That will infect your very being and shake you to the core,

Where logic and emotion crossover in time,
To wrap you in a positive state of mind,
Caress your cheek and mend your heart,
Tender loving care,
A secret art.

01♡04♡20

Corona,
Tears of la llorona,
Her tears never stop,
Like her ambition and persona,

She feels her feels,
Full body and heart,
So much at times,
It rips her apart,

But she don’t need no seamstress,
She’s proud of her tears,
They represent life, love, and what’s real,

Where’s the pause button?,
To divvy up the pain,
Of being alive,
And feeling insane,

Why does every moment feel like she’s wired?,

Electric, hectic, full of fire,
Emotion as dense as the ocean,
Drowning in free-flow motion,
Fighting the odds, current, and notion,

When will it stop?,
She asks as she drops,

Pleading for that secret potion,
To calm her soul,
And prevent mental explosion,

Llorona, llorona,
She quietly smiles,
Though but intense,
She knows that’s why life’s worthwhile.

Virus times,
Corona sans the limes,
Isolating the world,
1 day at a time,

The world comes together,
Making changes for the better,
Uniting resources,
To change the odds,
And make it level,

Mother nature,
Heals from the hurt,
Her humans gave her,
And rejoices as we unite in solidarity,
Yet remain apart,

Social distancing becoming an art,
As we learn to have heart,

We as a people,
Are strong and worthy,
Let’s show this virus wrong,
And that we’re tough and sturdy,

Be honest,
But don’t be a ****,
Take at face value,
Trust without judgement,

In times that test us,
Please wash your hands,
Stay home,
Be safe holds up ******,

The future is ours!
Let’s bring it together,
It’s time to build a new world,
Stronger than ever.

Tingling,
Warmth,
Ascending from below,
Bursting like a facehugger,
Erupting from my soul,

It’s a slow release,
Moistening lips and fingertips,
This new found euphoria,
State of bliss,

My insides glow
and I feel it show,
Illuminating from within,
Swimming with endorphins,

From the unlocked chest,
Of joyness,
Wriggling and ogling,
All within my body.

Feel what you feel,
Be proud and bold,
You’re alive today,
Your story is ready to unfold,

Choose your adventure,
Friendships and foes,
It’s your choice,
To do the best with what you’ve got,
Whether accompanied or alone,

Trust your instinct,
Trust yourself,
You know better than anyone else,
Who you are within,

If you feel lost,
Look inside (yourself),
You have all the answers,
Even if they hide,

In the darkest forests of your mind,
And deepest chambers of your heart,
You have magic within,
You are a piece of art.

Silence so loud,
It taunts my brain,
Eerie emptiness,
Calling my name,

Sinking into horror,
I lose my breathe,
Uneasy darkness,
Seeping through my chest,

Panic,
Turmoil,
Unending hurry,
Morph and transition,
From scene to scene,
In my private movie,

Staggering emotions,
Intangible,
Yet absolute,
Physical manifestations,
Coursing through,

Creepy creations,
My unconscious enchants,
Oppress reality,
And rationalness,

Pulse accelerating,
Sobbing for air,
Let me go from this madness,
Feed me fresh air.

My heart screams at the injustice,
Thrashes and burns,
The doors to my mind to the ground,
To break the wall,

Ignorance engulf me,
Take me back to the unknown,
Before knowledge became pain,
And the world felt whole,

Beam me up into the night,
Into the nothingness of space,
To drift along the constellations,
That revolve around your face,

My insides heave and spasm,
As I pine in the vacuum of space,
To know of such wonder,
And live without it every day.

Today I am filled with rage,
Flame on high,
Censored ******* to the sky,

Primal takeover,
Words cease to exist,
As I release the flame from my fist,

Uneasy noise,
No easy choice,
As I strangle the beast with kindness and love.

Who am I?
What am I?
Why am I here?
To grace this earth,

My existence feels useless,
Hang my head in the noose,

I am everything and nothing,
All at once yet not at all,
I teeter on the brink of madness,
Waiting to witness my fall,

I am a waterfall of sorrow,
Endlessly flowing,
Through my blood,
Sweat,
Tears,
and *****,

Recycling emotions,
In this vessel,
Hollow with feeling,

Feeling alone,
Yet alone I am not,

Universe embrace me,
Place me in your thoughts.

Burn me alive,
End it all now,

I’m tired of the world,
I want to crawl back into my shell,

Of ignorance and bliss,
Before feeling overcame everything,
And my mind could manage and stall,

The unending dread,
The unending pain,
That recycles through my body,
And mental membrane,

Temporary relief,
Doesn’t last long,
Seeping into my bones,
Polluting my core,

Essence,
Lack of presence,
Take me away,
Bury me down low,

Erase me from existence,
Free from my soul.

Tie my laces,
Anchor me now,
Release the tide of emotion,
It’s ready for the crowd,

Electricity pulses in my chest,
Jolts through my limbs,
And sparks at my finger tips,

Connected to the earth,
I’m grounded,
I’m strong,

My stride will leave lightning,
Powerful and long,

My decisions quick,
Agile, steady,

Ready to dip, dive,
Juke, swerve,
Hop & leap,
Through that hole,
I'm ready,

Ready to be a brace,
For my family,
Jam or be a ****,
To achieve our goal,

Together as one we skate,
Into the unknown future we go.

A sparkle,
A pump,
A few more sparkles in tow,

Spark the movement,
Of feeling, power, and hope,

The current powers up,
With courage and perseverance,

Her soul lights up,
Hot ****, she’s beaming,

She opens up to her demons,
Sits tight,
Starts breathing,

Embraces the universe,
Her world,
Reason,

Exhale,
The pain and the hurt,
Inhale,
Good fortune, pure love, and your worth,

Pay attention to the universe,
It’s listening to you,

Melt into its warmth,
While it whispers,

You matter,
It’s true.

I’m thinking in paintings & graphic novels,
Ink flowing through my veins,
Brimming to the top with genres,

Spitting words,
With devilish curves,

As I twirl,
My wrists through arcs,
And sagas,
Open the pages with,
Adventures,
Full of romance and science,

Weave you through webs of emotion,
That make you feel, see, and hear,
Reality erosion,
As you weep, grieve, and cheer,

Then lull you to sleep,
In my cradle of feeling,
Secure and heard,
Healing,

Feel my magic,
Through my art,
Warm your insides,
With my heart.

Sappy and happy,
My insides glow with emotion,

No flames on hold,
Roaring, soaring,
Competing,
With the Texas heat,

Temperatures rise,
Hearts accelerate,
Start to pound,

Palms sweat,
Pants wet,
Mouth dry,

Animal instinct,
Takeover,
As we collide,

In another dimension,
Of passion,
And prose,

That satiate our senses,
Down to our toes.

My tongue trips when you’re near,
My chest tightens when you sigh,
You hold my heart in your hands,
As we tip toe this fine line,

Of passion and friendship,
Venturing through life,
Close and afar,
Separate but one,

I long to tangle my fingers in your hair,
As we coexist with time,
At our most relaxed point,
Sense of self left outside,

To caress your face,
With a kiss,
Full of care,
Innocence,

To entwine our fingers,
Through our arts,
Encourage,
Lift up,

Spread our wings,
Thrive,
Through the pain and the hurt,

Feel confident,
One is blessed,
And not cursed,

For you are so,
Full of love,
Full of worth.

I’m a hopeless romantic,
Destined for pain,
My mind wanders,
And soul searches every plane,

For a love so true,
So pure,
And whole,

That engulfs my body,
Mind,
And soul.

I want to start a new movement,
With feeling,
That fills you with purpose,
While you read it,

I want to roll through through the world,
Fearless,
Headstrong,
Confident I make a difference,
Not afraid to take a fall,

To take a stand for justice,
Speak my heart freely,
Give my soul reason,
Manifest freedom,

To ***** my words on a page,
That’ll leave you in a daze,
Of complex emotions,
An emotional maze,

To make you feel,
Displace the hurt,
Give you comfort,
Prove your worth.

Knowledge is power,
Knowledge is pain,
That seeps through the heart,
And taints the brain,

Why do I want to be in pain?
Why do I crave what is insane?
A love, a feeling,
A touch, meaning,

That lights me on fire,
Passion with depth,
That melds with my mind,
Longs to connect,

Intertwine,
With my soul,
In a way so real,
Our bodies let go,

Of the stress and the tension,
Pain in suspension,
Knowledge intervention.

Feeling the embrace of denial,
Coursing through my veins,
Worse than poison,
Choking out my pain,

Growing grotesquely,
Losing control,
These powerful palpitations,
Are starting to consume me whole,

Zapped into the darkness,
My limbs feel the tug,
As my intoxicated emotions,
Tear them off one by one,

As I burst,
I am transported in a blink,
Back to the waiting cell,
My mind constructed for me.

Sweet like candy,
But not brittle,
I was born resilient,
Emotional intelligence brilliant,

My DNA is exotic,
I’m no ordinary plant,
I’m of the nuclear variety,
Atomic,

I’ll break out the beats,
And shift your plates,
As I burst into tecktoniks,
And make your earth quake,

With my deviant thoughts,
And perspective that’s radical,
To uproot the past,
And fill it with something magical.

It'll flow when it flows,
Like a babbling brook,
Giggling through meadows,
Of creativity,
And mental banks,
Full of books,

Stimulation,
Free from frustration,
Exaltation,
Intoxication,

Full of life,
Full of love,

To nurture your being,
Cuddle your feelings,
Revive,
Your sense of meaning.

Bewildering silence,
Words without violence,
Rage on hold,
As I close my eyelids,

Let go of attachment,
Let go of the pain,
You are unbreakable,
Don’t listen to your brain,

You are the symphony of understanding,
The audience of your dreams,
That makes you feel heard,
Fulfills your every need,

You are the embrace you seek,
The match to light your fire,
Passionate comfort,
Available at every hour,

You are resilient,
You are strong,
Flowers bloom in your footsteps,
After every setback,
Every fall,

Delve into your Universe,
Shower in your love,
For you are more than enough,
You are divinely whole.

You bloom in adversity,
Feeling life at its fullest,
Solving problems left and right,
Mindset sharper than bullets,

Persistent at every task,
Unafraid to show fear or cover it with a mask,
Using brute honesty to prevail,
Conquering darkness,
Healing ails,

Planting seeds,
To a brighter future,
Dissipating gloom & despair,
Releasing the fragrance of hope,
To grace our air,

Shine with the sun,
Absorb its power,
Grow,
Become one with the Universe,
Flow, you beautiful flower.

I've been gone,
Focusing on my goals,
Savoring every minute,
In the present,
Being whole,

Disconnecting from distractions,
Discovering new attractions,
That move me to the next level,
That make me feel confident,

I am stronger than the devil,
Or anyone who cares to defy me,
For I am the light,
That burns so bright,
To educate and revive thee,

From the pain,
Of the mundane,
Lack of wonder,
Abysmal plane,

That is life,
Without dreams,
Art,
Inspiration,
Plight,
Accommodation.

I have a self built barrier to hate
I am full of love
That arbitrates
Fairness in the highest fashion
Self love
Compassion

I write to calm my nerves
I write to bring me back to her
The Divine Feminine
Energy
Embedded in every cell
Of my Aries body
Bringing balance
A high beam
Of pure love
And synergy
To bring the world forth
To its eternal dream

It vibrates loud
Elegant
Flows like words
That are benevolent
Makes me high
Happy
Alive
Sappy

Taking a chance to roll the die,
Hoping to land a critical strike,
On your heart,

I’ll be by your side,
Singing you songs about the feelings I can’t hide,
I’ll be your bard,
In disguise,

My turns next,
And I can’t wait,
To see if the die brings us any closer to our first date,

You’re as wonderful as they come,
No DM can deny it,
The way you light up the room,
With your dancing lights,
That you cast from behind your eyelids,

Let’s get a pint,
And start to unwind,
As I tell you the tales,
Of how you stole this heart o’ mine.

I have finally broke free from the shackles
Of limits
That kept me stagnant
Immobile
Unpleasant

Now I soar high
In the sky
Thriving
Living my best life
Reviving

The lust for life
Vibing

Educational hangover
You rewrote my internal story
Switched around the dialogue
Kept my life anything but boring

Educational hangover
You got me drunk on knowledge
Faded on grades
Homework stacked
Books for days

Sway like the wind
Contract your core
Feel it harden
Let out your roar

As you release with intention
Lay her out flat
Juke
With determination
Make the blockers curse
Cause they lost track

Nickel and dime
My currency
As I make
My way back around
Securing our victory
As the venue fills with joyous sound

I am Aries
Bold, Strong, Free
Like the wind
Constantly dreaming
Scheming up a plan
To nurture a better nature
All across the land
With the warmth of my heart
And passion on the rise
That burns
To make you feel alive

Attacking life in my own way
Embracing new ideas
Sculpting words out of clay
Removing the needle from the hay
Trusting the universe
To listen to what I have to say

Sitting with my sadness ✨
While I’m sitting here with you ✨
Not running from the madness
Just feeling here and true ✨

No distractions to stop me ✨
From confronting my truths✨
Accepting what they are✨
Making peace ✨
Moving through✨

To the dimension of inner healing✨
Unity ✨
Love ✨
Reconnecting to the Divine Universal Web ✨
That is the cosmos above ✨

The power of play 🧸✨
Is more than just a mechanism to keep the blues away 😔✨
It is the catalyst 🔥✨
To self exploration 🌈✨
Learning what I like and don’t like 👍✨
Coming to terms with feelings 💧✨
Minimizing future frustrations 👹✨
Acquiring knowledge with meaning 📚✨

Beautiful 🏝
Green 🌱✨
Vibrant 🦋✨
Mother Earth 🌎✨
You lift up my soul 🎈✨

You fill me with wonder 💭✨
Inner peace ✌️✨
Tranquility 🍃✨
More value 💰✨
Than any amount of gold 🏅✨

Feeling the intensity rise 🔥✨
As the feeling of success sinks in 🎉✨
Fueling my drive 🚗✨
To go above and beyond 🪐✨
Understand the Divine 🍃✨
Fill my days with purpose 💖✨
Until I cross the finish line 🏅✨

Make the best of this moment 🎈✨
Or eject it 🙅‍♀️✨
From your mind 🧠✨
With the hectic 💥✨
Ordeal of society 👫✨
That brain washes and belittles 🤖✨
The ones pure of heart ❤️✨
Who care 🤗✨
Who stand up ✊✨
For what’s just and fair ⚖️✨
That see through the fake
And nonsensical ways 🙈✨
Of the fearful and envious 👺✨
Whose moral compass is in a haze 🧭✨
From the corruption and influence 💰✨
Of the wicked 🦹✨
Who have made it clear they’re here to stay.💖✨

Thoughts and feelings,
Fighting so hard amongst each other for my attention,
Feelings and thoughts,
Bouncing endlessly through my body lusting for my affection,

My thoughts combust,
And join the fray,
Spreading like wildfire,
Leaving me in haze.

Desperate for affection,
Wanting your connection,
Oh how strong I feel for thee,

Melting,
Feeling gooey,
My insides defrost from the cold,
Wicked world,
That hurt it so,

Serotonin release,
A pulse,
A care,
Drowning in warmth,
Gasping for air,

Waves of emotion,
Pull me under,
A sea of love,
Life, commotion,

An entity of its own,
Above me,
I surrender to it's power,
Give into the unknown,
Trust,
Watch the future flower.

One day ☝️✨
It’ll flow endlessly like a fountain 🌈✨
My words, my thoughts 📖💭✨
Ideas, fashion 💡👗✨
Personal culture on fleek 💅✨
Timeless ⏰✨
Passion 🔥✨

Literal anticipation 📖✨
****** frustration 🌶✨
To ignite 🔥✨
The ultimate sensation 🌈✨

For anyone and everyone ✨
Who has felt or feels lost and alone ✨
May you find the comforting embrace you’ve longed for ✨
A new home in my words ✨

I put my ideas in places no one would ever look
I hide them well
Marinate them
Until I’m shook
With words like laughter
That erupt
From the joy
Of frolicking
Through the pastures
Of love and light
That spread like wildfire
Day and night

Absorb the sun
Recharge your systems
Feel the warm hug
Dissolve into your skin
And warm you from the inside out
Bursting through your pores
You are sunshine