it's ok

it's ok Jul 2014

It's not the way the problem is caused,
But rather who caused it
It's not the subject of the problem,
But if you're willing to overlook it depending
"Friend or foe" till you find a finite fiend smiling
May your conflictions rest, and leave yourself to figure out

Is the person you love, still the person you love?
or are you in love with the memories and a shell
of someone you once loved
*Is goodbye a little closer, now?

#not #friend #the #its #but #way #is #problem #rather #caused

it's ok Jul 2014

Always sad never sober

nights like these the stars and fireflies look all the same
and my days become my dreams
well I learned where to go, but never where to stand
and I can't take a break from the world's weight leaning on me
because I am barely crawling through this life
but that's not the way this should be spent

No one would bother to read between the lines
I am and I was always be washed up
can't speak the way I never have
and I can only think to think less about my words
speaking with a heavy heart to throw away the sun

we learned what love is, but never how to feel it
and some people will never know

#stars #the #and #like #fireflies #all #nights #look #these

it's ok Jun 2014

I'mSorry/I'mSorry/I'm sorry.

The words that were never said
Could have brought so much joy,
if I hadn't forgotten how to say them

and I feel like I'm on a roller coaster
that scares you and you can't get off
no matter how much you yell at the carney

realization sets in that I'm wasting away,
and I'll fall apart

I didn't mean to complain about this town,
or my friends
I just couldn't see with such selfish eyes

I figured if I tried hard enough,
the world would be handed to me.

Never ever did I think I'd be trying to remember
all the names of the people I've kissed

all this time spent trying to help everyone and myself
i'm going insane
I don't want to disappoint anyone,
but I let the sadness eat me alive
and I can't go outside without feeling like
the sky is mocking me with its constant brightness and darks

I don't know who I am,
but someone useless

it's ok Jun 2014

new words{i've seen brighter}

the days neglect to tell me how
I already know they won't wait for me
It's sad to think that for so many people,
happiness is not calling their name,
with the most alluring voice.
you thought about crawling on spikes
to distract yourself from the second sober fate
because you don't know how to cope,

as the sun shine glistens through your window,
you control your greed with paid freedom
as you read about happiness,
you're screaming you want to be free

there's a world outside that hardly waits anymore
we have to keep going, no matter how messy it is
well, you've been looking for a cure,
and I'm confident to say
if you suffer cheap sadness,
you will love the consequences

you are not a wreck to be proof

you are a person, uncomparable to objects

you are not to be fixed

and you are fine the way you are,
please realize this

i couldn't

#days #neglect #i #the #me #tell #to #know #how #already

it's ok Jun 2014

careful

Speak to me like you're plotting everything,
Because to you, a few drinks might shed some skin
And if you stick some words to my skin,
you think charm will addict me to you,

please realize who is in control here,
because never ever will I have someone
deceive me as horribly as you're doing

it's ok May 2014

into/your/mind

simple enough
If I wanted to, I could
I could dissect every word
you ever said
Take off the fabric that surrounds--
I would never, I told you,

I want to taste your skin,
after it's been hung on the clothespin
in the sun too long
If you heard this, you'd take it the wrong way

you want to taste me
because that little kiss,
you knew what you were doing
and now your hands know every inch of me

so ******* now

#kiss #word #want #sun #in #of #hands #wrong #if #i #the #and #what #this #**** #too #could #you #me #on #skin #it #its #to #never #way #now #know #simple #so #were #that #enough #knew #ever #long #would #take #off #little #wanted #taste #every #told #your #because #said #been #heard #fabric #after #youd #doing #hung #inch #dissect #surrounds- #clothespin

it's ok May 2014

bird in a cage

rib cages will engulf your heart
and shred it when it falls apart
until your lungs collapse
and you just can't sing anymore