My emotions and spirit have rotted.
Overflowing into a monochrome world,
where the colors don't exist.
Nothing exist.
Not even love,
smearing a world of lies
Ah...
The demon within my heart undoubtedly will not forgive me

One light has gone
Beautiful soul has drown
Tried to reach out but extremely ignored
Goodbye letter for once and more
No awarness 'till he was really done

You were born with fear of the unknown
Afraid of the dark
Of being alone
You were born with fear
It lit up your eyes
and set your brain on fire
And I wanted to protect you

~

One day that fire was quenched
Your love washed over me
And drowned it out
I stay in the dark
In between your arms
And you protected me
I was born with fear of the unknown
And I lived with the love of you

like an anchor you kept me safe between the ocean waves
like and anchor you held me steady so I wouldn't drift away
like an anchor you chained me down
like an anchor you let me drown

              l.t.

when i’m with him, it’s always summer
careless adventures , absorbing adrenaline from his warmth
our energy pulses as we race through time
the sun refuses to give way to the pearlescent moon
but it eventually takes over to a night ;
another summer night i’m with my love ; but something is different
a cold wind sets in and i feel myself drawn to the lake
it has always been summer with him, but it’s suddenly winter and
a shove sets me tumbling into the ice
which breaks and i fall through -- but the only face i see is his
grinning and waving with the hand
that pushed me

without any delay
i jumped in the water
my lungs were burning,
screaming for oxygen
but I couldn't back out
not until i could pull you out
safely with me
for some time, all I could see
was the infinite gradient blue
of the ocean
i could swim away
but i rather drown with you

Life is a sea of emotions,
But I can't swim.