In the blooming willow,
Amongst the Safron blaze.
A warrior awaits,
In the peaceful haze.

Sister to some,
Savior to all.
Rider of dragons.

She is the one they betrayed.
She is deemed traitor to them.
when will the truth be revealed?

All my pain and loneliness
scribbled in a paper
hoping that some day
everything will be okay.

Even the air that I breathe
the butterflies that fly around
even the leaves that fall on the ground
I take note of it
because those little things that were barely noticed
fill the void inside of me.

It calms my soul
it’s where I find my rest
Your creation sings a song
that only my heart could hear.

You know that I’m like a child
who marvels at the beauty of Your creation
it’s where I find my hope
to look forward to tomorrow.

I am not alone at all
for You are there
You are everything that I see
and all along
it has always been You,
my Comforter,
my Savior,
my Father,
my Creator.

-a.g.

I don't wanna die yet
but i want to leave this world,really!
with*  *a spark twinkling in their eyes
with a sweetest smile at their lips
with the true happiness on their hearts
with a peaceful thinking of their minds
through my writings that
wrote ups my entire life
together with them distantly

i wouldn't be left  without  even saying
that i am leaving...for i don't wanna be gone
without even enjoying the blessing
beyond the health and wellness of their bodies
without even seeing the prosperity of their lives
without even knowing there is a salvation of their souls
without hearing the forgiveness of their own
as well as my shortcomings

let me live and let die
with or without  music in my ears
with or w/out struggles in my hands
with or w/out a friend who trusted me not
with or w/out a lover who loves me not
cuz i couldn't be seated anymore
with or w/out a reader by YOUR own will
for i should stand up on my own feet
with or w/out somebody by my side
again let me live and let die
by caressing me in Your powerful loving arms
with or w/out my beloved mystery rhyme!

PLEASE LET US STAY by the love and companion
of YOUR BEGOTTEN SON,
AND LET US LIVE AND NOT DIE YET
**within your everlasting covenant

I sit in the pews
And I read your gospel
Of pretty things that you say
Things that make me okay
Things that lift me up
This word of God of sorts
That divides my soul in half
Tearing the black, tar-like mess
That is myself from it and
Condemning the demons within
To Hell where they came from
Leaving behind a clean, pure
White slate that's just waiting
To be filled with your love
The love you blessed me with
The love I don't deserve but
So willingly take because of
The way you say my name
And make me feel whole again
A feeling that seemed so gone
So long gone that I lost my will
And it became a downhill battle
Slowly but sure surely
Burning my demons with the
Light of your love that I am able
To accept and hold strong to
Without your blessings and
Unconditional love that seems
To be unheard of I couldn't have
Overcome what I have overcome
And it's it your Old Testament
That rewrites my New Testament
Saving it from the flames of hell
That devour the voices in my head
The ones that's scream
"You're not good enough"
"You don't deserve him"
"You'll **** the ones you love
Along with yourself
Create distance before it is too
Late for all of you"
"Maybe hurting yourself will give
You the control that you can't find"
You lifted my crucified heart
From its grave that it laid dead
In for much longer than 3 days
And you removed the nails
And saved it from the devil
Known as self hatred
You held my hands in prayer
And through your hands
Flowed love and freedom
From myself that I needed
You made self love an option
And by looking at you
I just know that
*Your smile is my church

Lord,
I have survived years of torment
Self inflicted or not
be my savior
Or let me rot
Cleanse me with your holy water
Or let me drown
Hold me in the warmth of your arms
Or let the poison flow down*

Lord,
Tell me it's alright
When I begin to think not
A part I have fallen each and every night
I can only climb
As far as I can reach
A captivated thought

Lord*,
Hold out your hand
Don't let me drown in defeat
Let the hollow pain I hold onto
Drown and leave