when you leave, leave me with nothing take the love i gave take the happiness i shared take my broken heart take the memories you shared with me take the hurting feeling take everything that you once gave because when you leave, there's no turning back.
you liked calligraphy so much that you decided to use your lips as your pen and wrote on me through my heart the words i have longed to come from you and my simple reply was a kiss to your lips saying "i love you too."
because even when you left i kept searching for you tried finding solace in another's pair of lips but nothing was ever the same and i knew that heaven wasnt a place on earth but it was a home that i shouldn't have mistaken for a house with you.
she gave me her nudes she was bare and ***** and so out and open and i willingly accepted it because it wasnt the nudes that showed her body the physical aspects that made her beautiful it was the words she didnt choose and the spontaneity that left her either from her lips or her fingers or ink
she was as bare as her nudes and i accepted her for her.
i'm sorry if i have ever caused you pain pain in different circumstances that i've always denied im sorry if i was always a problem and if i wasnt there when you needed me im sorry if i never listened and im sorry if i was as ****** as you always told me and im sorry for being so selfish for forgetting that you also feel that you had your own way of telling that you hurt too im sorry if my sorry isnt enough but to tell you honestly its all i have right now and im just really sorry if i was always never enough.
she was as healthy as a baby when she woke up she was as optimistic as a child as she walked the paths that could be the next thing to death but every time she slept she was as sickly as an old woman suffering from a disease for she sniffed, her eyes puffy wishing that she never woke up once more and it was always the cycle she wasn't the problem the people were but she always thought she was the problem so one night she didnt want to be sick anymore and it was one moment that time had to close his eyes for a sad girl living in a sad world and a knife wasnt always a good combination.
you have hurt this little fragile heart of mine for a thousand times and it was always a problem for me but if the time comes that the thing about problems come dont come running back to me screaming to have me back
because the thing about problems is that it's not always about you
I was taught that the scariest things were hidden in monsters with sharp teeth and colossal claws. These monsters are the ones that tend to **** you or slit your throat when you least expect. They were the type of monsters that lurk in the dark and keeps you up at night. But I was never taught that the scariest things hide in perfect white teeth and grand aura of charm, it was unknown that this monster had flesh and blood running in his veins. This monster was what my mother always told me to stay away from and yet I never listened. I was always told that monsters **** but what they never told me was that the monster would tell me he loves me and hides a different intention in his heart.
No it wasn’t the giving of Each other's things back Neither was it the screaming Of profanities and simply Releasing tension It wasn’t the closure No it didn’t mean the title The title of letting go We didnt have to name it We were simply breaking up We were breaking each other Even though we were still together
you weren't the beat of my heart nor were you the heart you were the momentary pause that my heart makes for the next beat you weren't the calm ****** of the river nor were you the river you were the ripples it made when the wind breezes momentarily that's how caught up you were with the moment how different you were because you always forgot that how easy an event has happened is the same ease that it is forgotten.
see me die tomorrow because i'm nowhere near breathing when i'm next to you you make my heart beat faster than it has always been giving me earthquakes in my mind and just like any other fissure you've broken me and left me open shattered, cracked so see me dead tomorrow because i'm nowhere near seeing you with her anymore.
Nobody wonders when little miss happy bubble didn't talk anymore She was always the talkative, outspoken girl And now she's aloof, silent Little miss happy bubble Had burst her bubble So she barely talks Answers when questioned Never complains, smiles when needed And what was ironic Was that all this Was a scream; A cry for help For somebody to listen For somebody to save her From her insanity But nobody seems to hear that little miss happy bubble Finally popped The words "I want to die."
you said that leaving was for the weakest souls those who cannot be like Atlas carrying the weight of the world on their shoulders you said leaving was something you dont want to do somehting you shouldnt do something you couldnt do that leaving was a bad thing and some people dont deserve it you made leaving sound so bad that when you did it to me you have proven its rightful meaning but what gave me the ache of my heart was that you said you couldnt but you still did.
so now as another year brings me to brand new oppotunities please just please if im happy leave me be keep me away from our toxicity you are my 2017 from the words my heart has spilled from the letters youll never read you filled a year have me wrapped in your little finger and i guess that should be enough for someone like you so please give me another chance to start anew to be with someone thats not you.
i sometimes question my worth am i worth the smile? the time, attention, space, anything at all? because all im asking is little. im not asking for everything just a little bit. but it feels like im not worthy of the hope, want or simply the word together. it makes me feel hopeless that im nothing but a waste of space. i dont want to be here anymore. im done with people leaving im done with being left im tired of being alone im tired of feeling lonely im tired of being me i dont want to get attached i dont want to care anymore because all that caring was giving to me was disappointment, discontentment and above all pain. im tired of that i want to be happy because i want to but theres this omen thats stopping me please leave me but maybe im the one whos grasping for you and youre just always there no matter how much i push you away i want to go home i want to leave its my turn, now.
i took the effort to bring something just for you i risked my mom's scoldings thinking you would be happy with this little gift i had for you but what gave me the pain was that you were long gone nd you're not anymore at home. that i wasn't coming back to anything and that all this time i'm still thinking i'll see you when i come home. so i thought you were still here but then, you were buried feet below.
she said as she closed her eyes and felt the bliss of the coldness the ice cream swirled on her tongue
he looked at her with a serious face just thinking what it would be like if she never came in his life
she opened her eyes and caught him staring and so he smiled and thought of how beautiful she was with the smile she had how she had light up the entire universe that not a star as bright could replace what she possessed
and so she asked, "what are you staring at?" and he replied,"nothing"
and he held her hand and thought how he had his entire world his entire heart and all that he can offer in the palm of her hands
and at that moment even as she rolled her eyes he thought "i am truly in love with all of you."
if youre not happy with me please leave me please tell me that you dont love me anymore please just please end whatever youre trying to pretend the endless gaze of telling me that you still want me or to make me feel that you still see me as the stars of your galaxies stop whatever youre starting stop whatever youve started if youre not happy with me please leave me and let me be happy without you.