ok okay: Poems

264 · Nov 2018

ok okay Nov 2018

Beam from above illuminates my body
Drink till i'm numb and let go of my worries
Dance in the spotlight
Escape once it is dawn
Hide in the shadows
Wait for the moon to return

#moon #moonlight #escape #hide #worry #drink

263 · Oct 2018

Sitting on the Edge of Reality

ok okay Oct 2018

Sitting on the Edge of Reality

Sitting on the edge of reality
I sip my cup of tea
And observe humanity

#reality #life #humanity #chill

263 · Feb 2019

Let Me Die

ok okay Feb 2019

Let Me Die

I want to be saved from living
Death will take an instant
But living will take a lifetime

feeling low

#death #life #feeling #low

261 · Feb 2019

Losing my Mind

ok okay Feb 2019

Losing my Mind

My mind is escaping me
Leaving me hollow from the inside out
Emptiness becomes a part of me
As I blank out and watch the clock hit twelve

anyone ever get this? just blank out for hours like nothing matters at all

#mind #lost #hollow #empty

260 · Nov 2023

Nightmare

ok okay Nov 2023

Nightmare

Every dream is a nightmare when you must wake up

257 · Jan 2022

They Tell Me Things

ok okay Jan 2022

They Tell Me Things

I write about sadness
They ask me what for?
I see the madness
They tell me my flaws
I fell into infinity
My mind can only explore
I feel insanity
They can only ignore

yup

256 · Aug 2019

Everything Collapses

ok okay Aug 2019

Everything Collapses

Each day someone collapses
And becomes one with their shadow
Everything collapses in time
Buildings
Societies
People
One day the Earth will collapse too

#life #shadow

255 · Mar 2019

Apathetic Boy

ok okay Mar 2019

Apathetic Boy

Apathetic boy
Did you take your joy?
All the other good kids did
Now they're laughing at the wall

(Joy is the drug from a game called 'We Happy Few')
Took the idea from a game called 'We Happy Few' never played it but the idea was that the world was ****** beyond fixing and everyone took pills to feel happy

#apathetic

255 · May 2019

Loop

ok okay May 2019

Loop

I drew loops in my mind
And followed them in to the inevitable

If you say there is only one outcome, you are gonna believe it

#loop #mind #inevitable

254 · Apr 2019

Poetry

ok okay Apr 2019

Poetry

The moon is bright tonight
Stars are displayed far in the sky
The air is crisp
And the wind is gentle
Yet no metaphors appear in my mind

The moon is just a moon
The stars are just stars
The air is just air
And the wind is just wind
Words are just words and nothing more

I feel indifferent tonight
I don't know what it is
Maybe I'll just write down some words
And call it poetry

#poetry #moon #stars #metaphor #words #fake

253 · May 2021

Untitled

ok okay May 2021

Untitled

And when she awoke
My eyes met her smile
Surprised to see mine
She succumbed to the nightfall

250 · Jun 2019

Save my Problems for Later

ok okay Jun 2019

Save my Problems for Later

"Save my problems for later"
I thought to myself
Little did I know that 'later' would come so soon

!!!

#problems #thought #f

249 · May 2019

How to Make a Void of nothingness

ok okay May 2019

How to Make a Void of nothingness

1) Mix apathy and emptiness
2) Sive out the happiness
3) Dilute pain and sadness

To make a void of nothingness

#apathy #emptiness #pain #sadness #nothingness

248 · May 2022

Untitled

ok okay May 2022

Untitled

All these faces come and go

244 · Jan 2023

Perilous Gleam

ok okay Jan 2023

Perilous Gleam

Those perilous gleaming eyes
Left me stranded staring back
As if I were soon to drift away
In a dream where we lay hand in hand

243 · May 2022

Untitled

ok okay May 2022

Untitled

Words mean nothing when they are hidden away
They are just thoughts on paper left to decay

242 · Dec 2019

I Wish It Were So Simple

ok okay Dec 2019

I Wish It Were So Simple

I wish it were so simple
Rain could fall forever
Daydreams could become reality
Love would seem so clever
Fear would become a distant thought
My mind would stop its chatter
Flowers would bloom
Life would flourish

Sadly time will never falter

#life #dream #love

242 · Jun 2019

Her Only Fault

ok okay Jun 2019

Her Only Fault

Her only fault
Was that she couldn't land a tennis serve

just thought about this randomly, i dont even play tennis anymore. (when you miss a tennis serve, its called a fault)

#fault #problem

241 · Mar 2019

Life is My Prison

ok okay Mar 2019

Life is My Prison

Nightmares of life
Dreams of death
Life is my prison
I will be released in death
Feelings of nothing
Mind lost in a storm
Waiting for my acceptance into the void

#life #trapped #nightmare #dream

237 · Jun 11

Untitled

ok okay Jun 11

Untitled

I saw her looking out the window
Searching for brighter days
It would be all so easy if it all just went away
The clouds have been complacent
They can not seem to decide
To rain or shine
Or to waste away in time

236 · Jul 2022

Untitled

ok okay Jul 2022

Untitled

This cold is so numbing
It makes the pain go away
My mind feels it endlessly
Makes me wonder what it all means
Everything feels empty without the touch of your lips
Is life worth living if I'm a walking abyss
It gets better
I tell myself
It will get better day by day
But sometimes I wonder
What If I make it all go away

236 · Apr 2021

Barely Alive

ok okay Apr 2021

Barely Alive

It's funny how fast you think life goes
Until you realise how slow it really is
So much time of ours is wasted
Life expectancies should be changed
Not for how many years we were alive
But for how many we spent actually living them
I spend so many days feeling that I am not alive
Maybe that would make my life expectancy low
I don't fear death
I fear living
Because in time everything will go

#life #death

236 · Dec 2019

Eyes to Oblivion

ok okay Dec 2019

Eyes to Oblivion

Eyes to oblivion
The pain will always fade
Mind will go away for a while
And come again when it rains
Dreams will never feel the same
They will bore as much as life
Inspiration will expire
You will not desire
Life will never feel the same

Some things can change your whole outlook on life. Little or small. One thing or multiple things. They can all make you feel numb. Writing helps break this barrier.

#eyes #oblivion #pain #dream

235 · Aug 2022

Untitled

ok okay Aug 2022

Untitled

Sacred lands
Long fields of green
The lure of this garden
Could only appear in a dream

232 · Oct 2023

Untitled

ok okay Oct 2023

Untitled

There's no one on the other line
Just an empty voice
Lost in space and time

231 · Apr 2019

White Roses

ok okay Apr 2019

White Roses

You picked white roses from the depths of my dreams

#roses #flower #dream

230 · Sep 2018

Darkness Finds Us All

ok okay Sep 2018

Darkness Finds Us All

Hide away your tears
Smile for the camera
Become a cliche
You won't be remembered
Pretend you are happy
Forget you are sad
Fall into love
And never escape
Leave hope for the darkness
So you feel safe
Time will go on without you

#time #love #life #darkness #cliche #happiness #crying

228 · Jan 2021

Miscellaneous Man

ok okay Jan 2021

Miscellaneous Man

Miscellaneous thoughts
They never make sense
They lie and take over
And never resist
I'm scared that one day
I wont be dead or alive
Instead
My mind will be forsaken
Like a dream lost in time

#fear #mind

226 · Dec 2023

Untitled

ok okay Dec 2023

Untitled

Timeless
It seems
I get lost in my dreams

225 · May 2021

Entry

ok okay May 2021

Entry

These are my words
This is an entry into my mind

#poetry #writing #mind

225 · Sep 2021

Untitled

ok okay Sep 2021

Untitled

If some questions can not be answered
Why do we choose to ask them?

224 · Jan 4

Numb

ok okay Jan 4

Numb

She had crashed
And stumbled into a cave
Escaping the straining sun
She wept for what was no more
And what was yet to come
Her angel wings were gone with the wind
Her voice was sorely lost

Hollow were her eyes
When she decided
I am truly numb

221 · Apr 2019

Apathy or Happiness

ok okay Apr 2019

Apathy or Happiness

Happiness is the cure to apathy
Or is it the other way around?

:) :l :) :l cycle continues

#apathy #happiness #life

221 · May 2019

Angels

ok okay May 2019

Angels

Do you think there are angels in hell?

221 · Oct 2022

Time to Sleep

ok okay Oct 2022

Time to Sleep

Sometimes I do not want to sleep
Because then the dreams will come
Then maybe in those dreams, I could get lost
And never escape...

The shadows have long departed
Clouds obscure the night sky
There is not one star in sight
What a great night it is
To be daydreaming inside
I can only imagine what I could be
I could be beautiful
Or I could be nothing
These words may let me see
If only I could write me back to life
I could write forever
No distractions or illusions
I can finally be me

218 · Dec 2018

Death is True Beauty

ok okay Dec 2018

Death is True Beauty

Life isn't beautiful
Its insufferable
Tedious and dull
Each moment resembles hell
Through constant anguish and pain
We construct an ideal of what we think is sane
And pretend that everything will be okay

Death is true beauty
Its the ultimate escape
When the final light is turned off
Your mind falls into an abyss
You can sleep eternally
And be forgotten like the rest

We long for freedom that transcends the confines of our mind

#life #death #beauty #sad #pain #sanity

213 · May 2021

Change

ok okay May 2021

Change

I know it's hard now
It has been for a while
It seems life will always be the same
In a way that is true
Some things never change
Although, throughout
Seconds
Days
And years
Change is occuring all the time
Sadness won't be in your heart forever
Our emotions change like the seasons
Some days it is unbearably cold
And other days it feels warm enough to bloom
But just know when you think your feeling nothing
I'll be feeling everything for you

#change #life #love #relationship

209 · Dec 2023

What We Could Be

ok okay Dec 2023

What We Could Be

There is one light in my room
Surrounded by darkness
But within that light lies a beautiful voice
Which is entangled in kindness
When she speaks
My heart follows
It makes me feel glee
I love to talk to you
And think about what we could be

May 2020 --These were all archived and I forgot about them. I quite liked a few.

208 · May 2021

We Should Fly Away

ok okay May 2021

We Should Fly Away

We should fly away
Let's go to the stars
There is nothingness there
Only the few bright lights
In the infinite dark
Our dreams can last forever
Death will seem so far away
Our wings wont freeze
As long as we don't leave
We should fly away tonight

#love #life #dream

208 · Jul 2019

Lost For Words

ok okay Jul 2019

Lost For Words

She can be spotted half a mile away
Black clothes stand out on a sunny day
Smiles form and bad thoughts fade
Each breath she takes
Takes my breath away
I am lost for words
There is not much to say
Yet I still wish I could relive this day

Maybe I am too awkward to be a lover
It would be so easy to find another
I can only express myself in ink
But I hope this still gives you a chance to think about it

i wna give this to the girl i like but like anxiety !!!

#lost #thoughts #breath #awkward #love

208 · Dec 2023

Moving On

ok okay Dec 2023

Moving On

He could not see the sinful sun
The moon had stole his heart
Dreaming of another day
Where time had fell apart
A land of love and a tender touch
It would not forever last
These dreams are nightmares
You must wake up
You must accept the past

207 · Dec 2019

Life is Hard

ok okay Dec 2019

Life is Hard

It is hard
The days
They number on
Life feels long
Until the years number on
And then you wonder
'Where has the time gone?'
Soon ten will be gone
And then another
Or maybe not
It might be all over before you know it

Until then I will write and wonder
Cry and suffer
And in time
I will learn how to be happy

#life

206 · Sep 2018

I Should Have Said Hello

ok okay Sep 2018

I Should Have Said Hello

I should have said hello
But you said 'NO' in my dreams
I guess I'll just imagine what we could have been

........................................................................................................ Im so awkward ****

#dream #imagination #mistake

206 · Aug 2019

Numb

ok okay Aug 2019

Numb

She cut onions
As her wrists bled deep
Because the tears only came in her dreams

Just a thought

#numb #cutting

205 · Aug 2020

When Clouds Cry

ok okay Aug 2020

When Clouds Cry

Sometimes I just want to cry
For no other reason than the clouds in the sky

#cloud #tear

204 · Sep 2019

Pitter Patter

ok okay Sep 2019

Pitter Patter

Pitter patter
Nothing matters
Each raindrop sounds the same
Pitter patter
You will not remember
In time everything will fade

rain rain don't go away, i wna sleep.

#rain #life #time

204 · May 2019

Changed my Mind

ok okay May 2019

Changed my Mind

All this time I was wrong
My mind isn't lost
It just has never been found

Changed my mind again again again again again i cant stop o.o

#change #mind #life

204 · Dec 2023

Shadows Deceive

ok okay Dec 2023

Shadows Deceive

I feel it everyday
Looming over
It makes me behave
My shadow is resolute
With the ground I must stay

How I wish I could fly
Leaving this bored broken town
Into the forever fields of lush green
Above the cosey white cotton clouds

My shadow won't leave
It has deceived me this long
I wonder where it will go
On the day I have gone

203 · Nov 2019

Temporary Tears

ok okay Nov 2019

Temporary Tears

It will be okay
These tears are only temporary
This feeling is just a phase
It will not rain forever
You will grow and flourish
Become someones lover
And become something amazing
Or maybe you wont
But you might as well try right?
Life is unfair
But pretending that it will never get better will only make it worse

**** i contradict myself. im ******* sick of living, ****. like what even i cant even keep my focus on anything anymore. I cant finish movies, shows, games, everything seems dull. Life seems like hell. My thoughts only get worse and work against me. They tell me all these things I dont want to hear and I cant accept anything and i get so ******* paranoid about **** which isnt real so i get confused about what things i should worry about and what i shouldnt. Life is a ******* nightmare, why cant we just dream forever.

203 · Apr 2022

Fading Away

ok okay Apr 2022

Fading Away

Mellow like the falling rain
My eyes have become shallow and lost their ways
You see beauty and I see pain
You can find the beauty in my pain
Without you
a tear would mean not a thing
It would just fall like the rain
And imprint on my skin