How far have you went?
To say it's enough
How much pain should be felt?
To say your hurt
How many words do you need?
To feel okay
How many time would it take?
To finally free yourself
From settling for less than you deserve
From the pain that you cause yourself
From the words you sugar-coated to ease the pain
From the man who doesn't see you worthy of his everything
I should stop
I should give up
But every time I thought doing so
It leads me back to
How far have I went?
How much pain have I endured?
How many words it took you to give me reasons to live?
How you were the reason for my everything
So I'm still here
By your side
Wondering why
You can't choose me.

This is the kind of the night
where I can see the constellations bright
wishing to see the reflections of their light
directly from your beady eyes

Feeling the light breeze on my ear
pretending that it was you
whispering close to me
knotting the words 'I love you'

Not a single day goes by
without you in my imagination
the thoughts of your smile
resembling sunbeams in the summer

Know that we are looking at the same sky
just without your hand in mine
without your head on my chest
without you is just where I am

I close my eyes, for the million times
feigning that the distance is not real
fabricating the idea of just us
staring and kissing into the end of the night

"I Saw a Monkey"

I saw a magnificent monkey
his name was adam
Creator of the now   like you
we hear stand on top mountains
Look Look   a far away
feet on ground

my life is not yours
it is not yours to
take
      or break
                    or make new
my life belongs to me
it is mine to
keep
         far away
                        from you

Hardly seems real
Staring straight, eyes dilated slightly
Finding that the back of my throat
Is constricting

Unhindered
The light is shining through
Its burning up this trash
That clouds my better judgement
And I'm left choking on fumes

Just one word too far it seems
I just watched you dash my deepest dreams
With a callous disregard reserved
For the ignorant

Now I stand before you here
Stupefied
Everything I once held dear
You've broken in my hands

Left speechless
Motionless
You know I tried to mend every loose end
But there's no coming back from this

Left empty
You trashed my only plan
The words we held onto
Are falling from my grip as the cracks begin to show

The reflection
Of the truth i used to know
You're every little seam that deep inside of me
Kept the rest from showing

We unravel
Even as you start to scream,
traitor to the cause, I guess that's how you see me
Then that's what I have to become

And you don't notice
What we've both become
Nothing we loved changed at all
It's us with wandering hearts
And now we've strayed too far

I won't go on

A game,
Thats how it began.
I never suspected
One with your face
Would come
and ask to play.

Fools,
All of us
Staring unashamed,
Me specially
As I slowed time down
To watch you
Frame by frame.

My eyes kept looking,
My hands were shaking,
"What do I say?"
My heart was yelling.
I pretended I hurt my hand -
My first instict
Was to run away.

I never told you how I felt,
And yet you knew it anyway.
I won't forget the day you came to me,
And told me you felt the same.

I purposefully walked away,
But you chased me,
You made me say
How I felt since that first day,
And now I wish
We had never met.